Disclaimer: I don't own Grey's.

Sorry for the delay in the beginning of this story. Unlike with my other ones, I actually have a plan for this one. But suggestions and ideas are always welcome. Enjoy!

Derek Shepherd had never been the kind of man to break his word. When he was a child, his mother and father had taught him the importance of honesty. When he told somebody of his intentions, it was only fair for him to follow through. And still, he had done exactly the opposite. He had said one thing and done another.

The divorce papers had been drawn up. All he had to do was sign them. Sign them and send them to his lawyer and it was all over. His marriage that he had planned to end would be over. But now that it was actually happening, it felt different.

Different not only because of Meredith. He had fallen in love with Meredith. But ten Addison showed up in Seattle and all of the sudden he had to make the most difficult choice in his life. A choice he never thought he would ever have to make. Not only because he had expected to be with Addison forever, but he definitely hadn't expected her to come back to him after cheating on him with his best friend.

But his parents had also taught him the importance and the sacredness of marriage vows. Till death do us part, as long as we both shall live vows. The words they had said in front of hundreds of family and friends hadn't meant nothing. Addison was his wife. 11 years he had been married. 11 Thanksgivings, 11 birthdays and 11 Christmases. He couldn't be expected to just give that up just like that.

But Meredith. Meredith's face was all he could see and Meredith's voice was all he could hear. Even if she refused to speak to him and was avoiding him at all costs. He had told her the night they met about Addison. About how they were planning on starting a family and then Addison had cheated on him with his best friend Mark. And that it was unforgivable and they were getting a divorce.

And then things changed, which seemed to happening to him a lot lately. Addison showed up and he had a choice to make. He had to choose between his girlfriend and his wife. Addison or Meredith. Meredith or Addison. But it was only Meredith's voice he heard in his head.

It were her words from early in the day kept repeating in his head.

Okay… here it is. Your choice, it's simple her or me. And I'm sure she's really great. But, Derek, I love you… in a really, really big… pretend to like your taste in music, let you eat the last piece of cheesecake, hold a radio over my head outside your window, unfortunate way that makes me hate you love you. So pick me. Choose me. Love me. I'll be at Joe's tonight, so if you do decide to sign the papers… meet me there.

She loved him. What began with a one-night stand in a bar had turned into a relationship, or at least that's what Derek had told her it was. And that idea was only strengthened when Meredith had let him know exactly how she was feeling

And here he was at the same bar where they had met, watching her drink herself into a stupor because of what he had done. Or not done yet, but what he had said he was going to do.

"What's wrong with you?" Cristina asked, taking the seat next to Meredith.

"McDreamy has wife," Meredith said, downing another shot.

"You knew this already…why is it a problem now? Or are you finally coming to your senses?"

"She's here. His wife is here. She's beautiful and leggy and perfect and I'm me. And she's here. And now…" Meredith trailed off, laying her head on the bar.

""Speaking of McDreamy,"Cristina stood up, "He's coming this way."

"Dammit," Meredith muttered, slamming her glass down, grabbing her bag and heading out the door as quickly as possible.

"Aren't we going to talk about this?" Derek said, trying to keep up with Meredith.

"Talk about what? There's nothing to talk about."

"You said you loved me."

"And you chose to stay with your wife. Apparently what I said meant nothing." Meredith said, fumbling for her keys.

"Meredith…" Derek protested.

"No.You don't get to Meredith me." She said, pointing her finger at him, "You said, "I'm married. But I'm getting a divorce. My wife cheated on me and I don't want to be with her anymore."

"I did say that."

"And for some reason that ring is still on your finger," Meredith said looking down at his hand.

"I didn't actually make a decision yet. Addison's here but that doesn't mean I still want to be with her." Derek explained quietly.

"You could have fooled me."

"Just..just give me some time. I need some time to make a decision."

"Oh, you mean a decision that you said you weren't going to make?"

"Okay. You're drunk. Let me drive you home."

"I am not drunk. And you are not driving me home," Meredith said, before getting in her car.

Derek watched as she drove away, with not a thought on how to deal with the situation. He had been in love with Addison. Really in love. But this thing with Meredith. It felt different, it felt right. It felt nothing like he felt with Addison. And if he was going to make a decision between the two, he was going to have to figure out exactly how he felt about Addison.

"Oh geez," Derek said walking into his trailer, jumping when he saw Addison sitting on the bed,

"Addison, what the hell are you doing here?"

"Here in your trailer that you live in," she said, looking around disgusted, "Or here in Seattle, where you have a girlfriend?"

"Both" Derek said, slamming the refrigerator.

"Look Derek, I made a mistake."

"A mistake? You call sleeping with my best friend a mistake?"

"Yah know, you're not completely blameless in this Derek," Addison said, getting defensive.

"No. No, don't try to pin this on me."

"Well what do you want me to do Derek? I'm here. I'm trying to work things out. And you're off with your little girlfriend."

"Don't you even…you don't know Meredith. Meredith is…"

"You want me to sign the papers Derek, I will. I don't want to be with somebody who doesn't want to be with me."

"I just…I need time," Derek said to her, telling her the exact same thing he had told Meredith.

"Time," Addison said, nodding, "I, um, I'll be at a hotel, and just…try not to take too long."

Addison walked out of the trailer just like he had walked away from their life in New York. He had left New York expecting things to be simple. He would come to Seattle and start a new life. And he had done that with Meredith. After catching Addison with Mark, seeing her in Seattle was the very last thing he expected to happen. And here she was in Seattle. And here he was, with two women waiting for him to make a decision.

I don't know what I've done
Or if I like what I've begun

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