You Rock My World

Authors Note! I can't remember the last time I updated this fic! I truly am sorry to you, my awesome readers. YRMW has sort of been a downer for me. I know how it ends but it's trying to get there that's been bothering me! However, being as cool as I am, I have found the solution! It only took me…..2 years give or take!

To DanniLautner - I am so glad that my story has given you the drive to start a charity! If and when you do, please give me full details so not only will I join the cause but put it in all my authors notes to make other people aware! xx

So without further adjure - I give you the next chapter of You Rock My World!

Disclaimer: I own nothing but the books and one of the soundtracks! Yay! Go me! (please note my sarcasm)

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I couldn't believe how different people acted because of what had happened! Some people, like Ben and Angela, came forward, hugged me and apologized for not doing anything to help me! I couldn't understand their apologies as they hadn't done anything towards me. They were the few who would smile gently and talk to me during school projects! Though it was true that they weren't my friends and that they didn't stop the others from bullying me, their small smiles kept me sane! Those small actions made me feel like I was human, whereas Charlie and the others made me feel like shit!

Angela started to cry when I told her that there was nothing to forgive. "You are such an amazing person, Bella! After everything that has happened, and you won't let me apologize! You're a good person, Bella! If you need anything at all, don't hesitate to ask me!" I nodded, dumbstruck, as she hugged me tightly again. I looked up at Edward and he smiled at me as he squeezed my hand in reassurance.

Other people were not so kind and forth coming. Walking down the corridors to my next class was terrifying! Everyone stopped talking and parted like the Red Sea. They started to whisper behind their hands to their neighbours, as I walked hand-in-hand with Edward, or with my arm hooked with one of the others.

I couldn't wait for the end of the day, when I could escape to the Cullen residence and away from the prying, accusing eyes of Forks.

To be honest, I wanted to leave Forks. I wanted to turn my back on my past and just get on with my life, but meeting the Cullens changed everything! I couldn't just leave after everything they had done for me!

Then, there was Edward. Amazing, kind, smart, poetic, sensitive, handsome Edward - how could I ever leave him? Even in this incredibly short time that I've known him, I feel something for him! He got through my barriers and embedded himself in my heart, and even my mind- which was apparent as Rosalie nudged me in Spanish. Blinking, I had turned and looked at her. The teacher was still droning on as Rosalie smirked at me.

"Stop day-dreaming about Edward" My mouth fell open in shock. Was I that transparent?

"How did you….I wasn't!"

She chuckled under her breath, her eyes sparkling. "You had this dopey look on your face, and you just proved it," She smiled at me. "Don't worry about it. Emmett told me that Edward was like that during Trig!" I blushed and looked down at my hands, a smile on my face.

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The bell that signified the end of the school day finally rang, and I was excited to leaving the school corridors behind. I jumped as someone grabbed my hand. Due to the electric current that ran through me, I immediately knew that it was Edward. I looked up to him to see him smiling sheepishly. "Sorry, I didn't mean to make you jump."

I smiled, "It's okay. I knew it was you".

His smile brightened, "So you felt it too, huh?" I nodded, biting my lip as I felt the heat rise up my neck to my cheeks.

His gaze fell to my mouth and his eyes darkened. My breath caught in my throat as he looked back at me. Ever so slowly, he lowered his head and kissed me gently, using the tip of his tongue to pry my bottom lip from my teeth, before soothing it. My hand reached up to cup his cheek as I kissed him back, still unsure of how to act in such away.

He pulled away, giving a lingering kiss to my forehead before smiling crookedly down at me. I totally forgot we were in the school car lot! Emmett wolf whistled before slapping Edward on the shoulder and winked at me.

"Come on, lovebirds! Let's go home!"

Esme and Carlisle were in the living room, sitting and talking when we entered the house. They smiled as they saw us, and Esme jumped up and hugged each of us. She kept her arm around me as she smiled brightly. I was led over to the couch and all but forced to sit. Esme sat beside me, her eyes watching me. "How was school, Hun?" I looked away.

"It was okay, I guess. It was strange…."

