Hey look! I actually posted the next day isn't that amazing?! Ha ha, I haven't done that in forever! but anyways I really appreciate the concern for the things that have been happening in my life and i'm also really sorry that the chapters are so short. Some people understand that it's hard when you're going through hard times, it's very hard to concentrate, but, some don't. It's ok though. The thing is that I can't always post crazy long chapters. I never have but i'm sorry that's just the length. It's harder because a lot of authors have their chapters written or typed already ahead of time. I come up with these on the spot. I just wrote this chapter, just like I do with all my other ones. I think that's what sets me apart a little bit.

What I feel on the day I write the chapter is what gets reflected into it. People have noticed that i'm particularly better at writing the sad and intense parts of stories. That's just what i'm better at. By the way one of my readers commented how its hard to tell the difference when the characters are thinking and what their actually saying.

'this is how it will be when their thinking'

"This is the actual talking"

this is a back flash or a dream of some sort.

Disclaimer: I do not own Naruto, never will sadly.

Enjoy!

Chapter 11: A foolish emotion

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You feel their eyes upon you
Hear their words behind you
What do they know (what do they know)
About you

They tell you who you should be
They tell you what you should do
They'll never believe (never believe)
In you

Somebody should have told you
It never comes easy
And somebody should have told you that
There's no guarantees
And that you lose it all
When you stop dreaming
There's no way to know if you run away
(They tell you who you should be while ignoring your dreams)

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What's so special about love? Some foolish weak emotion that makes everything you once knew be forgotten and center around this one person you say you love. Love is a waste of time and I have never found anything more useless and senseless in life then this thing that people seem so caught up in.

When has love ever helped me. When has love ever been a part of my life. People would criticize me if I said something like this to them. They don't know who I am, what I am, what I've become because of this foolish emotion.

Okay so my life lacks this useless emotion, and I'm glad. I wouldn't let something like that penetrate my accomplishment. Power is all that matters to me and that would never ever change.

My parents said they love me, and the only time I have experienced true love was for my mother. My mother was an angel. Is an angel. I always said that metaphorically.

"My mommy is an angel! She's the only person I need in my life!" an excited mini Sasuke exclaimed happily, sitting at his family's dining table, swinging his legs back and forth and staring at his mother.

"You're too sweet dear." His mother smiled warmly back at his small cheerful face. She set the table for dinner and ruffled her small son's hair.

"It's true mama! I love you." The sweet child said, the glistening emotion shining brightly through his eyes. The way he looked at his mother was the purest of all love. He would do anything for her, anything and everything.

"I love you too honey." She said still smiling brightly. Nothing but death could diminish this bond.

It's exactly what happened. I experienced love like nothing before. Even if it was towards my mother, nothing could replace her kindness, her gentleness, and the way she cared about every single detail of my life.

She never forgot to ask me how school was, how I was feeling, what I wanted for dinner, I never once questioned her love. She told me she loved me every day and I could just see it in her eyes. I've never forgotten that day. The last day she told me she loved me, and the same day my world crumbled into complete darkness and chaos.

I will never forget the day my angel on earth left me to watch me up in heaven. I always wanted her with me, and she left me. I know she didn't mean to. No one had seen it coming.

I didn't either, it's a haunting part of my life that is etched deep in my mind. It replays over and over, and I have never felt such repulsion and disgust. Such pain and angst as that day doomed over my life.

When I looked at Sakura's tear stained face, the only thing that came to mind was…

Why is she so different?

A sudden realization came to dawn on Sakura. She didn't know why she felt a sudden attraction to this man, and she probably never would. She didn't want to say she loved him because she never had loved another man before.

Her father had ruined any possibility of any love for a man she had, had. Small girls would probably say something like

"I love my father, the only man I have truly loved."

It was quite the contrary for her. It was absolutely incorrect. She concluded all of this was in her mind. It would pass. She convinced herself at that moment that she was exaggerating. She didn't love him. She didn't know true love, she never would.

Because she wouldn't allow it. She was just attracted to him.

Lust is all it was and all it would ever be.

"Its nothing really." She said in a low voice.

"I'm not a stupid person, you can't lie to me. What is it..?" She certainly couldn't tell him that she was pondering the feelings of love. He would find it ridiculous, especially him. He really wouldn't understand…

"I was just…" She had to think of an excuse… "I was thinking of my father."

"Huh, I decided I won't let you speak of your father here. If you're going to be all depressed and yelling out randomly, I'd rather you not speak of him at all. Refrain from your mind wandering there." He said quite fast. It seemed he was out of breath. I'd never heard him speak so much and this was definitely an over load for him. He even looked kind of pale. It was kind of funny to me that someone can feel like that over talking.

I didn't quite understand his motive for actually caring for my feelings. Was it that he cared or he was just looking for a reason to fight with Neji. I knew by the way he looked at Neji that he didn't exactly consider him his favorite person. That's certain.

So why is it that he seemed so concerned as he stood so close to me that I could feel his body heat radiating off and warming my skin?

Why is it that his expression looked like he was annoyed but his eyes said a completely different story? It's something I would probably never understand.

"Well toughen up a little." He said suddenly as though realizing that this could have been a very awkward situation for the both of them.

He looked down at himself as if finally realizing his closeness to her, and how much he was actually exposing himself towards her.

An awkward situation, indeed. She nodded in an attempt to not fight with him, and possibly make the excuse believable but mainly not to start another argument. He simply walked away, glancing back once to look at the anguish on her face.

He knew something was wrong and he wasn't going to trick him. Eventually he'd get it out of her.

While Sasuke got dressed. Sakura sat in the middle of the room, cross legged and looking at the wall.

Maybe she had made it more obvious that she was lying by actually not starting an argument with him, he had known that all she did was to start arguments so if she suddenly just changed maybe it'd make it a little weird.

Oh well, the good thing was that he didn't notice…according to her.

A couple minutes later Sasuke came out of the bathroom, his hair still damp but fully dressed. He looked down at Sakura sitting on the floor, but then sat at his bed, and stared at the wall as well.

Finally Sakura noticed the scary silence that had fallen over the room and the depressed feeling that covered the air. She was suffocating in it.

"Sasuke…"

"What?"

"Let's have a day out."

"Are you asking me out on a date or something?" Sakura's eyebrow's raised slightly.

"You wish. No, it's just that instead of being in this depressed mood we should be doing something fun." She said smiling, the trail of the tears still etched on her face.

"What did you have in mind?" Sasuke asked curiously.

"I don't really know, let's just go explore!"

"Who's car are we taking?"

"Let's just walk, it's a nice night."

Sasuke sighed and stood up. He didn't have anything better to do. He just went to shut her up. Her yelling and crying was more annoying then her rambling on and on.

That was it wasn't it?

I hope you liked it guys. Don't worry, the fluff will come into place for those of you who really like that. :D it's just that its so unrealistic when people fall in love in like.. 1 week. Im not a believer at love at first sight so it's not like that in my story. There's lust right now, and just an attraction. Nothing more. Sakura acknowledges that but, Sasuke obviously being who he is, doesn't realize anything.

The lyrics are: Life Is A Garden by Greeley Estates.

I haven't had a picture in forever so yeah here it is :) I dont take pictures from deviantart ok? I know not to. I take these from photobucket.

its getting so much harder to post the links for the pictures.

So if you would like to see it go to the photobucket website and put in dancingthefoxxchalk look at my album, the only picture there is the one for this chapter. I will start labeling them :)

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