Okay so this is my first fanfic and I'm kind of nervous, so please be nice! Let me know what you think and if I should continue!! Thanks and I hope you enjoy it!!
Summary:AULucas and Peyton have been dating ever since high school, but neither of their hearts was in it, they were afraid of what would happen if they let go. Brooke is successful with Clothes Over Bro's and lives in NYC with Rachel. MAJOR Brucas, maybe some Naley ((haven't decided yet)) But the focus will definitely be Brucas.
Disclaimer:I own nothing
Chapter One: What If?96. She placed the unopened letter in the box filled with 95 other ones and stuffed it back under her bed. 96 letters, all from him. He had written one a day since he had broke up with Peyton, 96 days ago. Brooke would know that Lucas and Peyton broke up if she opened Letter 1, but just like all the others, it's stuffed in the box unopened.
Lucas could never replace Brooke, not with Peyton, and not with anyone else on the planet. Unfortunately it took him 4 years to realize this all while staying with Peyton. Brooke was his first love, the one who took him to get a tattoo on their first date, the one who called him Broody, and the one who took his virginity. Dating Peyton was unfair to her, himself and to Brooke because his heart has and always will be with Brooke Davis. Peyton knew this was coming sooner or later, she could tell that Lucas' heart had never been in their relationship, it was still with Brooke whether Brooke knew that or not. It was quite evident to Peyton that Brooke Davis would always be Lucas' first and only love.
Why is Lucas sending me all these letters?!? He's dating Peyton, my best friend for God sakes! Sure Peyton and I haven't talked in a long time, and it's both of our faults. She's doing her music thing and I'm busier than ever with Clothes Over Bro's but we know that we will always be there for each other even if we haven't talked in months.
"Hey hoe!" Rachel exclaimed as she walked through the door of the penthouse apartment her and Brooke were sharing.
"Hi" Brooke responded quietly. When Rachel heard Brooke's tone, she knew something was up; Brooke was always perky and cheery. Lucas didn't give her that nickname for nothing.
"What's on your mind Brooke?"
"Nothing, why do you think something's bugging me because nothing is Rachel. I'm totally fine, never been better, just peachy!" Brooke rambled
"Because you're rambling Brooke, and you only do that when either A you're nervous or B you're hiding something. So spill."
Why does Rachel have to know me so well?
"Okay I'll tell you but you have to promise not to pass any judgment on me okay? I just really don't know where to go from here, I mean I'd call Peyton but she's with Lucas and Lucas is where this whole thing starts so I really need someone to talk to."
Rachel could tell that her best friend was frazzled and needed help because Brooke usually didn't ask Rachel for advice it was usually the other way around.
"Okay, I won't." Rachel said to Brooke
"Well for the past 96 days I've been receiving letters from…Lucas" the last word she said in such a whisper it was barely audible but Rachel heard it loud and clear.
"Well what do they say!?!?" Rachel asked
"Ummm…I don't know." Brooke confessed
"What!!!" Rachel yelled
"I'm scared Rach, he hurt me so bad by cheating on me with my best friend, I let him go because I had to, not because I wanted to, and…"
"And what Brooke?"
"I think I'm still in love with him Rach." There I finally said it.
"It's so obvious you do Brooke, I'm just so glad you realized it on your own." Rachel explained
"How is it obvious?" Brooked wanted to know
"Because Brooke, every time he's mentioned on T.V. for his book, has a book signing, or anything you alwayswatch it and your facial expression says it all. You look happy and sad at the same time, happy for Lucas but sad that you can't be there with him. And, Brooke how many guys have you been with since you and him broke up? I'll tell you none. Not one guy Brooke! And why? Because you will always compare them to Lucas, you always do, when Victoria will arrange dates to accompany you to big events, that's all you're doing is comparing them to Luke. There's only one Lucas Eugene Scott and I know for a fact that you are still madly, deeply in love with him, you've never stopped loving him."
"How do you know me so well?" Brooke asked with a single tear streaming down her cheek. It was all true she wanted to be the one with Lucas when all of his dreams were coming true.
"Oh I don't know I guess by living with you for the past 4 years and helping you jumpstart your multimillion dollar business you know…"
"Okay so now that I know how Ifeel, how do I know if he feels the same way, I mean he's with Peyton for Pete's sake! Obviously he doesn't feel the same way, if he did he'd break things off with her. Don't get me wrong Peyton's my best friend and I want the best for her, but I want Lucas, Rachelllll!! Why can't I have Lucas???"
"Brooke, take a deep breath, everything is going to be fine. I know that you want Lucas, heck you need Lucas because even though in high school we weren't that great of friends I saw how much of an impact he had on you."
"You watched me in high school?" Brooke asked Rachel
"Well, yeah but not in a creepy stalker way, just a "I want what she has" kind of way, but SO not the point right now. Point is; when I saw you with him, your eyes lit up, you were always happy, nothing could get in your way and you wanted to be a better person, not that you aren't a good person or anything Brooke. I guess what I'm trying to say is that he brought out the best in you and you brought out the best in him."
At this point tears are streaming down Brooke's face.
"Why are you crying Brookie?"
"Because in the 5 years we have known each other that is one of the best things you have ever said to me, I am so lucky to have a friend like you Rach."
