Summary- Roxas has lived his life rich and happily, but to every life, there is a downfall. Roxas is deaf and every night he has dreams about a different life. In the dreams he feels more alive, as if reality was a dream. He could hear in his dreams. Sound effects and his voice; the redhead that stole his heart. Although he may not be real, Roxas still has a crush on this awkward male. But how will he react to find out that the redhead isn't just a dream?

Disclaimer- I do not own Kingdom Hearts, but I'd die to!

A Darkened and Unheard of Life

The young blonde silently walked along the crowded streets. He looked down at his feet as he turned into an empty back alley behind a large building. Once at the end of the alley, he turned to his right, entering a messy storage room. He quietly walked over to a metal cube near the entrance and sat down with a sigh. He looked up at the ceiling, going deep into thought. Everything in his life was just messed up. Sure, he has a couple good friends and two fun brothers… but nothing could cure the emptiness this young blonde held inside. No matter whom he was with or what he would do…nothing could take away that hollow pain he felt everyday of his life…The pain was unbearable…You feel as if-…as if you have no heart…no emotions…no one to love and no one to love in return…You feel like there will be no trace of help when you desperately need it… No one to guide you…to protect you… you're all alone in this tragic universe with probably no intensions of living…There is no reason to live if you're by yourself, feeling nothing but sadness and depression… And to make everything slightly worse, the boy couldn't hear…he was deaf…He felt nothing, couldn't hear nothing…he was nothing…a-… nobody….

The blonde deeply sighed and laid back onto the wall as he put a hand through his hair. He silently glanced up at the clock that he and his friends put up not too long ago…7:30… thirty minutes until class started…but he didn't feel like going today… he was way too depressed today than he usually was…all because of the dreams…

Olette quietly sped walked to the back alley, knowing her good friend, Roxas, would be there. He barely attended classes last year so she always looked for him before school to make sure he would come.

Once inside the storage room, or their spot, Olette stood at the doorway with her hands on her hips and an angry smirk. She slowly walked up to the day dreaming blonde and vigorously shook his shoulder, bringing him back to reality. "Roxas c'mon, we got to go to class!" she said once he surprisingly looked at her. He deeply sighed and got up, following the brunette to school.

-School-

Roxas walked up the school steps with his hands inside of his silver hoodie pockets. He knew Olette would drag him to school and he made no fuss about it because he really didn't care. "Olette…"Roxas groaned. "No Roxas! If you keep skipping school you'll get left back and be even more depressed." She said after turning to him. "(Sigh) fine, fine…" Roxas replied turning his back to her and walking down the long hallway.

Olette merely watched as her good friend walked angrily to his class. She sadly sighed and walked the opposite way.

"Roxas, you're late again. Why?" The teacher, Mr. Hikaresh, asked as he put some files away into his cabinet. Roxas only looked downward to his feet and quietly made it to his seat. Mr. Hikaresh sighed and began to teach.

Right when Roxas sat down, a note was quickly flung at his head. He quickly and angrily turned to his friend, Hayner, as he sheepishly smiled and mouthed out "sorry!" Roxas picked up the folded up note, unfolded it, and began to read: 'y'seem kinda down… was it the dreams again?' Roxas went inside his small book bag and took out a blue inked pen. 'Yea…but don't worry…I'll get over it in a bit…' The blonde quickly folded the note back up and waited for the teacher to turn back to the chalkboard. Once he did he threw it at Hayner, hitting him on the head as well. Hayner only rolled his eyes and picked it up.

Roxas turned back to the front, watching the teacher's mouth. He couldn't hear him, but he could read lips better than anything else. That's why the teacher was always turned towards the class…so Roxas could-…well hear him. It was pretty annoying though. Especially when he's passing notes with someone. Once the teacher was turned they had to pass the notes as quickly as they could. 'Aggravating bastard…' Roxas thought. He hated it when people treated him extra nicely because he's 'handi-capped'

He hated to be called that. I mean, he could read lips so well; it was as if he could hear them. But when people find out that he can't hear, they always act stupid, talking real slowly thinking that he couldn't understand when they talk normal paced. 'Stupid people…stupid life…I hate it!' he thought, crossing his arms as he sunk into his seat.

After a couple seconds, he sat back up noticing the note on his desk. He boredly opened it and read: 'no u won't! U NEVER get over it till the end of the day when one of us is forced to buy u ice-cream.' Roxas chuckled. He quickly wrote 'DUH!' on it and threw it back after checking on the teacher.

