What's Left Unsaid
Chapter 5- WARNING: Garlic Salt may Cause Weird Dreams!
DISCLAIMER: I don't own Kingdom Hearts, or Advent Children, or Star Wars, or the Kodak company
This chapter is more about Sora than Riku in the beginning. There's a surprise towards the end. Hope you enjoy!
Sora flopped onto his bed and sighed sadly. He rolled over on his back and stared up at the ceiling, reaching up to touch his lips. They still tingled from when Riku kissed him in the hospital. Maybe it was Kairi who's the reason they've been tingling ever since then... Except it hadn't been like that since Riku had told him that he...
Sora sighed again and rolled over, off the bed on accident, "Ow..." Sora groaned and went to go take a shower. He thought about what Riku said right before he left. Especially how Riku looked at him when he talked about him. Riku always talked to Sora with love and the way he touched him- Oh God the way Riku touched him!
Sora looked down as he undressed and mumbled something angrily, having realized he had a certain problem. Once in the shower, he tried to take care of said problem, but found it hard to get off thinking about Kairi. Even after he'd seen her topless. He looked down and thought he saw Riku looking up at him with half his member in his mouth.
Semen splattered over the walls of the shower, as Sora lightly moaned Riku's name, "Dammit..." Sora mumbled, finishing up in the shower. Sora grinned a little as he climbed out of the shower, remembering the night before. Especially that blow job. How Riku touched him with love, rather than lust, even when he was doing something sexual. Like he was telling him he loved him by touching, rather than talking.
"Sora! Phone for you!" Sora's mom shouted.
"I got it!" Sora shouted back as he picked up the phone in his room, "Hello?"
"Hey big brother!" Roxas' unusually happy voice filled the ear piece of the phone.
"Hey Roxas what's up?" Sora smiled, greeting the younger twin. Only by four minutes and twenty two seconds, but Roxas still insisted on calling him 'big brother'.
"I'm having a friend over!"
"Okay, so?" Sora laughed at Roxas' bubbliness since he usually wasn't like that.
"You're sleeping on the couch tonight!" Roxas exclaimed.
Sora grumbled and heard talking in the background.
"We getting a room to ourselves tonight?" said someone who sounded a lot like an older man.
"Yes, Axel, shut up! I'm on the phone!" That was undeniably Roxas' voice.
"Did you tell your brother yet?"
"I'm gonna tell him when we get there..."
"He's your twin! I can't believe you haven't told him yet!"
"I'm gonna tell him!"
"Whatever. Come'ere baby!"
"Axel!" a slight giggle, "stop! I'm on the phone!"
"Roxas, who's there?" Sora asked, utterly confused.
"Uhhh..." Roxas struggled for an answer.
"Roxas tell me what's going on!" Sora demanded, stomping his foot on the carpet of his floor.
"Uh... I will when I get there!" Roxas shouted into the phone, right before hanging up.
Sora groaned and went into the kitchen to get some food. He decided on a bagel with garlic salt. Popping the bagel into the toaster, Sora pulled out the butter and garlic salt, because he hated spreading cold and hard butter onto a toasted bagel, and the garlic salt was right there. Angry at being so confused about things that seemed so simple, he stared down the toaster.
"Why are you being so slow!" Sora shouted, hitting the toaster with such force, his toasty treat popped out in his face. Sora stumbled back and leaned against the wall, angrily gripping the toasted bagel, "You are a dumb piece of bread that wishes it was a doughnut! And you know what? I wish you were too!"
Sora's mother gave him a strange look. Sora buttered his bagel and shook a generous amount of garlic salt onto it. Riku why do you drive me to insanity? I love you as a best friend... I think... But I love Kairi like a girlfriend... Sora sighed, It'd be just too weird to go out with a guy anyways... Ugh, that's so gross, I can't believe he's gay! Sora ate his bagel that wished it was a doughnut with garlic salt and warm ish butter. Not two minutes after he finished eating, he heard Roxas shout, "Sora! I'm home!" from the front door.