The others sat down as Emmett scoffed, "Forks is filled with weirdoes! No offence, Bells! They just stared and whispered. Angela and Ben seem cool though," Esme frowned and hugged me gently. Emmett continued, "And I tell ya something - those three shitheads are going to get a beating soon! Ow; sorry babe! Sorry Esme!" he rubbed the back of his head where Rosalie had slapped him, as Esme glared. Everyone but me laughed at him and shook their heads.

Carlisle cleared his throat and shifted slightly before speaking. "Who were you speaking about, Emmett?"

It was Rosalie who answered, causing Emmett to pout as he wanted to be the one to tell the story, "Jessica Stanley, Mike Newton and Lauren Mallory. They totally have a problem with Bella. I wanted to bitch slap those two skanks!"

I didn't want to hear what they had said about me, so I stood and told Esme I was going to lie down for a bit. "Would you like me to get wake you for dinner?" I nodded before walking slowly up the stairs, ignoring the eyes that watched me go. I closed the door to my new bedroom and breathed heavily, before kicking my shoes off, crawling under the covers and closing my eyes.

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It seemed like minutes had passed since I closed my eyes, when I felt someone stroking my cheek gently.

"Bella, it's time to wake up. Come on, Sleeping Beauty. Awaken from your slumber." Lips brushed against mine, coaxing me to open my eyes. Smiling, my eyes fluttered open to reveal Edward's beautiful face looking down on me, as he leaned over my body. "Good evening, Aurora. Would you like to accompany me to dinner?" I nodded and he stood upright, pulling me up with me.

Esme is an amazing cook. The lasagne was simply divine! I cleared my plate and sat back happily!

"Thank you, Esme! That was delicious! It was the best lasagne I've had since my mom…." I cut off and looked down at my plate, feeling sick as I thought of my mom. I put my hand to my stomach as it churned. Memories of my mom lifting me up onto the kitchen counter as a child, before dancing and singing around as she cooked dinner. I swallowed hard as the memory made me choke on a sob. Edward clasped my hand in his and squeezed gently. I looked up to see everybody looking at me. My eyes burned with tears. "Sorry…." Esme stood from the table and came round to me before kneeling at my side.

"Sweetie, there's no need to apologize. You should remember your mom and all the good times you had. I have never met your mother, but from what I know of you, I bet she was a strong, beautiful woman who had a beautiful soul. Am I right?" I nodded, the tears falling down my cheeks. She wiped them away with the pad of her thumbs.

"But it hurts…." Esme became blurry as more tears filled and spilled down my face.

"Oh, baby girl, I know. But you are so strong! You can't lock away memories without dealing with them, otherwise they will come forward all at once and you won't be able to deal with them properly." I nodded but my tears wouldn't stop. "Come on, let's go into the other room, and you can tell me all about your mom. Would you guys clean up for me?" She took my hand and pulled me into the other room, not waiting for a response from the others.

Esme hugged me tightly before we sat down. I laid my head on Esme's shoulder as she kept her arm around me. Esme was so easy to talk to. Even though I didn't want to talk about my mom, I knew she was right - which could explain my mini breakdown during dinner.

Once I got talking, I couldn't stop, "Her name was Renee. I look like her, but she was so much prettier than me. She used to cut her hair with kitchen scissors, saying that it was too much hassle. She was always smiling, whenever Charlie was out. She was so carefree and happy when he wasn't there. I never knew he was hurting her till I was older and saw it firsthand." I took a deep breath before continuing, "She used to make everything a game. Cleaning the house, cooking, being quiet when Charlie was home. She always made it fun, and there's was always a prize and I always won. I never realized it was a game of Life and Death. God, I was so naïve."

Esme tsked at me. "Bella, you were only a child. You weren't old enough to know what your father was like." I shrugged slightly. It didn't make me feel any better.

