So here is what you all have been waiting for chapter 8!

I'm finally updating after a like seven year break.

I have no Idea where I was originally going with this story but I'm going first focus on Cross and Allen's Noah surfacing. Also I plan on spending more time focused on Kanda and Allen's relationship blossoming. That is the main focus of this chapter actually.

Enjoy!

Chapter 8: Never Sleep Again

Allen was finally feeling better enough to leave the infirmary three days later. Luckily Cross spent those three days drinking and what not and had not come to speak with his apprentice yet. Actually Cross was in town today which was extremely good news for Kanda who wanted to take Allen into his room and finally have that "talk" that Allen had been bitching about.

Kanda of course was dreading this conversation due to the fact that he was absolute shit at talking about feelings and what not. To be honest he was hoping that Allen would do most of the talking.

The two of them sat on Kanda's bed in awkward silence.

"Ok so-"

"moyas-"

Both started speaking at the same time causing the two of them to stop and look at each other. "You go first" Allen insisted but Kanda merely shook his head.

"No you were the one who wanted to have a talk in the first place" Kanda said while frowning.

"Ugh fine bakanda…..ok um so where should I start?" Allen rubbed the back of his head and let out a deep sigh.

"How about you start on when you decided that you …uh l-liked me?" Kanda started off strong but then slowly became more flustered near the end of the question.

"Ever since Mater probably." Allen answered almost immediately startling Kanda. His eyes grew wide, "Wha…? Are you serious? That was the first mission we had! We argued the entire time!"

"Well yeah but you were the first person that didn't treat me like a child." This caught Kanda off guard, of course he didn't treat him like a child he was an exorcist trained by General Cross himself. He was about to argue this when Allen spoke up again.

"That and you let me stay with Lala until she stopped singing." Allen looked up and smiled leaving Kanda bewildered.

"You didn't just leave and you came to see if I was still there." Allen continued.

"I mean even though we fought all the time and you are the most frustrating person alive, you are still the only person I can trust. You and Lavi….." Allen's smile turned to a frown.

"What do you mean?" Kanda wanted to know what Allen was referring to. What did he mean by trust?

"I think somethings wrong with me…" Allen looked down and clasped his hand tightly and Kanda furrowed his brows but let the boy continue.

"After I lost my memories and was injured I began to hear a voice when I was unconscious. He told me horrible things that I hope are nothing but lies. But in case they aren't I know I can't trust anyone with this except for you and Lavi." He looked at Kanda with worry in his eyes.

"I know I can count on Lavi not only because of his passive role as bookman but also because I know he loves me." This of course made Kanda tense up but Allen quickly continued.

"Not the way you are thinking! It's more of a familial bond. Like an older brother or something." The white haired teen spoke quickly to ease the tension in the raven haired boy.

"And then there is you…" Allen trailed off giving Kanda the chance to butt in.

"Then there's me. How do you know you can trust me? I know it's not just because you think you love me or whatever." He spoke harshly not on purpose more out of concern for the young boy.

"No. No it's not just because of my feelings for you." Allen paused and looked down at his hands.

"Do you remember when we first met and you refused to even shake my hand because I was cursed?" Kanda winced when the white haired teen brought this up.

"Yeah about that I don-"Before he could continue Allen quickly cut him off.

"No! It's ok. Really. From that moment on you have been nothing but honest with me and I am assuming that includes when I lost my memories." Allen continued quickly and began to talk about how Kanda had treated him.

"At first you treated me as you always did which thinking back on it now makes me really happy. Everyone else walked on eggshells around me and just made me more confused and made it seem like I couldn't trust anyone. I didn't know who they really were." Allen look at Kanda's face then who held a slight frown.

"But not you. You treated me like you always would and at first it was scary but at least I knew I could trust you. That and even though I couldn't remember who you were I just knew that you would keep me safe." Allen spoke quietly with a smile on his face.

Kanda looked away as his cheeks tinted pink for a moment. "Che and how would you know that?"

Allen shrugged, "Not sure but I wasn't wrong was I?" he smiled and looked at the taller teen.

Kanda just clicked his tongue and turned his head. "Anyway I remember how when I sorta freaked out and you held me in your bed…. And how you cried when you thought I had died." A small sad smile formed on his lips.

"I can still hear you screaming my name. And even though I didn't remember anything you were still my most important person for that first month. It hurt knowing that you thought I was dead even though I was right there. I wanted to call to you." Tears formed in Allen's eyes and he clenched his fists.

"And I remember how I felt when Tyki told me that they had you and Lavi locked up. Then he showed me the picture and I knew that they would kill you either way."

"And even though I had no memories I knew that if anything happened to you…..I would practically die." Allen turned his body so he was fully facing Kanda.

"Now that I have my memories back and everything I can make a valid decision about my feelings for you. I still feel the same as I did when you were all I knew." He held his head high and spoke in a clear voice.

