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Chapter five: sweating

"Now, tell me, how was school?"

Emily, Sirius and Remus were sitting in the kitchen, having breakfast. Richard was still asleep.

"School was…" Remus looked at Sirius for a minute. "Very… school-ish." He decided.

"Right." Emily lifted a brow.

Sirius smiled. She looked a bit like Remus, when he lifted his brows. Not in a hot way, but still, a bit the same. Different though, because when Remus lifted his brows, in mockery or disbelief, Sirius had an urge to show Remus what he could do, besides chess without the chess.

"And, how is your family? And your house?" Emily asked, focusing on Sirius, since her son obviously didn't feel like giving her a proper answer.

And anyways, Remus had never told her about Sirius' family. So why not ask about it now?

"Well, my family, they're all nutters. My mom has sex with my cousin, my father lets her, my brother only talks to me when nobody sees, and we have a crazy house-elf, whose biggest ambition is to be decapitated. As for the house, the only part of it that isn't infected by my lovely family, is the library. And even when you're in there, there's a good change you go mad. Besides that, we're a perfectly normal family, living in a perfectly normal house." Sirius smiled.

"Don't mind him," Remus whispered to his mother, knowing Sirius could still hear him. "He's obviously as crazy as the rest of them."

Sirius grinned.

"I'm only crazy for Moony, as you very well know Remus." Sirius said with a wink, Remus blushed a little.

"O, are you now? I thought you were also crazy for Prongs?" Remus shyly grinned.

"Well, that's only to make you jealous, Remus dear." At this comment Remus got even redder, and his mother smiled.

"Well, this said, does anyone want this?" Emily pointed at her plate.

There was a piece of chocolate cake there. They had all had one piece, but Remus' mother didn't want hers. Sirius smiled as Remus' eyes grew as wide as Emily's plate. He certainly wanted it.

"Now, I think," Sirius said, picking up the piece, Remus' eyes followed it hungrily. "That Remus wants it. Here you go Sweety. Eat it. Enjoy it. 'Cause you look so darn cute when you do that." He placed the piece on Remus' plate.

"Hmm, being cute comes in handy." Remus said.

Sirius chuckled and moved his chair closer to the table, and placed his green-sock-covered foot on the edge of Remus' chair, just between his legs.

Remus didn't notice at first, he was too busy eating cake. But when Sirius moved it, softly rubbing Remus' thighs, Remus' eyes grew wide again, and he looked at Sirius. Sirius just smiled happily, as if he was not rubbing Remus' thigh with his foot. As if he wasn't making Remus really hot.

"And what about you miss? You like the house?" Sirius asked politely, totally ignoring the fact that his foot was turning Remus on.

"Well, the house fits us, I believe, doesn't it Remus?" she looked at her son.

Remus just nodded, he was afraid that if he'd talk, his voice would fail him.

"It's not too big, and just perfect for three people. Of course, there's no library here, as you must know, we're not that… wealthy, but we have everything we need. We have our privacy, we have the forest, no one ever comes there, and that comes in handy, right Remus?" Again, Remus just nodded, and his mother continued talking.

Sirius now started rubbing Remus' inner thigh. Sirius' toes started tip-toeing, and he made circles too.

On the inside, Remus was going mad, his mind working top speed, trying to progress what was going on: 'oh God! That's great… no! Remus! Concentrate! Think about something else! Snape in bikini! Yah… that helps.' Remus relaxed a bit.

'Snape in bikini.' Was a huge hit if you wanted to stop yourself from getting hot.

But Sirius didn't give up. He continued making circles, going up and down, and up and down.

'Oh really… now that's just…' Remus didn't even want to think about anything else anymore, he just leaned back, and relaxed.

But then…

'Oh my God!'

Sirius started rubbing, well, more… softly caressing Remus' privet parts.

'Fuck! This is going too far! If you don't do something soon, things will be rising!'