"Hey, Roxas," Sora plastered a fake smile on his face, and couldn't help but remember what Riku had said about his smile. Makes him want to faint, huh? Sora gave his brother a hug, but stopped, seeing a much older teen behind them, "Is this your friend?" Sora asked. He stared at the older guy, dressed in tight black clothes with big red spikey hair and emerald eyes.
"Um, that's what I need to talk to you about..." Roxas blushed a little, and dragged him to their room. "Wait in the hall." he told the man, and pulled Sora into their room, closing the door.
"So what's up?" Sora asked, starting to get a little scared. What if something was wrong with Roxas?
"Well um... The thing is... Sora, I'm gay," Roxas blurted out and blushed a little.
"Y-you?" Sora sat on the floor, dumbfounded. He didn't know what to do or say about it. He was just like Riku! Things were getting mixed up, and he was the only normal one in the world!
"It's not a big deal right? I mean, love is love so it doesn't matter who I'm attracted to... Right, Sora?" Roxas smiled and joined his brother on the floor.
"I-I don't get it...." Sora was still in shock, "S-so that guy was your...."
"Boyfriend," Roxas smiled, putting a hand on Sora's shoulder
Sora looked at his brother, disgusted, "Get away from me you freak!" Sora shouted, jumping up, and running out of the room. He ran past the red head and plopped on the couch. He needed a sugar fix now, but he didn't want to get up and get it.
"Sora, what's wrong, honey?" His mother asked, rubbing his back as Sora lay face down on the couch.
"Everyone around me is gay!" Sora shouted. He was the kind of teen that told his mother everything, except for the fact that Riku had kissed him. He hadn't gotten around to telling her that yet.
"You mean Roxas," She smiled and shook her head.
"You mean you're not surprised?"
"I'm your mother baby," She kissed him on the head, "I know everything about you boys."
"You mean you knew?!" Sora shouted.
"Of course I knew!" She smiled and hugged her oldest son.
After a while, Sora asked, "Mom, you don't think I'm gay... Do you?"
She smiled, "Do you think you are?" Sora rolled his eyes at the woman and sighed dramatically.
"No! Of course not!"
"Are you sure?"
"No..." Sora sighed and looked away, "Riku kissed me and it seems ever since then I don't even know which way is up!"
"I knew he liked you!" Sora's mom smiled and patted Sora's head. "May told me Riku never shut up about you, and that she was positive he liked you. Oh, that's so good, honey!"
"He says he loves me and that I'm gorgeous and I eat a lot!" Sora pouted, "And that I make him want to faint or something dumb and faggish like that..." Sora mumbled.
"Now honey..." Sora's mom always began with that when she was about to rationalize something, "Riku may not love you as deeply as he claims, but I've seen the way he looks at you. And 'faggish' isn't a word. Watch your language, young man!"
"But mom Roxas is..." Sora sighed, "He's not normal either..."
"Sora," She sighed, "Roxas is in love, and there's nothing wrong with that. You love Kairi, right?" Sora nodded, lying though, as he was pretty sure he wasn't in love with Kairi anymore, "Would you love her even if she wasn't a girl?" Sora sighed again and looked away, neither affirming, nor denying the truth that when he was in love with her, he wouldn't have cared.
"Now," Sora's mother kissed him on the forehead, "Go apologize to your brother," She smiled and left to the kitchen to make dinner. Sora breathed deeply and walked over to the room he shared with his brother. He could hear crying from inside the room, and pressed his ear to the door that was left open a crack.
"He's my brother, Axel!" Roxas sobbed. Sora felt terrible. He hadn't seen Roxas cry since they were children.
"Don't worry, Roxas, you just came out," his boyfriend comforted, "That takes a lot of courage. I'm proud of you."
"He probably hates me now!" Sora peeked around the corner and saw Roxas sitting in his boyfriend's lap, crying into his chest.
"He's just freaked out, don't worry about it. He'll get over it eventually." Axel kissed Roxas' head, and wiped his face.
"He's right, I am a freak!" Roxas covered his face with his hands and Axel held him tight.
"No you aren't, Roxas. Look at me," Axel pulled Roxas' face up by the chin to look him in the face, "You are not a freak," Axel kissed Roxas on the lips gently and Sora couldn't help but smile slightly. He was undeniably happy for his brother. If Roxas was happy, then Sora really couldn't complain about this.
