This is kind of my first actual good fanfic. It's going to have two parts and I would really like some feedback on it so I can know if I should continue writing. thank you.

You take the breath right out of me.
You left a hole where my heart should be.
You got to fight just to make it through,
'cause I will be the death of you.

Breaking Benjamin- Breath

Terrifying.

So absolutely terrifying.

The thought alone kept me up at night. The thought of it actually happening, gave me shivers.

But it happened. Everything went so wrong, and it happened. My secret revealed, and my life torn apart so fast I didn't know what was happening till I was imprisoned by my own friends, Shunned from my own life.

And it was all because of something completely out of my control, something I never wanted in the first damn place.

We we're caught. So obviously red handed we had no lie to cover it.

Love is a crime we can't help but commit. That's what he said before he kissed me the first time. After so long of him trying to convince me to give in, after so long of me denying I wanted anything to do with him. I didn't want to fall in love, I still don't want it.

But now it's the only thing I have left.

We were making out in the bathroom of my high school, and Renji walked in. Ikakku and Toshiro were right behind him, and on seeing Grimmjow they pulled out their swords without a second thought. And I had to fight back. They attacked me and I had to fight back. Fight for something I never wanted. For someone I never wanted, but at the sight of him bleeding and hurt I wanted to kill for him.

I do love him. My worst nightmare had come true, and now I'm stuck in soul society jail waiting to be executed for treason.

Chained and broken all I can hope in is Grimmjow saving me.

All this time I can't believe I couldn't see
Kept in the dark but you were there in front of me
I've been sleeping a thousand years it seems
Got to open my eyes to everything
Without a thought, without a voice, without a soul
Don't let me die here there must be something more
Bring me to life

Evanescence-Bring Me to Life

2 weeks in captivity

Why has he not come yet? Why am I still stuck in this hell? My love where are you?

I'm losing it. I can't stand being locked in an empty room with no food and no sleep, knowing my execution is only days away. I'm slowly losing my mind, and it doesn't help that Rukia comes in every now in then to talk and try to apologize. I want nothing to do with any of them.

I only want Grimmjow.

2 weeks and he still hasn't saved me like he said he would. I don't care if I have to join Aizen, no I want to join him now just so I could see the people who accused me and never listened to my story, suffer. And if not that, then I wish to join him just to be with my Grimmjow. Being in captivity has made me realize that I want no one and nothing but him, I'd never admit it to him but it was true.

Even if he has left me alone with my thoughts sending me to the brink of insanity.

"Where are you? Come and get me you stupid ass! You promised me!" I yelled into the empty room. I continue to yell and scream till the tears finally come. I want to hold them back but I can't, no one is watching so why not. I cry for what seems like hours (really only minutes) before I hear a tearing sound and a whoosh and I'm enveloped in a hug from behind.

"Ichigo, I'm sorry my love." Grimmjow. Now I'm crying out of joy and relief because I'm saved and my life can finally continue.

I'm whole now.

"Why are you crying my strawberry?" Grimmjow asks as he picks me up bridal style and carries me into the portal. Normally I would yell at him about the nickname, but right now I'm too tired. So I just bury my head into the crook of his neck and fall asleep.

Do you know what it's all about
Are you brave enough to figure out
Know that you could set your world on fire
If you are strong enough to leave your doubts

Kerli- Walking on Air

HuecoMundo

I woke up in an unfamiliar white room. I looked above me to see beautiful blue eyes and teal hair. I reached up and ran my hand through the soft hair a few times than slapped him as hard as I could.

"Fuck Ichi! I just saved your damn life!" Grimmjow yelled as he covered his hurt cheek.

"You were late." I replied. And before he had a chance to respond I grabbed his mask and crushed his lips to mine.

"You just woke up and already you're engaging in such acts. I thought you would have at least waited a few days."

"Fuck." Grimmjow muttered as I looked towards the door to see none other than the infamous Aizen. I pushed Grimm off of me in some futile attempt to redeem myself of humiliation.

"Caught twice in the act. I really hope you don't plan to make it a habit, considering the amount of trouble it got you two into last time." Aizen smirked, "Come Kurosaki I believe it's time we talked about your position here." Than left the room.

"You're supposed to follow him Ichi." Grimm stated from beside me on the bed. I rolled my eyes and got of the bed, buttoning my shirt as I followed Aizen down the hall.

"So what do I owe you for letting me stay alive?" I asked.

"Your soul. I just wish for you to join us, whether you wish to be changed into an Espada is your choice. But I do think you would be stronger that way."

"How can I be changed into an Espada? I'm not a hollow." We were at what appeared to be his office. I sat down in a chair across from his and the conversation ensued.

"Yes but you do have a hollow inside of you, I believe if we transform you first into a hollow we could than turn you into an Espada. I am not sure, however, if it will be you though. It is highly possible that your hollow personality will still second to yours after the last change, but your personality might be purged after the first change. I suggest you talk to your hollow if you can, he might know something."

I had no idea what I wanted to do. I knew for a fact that I would still be in control; my hollow explained it to me a while back. The problem was whether or not I wanted to completely give over my soul to the dark side. Did I really want to give up my last chance of returning to my old life? Wait, I had no last chance, my friends weren't going to forgive or believe me anytime soon I would be hunted down and killed if I left. At least by becoming an Espada I had a chance. A chance at life, at love, and at starting over with this new place I was eager to call home.

"I'll do it."