Gaara placed the sealed brown envelope into his mailbox along with like a million stamps, he couldn't believe his pushy... boyfriend. Made him send in those forms, it was insane. He looked up and smiled at the sight of the car pulling up, since said pushy boyfriend was home at last. Home... sounded real nice. He of course hadn't said that he'd loved Gaara since the red head had over reacted. "So?" Gaara asked, today was the final verdict, and the long haired boy's face was dropped making Gaara's stomach drop with it.

Then all of a sudden Neji was grinning and getting punched in the arm by Gaara, "Ow, so abusive. I thought you'd be happy that I was staying."

"I don't know now, I'm rethinking it." the red head mumbled and made his way into the house. "Did you hear my mom's new album, specifically one song." Gaara asked watching Neji shake his head in reply as Gaara went into the living room and put in the CD that hadn't even made it to market yet. "I wrote this one." he said softly listening to the music start up and her voice following to float around the room.

My hands are searching for you
My arms are outstretched towards you
I feel you on my fingertips
My tongue dances behind my lips for you

This fire rising through my being
Burning, I'm not used to seeing you

I'm alive
I'm alive

I can feel you all around me
Thickening the air I'm breathing
Holding on to what I'm feeling
Savoring this heart that's feeling

My hands float up, above me
And you whisper you love me
And I begin to fade
Into our secret place

The music makes me sway
The angels singing sat we are alone with you
I am alone and they are too with you

I'm alive
I'm alive

I can feel you all around me
Thickening the air I'm breathing
Holding on to what I'm feeling
Savoring this heart that's healing

And so I cry
The light is white
And I see you

I'm alive
I'm alive
I'm alive

I can feel you all around me
Thickening the air I'm breathing
Holding on to what I'm feeling
Savoring this heart that's healing

Take my hand, I give it to you
Now you owe me, all I am
You said you would never leave me
I believe you, I believe

I can feel you all around me
Thickening the air I'm breathing
Holding on to what I'm feeling
Savoring this heart that's healed

"Only you could get her to sing something so sad." Shikaku said leaning on the door frame of the room, a lit cigarette in his mouth. "Naruto's peppy like her so, everything he writes is the same. Not the same kind of life to it though." he said the mumbling to himself as he moved through the house and down the stairs.

"Not as much life?" Neji asked scrunching up his eyebrows never actually hear the blond say anything about music.

"Naruto will write, but he doesn't write about anything he feels. He actually sits as far away from any negative, and skims around why he's actually happy." Gaara said with a shrug before feeling Neji tug him onto the couch. "Let go."

"I love you." he said softly in Gaara's ear feeling the boy tense up but not reacting violently which meant he was getting used to it after four days straight of hearing nothing but 'I love you's when ever he didn't expect it.

"Yes I know, now get off!" he elbowed Neji, nope there was the violence.

"You know?" Neji asked sitting up and looking at the red head who merely shook his head in exhasperation.

"You've been saying it non stop moron. I figure you must at the very least believe you love me."

"Believe I love you?" Neji sighed and stood also, not making a move toward Gaara. "What makes you think that I don't?"

"I'm strange, and not that attractive. I don't have much of a future, since I don't even show up to class. What is there to love?"

"You say you're strange, but I just think you're intresting. And you are by far the most attractive person I have ever met. And you have talent so you sure as hell have a future as long as you persue it. I will make sure you do that. And I love the way your face turns all red when you're pissed. I love that I never know what to expect from you because your reactions are never what I expect them to be." Neji wrapped his arms around Gaara from behind. "Stop doubting yourself." he whispered feeling Gaara relax into him.

Naruto came running through the house squeeling, stopping to jump and down excitedly in front of Gaara who watched him in mild amusement. "YOU MADE IT IN!" he yelled excitedly pressing an opened envelope addessed to Gaara into said boys's hands. Allowing black rimmed eyes to scan the paper quickly before looking up at the blond.

"They want to interview me personally, that doesn't sound like they've accepted me just yet."

"That's all just for show. You've made it trust me! I know everything about that school." Naruto said smiling softly at Gaara who just nodded and continued to stare at the paper. An interview.

Neji came into the kitchen walking past both teens and straight to the fridge to grab some weird water Maya had brought home, he crinkled his nose before turning and leaning over Gaara's shoulder to look at the paper. "You got in, told you that you'd make it." Neji commented while opening the bottle and drinking it, smiling at the surprisingly good taste.