Sora coughed and knocked on the door, "Um, can I come in?" Sora asked, kneeling next to the teens on the floor. Roxas nodded and wrapped his arms around Axel.
"Maybe I should go..." Axel suggested, making to get up, but Roxas clung to him, silently begging him to stay.
"You can stay, if Roxas wants," Sora glanced up at Axel, and looked back to Roxas. "I'm sorry for calling you a freak." Sora scooted closer to his twin, "I was being dumb and I didn't mean it."
Roxas nodded and lunged at Sora with a hug, "I should have told you sooner," Roxas began to tear up again. "I was scared you'd hate me forever if you found out!
"Oh Roxas!" Sora smiled and wiped the tears from Roxas' face, "I love you baby brother! Nothing will change that!" Sora smiled and hugged Roxas again.
"I love you too big brother!" Roxas smiled and sat back down between his brother and his boyfriend.
"So who is this?" Sora asked, looking back at Axel. Come to think of it, this guy looked pretty old...
"I'm Axel, Roxas' boyfriend. got it memorized?" Axel smirked holding out his hand for Sora to shake it.
Sora laughed a little an shook the guy's hand, "I'm Sora. How old are you?" he asked suspiciously.
"Nineteen," Axel smiled sheepishly.
"Oh God, Roxas, you too?!" Sora shouted, "That is so incredibly illegal!" Sora crossed his arms over his chest. "Older guys are just trouble! Riku's brother, Demyx, well he was dating a guy that was older too, and the guy broke it off as soon as they told Riku's mom! Demyx was hysterical, and then he rebounded on some freaky emo guy!"
"It's only three years, Sora..." Roxas blushed and looked away, as he sat on Axel's lap.
"Don't worry, I'm not gonna rape your innocent little baby brother," Axel smiled and wrapped his arms around Roxas' waist and kissed him on the neck.
"What is it with you old guys and innocent little boys..." Sora sighed and left the couple alone.
"So did anything interesting happen today?" Sora's dad, asked.
"Roxas finally came out," Sora's mother, Lyn, explained.
"So is this his boyfriend?" The man asked calmly as he stopped eating for a moment to look up at the man.
"Yes, this is Axel," Roxas smiled, holding the man's hand under the table.
"How old is Axel?" Their dad eyed Axel, a little annoyed.
"Um... just nineteen, sir," Axel spoke up, trying to not avoid eye contact, as that usually meant someone was up to something. He wasn't up to anything. He wanted to be sure Roxas' dad knew that.
"Take advantage of my youngest son, and you won't die, but you will suffer," He stated simply, "I work for the CIA so don't think I'll hesitate in slaughtering your sorry ass if you ever do. And you'll get visits from the government every once in a while, too, now that we've met and your an adult."
Axel nodded, unfazed by the mans threat, though he'd be sweating bullets if he couldn't control himself as well as he could. He continued eating, trying to impress Roxas' dad. Sora wondered why he'd do that. If Riku ever got the chance, would he come over and try to impress his dad?
"And I want a legal consent form filled out before you go over to his place, is that understood young man?" The man eyed Roxas who nodded and they all went back to eating as if everything was normal.
"So how did you two meet?" Lyn asked in her usual bubbly voice. If one couldn't already tell, Sora took after his mother, and Roxas usually took after his dad. Roxas was just unusually happy lately.
"I was with Hayner, Pence and Olette at the arcade where he works," Roxas began giggling, "And he asked me out..."
"I'm sure you can guess from there how it went," Axel smiled placing an arm around Roxas' shoulders. Soon enough, dinner was done and Axel was playing the sweet boyfriend card by helping Lyn with the dishes while Roxas and Sora hung out in their room.
"Roxas, I have to admit, you really scored with Axel," Sora smiled as they sat on Roxas' bed.
"I know, isn't he the best? He's so sweet, and generous. And he has a good sense of humor." Roxas beamed and laid back on his bed, mimicking Sora's position. "But don't tell him I said that!"
