Here we are, folks! Last chapter! I hope you enjoy it! And, just a shout-out! I didn't write all of the sex-scene. I feel bad that I couldn't but I had help. Such glorious help! Thank you a billion Robyn! The better parts are done by her. Well, only in the sexy ending. She is an amazing person helping a nobody like me! Thank you!

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They say you will always remember your first kiss. I don't. I don't know who it was with, where we were, or even how old I was. All I know is that it was forced. I never knew love, because no one cared or bothered enough to show me. But I'm not complaining. I'm just stating. I wouldn't have changed my life. Because if I did, I wouldn't have met Roxas.

They also say that your first fuck is supposed to be special. Mine wasn't; I remember that one, unfortunately. I was in the back of a truck. And it was one of Reno's lackeys; he was far from gentle. Left me almost cripple for a day or so.

The thing that sticks out the most in my love life is easily the most enjoyable memory I have. It was in the park. Again. Everything always seems to happen at the park, good or bad.

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It was warm. Still summer, but nearing the end of the holidays. I had known him for a little over two months, but already, I knew he was the one. He made me take things nice and slow, which was weird for me. An actual relationship, where it wasn't all just making out and sex.

Today was one of those rare days that we were alone, Demyx and Zexion off doing Zemyx things and Hayner off shopping with his mom. But I didn't mind the quiet. It was nice to just sit back with lil Roxy and enjoy the sun. But lil Roxy didn't want to enjoy the sun today. He pulled me over to the shade of a tree and looked at me with such cute, pleading eyes that I had kissed him on the forehead. When I pulled back I saw the pout etched on his face. I raised an eyebrow at him.

"Aww. What's up, Roxy? I'm not good enough? You need the others here too?" I pretended to pout. He looked up at me with his big sapphires, shaking his head, reaching for his paper.

I want my first kiss.

"You've never been kissed before?" I asked, shock dawning on my face. He shook his head again and I smirked. "Well, we'll just have to change that."

I pounced on him, chuckling lightly. I slowly, tantalizingly slow, brushed his lips with mine. He shuddered with the feeling, making me smirk. He was so innocent, so fragile. And I was damn glad it was me stealing his innocence. I brushed my lips up harder against his, sticking my tongue out and licking slowly, He gasped as the feeling washed down on him, unknowingly letting me in. My tongue flicked in through the slit and began roving around, clashing with his.

"Momma? Why is that man eating that boys face?" I heard a little boy ask from somewhere nearby.

"Because they are in love, sweetie." His mother answered.

"Momma? Will a man eat my face someday?"

I smirked for a second lost in the moment, forever lost. But all became hazy as I heard someone begin to call my name.

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"Hey, Ax. ... Ax? Axeeel. Axeeeel. AXEL!"

My head shot up, blinking dumbly. I put a hand up to my puff of red hair, scratching tiredly. "Wha?"

"Do you forget what day it is today?! It's Roxas' 18th birthday! Come on! We promised we would take him out!" Demyx prodded, yanking me up in my daze. I looked around the bed, searching for the birthday boy but he was no where's to be found. "Oh, he already woke up. He's down having breakfast with Zexion and Reno. He thought it better not to disturb the sleeping but, hey, you're up now, right! Don't look at me like that!"

I glared at the blonde in front of me, rubbing my sleep-filled eyes groggily. He pulled me up out of bed and pushed me into the bathroom, telling me that he would be down with the others. I stared at myself in the mirror. Two years ago I didn't know the boy that would change my life. But now all I had for those tough times was a small scar where I had been shot and an even smaller spot on my forehead from being whacked in the head with a frying pan. Now that I think about it, I had a pretty fuckin hard life. I put a hand through my hair, brushing it back to get a good look at myself. Had to look great on lil buddies big day.

"Axel! Hurry up! Your eggs are getting cold!" I could hear Reno call from the kitchen. I nodded but then remembered they couldn't see me.