Remus didn't know what to do. He swallowed hard, Sirius grinned as he saw the red blush on Remus' face. Remus liked it. He really did, but with his mother… honestly.

"…anyways, I have to change now, have to get to work in an hour." Emily got up, smiling.

She went to her bedroom, to get ready for work.

In the kitchen, Remus moved away as soon as his mother left.

"You're mad!" He said.

"Oh, am I? why?" Sirius got off his chair and sat on bended knees before Remus. Sirius placed his hand on Remus' thigh, and made figures with his thumb.

"You can't just go and turn me on when my mother's here. That's…" Remus sighed, Sirius didn't really care, he just continued rubbing.

"Well, I'm sorry, I didn't know I was turning you on." Sirius grinned.

"Yah, sure."

Sirius placed his free hand behind Remus' neck, and brought his own forehead to Remus'. Remus looked into Sirius' beautiful, grey eyes. They were a stormy kind of grey, with a hint of blue. Their noses touched, and Remus smiled. Moments like these would last forever, if he had it his way.

"I love you Padfoot." He whispered.

"I love you too Moony." Sirius kissed Remus.

Their foreheads were still touching, and Sirius deepened the kiss. When Sirius pulled back, they heard people come down the stairs. Remus' mother and father.

"Hi…" Remus' father smiled and yawned.

His mother sat down again, she was already dressed, Remus' father didn't have to be at work for an other hour and a half.

"Good morning." Remus and Sirius said.

Sirius stayed where he was, but he stopped rubbing Remus' thigh.

"Do you want tea or coffee?" Emily asked.

Richard sat down next to Remus.

"I'll have coffee dear."

Emily smiled and offered her husband a cup.

"Thank you."

Sirius looked at Emily and Richard. They seemed happy. Emily made a teasing remark about her husband being so sleepy, Richard laughed it away by pointing out that it had been a short night. As she took away Remus' and Sirius' plates, she complained about 'her' Richard never helping around the house, he just grabbed her around her waist, pulled her onto his lap and kissed her, whilst exclaiming that 'his' Emily did enough for the both of them.

Sirius liked to look at them. They looked like a perfect family. Teasing a little, but in the end, still in love. He'd like to have something like that when he was older.

As Emily poked her husband and put the dishes in the dishwasher, Sirius looked at her eyes. He was good at reading people's eyes, and hers spoke of so many things. Trust, friendship, secrecy, 'I like you', 'kiss me', 'need me', 'love me', and so much more. Her eyes smiled, just like Remus' did when he was truly happy. Emily's and Remus' eyes smiled more than their mouths could ever.

Sirius looked up when he felt Remus' hand on his own. Remus was smiling at him, and rubbed Sirius' hand with his thumb. Sirius didn't smile back. He had just realised something. He wanted it. The whole package. The happiness. The marriage. Wedding anniversaries. Sharing a bed. No secrecy. Living together. Growing old together. Die together. All of it. And he wanted it with Remus J. Lupin.

Sirius looked at him again, he stared back, a worried look on his face. Sirius managed to smile a little smile. It was then that he noticed he was still on his knees. He took Remus' hand, and sat on his chair, still holding hands with Remus.

"Okay," Emily began. "Now, I'm leaving soon, but Remus, do you want me to make your bed before I go?"

"Oh, you don't have to do that miss Lupin, it'll be a mess again tomorrow anyway." Sirius' smile widened.

"Now, that's a smart boy." Richard said.

"Thank you sir." Sirius replied.

"So, that's a 'no'?"

"That's a 'no', it'll save you the trouble mum." Remus said.

Emily smiled.

"Well, I'm off then, see you tonight." She kissed her husband, whispered a quick "I love you." Against his lips, and turned to Remus.

"You're gonna be okay? I can stay if you want me too." She stared at her son.

For a minute, Sirius wondered what they were talking about, then, he knew. It was almost full moon, and Remus always got a little sensitive around that time. Sirius gave Remus' hand a squeeze for comfort.