"Yeah. I wouldn't say the best though..." Sora smiled, as Riku suddenly came to mind.
"But you haven't seen him nekkid!" Roxas rolled over, propping himself up with one elbow.
"Roxas!" Sora shouted, laughing a little, "I don't want to see that!"
"Heh, sorry, I forgot you're straight." Roxas laid down again, putting a disgusted emphasis on the word 'straight'. "Weirdo."
"Whatever, dude," Sora smiled and punched his brother playfully in the arm.
"Hey baby," Axel smiled walking into the room, and kissed Roxas on the lips. Was it really necessary for him to do that in front of Sora?
"Hi!" Roxas smiled, blushing a little as Axel pulled him into a tight embrace.
"Psh... You guys are weird..." Sora scoffed and took his pillow and blanket and walked over to the door, "Axel you can sleep in my bed if you want."
"Why would I sleep in your bed Sora?" Axel smiled and grabbed Roxas' waist, kissing his neck softly.
"Ew! I didn't need to know that!" Sora shouted, slamming the door and running to the living room.
"Know what?" Sora's mom asked, as she finished up cleaning the kitchen.
"Axel and Roxas' planned activities for tonight!" Sora shouted, blushing madly as he plopped on the couch.
"Well it's about time!" She smiled placing her hands on her hips, "You boys are more innocent than puppies with their eyes closed! You're both sixteen now, it's time you became sexually active! ... But don't tell your father I said that!"
"Ew mom!" Sora covered his face an hid under his blanket. It had pigs on them, which reminded him of Riku's pig, "Heh, Commodore Pigglesworth III..."
"What are you talking about?" She laughed, walking back to her room.
Wiku wuvs me... Sora thought, "Nothing, I'm gonna sleep now, goodnight mommy!" Sora sighed and drifted off into a peaceful sleep.
"That's right. He wuvs you!" Riku smiled at Sora and embraced him. All of their worries faded away into the darkness of night and it was just them. Riku stroked Sora's face and Sora leaned into his touch.
"I love you Sora. You're beautiful." Riku ran his fingers through Sora's hair as Sora rested his head on his chest.
"I don't know anymore Riku... Be my best friend and help me!" Sora shouted into the material of Riku's shirt.
"Love me Sora," Riku smiled and stroked the younger teen's side, "Search your feelings. You know it to be true." he said, quoting Darth Vader, which wasn't so reassuring.
"But I'm afraid Riku." Sora looked up at his best friend.
"What's there to be afraid of? Everyone supports you no matter what you choose," Riku smiled and Sora sat up to kiss him. Sora's lips against Riku's. Such a simple movement and touching of skin, but it seemed as if their hearts were touching. Embracing each other, lovingly.
He loves me....
Riku kissed Sora's forehead and held his hand out for Sora to grab it. A giant wave swept over Sora as he desperately groped for Riku's hand.
I need him!
Sora gabbed Riku's hand at last. Riku smiled and easily hoisted Sora up onto the branch of their favorite Poapu tree and kissed him. Their whole bodies connected by a brushing of lips, as the very fabric of their beings meshed together.
But I'm not gay!
Sora took a bite out of an ice cream bar and tasted something that wasn't sea salt ice cream. He looked down and saw Riku biting the other end of the paopu fruit in his mouth.
Together forever?
Sora smiled and walked into the secret place and saw the picture of him and Kairi on the wall. He scratched it out and saw a crab crawl by behind him. It walked sideways and, and pinched Kairi's ankle.
"You're gay for him." She said. Sora blinked and she was gone. He smiled.
I love him too...?
Sora sat up and looked at the clock. 7:02 am. He needed to get to school... As much as Sora wanted to go and confess to his love, he had to go to school. He'd just have to do it at school in 5th period. English was the only class they had together. They didn't even have the same lunch, but Sora could wait... Not all day, but he could wait until 5th period.
However, thinking about it all day long, Sora had more time to doubt he actually loved Riku. Was it really worth throwing away a relationship that he was already in to test something out he came up with in a dream? Sure he enjoyed kissing Riku, but he enjoyed kissing in general. What if he couldn't be a good boyfriend for Riku? There were too many ifs for Sora to be comfortable with this...
