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Chapter 11 - The Morning After the Night Before

Edward POV

The pain. Oh god the pain.

My heart hurt so much I couldn't bear to even move or think or attempt to recall what had just happened.

All those hopes, all those feelings; for nothing. Nothing whatsoever.

How could I blame my beautiful Bella? I'm not particularly good looking, I'm over protective and probably incredibly annoying and needy. I should really question why she stayed in the first place.

Anger ripped through my body and the burn of rejection coursed through my veins. How could she do this to me? Just leave me here, surrounded by unrequited love tokens and wallow in my loneliness. She's so cold a-and so horrible and so…so damn beautiful! And lovely and the most wonderful woman in the whole of existence!

The tears spilled down my cheeks as I realised I couldn't possibly hate Bella. As a child we had instantaneously clicked and ever since I had always held a special place in my heart for her; from friend to companion, from companion to crush, from crush to utter adoration and love. All I wanted was to prove to myself that someone so wonderful could love me back!

As I gazed around the empty woods, everything seemed to be a little less bright. The fairy lights hanging around the trees seemed to have faded, the sun had completely set and the area was wrapped in the dark cloak of night. All because Bella had gone.

Who cared if I got back home. Who cared if I ever left this desolate place. All I could do was lie on my side, curl up and try and hold my heart together before it crumbled away forever.

The next morning…

Bella's POV

I hate alarms. I whacked my arm out, aiming for my alarm clock that was shrilling loudly in my ear. Once silence fell again I attempted to recollect my thoughts and remember what had happened yesterday.

Oh…

The memories of the night before flooded back to me. The walk home took a good hour and by the time I collapsed in at 12pm, eyes red and breathing raggedly, all I wanted to do was have my memory wiped and to forget everything that involved Edward. But of course that was impossible. Charlie was waiting for me when I came in, although he was on the phone to some woman by the sound of the voice, but immediately he finished that conversation and gave me a hug. This in itself was fairly weird considering Charlie wasn't the one to show physical affection, however I didn't say anything as I just needed to be comforted. In a fit of madness I told him everything as he held me on the sofa, like he used to do when I was young and had hurt myself somehow. But this wasn't the pain you could stick a plaster on and let it heal.

This was almost self-inflicted and most definitely deserved. It was all my fault that Edward was upset and I wanted so much to run back to him and tell him I loved him, and that everything was going to be alright. But if Edward had the slightest chance of finding someone better for him, I had to stop it all now. I had to stop myself now before I couldn't bear to leave him again.

Once Charlie put me to bed, it took me hours until I fell asleep. I think I only had 2 hours sleep but I still had to go into school today considering it was the last day. Oh god, the last time I would see any of my friends again! Why did I decide to go to a university halfway across the country? Why didn't I just pick a local university that meant I could see everyone more often; see Edward more often?

Because at the time, I wasn't completely in love with Edward and I thought never seeing him again would be easy. Pfft, sure thing Bells…

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