"I'll be just fine mum. And by the way, Sirius is here now. He'll take care of me, wont you?" They both looked at Sirius.

"Of course! For always and ever!"

"Right, 'cause you're only crazy for Moony." Emily winked knowingly.

She gave both Remus and Sirius a kiss on their cheek.

"Bye." She left.

"Hey, does your mum know about the names?" Sirius asked.

"Nope, she's just smart." Remus smiled.

"Just like you then." Sirius then concentrated on Richard, he was lazily sipping coffee, and looked distracted.

"Are you okay sir?" Sirius asked.

Richard blinked, looked at Sirius, then at his son, and then back at Sirius.

"I'm fine, thank you." He smiled a little, and looked at Remus again.

Remus and Richard exchanged looks. Remus shook his head slightly in a warning way. He also mouthed a couple of words that made Richard sigh, and he rolled his eyes, as if to tell Remus he was mad.

Sirius looked at them, they seemed to have some sort of fight, but then a non-verbal one.

Then Richard said: "I'm gonna take a shower." And left without another word.

"Okay," Sirius looked at Remus. "What was that all about?"

"Just something between me and my father, never mind that."

"Right… so… let's go upstairs." Sirius decided it would be best if he let it rest for some time.

Remus would tell him when he felt that it was right. There was no use trying to force Remus into telling. That'd only cause trouble.

"Come on!" Sirius pulled Remus on his feet and up the stairs.

"But…" Remus protested.

"Now, come on," Sirius said "you need too… erm… take care of me." He ended.

"Take care of you?"

Sirius nodded.

"Come on. I'll explain." Sirius dragged Remus into his bedroom.

As soon as he had closed the door, he took off his pyjama.

"My back and… well, the rest." He whispered.

Remus gave him a little kiss.

"Lie down." He pointed at the bed.

Sirius lay down, and Remus sat next to him, and softly caressed his back. He washed it with a moist washcloth, then, he carefully pulled Sirius' boxers down. He washed Sirius' backside too, and kissed Sirius once when he flinched.

"So?"

"It's okay. Just one purple mark left." Remus said and smiled.

"And my ass?" Sirius got a little red.

"Just fine." Remus gave on of Sirius' buttocks a kiss, and helped him get his boxers on again.

Remus lay down and looked at Sirius, who turned around and looked back.

"You're okay." Remus said.

"I'm fine." Sirius nodded.

"Are you sure?" Remus asked.

"Hey! You said I was!" Sirius huffed.

"Yah, but are you?"

"If I wouldn't be, then you wouldn't say that I am, right?"

"Yah."

"So, I'm fine." Sirius tried to smile.

"But are you sure?" Remus whispered.

"Let's just skip the whole 'sure' part. I'm fine, as long as you stay with me." Sirius petted Remus' face.

Remus smiled and then a voice came calling towards them: "I'm leaving now! Bye!" They heard a door slam.

"Was that your father leaving?" Sirius whispered, as if Richard might be standing right outside, with his ear against Remus' bedroom door.

Remus nodded.

"Aha. I need a hug." Sirius decided.

"What on earth for?" Remus lifted a brow.

"Since when do I need a reason? And I'll need a kiss for that." Sirius whined.

Remus rolled his eyes, though he obviously liked it.

"But if you don't want too, you don't have too. I can't make you, and…" Sirius was interrupted by Remus' lips, meeting his.

They stayed the whole day in bed. Talking, kissing, hugging, and just enjoying each others company.

Sirius didn't tell Remus about his thought of the family thing; he should've told him. It isn't good to keep secrets. Certainly not about love.

Remus didn't tell Sirius about the little fight with his father; he should've told him. It isn't good to keep secrets. Certainly not about disapproval.

-

About a week later, Remus and Sirius were sitting alone, in the dark.

"This is cruel." Sirius puffed.

Remus and Sirius were sitting by the edge of the forest, Remus' parents had just left. They were here for Remus' transformation. Sirius didn't like it.

