Hii, I'm Gina, this is my first ever fanfic, tell me if it sucks, tell me if its good…basically I like reviews:D umm sorry if the sex scene at the beginning isn't really very realistic but I've never done it myself. Anyway, this is the first chapter, I'm just building things up, it doesn't really have any substance yet, Suze seems to be just drifting through her day with no real purpose, but don't worry, soon she'll have a whole lot to worry about! Mwaha! Ha-ha :) reviiieeww! Danke! Quite a short chappy at the beginning, sorry!

Disclaimer: I don't own any characters, apart from all the unknown ones, sadly.

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"Oh, Susannah" Jesse whispered softly in my ear "you're skin, it's so soft."

I shivered, not because I was cold, because of the desire that was rising up in me.

"Jesse, please, I think it's time for us to take the next step" I stroked his face. Now that he was no longer a ghost, we could do anything we wanted and we'd been dating for a pretty long time now, finally I think it was time for us to…ya know.

Jesse's eyes widened. I already know he thinks marriage should be before sex but I didn't have that sort of belief, I loved him and he loved me, I didn't see what was stopping us.

"Okay, Querida"

"what?" I said, I didn't expect him to cave.

"I think we should" He picked me up in his strong arms and took me to his bed, next thing I knew he was kissing me like he'd never kissed me before, so full of lust and love.

"Jesse" I moaned, I was fingering his buttons on his shirt, I wanted it off of him as quickly as possible. Sensing what I was trying to achieve he helped me and threw it to the floor, I ran my fingers up Jesse's amazing chest. I knew what was coming and I was ready for it, sure I was scared, I knew it would hurt but I knew it was right, too.

He started nibbling on my ear, I ran my fingers through his hair and moaned.

He slowly pulled off my top, I had worn my good bra and for this I thanked God, or whoever was up there for this good choice of mine, his hand started messaging my left breast, I moaned, his touch was enough to set me on fire. He moaned too.

"Querida, did I ever tell you how beautiful you are?" I smiled. I felt him unhook my bra and it fell to the floor, we were both half naked now and we'd only ever got this far, the next step was a big one.

"are you sure?" Jesse breathed, I told him I was sure and started unbuckling his trousers, he pulled down my skirt. I felt myself flush, this was embarrassing, my legs weren't the best part of my body. We kissed passionately, he was ontop of me, he was so lustful, he started kissing my face, then my breasts and all the way down to my knickers, I felt him take the top of my knickers into his mouth, he pulled them down…with only his teeth, I blushed madly but it felt so good all the same. I wasn't having any of this, me naked but him not? I had to do something about that for sure.

Now that he had kicked his trousers off it was only his boxers left, I looked at him intensely, staring into his liquid black eyes, he nodded, understanding my unsaid question. I pulled down his boxers. My eyes widened and he smiled as he caught me staring. "Querida, it's just me" I nodded.

Again we kissed, so full of passion. "I'm about to do it, are you ready?" I nodded, I was excited and scared, I held onto Jesses back with my fingers, I slowly felt him push into me, I was right, it hurt, it hurt a lot, my eyes started to water, Jesse looked worried "Querida? Did I hurt you?" he asked.

He was obviously worried he was ruining this for me. "no, Jesse, it's meant to hurt the first time, I'm okay, I love you" he looked relived.

"I love you too, Susannah" and that was it, for the first time I had had sex with a guy I was in love with completely, I rolled over and sighed, he came over and kissed me deeply.

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It happened two weeks ago, only two weeks! Ever since that day he's been bringing me a single red rose, I obviously 14 so far and each day I thanked him and kissed him, he was never pushy in wanting to do it again but still we haven't, it may have been the first time but it doesn't mean I want to rush into doing it again!

I walked into the kitchen to find Sleepy once again licking his bowl clean, it was disgusting, honestly, who'd want to go out with him? This was exactly what I asked him, he just threw me an evil look and carried on licking. He sulkily walked out the room. What was bugging him so badly? Jees. The phone rang. I ran to go get it because obviously Sleepy wouldn't. It was father Dom.

"Hey, you" I said, wondering what he wanted this time. He's been ringing me frequently lately, he always seems to have one problem or another, it must be his old age. Poor guy.

"Susannah, good you're there, look I've got this problem…" typical, him and his problems! "Yes, father D, I'm always here, what's up now?" I asked, trying not to sound too sarcastic. "Well, you see, there's this ghost…I think she's stalking me" Whoa, what? Some crazy ghost was stalking Father D? what was all that about?

"Stalking you, err are you sure?" I asked, stupidly. "Of course I'm sure, Susannah." he snapped "she won't leave me alone, I did ask her what she wants but of course she won't tell me, she hardly talks, all I know is that she's called Juliet, she's quite young, around 19 I'd say, I think you'd be best talking to her, seeing as she is around your age."

I sighed, I heard this Juliet girl in the background muttering things like "I don't need to talk to this woman" and other things, for a girl who doesn't talk that much, she sure does when she doesn't get her own way.

I was not in the mood for this girl, I felt so sick, it was probably just Sleepy licking every little inch of food off of his bowl. It was enough to make any girl want to disown her stepbrothers.

"Okay, I'll be down there in half an hour" I guess I should, if some crazy girl is stalking Father D, I should probably go down and kick her crazy butt, because when father Dominic said "you'd be best talking to her" it translated into my mind as "you'd be best getting rid of her Suze style" which is, obviously, kicking her butt.

I drove down to the Mission, hoping this girl wouldn't make anything too troublesome for me seeing as how sick I felt, honestly, I could just go home and sleep, I was ill, it obviously couldn't be Sleepy, the image of him licking the bowl had almost disappeared, I must just be ill. I hate being ill, but at least I can go and see Jesse when I'm done with this, I know he'd like to see me and give me the rose that I get every day.

Boy, was I wrong.