Sniffing, I wiped my tears away. "You smell like her, you know. Sweet….like cookies? I guess it's what good mothers smell like. I hope…if I ever get the chance to be a mother…I hope I smell like that. It's silly, isn't it? But you've given me a chance to think to the future. You gave me hope. I could never repay you, for what you have done for me. I owe you so much!" My eyes were closed as I spoke, feeling emotionally drained, but they flew open as Esme's arm retracted and I felt her body shaking. Esme had her hand to her mouth, as if holding back a sob that wanted to break free. Tears were falling down her cheeks as she stared at me. She grabbed me and pulled me into a tight hug. I hugged her back, ignoring the burning sensation from my ribs.

"Oh, Bella. No one has ever said that about me!" She squeezed me before letting go and wiping her tears away. She brushed my hair back. "Everything is going to be okay, Bella. And there's no need to pay us back. You are a part of this family now and we are not going to let anything happen to you, I promise. You are safe here, with us." She spoke with such conviction and sincerity, that I wanted to believe her, but I knew Charlie better than anyone. He wouldn't rest till I dead. For that, I was sure.

The doorbell rang, disturbing my thoughts. Esme patted my hand before standing to answer the door. A couple of minutes passed and the murmur of voices rose. I could hear the anger as Esme nearly shouted "What do you mean he's been spotted, but keeps evading you!" My heart stopped and the room started to spin as I couldn't breathe.

Oh no…..Charlie…They didn't catch him.

A sob broke free as I wrapped my arms around my body, and continued listening, "Mrs. Cullen, can we discuss safety procedures for Bella and your family somewhere a little more private than your doorstep?"

I walked into the hallway and stared at the Feds that stood just inside the doorway, drenched by the usual Forks' downpour. Esme turned round, and when she saw me, I could see the pain in her eyes.

"Bella…." I shook my head at her. I turned and ran down to the music room and slammed the door shut. I sat at the piano and cried. Why was he doing this? Why couldn't he just give up? His secret was out and everybody knew what scum he was, so why couldn't he just….hand himself in? It would have been better if I was dead. The Cullens should never have gotten involved. What would I do if one of them was hurt because of me? I couldn't live with myself if something happened to them!

Time ticked by and it seemed like forever before my tears stopped. Words started to spin together and create a song, and before I knew what was happening, I was singing my pain out. I put everything I was feeling into this song; I just needed a release.

I tried to kill the pain,

But only brought more(so much more)

I lay dying

And I'm pouring crimson regret and betrayal

I'm dying, praying, bleeding and I too lost to be saved?

Am I too lost?

My God, my tourniquet

Return to me salvation

My God, my tourniquet

Return to me salvation

Do you remember me,

Lost for so long

Will you be on the other side,

Or will you forget me?

I'm dying, praying, bleeding and screaming.

Am I too lost to be saved?

Am I too lost?

My God, my tourniquet

Return to me salvation

My God, my tourniquet

Return to me salvation

(Return to me salvation)

(I want to die!)

My God, my tourniquet

Return to me salvation

My God, my tourniquet

Return to me salvation

My wounds cry for the grave

My soul cries for deliverance

Will I be denied

Christ

Tourniquet

My suicide

(Return to me salvation) x2

I slumped down the wall, feeling exhausted. A movement caught my eye and I saw the Cullens standing in the recording room, and the recording light was on. I wiped my tears away from my face and looked away from them. I didn't want to see the pain that was so evident in their eyes and on their faces. It was just too painful.

The door opened and Edward all but ran to me. He dropped next to me and pulled me into his lap, cradling me against his chest as he kissed the top of my head and stroked my hair. He was whispering, over and over, tears falling down his cheeks as he rocked me….

"Don't leave me"

Authors note

Yes! *air punch* another chapter down! I know I'm a crappy author, not updating but things were hectic…..you know what…I'm not going to give an excuse. I should have updated and I didn't. I apologize. Also, something has been going on with fanfiction, as it wouldnt let me post this until now! Strange! Howver thanks to a friend, who is also a fanfiction author! Thankyou, doll! xxx

I should be updating more often now. Life is easier now. I've left school, got a college interview at the end of the month and I should be doing my Reiki 2 course in the beginning of April! Things are finally going my way! This story WILL be finished soon, I promise! Only a few more chaps to go!

Give thanks to my awesome Beta, Maestro! xx

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