Yes, i know. im an evil demonic child who never udates. I dont care though. I will write when i have a decent chapter. i will not make up some random junk just for the sake of updating. deal with it. There my rant is over. Helooo! im back. and i am sorry for the late update. i was really stuck for ideas. i had the ending all written down it was just getting there that caused my problems.

Enjoy!

She knew why she had hijacked Kanda's soba last now. It was painfully obvious shince she didn't really like the noodles that the Japanese exorcist seemed to live off.

Lenalee pulled her legs up to her chest and buried her head in her knees. She didn't need this right now. She already had two problems that were too big for her plate. But why this? Why now? Why did god play these twisted games played with their lives? Did he enjoy it? Either way… she knew no good was going to come of the situation. That morning, she didn't manage to get back to sleep.

She stayed close to Allen during the final week of his 'corrosion' as it was now known as. And during that time the soon-to-be-Noah had been heavily restrained; despite the fact he hadn't awakened from his coma-like slumber. It had caused the science department a lot of problems at first. Allen kept subconsciously burning through the restraints they placed on him.

Lenalee couldn't help but think it was a sign he was already lost for good.

It had been decided several days after cross's arrival that she would be the one with the job of convincing Allen to stay on the side of the exorcists. Pft. How on earth was she going to do that when she was eventually going to turn into a noah herself?

Lenalee was not stupid. She would have know what was happening to her even with ought remembering cross's explanation of the process. The white holy marks on the shadow's forehead were so obvious even a vegetable would have know what that meant. How had she even got Noah genes inside her anyway? She knew Allen had had the fourteenth's memories implanted in him (although she was beginning to believe otherwise fro what she'd overheard) but as far as she could tell she had not had anything implanted in her… It made her wonder where they hade com from.

she intend to fight it though, this… this… situation. She was still an exorcist. And she would not fall to the same monster that had taken Allen away from her. Her pride wouldn't let her for one thing. Shed get put her all into getting Allen back too… even if her own personal opinion was that it would be a wasted effort.

Allen had the strongest willpower of all of them. And that hadn't been enough to stop the Noah rotting both his body and consciousness away from the inside out.

"Allen, can you hear me?"
"MANA! What's going on?! I cant stop this… I cant take it anymore… this pain…"
"Allen, try to relax, Its almost over. My curse cant hold him in his cage anymore."
"Him? Who are you talking about?!"
"He's talking about me stupid."
"wh… who are you?"
"I'm you, idiot."
"There will be a few moments before he completely takes over… You should use that time to say goodbye…"
"Pft. He's not gonna have the chance, bastard."
"Allen, im sorry… unti-"
"Phew that god for that… the clown-bastard was really getting on my nerves."
"Who the hell are you?! What did you do to Mana?!"
"the clown already told you didn't he? I'm you. Or at least the you you were supposed to be. Not that it really matters. 5 more minuets, and ill be back."

She'd have 20 minuets. That was all. It was a tiny window of opportunity. 20 minuets to bring a dead personality back to life. God was cruel. And the order was asking her to do the impossible. She had no idea how she was going to bring Allen back - her gut instinct was that a few 'I love you' and 'fight this!' statements just weren't going to cut it. She knew she only had a few days left to figure something out… maybe not even that… Only the blue colour of his irises that was closest to the black pupils still retained their original colour.
They were running out of time.

Walking along the corridors to Allen's room she passed The conference room. Hearing a few familiar voices she stopped.

"Cross, were running out of ideas here… It's our only choice!" that was her brothers voice.
"And I keep telling you that we don't have a chance in hell of killing him! We cant even restrain him right now! His power just keeps growing, and its only the tip of the iceberg!"
"Reever, Has Bak completed that formula yet?" That was bookman.
"No, He's completed the basic idea of it, the structure and things, but its too unrefined. It wont be ready for another couple of weeks at least."
"And by then Allen will already have returned to his former glory" Komui sighed. "What did Rouvellier say?"
"either bring him to our side or kill him before he gets to the earl. What else?" Cross grunted
"He says that but he has no clue just how much power the fourteenth has. It's not the showiest ability but it's the most dangerous…"
"Cross, how can fire control not be showy?" Komui asked, slightly peeved.
"That's only a bonus sister-complex. Its not the true ability of the fourteenth…"

"Rhode! It's time to go!" A fat man I n a top hat called out happily.
"Really? We can go get Allen-Nii?!" A girl with purple hair leapt into his arms before scrambling onto his back for a piggy-back."
"Yes, Yes. He just woke up. Though he hasn't completely killed the second persona yet. I thought you would have noticed, considering how obsessed you are-"

The earl didn't finish his sentence since rhode had opened the door to her realm beneath them and he had fallen througfh her trap door.

