DISCLAIMER: I don't own Prince of Tennis! But I wish I do: D
FULL SUMMARY: Love is giving someone the power to break your heart, but trusting them not to. Fuji lived in the dark after breaking up with Ryoma. Fuji didn't want the break up but he thought he needed to do it. Ryoma was left hurt. After five years they meet again. Will there be a second chance?
WARNING! This is a yaoi fanfic which means that it contains male-male relationship, and may also contain some kissing, and SEX. If you are not comfortable with it, please do not read. This is dedicated to those yaoi fans like me. Enjoy!
I Love You, Now and Forever Re-Uploaded
By IDaddicted
CHAPTER ONE
Fuji never gets tired of looking at the picture in his hands. In the picture were he and a boy who has golden eyes and was wearing Seigaku's shirt, short and a cap in his head. The picture was taken in front of Kawamura Sushi Restaurant. Of course, he has some pictures taken with his other teammates too, but this one in his hand is the most treasured one. It's because of the young golden-eyed boy beside Fuji in the picture that makes it so special to him. The picture just brings back so many memories to him. It brings back happy memories he shared with the younger boy… And painful ones too.
"Do you promise to love me forever Syusuke?" a young golden eyed prodigy asked to Fuji.
"I do Ryoma. I do promise to love you, now and forever." He truthfully answered back.
With that, the golden eyes of the younger boy shined brightly and looked at him lovingly.
"Why? You were avoiding me and now this?! Why are you breaking up with me?" a teary eyed Ryoma asked.
"Because." Fuji paused; he knew this will hurt Ryoma but he has to do it, no matter how much his heart disagreed to his decision. "Because I don't love you anymore. That's why." He said coolly.
That does it. With that Ryoma ran away and Fuji lost his chance. And Fuji was lost in the dark. FOREVER.
"Syusuke!" he heard a voice called his name. It was Tezuka. His old friend and former teammate in Seigaku Tennis Club.
"Ye-Yes?" Fuji asked. Obviously, he was caught rambling by Tezuka. He felt ashamed.
"You've been spacing out. Are you all right?" Tezuka asked with concerned voice.
"Hai. I'm fine, Tezuka." Was all Fuji said.
Tezuka took a glance at the picture Fuji was holding, and smiled a bit. He knows his friend damn well. Fuji is obviously NOT all right.
"You're thinking about him again, aren't you?" Tezuka then asked.
Fuji just smiled and put his attention again on the photograph.
After five minutes of silence, Fuji asked, "Are we there yet?"
Tezuka turned to Fuji and said, "We almost are."
Fuji let out a deep sigh. He and Tezuka are already 21 years old and they both study in the same college university. Today, they are going back again to the place where strong bond among the tennis club regulars and members formed. That place is no other than Seishun Gakuen Jr. High the place that held so many memories in his heart. Fuji felt like he's being pulled back in the past. So many images are flashing in his mind as they are getting nearer and nearer to their former school. Once again, he let out a deep sigh, and this caught Tezuka's attention.
"Fuji…" Tezuka began.
"Hhm?" Fuji looked at Tezuka. His eyes are now focused on Tezuka's face which is now clouded with slight confusion.
"I-I still don't understand why you did that to HIM." Tezuka said.
Fuji smiled sadly then said, "I just thought it was needed to be done." Fuji stopped then heaved a sigh, for the third time. "How long has it been?" Fuji suddenly asked and looked away. Even though he already knew the answer for that, in his heart, he wanted to believe that it was just a nightmare. He still felt the guilt and regrets for doing that to Ryoma. He did some things that are horrible to him, to the extent that he had to use Tezuka just to break his relationship with Ryoma, even though he didn't want to. Obviously, it still hurts him to reminisce those times he shared with his precious golden eyed boy. The exact boy who brought out the best in him not just in tennis but also in many terms of life. To Fuji, Ryoma was his life.
Fuji caught Tezuka throw a glance at him and he paused before answering.
"But why are you still hurting, Syusuke? It was your decision in the first place anyway. You broke up with him and gave the false reason! That you didn't love him anymore! You lost your chance already!" a part of his mind told him.
Fuji swallowed the painful lump in his throat. "Because I still love him! That's why! I still love him that's why until now, I'm hurting. Many years have passed but I still love him, longing for him and secretly hoping that there's still second chance for us. Our first encounter, first date, first kiss, first lovemaking and Ryoma himself are difficult to forget. His love is just too difficult to forget!" He wanted to shout.
"Fuji…" He heard Tezuka speak. "We're 21 years old now. You've been together for 2 years right? You were 14 when you started dating Echizen, so it's been 5 years since you broke up with him. Don't tell me you forgot all about that?" Tezuka asked him.
"Of course I do remember them" He said and looked straight in Tezuka's eyes. "I remember everything about him, about us. Perfectly and completely."
Tezuka looked straight to Fuji's eyes too, then said, "Then why do you keep hurting yourself like this? Why do you keep letting yourself be in the dark? I know you still love him." There was a hint of challenge in Tezuka's voice. Fuji, on the other hand, was trying to find the right words to answer Tezuka.
Tezuka stared at the lost Fuji. He couldn't blame Fuji for falling in love with Ryoma. Ryoma may be cocky sometimes but the golden eyed boy was really gentle, fragile and soft inside. As the matter of fact, he himself also had an interest with Ryoma before. He just noticed that Fuji was also interested with the little kitten, so he just backed off and let Fuji have the move because he didn't want to have a fight with Fuji and to gamble his good friendship with Fuji just because they both had an interest to Ryoma. When Fuji and Ryoma were together already, he was happy for them, but one day, he and Fuji had a private talk, and an unwilling Fuji asked a confused Tezuka to help him to keep Ryoma away from him. Sure, Tezuka's brain was all messed up with confusion that time, so Fuji explained it to him. Tezuka hesitated at first, but when Fuji begged him, he agreed to it. It was all just planned but he knew they had hurt Ryoma, and until now, he was just as guilty as Fuji for what they had done before.
Fuji was about to open his mouth to speak when the bus they're riding (they decided not to bring their car anymore because they felt like taking a bus. Just like old times) suddenly stopped right in front of the familiar place where they really wanted to see and visit.
"Seishun Gakuen…" Both Fuji and Tezuka uttered before they got off the bus.
They stared at the front gate of the school for few minutes and they observed that it has not changed after quite some time. They looked at each other and decided to enter the school gate.
As he took his first step to enter the school, Fuji closed his eyes as memories that happened in that same place flashed in his mind. And most of those memories contained flashbacks that happened before during his stay here in Seishun Gakuen and spent time with his former tennis club regular teammates… and a young and beautiful golden eyed boy who was still the owner of his broken and longing heart.
TO BE CONTINUED