"I didn't get in! I got an interview!" Gaara said, slamming down the paper.

"Calm down Gaara." Neji said softly leaning over and placing a feather light kiss on top of those messy locks of red hair, Gaara instantly deflated. Naruto smiled happily at the both of them, his thoughts wandering momentarily to what it would be like to... suddenly the blond hopped up and took off running across the house. Neji watched the blond in amusement, Gaara watched him in confusion.

"Is he sick?" Gaara asked feeling warm arms snake around his shoulders and a hot mouth on his ear, he ignored it as normal Neji pervyness.

"No. He's perfectly fine." Neji replied straitening, the red head was getting far too good at ignoring his advances. And since school was officially out for the year, they'd had a lot of time together, so Neji planned on getting him again... for something if it killed him... and it just might. "Let's go upstairs."

Gaara turned and narrowed his eyes at the long haired young man, "Why?"

"To play a game." Neji said with a shrug as if it were the most normal thing in the world, then he turned and made his way up the stairs, Gaara following.

"Like what?" he asked as the entered the bedroom, not geetting any warning before being gently shoved onto the bed and hearing the gently 'click' of his lock. "Hey!" Gaara yelled, rolling over and watching as Neji stalked toward him, crawling on top of the young man. "Oh... that game." Gaara breathed, feeling his pants being unbuttoned. "You're getting really good at this." Gaara mumbled, closing his eyes as he felt his pants being slid off of himself.

Neji's hand traveled down Gaara's surprisingly hairless legs to touch the scar that was there, the red head bit his lip, in his mind it was like being stabbed all over again when Neji touched it. Only like a hundred times worst, because he wondered what the long haired boy thought of him when he saw it. He said he loved Gaara, but the red head wasn't convinced. Not at all.

-Lemon Warning: If you don't like please just skip over-

Then those talented hands traveled upward again to tug off boxers, "Gaara." Neji mumbled gaining the red head's attention, sea foam eyes took him in a confused manner before watching that wicked mouth dip down and... Gaara's hand went up to his mouth as his head fell backwards, that felt amazing.

Neji chuckled, the vibrations sending a pleasant chill down his spine, making his eyes roll into the back of his head. "T-this is... new." another chuckle, followed by a strangled moan from Gaara who felt his hips buck, before feeling firm hands grip his hips tightly. Surprisingly Neji didn't choke, instead he just continued with the steady bob of his head and the insistant sucking along with that tongue... Gaara cursed and praised that tongue right now as he fisted his hands in the sheets. He was coming and couldn't stop himself, as he arched off the bed a bit before cumming in Neji's gasping softly as he felt him swallow before pulling away and moving to lay next to Gaara.

The red head was left with this feeling that he should do something, anything more, biting his lip and past his own uncomfortable insecurities Gaara rolled over and began unbuttoning the long haired young man's pants. "Gaara!" he gasped in confusion his own hands going down to the other's which were undoing his pants. "What are you doing?" Neji asked, the red head never reciprocated, and he was just fine with that it was expected. It was just like the distanced red head, this how ever was not, and it was weird.

"Expirimenting on you." he replied cooling yanking off pants followed quickly by boxers. "Now lay back and shut up." he snapped feeling pale lavender eyes continue to stare before Neji did as he was told and layed back, and stayed quiet. Once the hardened length was released; and yes it was still hard despite the weirdness; Gaara licked his lips and stared. He hadn't thought this through, but damn it he would do it.

So with a shakey breath he leaned forward and tentively licked at the head dipping his tongue into the slit to taste, it was bitter, not too horrible, and not exactly like the first time he'd tasted cum. Neji gasped at the feeling, it was inexperienced sure, but it felt amazing. Or maybe it felt so good because it was Gaara doing it, his red head, the boy he was head over heals for. Feeling encouraged by the small sound Gaara wrapped his mouth around it and sucked, earning a soft moan, he would've grinned.

With more confidence he copied Neji's movements, his was a slower pace and Gaara wondered briefly how the long haired boy had kept from choking, the moans he was drawing out of the other were intoxicating to listen to. Was this what Neji got out of being with Gaara all this time? Because soon the red head wasn't paying attention so much to copying the other as he was to finding out what he could do to draw out different sounds. And before he knew it there was that familiar taste as a hand went to his hair and pulled his head back slightly.