"Yeah, yeah! I'm comin!" I hollered back, splashing some water on my face before heading down the stairs. I took a seat beside Roxas and gave him a peck on the cheek before starting in on my eggs. Half way through a piece of bacon I looked over at him, eating away happily. "Hey, Hun. Happy birthday." He looked at me and smiled wide. "Are we gonna see your mom today too?

He looked like he was deep in thought for a minute before nodding slowly. We both smiled at each other, I'm sure for different reasons. I was glad he was able to have a half-way normal relationship with his mom, even though I avoided the frying pans when I was over. Even though they were okay now, Roxas still opted to stick around my house more. Not that I minded one bit.

"I'm sure she will be happy to see you again." He nodded again going back into his deep thinking phase. That's when he would be at his cutest. His brow would scrunch up and a look of pure concentration would appear.

"So where to first? Roxas' then to the amusement park they just opened, then to lunch at Wendy's, after that, going to the movies to go see that new Azure Paler Then the Sky movie. Remember we saw the first one a while back. Ah! I can't wait!" Demyx squealed, clapping his hands together.

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I think it was my best birthday ever. And Demyx was right. It was a good movie. Everything went perfectly. Even if it was only the four of us. Hayner had to go off with his mom again. But even that was alright.

Sora wasn't home. He was off in England, working with Riku on some big money thing. I dunno. I was just happy that mom didn't shoo Axel out of the house. That was a gift all in itself. She didn't even need to get me the book she did. But I think I will like Empire Leads To Roses. The cover looks nice anyway.

The amusement park was just that. Amusing. I don't think Axel liked the Ferris Wheel. Said something about being afraid of heights. Him. Afraid of heights. I still laugh thinking about it. But it gave us a reason to get closer, ignoring the hateful slurs yelled at us if anyone saw. Zexion even enjoyed himself there and we saw a few of his rare smiles. It was a glorious day indeed.

And now, when I look back upon it, I realize just how great a day it was.

"Hey Rox. You coming." Axel asked me, taking my hand. I smiled. Always accepting me for what I was. For what I was. Sounded so good to say that.

"Yeah, I'm coming." I replied.

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I carried him, kissing him gently, up the stairs into our shared room. I could feel his frail fingers begin to etch across my back. T-A-K-E M-E. I smirked bringing my mouth down to his ear and nibbling slightly.

"Take you? Gladly," I breathed, plopping him down on the soft mattress, discarding my shirt. I crawled on his small body, straddling him gently, lips brushing against his cheek, his ear, his jaw, down to the crook of his neck. I heard a soft gasp as I rubbed my tongue against the pleasure spot. He reared his head back as I began suckling and biting and I knew that if he could he would gladly be moaning a storm right now. I smirked again, lowering my hands to the hem of his shirt, wriggling up towards his chest, pulling the shirt up off his head.

My lips moved down to his nipple; he flinched when they wrapped around it and my teeth grazed the tip. I looked up and saw his hesitant smile through his blond hair. Keeping one hand on the bed for leverage, I moved my right hand down his body, skimming the sensitive skin on his sides. Oh God, everything about his skin was just so needy. Just a light scratch of my fingernail on his hip and he shivered with delight. I smirked, letting my tongue travel down to his navel, playing devilishly. His fingers wove their way into my hair, digging into my scalp in pure pleasure.

I kissed each side of his navel then, dragging my tongue around in small circles. As I glanced up, I caught sight of a worried look in his eyes and raised up from his stomach, tilting my head.

"What is it?" I asked, a little disappointed because maybe he wasn't as ready as he had seemed to be. But he smiled again and unbuttoned his jeans, letting them be pulled off. A smirk returned to my face. That was better.

I slipped a finger in under his boxers, trailing on his thigh lightly as I began to haul off the only clothing he had left. He shuddered again, making me want him more and more. I moved back up to his face, kissing him on the lips, begging for entry which was quickly granted.

