Journal # 1

I recently found this journal. I was in the attic, hiding from Grandmother. When I came accross a chest. An ellegant, dusty old trunk in the corner of the room. Being as curious as a cat, at least that's what I have been told, I opened it. I gasped as I looked inside. Inside were my mother's things. The first thing I picked up were her brushes. She used to brush my own hair with these when I was still a child. Gently, I placed the beautiful combs on the floor. Dusting the ground before I did so. I nside there were books, cloths, jewelery, and other little trinkets. After I removed everything from the trunk I relized I had missed an item. It was a box, wrapped in green cloth. I removed the cloth and discovered a book. A beautiful crimson leather book with black binding. And little flowers and petals running up the spine. At the bottem of the front cover was inscribed: Gemma. With shaky fingers I opened the book. Written on the title page was a note from my mother.

Dearest Gemma,

My loving, beautiful daughter. I'm so sorry. But I have placed a heavy burdon upon your shoulders. But I have faith in you. You are a strong girl. And I know you will do whats right. Here is a journal, much similar to mine, for you. Share your hearts content with this book and treasure like I did. I wont be here in this life much longer. I'm sorry. I'm not asking you to forgive me. But please, try to understand.

I love you, with all my heart and soul-

Virgina Doyle, your mother.

Happy Birthday, soon I fear-all will be known.

I wipped the tears from my eyes. She knew what I would be, and didn't tell me.

A journal for me. Like my mothers. I will treasure it. I craddeled the book to me as I sat there on the floor. Tears still streaming down my cheecks. ''I love you too mama. And I forgive you.' I whispered to the wind in Hindi. 'Thank you.'

a/n: this was a journal entry i wanted to do for gemma in the begining of rebel angles. I'd be willing to do more if you like. if u do you can request when the journal entry will take place. Like after pippa's death for example. whatever YOU want. just let me know. in a review and or private message. laters!

disclaimor: i do not own a great and terrible beauty nor rebel angles by libba bray. sadly.