Riku sat in his classes, a little depressed. He wasn't quite sure what Sora expected him to be like, maybe that he should have gotten it out of his system or something. Riku really didn't know how to face Sora after what he'd said to him the day before. 5th period was going to be hell.
Riku dragged himself to school, getting a ride from the stupid emo kid. He usually took the triplets' van, but that was taken by the cops. Zexion had spent the weekend fucking his brother anyways, he may as well drive them to school.
Riku trudged through his first few classes, doing the bare minimum. He finally found himself at lunch, and sat alone in the lunch room. He usually spent his lunches with Demyx, but his brother was preoccupied with a certain slate haired kid. Riku stood up and disposed of his school-prepared non-food properly and reclaimed his position at the lonely table.
"You look pretty down," a low and masculine, rarely heard voice drifted into Riku's ears. Riku turned around startled and saw Cloud smiling back at him. This action alone was enough to make Riku scared shitless. The fact that he was smiling made Riku think maybe he was sick.
"I'm fine, something up, Cloud?" Riku wondered out loud, feeling Cloud's head for a fever. If he was sick, Riku didn't want to get too close to him. Happiness didn't usually indicate a disease of some sort, but Cloud usually looked grumpy. Riku was afraid the world may be ending.
"No... Just happy to see you," Cloud said in this apathetic, but warm tone, that just didn't seem to fit. And since when was Cloud ever happy?!
"Cloud, you're acting pretty weird.... Are you sure you're okay?"
"Quite the contrary," Cloud replied, actually smiling as he grabbed Riku's hands. Willing physical contact? Something was seriously wrong with this teen. Riku's jaw dropped as a silver eyebrow raised suspiciously. "You see, Riku... The thing is, I haven't been talking to you recently, cause well..." Hm, not talking? That seemed pretty typical Cloud... "I like you... A lot..."
"Uh... what, now?" Riku questioned, stepping back a little. He hadn't thought of dating anyone but Sora lately, and even if he had thought of anything of that sort, it was Demyx's love life.
"I like you, Riku," Cloud moved to touch Riku's face, and quite frankly, Riku didn't fight it because he was too petrified to move. Cloud was being affectionate, and... Soft!
"L-like me... as in like a friend, right?" was all he manage to rasp out. Someone actually liked him? This wasn't necessarily a first, but it just seemed new since the whole Sora thing.
"You know what I mean, Riku," Cloud said sternly, before capturing Riku's pink lips in a gentle kiss. When he pulled away, RIku noted a light blush marred Clouds face in a way that really didn't suit him. Though his stern voice did comfort him a little.
"Cloud, I... Wha... You just..." Riku stammered, searching his brain for something to say, but half sentences and non words were the only thing it seemed to pull out.
"Riku, I would like you to be my boyfriend," Cloud said, more of an order, than a request. This too made Riku feel better. Not because he liked that sort of authoritative manly guy as a boyfriend, but more because it was more like Cloud.
"Uh, Cloud... Well I...." Riku felt his face burning up and he knew he was blushing. Though come to think of it, Riku wouldn't mind dating Cloud. It would really help him get over Sora, and he'd be making someone else happy in the process.
"Riku, I know this sounds bad, but I don't care what you have to say. I need you to be my boyfriend," Cloud's blush lessened, and he frowned, appearing more serious as usual. It was almost endearing the way he had to compensate for his totally girly name by being extra assertive.
"N-no, it doesn't... sound bad. I understand," Riku said, letting Cloud sit down with him.
"Please Riku,"Cloud said in this pathetically apathetic voice, as he reached for Riku's hand. Riku sighed softly and nodded. It's obvious I can never be with Sora... Cloud is a good friend, so I should do him a favor...
Cloud broke out in a beaming smile, and hugged Riku again, "Thank you so much Riku," Cloud whispered, before kissing him again. It took all of Riku's self control to not shove Cloud away and run to Sora. He didn't. He wanted to, but he didn't.