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Gaara moved to lay next to his boyfriend grinning in a way that only Naruto could pull off without looking sinister. "You look proud of yourself." Neji commented, feeling a sated calm crawl over him as Gaara got up and threw him boxers, pulling on a pair of his own before yanking off his shirt. Neji drug himself up from the bed and did the same before making room for his red head to curl up next to him.

When said red head finally did crawl into bed he fell almost into an instant sleep, at this rate he'd have to start wearing more khol on his eyes to keep them from looking too bright. "Gaara, you know I really do love you right?"

"MmHm, love you too." he mumbled sleepily, already asleep before Neji gasped softly and sat up to look at his face in wide eyed wonderment.

"Please mean that. Or you just might break my heart." Neji whispered back before falling into an unsettled sleep.

The next few days went by in a blur, not an entirely unpleasant blur, but a blur non the less. It was school applications, Maya dancing in and out of the house, occasionally she drug them with her. Then there was the explosion, not really an explosion so much as an outbreak between Sasuke and Naruto at the mall. Leaving Neji and Gaara standing off to the side watching in wide eyed confusion. And it started with, "I've decided to go to that school in Sound."

"Uh we should go over here Gaara." Neji said nervously, the red head clearly didn't know what was about to happen because he shrugged off the long haired boy.

"What? I thought we were going to go to ANBU together." it was a hushed murmur, Naruto looked highly upset by this.

"Yeah well, if I'm going to get anywhere close to Itachi I need to go somewhere other than ANBU." he said placing his hands in his pockets and looking anywhere but at Naruto.

"Fine whatever, you leave me behind too." he mumbled and Neji prayed that the other would just suck it up and apologize.

No, not Sasuke though. "I don't understand why it bothers you so much, it's not like I have to answer to you. In all honesty I was being nice by even telling you." Wrong. Thing. To Say. Neji looked up at the ceiling as Gaara took refuge in staring at his shoes.

No wanted to see it, and they knew it would happen, sure as they were standing there. And it did, the blond's eyes welled up with painful and angry tears as he pushed Sasuke with as much force was in his body. "It's a good damn thing that you told me now, better than allowing me to make a fool of myself and actually try to date you." he shook his head as Sasuke stood slowly from the floor before being shoved again, "Go away! I don't even want to look at you! Just go!" and he did, Sasuke sprinted from mall leaving Naruto to cry.

"I wanna go home, I want to get away from here. I just..."

"I'll go get the car." Neji said leaving Naruto and Gaara to themselves.

"I'm such an idiot." Naruto mumbled rejectedly, sitting on a bench outside where the car would be picking them both up.

Gaara sat down next to the blond, unsure of what he should say to his emotional brother. Slowly he wrapped one arm around the other and drug him to sit tightly at his side. "How do you know if you're in love?" Gaara asked watching as his brother wiped at his eyes and sniffeled.

"You're asking me this now?" Naruto asked, getting a short nod in reply, Naruto laughed in reply. "You are so... awkward." he said feeling the red head remove his arm from around him so that he could elbow the blond. "Ok, ok. So I don't know, you're asking because of Neji right?" another nod, "What do you feel when he's there? When he's gone?"

Gaara stared at his shoes, scuffing them against the ground as he thought, "When he's gone it's... I just lie around all day wondering what I did when he wasn't there before. And when he is..." Gaara shook his head... it differred from time to time. Sometimes they would just lie there and talk or watch movies. Then there were those things like what they did... alone... Gaara's face lit up at the thoughts. "Being around him... is nice." he said watching Naruto's face light up in a smile.

"Oh Gaara! I'm so happy for you!" he said wrapping his arms tightly around his brother, and he truely was happy for the young man.

"I'm sorry about Sasuke." Gaara said, chilling the mood and feeling Naruto's sadness come off of him in waves.

"It's ok though, I'll find someone right?"

"Of course, you're social. I'm anti-social and still found someone. I didn't even want him at first." Gaara replied listening to Naruto's laughter, it was strained but nice to hear non the less. "How is your music going?" Gaara asked, watching Naruto's mood darken even more. "That bad?" he whispered before getting a grave nod. "Try writing about Sasuke tonight." he replied getting an odd stare from his younger brother. "Just do it!" he hissed as the car pulled up, and both of them climbed into the back and told the driver to take them home.

A/N

Ok, ok so this took me a bit but I kept getting writers block. So meh! Anyways I hope you like it, and please do continue to read. I'm trying to figure out how to end it. I'm no good at endings.