"Thanks Brookie, I feel the same about you. Okay so I have an idea."
"Please don't let it be anything crazy…you know what happened last time and I'm SO not doing that again!" Brooke said to Rachel
"No, this one's actually a good idea. You have 96 letters right?"
Brooke nodded not sure where her friend was going with this.
"Well, don't you want to know what he has to say? For all you know he and Peyton could be married!"
Brooke's expression on her face quickly changed when she heard Rachel say "he" "Peyton" and "married" all in the same sentence.
"Sorry, too soon for jokes?"
Brooke nodded.
"Besides its now or never Brooke."
"How do you even know I even saved all the 95 before the one I got in the mail today? For all you know I could have burned his letters, I've done it once and I'd do it again."
"Brooke, do you honestly think you'd throw away anything that Lucas has given you? His Keith Scott grey hoodie still hangs in the back of your closet!"
"How'd you know about that?!?!" Brooke questioned Rachel
"Because the other night I was looking through your closet to find something to wear to the club and it was the last thing hanging in your closet."
"Nice to know that I have privacy, in an apartment I'M paying for!"
"Sorry Brookie."
"It's fine."
"So what do you say? Can Letter 1 be our bedtime story for tonight?"
"I don't know Rach, what if it says something I don't want to hear?"
"Brooke at some point you're going to have to stop running from your fears and actually face them."
"Now or never, right?"
"Right" Rachel responded
"Well I choose now."
Rachel was delighted to see her best friend making an effort even if it was a small step to her; it was a big step to Brooke.
"Here goes nothing." Brooke whispered as she dug out the box hidden under her bed loaded with 96 letters from Lucas. Slowly she pulled out Letter 1 not knowing what it had in store.
Pretty Girl,
Brooke gasped at the name written at the top of the letter, it had been so long, too long, since she heard him call her that.
Pretty Girl,
Well if I know you, you probably aren't reading this letter the day you received it in the mail, you probably waited awhile to read it, unsure of what it had to say. I have so much to say to you; first of all, I miss you like crazy. You are the first thought that pops into my head in the morning and the last thought I have before I fall asleep. I know what you're thinking, "This isn't fair to Peyton." Well, you don't have to worry about that because yesterday Peyton and I called it quits. We both knew it was coming but we were holding on to something because we were afraid of what would happen if we let go. Peyton always knew that I would always love you and the whole time in our relationship we had countless fights over my feelings for you. She would argue that I still loved you, I would argue if I were in love with you then why was I with her? She was right though. I was and I still am and I will always be in love with you Brooke Penelope Davis. I'm so sorry it took me so long to realize this; I was just scared I guess. Scared that you wouldn't feel the same way, even though I know you do. I know I hurt you in the past and I regret it everyday of my life, I think "What would my life be like if I never hurt you twice in high school"personally I believe we would be married with two kids a girl and a boy, live in Tree Hill the place we call home. I could write books from anywhere, and you could open a boutique in Tree Hill; we'd have the perfect life. If only I didn't screw up. I regret this everyday Brooke; I miss you so much, please give me a chance. I want you to need me, like I need you. I know this may sound a little cheesy but I sent along a song that I think you should listen to. Today, when I sat down to write this letter to you, I turned on my iPod to shuffle and this song came on. Please don't laugh at me for having her on my iPod but Celine Dion's "I Want You To Need Me" came on and all I could think about was you. Brooke I love you, I always will. I just want you to need me.
I love you pretty girl.
Love, Your Broody
Tears were streaming down Brooke's face after reading Lucas' letter. This was only the first one; she couldn't imagine what all the others had to say. Rachel, who was sitting on the bed, asked Brooke what the letter said. Brooke responded by putting the C.D. into the player and pressing play.
I
want to be the face you see when you close your eyes
I want to be
the touch you need every single night
I want to be your
fantasy
And be your reality
And everything between
I
want you to need me
Like the air you breathe
I want you to feel
me
In everything
I want you to see me
In your every
dream
The way that I taste you feel you breathe you need you
I
want you to need me
Like I need you
I want to be the eyes
that look deep into your soul
I want to be the world to you
I
just want it all
I want to be your deepest kiss
The answer to
your every wish
I'm all you ever need
[Chorus
More
than you could know
And I need you
To never never let me go
And
I need to be deep inside your heart
I just want to be everywhere
you are...
I want to be the face you see when you close your
eyes
I want to be the touch you need every single night
I want
to be your fantasy
And be your reality
And everything between
Brooke and Rachel just listened to the song. Rachel didn't know word for word what Luke had written to Brooke, but she got a pretty good idea just by the song he had sent. Rachel laughed a little to herself when she realized it was Celine Dion. What 21-year-old guy listens to her?She laughed a little bit more but quickly contained herself.
"Rachel do you know what this means?"
"What?"
"He feels the same way about me as I feel about him. Why didn't I open that letter sooner? If I had opened it the day I got it I could be with him right now! God! Why do I have to be so stubborn Rach?"
"Brooke, this happened for a reason. As far as you being stubborn? You sure as hell are stubborn but it's what makes you who you are and why we all love you!"
"Okay…so where do I go from here Rach?"
"Tree Hill?"