The entire couple of periods, (which Roxas shared with Hayner, luckily) he merely copied most of the important things the teacher's wrote on the board, and passed notes. That's what his school day mainly contained… nothing but boredom…

Roxas walked down the long, crowded hallway with his three best friends Hayner, Pence, and Olette as they were going to his favorite subject…lunch.(v) Roxas always argued with his friends that lunch was a real subject. That it taught about one of the best necessities in life….food. Roxas loved to eat…he was really fat-…from the heart that is…..Roxas is the scrawniest and shortest in their little gang, but he had the largest stomach for sure.

He walked into the cafeteria with a large smile traced across his lips, quickly running ahead of them and being first in line. The others only sighed and sweat dropped, getting in line behind the hungry blonde.

Roxas slightly smiled at the food being placed onto his plate as he went down the row. Once he paid for his food, he happily walked over to their usual table near the window and sat down. The others quickly caught up and sat at their seats. Roxas was the first to begin eating, and literally began gobbling up the food.

"Jesus, Rox, calm it with the food, y'pig." Hayner said watching the blonde as he quietly just stuck his middle finger up at him. "Well, you should listen to him Rox. I mean if you ever wanna be with Namine'." Olette said with an eyebrow up.

Roxas sadly slowed down his eating and stared onto the wooden table, remembering the dream he had. Namine' was the main person this time in his dream. She had a short, white dress and was sitting in a white room, drawing on a sketch pad with small crayons. She quietly stopped drawing and softly smiled up to him as she put the sketch pad up, showing him what she drew. It was a small sketch of him and that spiky, redheaded guy sitting on a rail, looking up at a dark nighttime sky. The weird part to him though was that they were holding hands in her picture. Still, in all his dreams of the redhead, they were together which kind of freaked him out because, well, he's not gay. He never thought of liking guys in his entire life. He actually had a crush on the blonde haired girl named Namine'. But since he's been having those dreams, he's been having doubts about 'whom' or 'what' he liked. Roxas thought that this person in his dreams could be real, but that was a slim chance. Really large slim chance.

Real or not, through these past couple years in high school (he's in his 3rd) he had a crush on him. It was weird at first, but soon he got used to seeing himself hanging out with the pyro. He even had some dreams were he'd kissed him. Roxas slowly smiled thinking about him. The wild, spiky, red hair he had… the backward raindrop tattoos under his eyes…and how he was so damn skinny…But the thing that made the dreams even more realistic than life itself was that Roxas could hear. He could hear sound of footsteps, raindrops, wind, simple noises like that, but he couldn't hear voices…only the redheads' voice…only Axel's voice…

Roxas was brought back to reality when he noticed Hayner waving a hand in front of his face. He blinked a couple times then frowned angrily at him. "What were you thinking so hard about Rox?" Hayner asked with a slick smile. "Nam?" Roxas rolled his eyes and shook his head no with a simple smile. He turned his gaze to Pence so he could understand. Pence merely smirked and said "as usual…" Olette and Hayner looked at their friends first, then at each other confusedly. They didn't know much about the dreams because Roxas was a shy person. They only knew that they bothered and saddened Roxas. Pence on the other hand, knew all about the dreams. Roxas trusted Pence more than the others because they were friends since they were like 5. Pence knew about Axel and all the dreams which were kind of adding up as a story or movie, which he helped decipher to Roxas. The two felt like brothers…

"Talk about it later, Rox?" Pence asked pointing his straw to him. "Yeah, after school r somethin…" Roxas answered holding up his pizza, getting ready to chomp it down.

-After School-

Roxas quietly walked down the hallway as everyone headed for the exit. Surrounding him were all his friends, but he wasn't paying attention to any of them. He kept thinking of his dreams with Axel. They felt so real. He couldn't help to not think about them.

His main thought was when he and Axel were wearing large, black coats on top of the Clock Tower here in Twilight Town. They talked and ate some sea-salt ice cream. Roxas' all time favorite food. They talked about funny things that happened in their lives and the most amazing. Roxas couldn't stop thinking about what Axel had told him. "Well, my most amazing moment in life—well not LIFE, don't got one, but anyway!..."Roxas slightly chuckled. " The best moment?... (Tsk) was when I met you…" Roxas merely blushed and slowly kissed him."Asshole…" was all Roxas could say.