Allen cursed himself. He could feel himself sliiping away as that other presence took over. He was in agony. He could feel every part of his body being litraly eaten from the inside out… then being painstakingly rebuilt. Even that made him want to srceam. Which he was. It was strange. He knew he was sreaming but it dint feel like he was. He felt as if he'd become detached from his body. And the screams emenating from it weren't because of his own actions.

In the midst of al this thousand of memories from who knew who many thousands of years ago pushed their way into his mind. All from the great flood… others included images of a family… then the sharp pang of loss as one fel to a sword and another two to a strange bloody form… he knew what they were but as the memories swirled around inside his head he couldn't help the feelings of greif wash over him. Someone else was in those memories two. A girl with black hair. Lenalee. Seing her face made him begin to fight again but more memories flooded into him. Terror, loss, anguish, death, and at the center of it all innocence.

He hated it. He could se so cleary now… He had always known the order had some serious faults. Especially recently. But now…

"You get it right?" it was that voice. "You understand now, idiot?"

How could he not? Innocence didn't live up to it's name. It was the complete opposite. So much death… pain… loss… All because of innocence.

Images of Lenalee flashed through his mind. Hiding in corners, using missions just to be together, away from the prying eyes and rules that kept them apart…
All that pain… and for what?
So yet more peole suffered at their hand whilst they called it saving the world?

Somehow he felt himself let go from what he had been holding onto. It didn't seem to be a bad idea anymore. He didnnt know where it was coming from but there was reassurance. Reassurence that by letting go… thre would be a happier ending for them all… for him and Lenalee.

"you won't regret it." the voice said. It didn't sound intimidating now.
"Will it really be better?"
"Yes."
"Lenalee and I can be together? No rules? No restraints? No innocence?"
"Yes" Not a hint of a lie cold be heard in the voice, simply because there wasn't one.
"I'm you after all. I love her too." The voice said softly as he let himself disappear.

The pain was gone. His eyes were no longer blinking uncontrollably. A grin broke across his ash coloured face. He'd finnaly broke through the curse. He could feel some restraints still on him, on his arms. Somehow they had manged to survive the power leakage. He barley had to think to completely destroy them and they instantly vanished in a burst of flame.

'how pathetically easy' He thought to himself. He knew that the restraints wouldn't have any effect on him, but still…
Was that the best they could do?

Deciding he wanted his departure to have a bit more impact he moved himself into a crosslegged position and pulled another flaming sphere from the air, toying with it.
All he had to do was wait. Someone was bound to turn up at some point…

Lenalee's eyes widened. She quickly walked away from the door and down the hall towards Allen's room. Just what was allen going to turn into?! If a side effect of his ability was making the keeping the sience department awake even more than usual by simply burning through the restraints, then she didn't even want to know what his true power was… She stopped when she entered the room where Allen was supposed to be still unconscious.

However instead of being unconscious he was sitting cross-legged on the bed, several small spits of violet flame dancing in the around his left hand - a normal hand. She remained silent as the sparks flitted back and forth both in size and colour. Any form of comunication might break whatever spell was keeping him from butchering the way any other noah would. T the present moment she had no idea if he was friend or foe.

"Ah, Lenalee!" he squashed the flames in his hand, causing them to dissapear. "i wondered where you'd gone when I woke up…"
"y-you knew I was there?" she asked tentatively.
"well, kind off…" he replied absently scratching his left arm. To say it was in bad shape was an understatement. The dark black where his innocence had once resided was almost gone, replaced by an ash grey. Only a few small flakes still remained. The ones whose peeling were causing Allen severe irritation.

"When did you wake up?" She asked, praying she hadn't missed her opportunity.
"Hmm… about 15 minuets ago…" He looked at her directly then, as if noticing something for the first time. "I wondered if that would happen… guess I was right" he mumbled to himself, but not quiet enough to escape her hearing.