He opened his mouth to me and our tongues slid together. I think it distracted him a little as I danced my fingers down along his thighs. I slid them higher and my hand gripped the swell of his bottom, caressing it there. He opened his eyes a little and looked down, a blush racing across his cheeks. I let out a little laugh, one which was probably not appreciated, but he kissed the top of my forehead and leaned back onto the pillows. He watched as I brought up my fingers and licked them carefully, each one dripping in saliva. I trailed the digits down his stomach, leaving wet marks glistening in the moonlight. As I touched the tip of his erection, he turned his head to the side in the pillow and arched his back. I smirked. All that from one little touch. Instead of moving forward, I circled around the head of his manhood and then down the underside of his shaft. His legs shifted on the blankets and his hand gripped the sheet. I decided to stop torturing him and hummed lightly as I pushed the first finger inside.

He squeezed his eyes shut and opened his mouth. I longed to hear a moan as a normal lover would but, of course, with Roxas, there were so many other things. The buck of his hips and the sheen of saliva on his lips from where we kissed. That beautiful blush on his cheeks as if he had something to be embarrassed about. I realized then, how my head was spinning in want at the sight of him all spread out for me like that and pushed my finger in deeper, accompanied by another. He wriggled a little beneath me, this time not just from pleasure. I leaned my head down and kissed his open mouth, closing it on mine. I moved my fingers in and out of him in a steady motion and after a moment, I could feel his body relax and he threw one arm around my shoulders, pulling me in close. Just as I decided to put in a third finger, he rose up and gripped my hand between his thighs. I blinked.

"What?"

He smirked a little and shook his head. I supposed that meant he didn't want another. Instead, he pulled me by the arm until I was on top of him and looking down on his shivering body. I could see my own saliva shining down between his thighs and smiled at it, burying my head in the crook of his neck. I breathed in and out heavily, sitting on my knees between his legs. I felt his hand holding mine and I turned my head, whispering into his ear, "Love you," quickly, before I rocked my hips upward and felt his body constrict around me.

I gripped his manhood, rubbing in time to my thrusts, whispering "I...Love...You" with each. He whimpered a little but began meeting me, thrusting in unison. I moaned as I looked upon his small frame, coming to meet me. Thrusting faster, in, out, in, out, in, out, we reached heaven in a glorious climax. I collapsed onto him, breathing heavily, taking in his sweet scent. So small, so brave. Such a warrior. How much have I loved him, yearned for him, wanted him for all my own? I knew one thing for sure. This is a moment we would both remember for always.

I rolled off him, bringing him close to my chest once I got settled. He smelled so glorious I was lost in it. So lost I didn't hear it at first. It was a just a breath to me. I couldn't decipher anything from it. But it made my ears perk up.

"I love you." It was a breath, yet I knew it had been said. I looked at him in the shadow of the full moon. He was staring at me, eyes watering as my own began to grow moist. "I love you. I love you. I love you."

Each time it got a little louder. He repeated it God only knows how many times. Every time a tear would fall from his eyes. Every time I would hold him closer. Every time I wanted to scream out with joy, but didn't. I put my head in his hair, unable to think of a reason why, after so long he would be able to talk now. He was finally up to an average talking volume and stopped, exhausted and probably sore. But I held him closer still.

"I love you too Roxas. I love you more then you can ever imagine."

And thus, the flames of silence were drenched. Speech overtakes the body, soul and mind.

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End

A/N: Thank you so much for sticking with me all this time! I love you all to death! If you would so kindly review, I would be soooo happy! Okay, I said it before but I didn't write all of that. I had help. I pretty much co-wrote the sex scene. My innocent little brain couldn't handle what had to be done. Haha Thank you again soooo much Robyn (Her Sweetness)! Thank you! Azure Paler Then The Sky is her story! You must read it! It is amazing! But I would advise you to read Songs For A Kingdom Now Lost first! Oh and Empire Leads To Roses is also a really great fic. Maybe now that I added it to the story Sarah (shadow-of-a-demon) will think to update it! Again, I love you all!

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