"Earth to Roxas!!" Roxas blinked a couple times noticing the hand flailing back and forth in front of him. It was his twin brother, Sora, now stupidly smiling at him. "C'mon y' idiot. We gotta go home early. Mom n Dad r comin back from work!" Sora yelled pulling his arm while facing him.

Roxas only cocked an eyebrow and sighed. He wasn't very fond of his parents…hell; he barely even knew them because they were always going on 'business meetings' all around the world. But for a good reason at least. Roxas' family is filthy rich. Sora and Roxas usually stay at home alone for a month or two until the 'rents come to visit for a couple days. They always try to get everything for their two sons, but no matter what they say to Roxas, he never wanted surgery or some kind of machine to help him hear. Roxas was used to being like this and liked the total silence. (Though sometimes he'd wish he could hear his friends' and families voices) But the main reason Roxas didn't get the surgery was because he was scared that maybe the dreams wouldn't be the same… If he heard so many other noises, he might forget Axel's voice or even forget about him completely and that was not a risk he would ever take.

Roxas sighed a deeper sigh and began to walk the same fast pace as Sora before the brunette ripped his arm off.

Soon, the two were standing in front of the large gates to their home. Sora and Roxas went to both sides of the gate and put their hand on the scanner. After the scanner indicated it was them, they put in their passwords. Sora quickly typed 'Riku's Boo'. Nobody but Roxas knew about Riku because Sora didn't want everyone to know he was gay. It would go around the school and all his fangirls would criticize him afterwards and he didn't feel like going through the drama.

Roxas typed in 'Key of Destiny' and soon enough, the large, silver gates spread open and they sped walked in.

Sora quickly unlocked the door and took a quick glimpse around the house to see if his 'rents were there yet. "Mom?! Dad?!" … Sora got no response. "Oh, dammit!" He yelled stomping his foot. "Eh, it's ok Sora. Let's just wait for a bit, they're bound ta show up, k?" Roxas lightly patted his twin on the back as he walked passed to the elevator. He waited for his brother to follow, and clicked the third floor, which contained the two boys' rooms. When the doors opened Sora quickly dashed out and ran to his room. He wanted to be there when their parents would arrive. Roxas only shook his head and slowly walked further up the hall to his room. Once he put a small number password (8,13) he walked into the dark room, throwing his bookbag to the right. He boredly turned on the dim light and undressed.

Once he finished dressing up, he came out wearing a simple large, black T, and blue, baggy jeans. He plopped his hands into his jean pockets and walked down the hall again with his small sketchbook and journal under his arm.

Roxas walked over to the elevator that Sora was waiting in for at least ten minutes and the two made it downstairs in a click of a button.

When the doors opened up, Sora ran out while Roxas took his time and walked away into the living room. As he sat in the living room he began to write in his journal about today's dream.

'Well, this dream was kinda different than my usual ones' He wrote as Sora greeted his parents ever so happily.

'It had Namine' in it, but she was drawing me a picture. A picture of me and Axel. It didn't come out the all time best, but it came out cute. I still remember it a bit. Afterwards--'Roxas was quickly cut off, as Sora slightly folded the page, closed it, and put it on the sofa. He quickly pulled Roxas up to his feet and dragged him to his parents. The two greeted him happily, but Roxas made no attempt to smile. They knew the way he was.

"Back from vacation already?" He asked boredly. The two parents tensed and as usual, denied it. Roxas knew that throughout the years that they don't always go to work as they always say. Most of the time they go on a vacation and Roxas knew this for a fact because he found the tickets and the brochures of so many places they were planning on going to next. They just didn't feel like bringing their children with them. It never crossed his mind to tell Sora about it. It would break his heart knowing that his parents want to get away from him.

As usual Roxas pretended for the sake of his brother that he was at least a bit happy. He really loved Sora and never wanted to see him sad.

He began to conversate with the two and somehow found his way out of the mess. While the parents were about to take out some pictures of where they'd been Roxas faked a yawn and asked if he could go to bed a bit early. Sora nodded happily and let the blonde limply go to his room. He made it to the dark chamber he called his room and shut the door softly. Roxas laid on the door, relaxing a bit at the loneliness that he was ever so used to. After a couple of seconds he moved away from the door and made his way to the bed; journal and sketch book still clenched under his arm. The boy spent half the night writing and drawing out his thoughts of the graceful redhead: Axel.

Please go easy on me if you review. This is my first fanfic EVA! XD So lemme tell you that I'm planning on writing about Axel on some other chapters so give me ideas on how they might meet or his lifestyle.

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