"wonderd if what would happen?" had he sensed the noah growing inside her? Road had sensed it before she had so it wouldn't be suprising if allen could too…
"nothing… why are you hovering over there? Sit down… I'm not going to kill you you know…"

She knew he was joking but for some reason she was afraid of how he said it so casually. She hesitated for a moment before moving from the doorway to the bed he was perched on. Almost immediately upon seating herself on the mattress Allen had wrapped his arms around her, head resting on her shoulder. His body was warm… almost too warm…

"I missed you Lenalee." The statement took her by surprise, but it didn't stop her responding by mimicking his actions herself.
"You are Allen right? You're the same Allen right?" she mumbled into his shoulder, wondering where her tears were coming from.
"Pretty much." H replied.

He pulled back slightly and looked into her eyes with his own amber ones. Despite their colour, it was all the confirmation she needed to know he was still hers, and vice versa.
He kissed her.

After the moment of surprise had passed she began to kiss back and ran one hand through his white hair. They fell back on the hospital bed they were sitting on, Allen in a position that Komui would have been less than pleased with above Lenalee. Lenalee had one hand scrunched into his hair, pulling his head closer.

Allen was about to start unbuttoning the front of her exorcists uniform when he sensed a familiar presence approaching. Somewhat reluctantly he pulled away from Lenalee and looked to the centre of the room. Barley a second later road's door appeared. Its doors swung open to allow the Noah of dreams and millennium earl to enter the room.

"Allen!!!!!" The child Noah blurred and was glued to him in a bone crushing hug. "you're back! You're finally back!" She cried excitedly.
"Rhode… I cant breathe…"
"Now now Rhode" the earl chided her again. He seemed to be doing that a lot lately.
"he's only just woken up. And you're suffocating him." He said.

Rhode turned to look at Allen and saw the blue tinge creeping onto the ashen colour of his face. Tears formed in her eyes and she immediately relaxed her grip, apologizing profusely as she did so.

"I'm Sorry I'm Sorry I'm Sorry I'm Sorry I'm Sorry I'm Sorry I'm Sorry I'm Sorry I'm Sorry I'm Sorry I'm Sorry I'm Sorry I'm Sorry I'm Sorry I'm Sorry I'm Sorry I'm Sorry I'm Sorry I'm Sorry I'm Sorry I'm Sorry I'm Sorry I'm Sorry I'm Sorry I'm Sorry I'm Sorry I'm Sorry I'm Sorry I'm Sorry I'm Sorry I'm Sorry I'm Sorry I'm Sorry I'm Sorry I'm Sorry I'm Sorry I'm Sorry I'm Sorry I'm Sorry I'm Sorry I'm Sorry I'm Sorry I'm Sorry I'm Sorry I'm Sorry-"
"Alright! I get it you're sorry! Geez… haven't you learned how to be quiet by now, Shortie? Allen Interrupted, saving not just his own ears in the process.
"I'm not a shortie!!!! Earl-Tama!!! Allen's being mean!!!!!"
"Yes, yes…." He patted her on the back

As the earl comforted Rhode Allen stared at the fat mans bulging stomach as if it was some sort of alien thing he had never seen before. The earl noticed this.

"is something the matter Allen?" He asked, smiling. (not that he could make his mouth form any other expression)
"When the fuck did you get so freakin' fat?!" He yelled, for some reason shocked.
"Allen! Watch your language! There are ladies in the room!"
"fine. When the FUDGE did you get so fat?!"
"That's much better!"
"just answer the damn question!!"
"after that incident I had a brief period of depression in which id did nothing but binge eat."

Allen sweat dropped 'that must have been one he of a binge eat…'

Lenalee had no idea what to do. She had obviously missed her chance to bring Allen over to their side, but as she watched the Noah bickering back and fourth a sense of nostalgia swept over her. It occurred to her that behind all the fighting and bloodshed she had experienced with the Noah their core was their bond as a family.
She got the sense that was what they were fighting for in the end.

Road, recovered from her moment of grief was clinging to Allen's arm as he might disappear at any moment. Eventually she was hugging him again, though not nearly as forcefully again.

"Don't ever disappear like that again Allen. Its not the same without you around…"Rhodes voice was soft, caring even. It was the opposite of when Allen had exorcised Tyki's Noah, but the same.

Lenalee found it strange that one of the most sadistic Noah's could speak in a manner that conveyed som much emotion and warmth. Allen ruffled her hair and gave her a smile that she had only seen him use with Herself and lavi.

"Don't be stupid shrimp. I'm not going anywhere. There's the small mater of payback to attend to. Right?" She nodded but didn't lift her head from the spot in his chest she had buried it in. He sighed and put his arms around her. As he comforted the small girl he looked at the Millennium Earl (who was, at this point, in tears from sentimentality) in a manner that was far from comforting.
Upon receiving Allen's glare the earl stopped crying instantly.

