Title: False Pretense
Author: Mackenzie (Kikistoas)
Pairings: Nathan/Haley .... Brucas, Leyton... Final pairings revealed later on
Characters: Haley, Nathan, Lucas, Jake, Tim, Peyton, Brooke.... and many more
Rating: T -- With Some Adult Situations
Summary: Season one storylines with some twist. Nathan doesn't hate Lucas, but pursues Haley for another reason.
Warnings: Maybe I should rate the story M, but I don't plan on getting to graphic with anything so I think it should be fine.
Author's Notes: My first story for fanfiction dot net. It's going to be pretty long, but rest assured I already have the whole story outlined and everything happens for a reason.

Prologue

April 11, 2008

Crap

Crap

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Nathan Scott was sitting in a plush leather chair keeping his gaze trained on anything but the woman sitting across from him. This whole deal was a bunch of crap. That was the only word he could think to describe the mess he had gotten himself into. Only sixteen and already in therapy.

Crap

"Nathan"

Crapcrapcrapcra-

"Nathan!"

Rolling his eyes, Nathan looked over at the woman sitting in a matching chair.

"Are you ready to tell my why you're here?"

Nathan scoffed at the suggestion as he looked away. He didn't want to answer her stupid questions about his stupid life that he stupidly screwed up.

"Fine, this is the third time that you've come to my office and if this is the way that you are going to act then I'll just tell Principal Turner and Coach Durham that you aren't interested in staying on the basketball team. The season doesn't start for what, five months? Plenty of time for them to hold tryouts and find new players" She folded her hands and looked at him with raised eyebrows and an expectant look on her face.

The threat of losing basketball actually makes Nathan pause. With all that he has screwed up, basketball is pretty much the only thing left that he has that allows him to just be. It was a relief to him to be able to get out on the court and just play. He didn't have to think about everything he had done, all the pain that he caused. He really didn't want to go into his Junior year without it. Shit, how pathetic was he? The girl he loved was gone and all he had left was basketball.

Nathan rubbed his hands over his eyes and tried to think. He really didn't want to talk to this annoying lady, but he wasn't sure if he was really ready to give up basketball just to avoid it.

Finally Nathan spoke, "I'm here because Whitey and Turner said I have to be here, Doctor Routh."

The Doctor grinded her teeth for a minute and got out the words, "Yes Nathan, I know that. What I want you to tell me is how it got to that point?"

Immediately Nathan thought of her. She was so steady, with a quiet strength and sarcastic humor. And her looks, man.... oh man. She was truly beautiful both inside and out. Before he never thought of girls as beautiful, thinking of a girl as sexy or hot was different. Because while she was the hottest girl he'd ever seen, she also was, simply put, the most beautiful woman he'd ever seen. With her rich chocolate brown eyes, brown hair with hints of red, and her smile. God, he missed her smile. It was just something totally her. Gorgeous, loving, quirky…. Hale--

"Nathan, are you paying attention?"

Seriously does this lady ever just shut up? She doesn't care about why he's here. She only cares about getting the obscene amount of money his ass of a father is paying her to see him. Why the hell would he want to tell her anything? Maybe he should just make up something to tell her to get her off his back.

"I saw my father kissing a dog," Nathan finally said blandly.

"Well it's common for dog lovers to show affection to their anim-."

"With tongue," Nathan interrupted with a smirk.

Doctor Routh's mouth pursed and she started to turn red, flags of color staining her cheeks.

Damn it, Nate that was not a good idea.

"Look, I'm sorry. I just don't see the point in talking about it. I screwed up. I know it. I'm trying to fix it but this won't help. Talking to you won't help. I'm just here because the coach and Turner told me to."

Nathan sat forward and put his head his palms. Surprisingly Doctor Routh didn't kick him out of the session. Just sat there watching him. Nathan ran a hand over the top of his buzzed hair, and finally looked up to meet her eyes.

"Talking about it won't change anything, she'll still be gone and it will always be my fault."

She couldn't help the tug of sympathy she felt for him, there was such anguish in his eyes. She wanted to help him but he had to let her. And she couldn't let him get away with the type of evasion he pulled off so well at their previous sessions.

"You can't just come here and not talk. The point of counseling is for me to help you. If you lie to me or refuse to talk then you aren't really fulfilling your part of the agreement. And if you don't fulfill you part then I'll have no choice but to talk to your principal and coach. Make no mistake, Nathan, they will remove you from the team."

Crap. She was really serious. Nathan realized that he would either have to tell her the truth or he would have to get used to not being on the basketball team for his Junior year of high school.

"Fine," Nathan bit out through his clenched teeth. "You really want to know why made me do those things? What drove me to it?"

She nodded.

"There was a be...I had to seduce this girl, and then-, I broke her hea..., she ended up d-"

Nathan stopped. He had a hard time getting the words out. It wasn't easy to speak about, even though in his mind he constantly re-lived it. Replaying what he could have done differently. She would still be here if he had just changed something.

Nathan got up and started pacing. Stopping at the door he pulled back his foot and kicked the door.

Doctor Routh made a small sound, one that was hidden by Nathan's sudden cry of "FUCK!!"

He came back to the chair and flopped into the seat.

"If you really need to know what happens, then I'm going to start at the beginning."

"Alright."

Nathan narrowed his eyes suspiciously. He was suddenly nervous for a new reason. This lady was on the devil's payroll. She might go tell Dan everything.

"This stays between us right? There is no way that this will get out?"

"Absolutely."

"Not even my father?"

"No, Nathan, even if I wanted to I couldn't tell him what you say without your permission. I took an oath and if I break it I might lose my license to practice."

Nathan puffed out his cheeks and blew out a breath. She probably wouldn't risk her license. Fuck it, if this gets out I'll just sue her ass.

"Fine, it all started when some of my team members and I took a school bus on a joy ride……"

Disclaimer: I own nothing; not OTH or its characters.