Stage One: Getting to know her

Okay so I admitted that I…okay okay! I love her! Now I just need to show her that. That sounds easy right? Yeah, it's really not. I'm usually such a jerk to her. I can't go from being a jerk to being a nice guy. I don't even know why I'm such a jerk to her. I can't stand the fact that she's the one girl that I can't have and it's killing me. It's like that movie Cruel Intentions. I want her. Plain and simple. But what I want even more than I want her is that I want her to want me, need me, crave me like I crave her.

So, the question is how do I get her to like me, scratch that love me? No matter how much I love her I'm still the Derek Venturi, and I never lose a bet. This is definitely going to take some thought out planning. I think my first step should be for me to get to know her. I already knows what annoys her, me, but I really should find out what she likes. I think I'll make a list of what I know already.

Things I Know About Casey

1. She's a neat freak

2. She's a grade-grubber

3. She's concerned about her future

4. She's a klutz

5. She like to dance even thought she a klutz

6. She is actually a good dancer

7. She looks damn good in a leotard (okay, so that's more of an opinion than a fact shoot me, I'm a guy!)

8. She loves to read

9. She's a great older sister

10. She hates me

That's about it. Hmmm, I really thought I could better. Guess tomorrow I'll just have to pay more attention to what she does.

Day one of stage one

I woke up early the next day to find out all the little but important things she does in the morning. First she picks out her cloths, then showers, does her hair, gets dressed, does make up and then goes to get coffee and breakfast.

She takes a dash of cream and three sugars in her coffee, which is really the only unhealthy thing she eats or drinks.

She checks her homework while she eats breakfast, then triple checks to make sure she puts it in her bag, which is blue and has cats on it. Then she leave to go to the bus, if it's a nice day she leaves early and walks to the bus stop where she pulls out a novel to read while she waits for Emily to arrive. I think she's reading Jane Eyre right now. It might be her favorite book because she copy is all dog eared and has a very weak binding.

At school she hangs out with Emily and, ugh, try's to flirt with Sammy boy, who might become my ex-best friend.

She takes all advanced courses and likes to quadruple check her homework before handing it all in. Being that she's a grade-grubber she pays attention in class. Then she goes home, where I imagine she starts her homework right away because she has the house to herself being that the rents work late and the younger kids get out latter than high school does and I go to hockey practice.

When I get home she loves to pick on my snacking habits and loves to tell me how caveman like I look drinking from the milk carton. Then if it's her night she cooks dinner for the fam. I personally love it when she cooks; she adds a certain flare that Nora doesn't. Maybe I should tell her that? Maybe if I complement her she'll hate me a little bit less? Nah can't do that, it'll look weird to the fam; I'm trying to keep up appearances for as long as I can. I don't really know how the fam will take it.

Right now I just want to get her into my arms. I just want to hold her and kiss her. I want to fall asleep next to her, and wake up next to her. I want to be able to hold her hand and wrap my arms around her waist at school so all the guys know she's mine. I really want to stop sounding like such a sap. But most of all I want to take her out on a date. I think I might be able to swing that one. That shall be stage two the date.