"I don't see how they can just…"

Remus interrupted Sirius.

"Sirius, please. They have to, I could hurt them. And by the way, you're here now, it's okay. I don't mind, I understand."

Sirius nodded, Remus was right, of course he was. He always was, but still…

"Okay, what now? We go into the forest?" Sirius asked.

Remus gave a short nod. So they got up, and walked deeper into the forest. It was pretty creepy. And dark. Suddenly Remus stopped walking.

"Sirius… I think…" Remus didn't need to finish the sentence for Sirius to know what he meant.

The transformation was about to begin. Sirius lay an arm around Remus' shoulder.

"It's okay Moony, it's okay…"

Minutes later Remus and Sirius were gone. Now they were Moony and Padfoot. They'd fight, dog and werewolf. They'd howl to a full moon. Padfoot would be there for Moony. He'd help him through the night. For every drop of humanity Remus'd lose, Sirius'd give him a kiss later. They'd be a wolf and a dog the whole night. They'd find a way to make it better.

-

And then, night and full moon were gone. Remus lay on his bed at home. Sirius had told he'd take care of Remus, and his parents had left the two alone. Remus looked beautiful, even now. He was wrapped in the cloak his parents had brought with them, and was wearing Sirius' sweater. He hadn't hurt himself that much. Some scratches, here and there. But he had been worse. He was sort of asleep. Sirius knew it was only to forget the pain. He knew that Remus always felt sore after his transformations. He also knew, that it wasn't because there weren't many wounds, that Remus wasn't in pain. He took off the sweater and the cloak. Before he turned around to take pyjamas out of the drawer, he gave Remus a little kiss. Remus opened his eyes a bit, and watched Sirius get his pyjamas. When he came back, he smiled at Remus.

"Hi Love. How are you?" Sirius asked softly.

He helped him put on the pyjamas, but he didn't put on the shirt. There were some wounds on Remus' shoulders and chest.

"I'm okay. As long as you stay here with me." Remus whispered.

"Of course Sweety." Sirius kissed his nose, and went to the bathroom.

He came back with a moist washcloth. Remus closed his eyes and let Sirius take care off him. Sirius caressed Remus' chest and shoulders. Remus sighed deeply and relaxed. He loved Sirius taking care for him. Sirius' touches made him go insane. And there was more. He felt safe with Sirius. He needed that. Definitely now. He wasn't feeling so good. Sore, and painful. He needed his Sirius now.

When Sirius was done washing Remus' shoulders and chest, he went back to the bathroom. Remus stayed in bed, lying with his eyes closed. He looked so broken and vulnerable, yet so beautiful and perfect. Sirius got back from the bathroom, and leaned against the doorpost, watching Remus' form. Remus didn't open his eyes, but he knew Sirius was there.

"Hold me?" He asked quietly.

Sirius smiled and crawled into bed. He lay his arms around Remus' waist, and pulled him close. Remus turned around so he could put his head against Sirius' chest. He looked up at Sirius.

"Sirius," he whispered. "Do you love me?"

"Of course," Sirius kissed him on his head. "For ever."

Remus turned on his back and Sirius continued looking at him. He let a slender finger glide over Remus' soft skin, and Remus shivered with desire. Sirius grinned and gave him a soft kiss.

"You like that?" He asked teasingly.

His fingers went over sensitive skin travelling to Remus' bellybutton, going to the waistband of his pyjamas, and up again. Remus nodded, taking Sirius' hand, and kissing it. Sirius came a bit closer, still on his side. He let his whole hand go over Remus' body. From his waistband, to his chest. Rough hands sliding over soft skin. Tilting his head, kissing soft lips. Hands roaming over pale stomach, Sirius and Remus burning up. Remus held on to Sirius sweater, almost desperately, deepening their kiss. There was a serious moment of just kissing and touching, and trying to undress and loving, and then there was nakedness and feeling and burning. Sirius gave a kiss on Remus' ankle going up to his leg. Remus shivered with pleasure, and Sirius reached his bellybutton. He kissed it softly, enjoying the feeling of Remus' skin against his lips. Remus' fingers went through Sirius' long hair, down his neck, and over his strong back.