"You are still the most important person to me and I'm pretty sure I love you." With this he looked down and mumbled a few words.

"You're the sun bright and harsh, and completely needed for me to survive."

It was quiet for a while and Allen took this as a negative sign, "I completely understand if you don't feel the same way! I mean you were forced to take care of me and it's not like you've shown any sign of having the same types of feelings as I do. I just wanted you to know so I can clear the air and if you want we go back to the way we were before with no pro-"

Allen was cut off by a pair of lips crashing down on his causing him to gasp which pushed the kiss even deeper. The kiss itself was as if Kanda was trying to portray all of his feelings in this one action alone. Kanda was not really a man of many words. He talked with quick harsh replies and let his actions speak louder.

The two parted for air and Allen sat there bewildered.

"Um so does that mean…" the younger boy trailed off which cause Kanda to let out an annoyed snort.

"Alright listen up. I'm not good with this uh…feelings crap ok. So I'm only going to say this once. These past two months were a hassle." This made Allen raise an eyebrow in question.

"Um…"

"I'm not done. These few months were a hassle but it's not like I hated it. At first I was really annoyed and I hated that you got shoved in my room. But as the days turned to weeks I became accustomed to our routines and it eventually got to the point where I couldn't sleep if you weren't beside me. And when I thought you died…." Kanda trailed off as he clenched his fists. Allen rested and hand on his and urged him to continue, as kanda took a deep breath.

"When I thought you died it felt as if I would never be able to sleep again." Kanda closed his eyes, he felt as if he wasn't explaining this as well as he should have been.

'Shit how should I say this?'

"Bakanda…" Allen spoke which made Kanda look up at him but instead of seeing Allen he was hit with a soft force as the young boy lurched forward and hugged him.

"That's enough! That's all I needed to hear." Tears leaked from the younger boys eyes as he held on tightly to the older teen.

Kanda let out a relieved sigh and raised his hand to rest it on Allen's head. He gently began to stroke the younger boys white locks. He lowered his lips to the top of Allen's head and placed a soft kiss before mumbling into his hair.

"I'm glad you're back." He then raised his head and leaned back in his bed pulling Allen to rest against his chest.

"Me too." Allen snuggled into the older teens embrace and the two of them stayed in that position for quite some time.

Kanda gripped the boy tighter as a thought ran through his head.

'Now how should I handle Cross?'

Meanwhile Lenalee had been holed up in her room plotting her so called revenge.

"This will make it so Kanda will never trust Allen again! And then when Allen's is all broken up about Kanda breaking his heart I will swoop in and pick up the pieces!"

She continued to write while smirking and letting out the occasional chuckle.

Lavi was pouring over hundreds of books in the library clearly searching for something.

He failed to notice the footsteps coming up behind him before it was too late.

Thwack!

"Idiot apprentice what are you doing here instead working on your training?" Bookman slapped the young red head across the back of the head.

Instead of his usual complaining he turned quickly and spoke in a serious tone. "Old man I need everything you have on the origins of the Noah and their collaboration with the innocence."

Bookman looked at the boy shocked, "And why exactly do you want those?" he asked suspiciously.

"I'm just researching. You know just like you always want me to do." He went back to reading the book he had in his hands.

"If this has anything to do with young Walker-san then I must force you to stop." The old man spoke harshly. This of course caught Lavi's attention.

"And why is that exactly?" Lavi nearly shouted.

"We are merely here to record what happens and if Walker-san turns out to actually be of the Noah species then we cannot interfere. Especially since nothing like this has ever happened in all of history. It is a new event and as bookmen it is our duty to stand by and record this events." Bookman spoke coldly causing Lavi's blood to boil.

"That's ridiculous! Allen is my friend! I need to help him!" Lavi shouted as he stood up and towered over the old man.

"Bookmen don't need friends!" the old man shouted back shutting the teen up instantly.

"It is our job to Record that is it! No attachments and no interfering with major events! If you can't handle that then maybe you need to be set straight!" The old man spoke menacingly as Lavi remained quiet.

"Fine whatever." Lavi spat out as he stormed past the older man. Bookmen's eyes softened as he watched the younger boy leave, a sad expression on his face.

"I've grown rather attached to walker-san too boy. Pity." And with that the panda headed up to his room.

Sai: SWEEEEEEEEET! Its 5:00 am and I have finally written a new chapter for this story! I'm going to go ahead and apologize in advanced. It's been about five years since I've read or seen Man so if I got any information wrong I am terribly sorry. Also I want to say sorry about some of the ooc shit going on I'm not used to writing Kanda and Allen's characters and also Lenalee's character was totally botched by my younger self. For some reason I apparently hated her. For the sake of continuity I'm going to keep her character as a crazy butt hurt weenie.

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