"Ah…. Oh Dear… I'm in trouble aren't I?"
"YOU IDIOT!!!!!!! WHY THE HELL DIDN'T YOU LET MEGET RID OF THOSE TWO WHEN I HAD THE CHANCE?! WETRE YEARS BEHIND SCHEDULE THANKS TO YOU!!!!!!! WHAT DO YOU HAVE TO SAY FOR YOURSELF??!!!!! HUH???!!!!!!"

Allen had never looked so angry in his life. In fact he Lenalee had never really seen him angry except when the Noah had threatened people he cared about, but that was to be expected. sure he had spats with Kanda and Lavi (and occasionally herself) but he had never been particularly serious.

This was on a completely different level.

As these thoughts swirled she didn't notice Komui and Cross enter the room until Allen gave a sadistic smile in her direction. After realizing he was not directing the fear-inducing expression at her she turned to find them standing behind her.

"Ah! Its that redheaded general! Allen! He owes me candy!!!!!" Road cried alerting the three Noah to the presence of the latecomers.
"hello cross! Hope your doing well. Sorry to intrude but I had to come pick up one of the family members. Hope you don't mind." the earl said cheerily whilst Allen yawned slumping down net to Lenalee on the bed again. Road glared at the general.

"yo fatso. I'm very sorry but I cant let you do that since it would cause problems for us. I'm sure you understand." he turned to face Allen.
"nice to see you again brat."
"same to you asswipe"
"didn't I teach you to mind your language?"
"no, you taught that idiot you stuck inside me to mind his language."
"ah. I see." he grunted once before firing judgement the bullet burned to dust an inch before it hit Allen's face.

Seeing an unnecessary war about to break out the earl decided to intervene. It wasn't that he disliked wars. Quite the contrary, they were rather important in his quest. But he was not a wasteful person, and seeing a war break out where it wasn't needed at the time was dug at his sense of practicality.

"dear me, this could turn out badly, Rhode, open your door."

The girl nodded and opened the diamond-patterned gateway whilst the earl man handled the white-haired Noah away from the red-haired general.

"Now now, lets not get into a temper tantrum right now. You have a lot of catching up to do." The Earl said dragging Allen towards the open doorway by the ear.
"And whose fault is that Fatass?!"
"Marion is Right. You need to watch your language."
"Shut up!"

The sound of their bantering could be heard even after the door closed and disappeared.

Lenalee stayed in the room for a long time before Lavi arrived to gently guide her away from the room. She didn't know when she realized she was back in her room. She just hurried off towards the infirmary as fast as her legs could carry her without resorting to using her innocence.

"Lenalee! What are you doing here so late?" The matron asked, seeing the female exorcist at the door to her office, panting slightly.
"I'm sorry to bother you so late but… I need…" she paused to catch her breath
"What Lenalee?" The old woman asked, slightly concerned.
"before I tell you, you have to swear t keep this off my medical records…"
"Alright, what is it?" the matron quickly agreed as her concern welled up.
"I need an abortion…"

Tyki glared at the white haired boy sitting across the table. They were playing a game of poker. And he was loosing. Again. Allen also kept burning his clothes as he lost. He'd lost his shoes, socks, belt, top, hat, shirt, blazer jacket, and his tie. All in the space of half an hour.

"Damn brat! Why the hell wont you loose?!" he yelled at him, finally loosing his patience.
"its not my fault you suck at poker Tyki" Allen said benevolently. He was more interested as to the location of the Akuma maid he had sent for a tub of ice-cream.
"now now children, no fighting at the dinner table."
"Call me a child one more time and I'll roast you alive fat ass"
"yes, yes, yes… calm down child"

A ball of purple fire reduced the earls hat to cinders.

"Allen! That was my favourite hat!"
"I don't care. Where the hell is that damned akuma?!"
"Patience child. Patience."

Allen threw a fire ball towards the mans plate of food.

Yeah i know i already did a fic where allen got lenalee pregnant but i needed something that would give lenalee issues without turning her into a noah, yet. Anyway, the aborion is going to be an issue for lenalee for a while. it'll have a big part her relationship with allen. it'll be the scource of a whole load of angst. so look out for it. just dont expect it to be soon. i want to wait untill Hoshino Katsura reveals some more information o the fourteent. if it dosent come out soon, i might make something up, but i want to use what i can.

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