"Remus," Sirius whispered. Remus tilted his head, smiling slightly. "You want this, right? Because if you want us to stop, we can do that."

Sirius was afraid they shouldn't be doing this. He was afraid it was wrong. But then Remus kissed him, and allowed him to feel him. He allowed Sirius to touch and caress and love. And Remus made Sirius pant and moan and scream. And they moved and thrust and throbbed and made, shimmering, blistering love.

-

"My, Moony," Sirius panted. "I never knew you could be so active after a full moon."

Remus grinned wickedly and pushed Sirius against the bed, kissing him fiercely again. Sirius loved that little domestic side of Remus. Definitely because he knew Remus only was domestic when it came to Sirius. Remus put his head against Sirius, their breathing still heavy, their bodies sweaty and slippery. And right before Sirius doze off, he whispered: "that was way better then chess without chess. I love you Moony."

And Remus laughed and gave him a little peck kiss.

-

Remus opened his eyes when he heard his door creep open. His mother stood in the doorway, looking quite frightened, and a bit surprised. Remus pulled up the blankets, to hide his nakedness. Sirius grunted in his sleep. Murmured something about 'not wanting to'. Emily stood there. Perplex.

"Mom, I…" Remus didn't know what to say. Was this really bad, or minimum kind of bad? Should he apologise for lying in bed naked with the man he was in love with?

"It's fine Remus," Emily whispered suddenly. "I just wanted to make sure you were okay."

She moved away from the door. Remus got out of bed, draping the blankets tightly around his body, and followed her.

"Mom wait!" His mother had already reached the staircase.

She turned around, and looked at him, smiling slightly.

"I'm sorry about not telling you," Remus said. She came closer. "Not about sleeping with Sirius, because that's not wrong, so I shouldn't be sorry."

She lay a hand on his shoulder.

"I don't want you to be upset because I didn't tell you," he went on. "But it wasn't planned or anything. It just sort of happened. He was taking care of me, and then we were touching and all of a sudden there were no clothes. And then it only seemed right to do something with our current nakedness and well… you know," he blushed a deep crimson, and Emily grinned. "At first I thought it wouldn't work," Remus admitted. His mother was here now, so he might as well tell her about his fears. "Me and Sirius. I just figured, you know… we're two people in need for help. And when you yourself are so messed up, it's hard to give aide to others. And that part went better then I ever imagined," he thought about the night he had comforted Sirius in the bathroom. And about what Lucius had done. "I helped him when he had bad dreams, and when the world just wasn't right. And he's always there when I don't feel okay about what I am. Or when my furry problem pops up. He helps me, and I help him, and it worked. And I just realised, that two people in need for help, just might as well help each other."

Remus' mother smiled.

"You're a sensible boy Remus," she kissed him on the head. "You should go back to bed."

And they both turned, Remus heading for his room, Emily heading down. And Remus just smiled; the body next to him, softer than the blankets. And sleep. Sleep, better than it had been in days.

He knew it would be okay, eventually. Remus would make Sirius forget about his hurt, and they would spend the rest of their lives together, forever. Like the moon- and starlight, as it cascaded shadows on their touching skin. They were just meant to be.

AN: when I checked this story, I saw that I had actually already completed the chapter, and decided to end it here. I made minor edits to spelling and some of the sex-scene was altered, as were the last lines. I figured if you guys liked the style it was written in so far, I shouldn't change it too much, since my style is completely different now, from what it was when I wrote this story (this was actually my 2nd FF ever)

Thanks for sticking with it for 5 crappy chapters, and if you have time, check out some of my recent stuff - it's much better, I swear.

Love,

Crazy4Moony