Riku weakly kissed back and could feel Cloud almost laugh into the kiss, at being so incredibly overjoyed, and in all honesty, he was happy for Cloud. The kid almost never even cracked a smirk, so he was glad to make Cloud so happy. He was sure he'd be sobbing if he was as happy as Cloud was now.
Cloud walked Riku to his next class, after the bell rang, "Come over to my place after school?" he asked, his arm loosely fitted around Riku's waist. Riku nodded in agreement, wishing only to get away from his brother's antics, if only for a day.
"Cool," Cloud said. Good. He was back to his normal self, save a slight smile on his face, and a lingering kiss to Riku's cheek.
Riku sighed for the millionth time that day, and flashed his new boyfriend the happiest smile he could muster. The smile faded however, when he saw Sora, who put on a fake smile for Riku.
"I saw you with Cloud! I had no idea he was like that too!" Sora chuckled a little and hugged Riku, "I guess big strong guys like you and Cloud are good at hiding it!" He honestly didn't know how else to react. He was sure Riku was just trying to get over him, but Cloud being one of his close friends, he didn't want to ruin something for him!
"Stop talking about it like being gay is a disease!" Riku retorted angrily, walking past his best friend. He hadn't meant to be rude, but he didn't know how to react to Sora being so happy for him being with someone else.
"Oh, come on Riku! You know what I meant!" Sora smiled. He supposed Riku must've agreed to be with Cloud for a reason. "I just can't believe you two are together. I'm really happy for you." Sora realized Riku probably still loved him a lot, and that Cloud was more of a rebound, but they could have a good relationship together. Cloud would make a good boyfriend, and Riku had suffered too much. Sora wasn't about to ruin something that was good for Riku, for something he wasn't even sure about. "I knew you'd find someone," Sora smiled, saying this quieter than he'd been talking before, as he looked up and saw that they'd acquired an audience.
"I appreciate your support, but can you stop talking?," Riku whispered so only the two of them could hear. He was a bit fed up with Sora's chattering - he was still processing the fact that he was dating one of the most masculine guys in school. And a senior no less.
"Riku..." Sora sighed and left Riku alone, since that was what he wanted.
Riku sighed and walked away, to sit at his desk just before the bell. He took in a deep breath, thinking of that last exchange. The real reason Sora was so happy for him and Cloud was that he wouldn't have to worry about Riku hanging over his shoulder, and clinging to him like a lost puppy. He could be with Kairi and have normal sex, and get married normally, and have normal children who'd grow up to be normal.
When the class was over, Riku left. He didn't say good bye to Sora, didn't hug him. He didn't even look back at him. He walked to his last period, which he actually shared with Cloud, and sat next to his now boyfriend. "Hey." he said, putting on a smile for him.
Cloud of course greeted Riku with real enthusiasm. He held Riku's hand throughout the entire period, and Riku could tell Cloud was holding back. Riku didn't really care though - he'd been with much clingier people.
After school, Cloud had to talk to someone, and Riku went to go wait in front of the school. He tried to stay away from Sora and Kairi, but the brown haired boy just kept walking up to him. "Hey, Riku!" he said as he finally caught his friend.
"Hey, Sora." Riku smiled, "Didn't see you there," he added, explaining why he kept walking away from the other.
"Wanna hang out with me and Kairi? Cloud can come too!" the younger asked, smiling brightly. They were probably going to just get some sea-salt ice cream and hang out, but there was no reason they couldn't double date.
"Uh, Cloud and I were doing something else today..." Riku said, looking disappointed. He was sure Cloud didn't have any plans for them, but double dating with Sora and Kairi was the worst thing he could imagine.
"Cloud? You guys aren't dating! He's straight!" Kairi scoffed in disbelief. Though she was shown wrong, as Cloud walked up behind Riku, wrapping his arms around the younger.
"I'm straight?" Cloud asked, with a questioning look as he cocked his head to the side. Riku smirked as Kairi gave a disgusted look. She muttered 'faggot' under her breath as she dragged Sora away.
"Well maybe some other time?" He asked, and Riku nodded. With that Cloud took Riku to his motorcycle, fastened the helmet on him, and drove off to his place.
Well that's it for now. Hope you liked it. Again, review with comments, concerns, whatever.