The second chapter.. with Tawnypaw. Why did she really leave? Disclaimer: I do not own the Warriors series, or the characters. [

Those eyes. I could always feel them, constantly watching, waiting... Shouldn't the deputy have more important things to do then watch over a few suspicious-looking apprentices? I knew I should trust him, but I didn't, the same way he didn't trust me or Bramblepaw.

Bramblepaw didn't trust him any more than I did. We didn't trust any cat in ThunderClan. Not even Darkstripe, though we had the most reason to trust him. He always took us to our father. We lived for this. Just for a little while, we could get away from those staring eyes, get out of the camp, and be free of all our worries. It was always an adventure--how to slip out of the camp and not get caught, how to disguise our scents so no cat could follow us. Darkstripe was so good at it. He had been doing it for a long time, so he had had a lot of practice. I admired that in him, and in my father.

My father seemed really big, really powerful to me. He was the leader of ShadowClan--he might as well have been a StarClan cat. He always gave us something to look forward to, some point to life. More than that, it was something we, two little ThunderClan apprentices, could do for a great leader. But best of all, he was not constantly watching for any sign of betrayal. I felt that he would accept me as more than a daughter; when I grew up, I would be trusted with normal warrior duties without another, more trustworthy, warrior watching my every move. He promised me a life that I could live guilt-free. So I took it. It was the only real option.

Bramblepaw maybe saw some truth in the story of Tigerstar, he saw something to be afraid of. All I saw was a cat so great the sound of his name sent tremors of fear through the Clans; a cat so strong he could overpower his whole Clan; a cat that could never hurt his daughter. He was perfect for me--he was exactly what I needed then.

Things would have been different if I had stayed in ThunderClan, but better or worse, I cannot say. Brambleclaw was finally trusted enough to become deputy. I suppose I would have been, too. But not for a while, and I wasn't willing to wait. I needed to actually be a part of the Clan, and I needed it now. I thought I could find that in ShadowClan, with my father. Tigerstar could make his whole Clan accept me; that's how great he was.

And it was much better, until he died and Blackstar became leader. Then I became known as the "half-Clan cat," and almost even an enemy. But I was convinced it was better than ThunderClan had given me.

My life began to have real meaning, and I became a warrior, and was not constantly watched. It was wonderful. Now I lay in the nursery, almost time to kit, and I think about how different things would have been if I had stayed. I can't imagine any life in ThunderClan. I'm glad I did what I did.

Sorry, it's not very good.. . Evil writer's block. Anyway.

Next is Cloudtail. If you have a cat you want me to do--NOT a main character (Yes, this includes Squirrelflight and Leafpool) and NOT a character I hate (Ashfur, Nightcloud, etc.), then tell me in a review.