Hi, this is my first star wars story...I will write more is theres feedback...this is like an introduction to the story...so it wont be a constant confession...we go into flashback time...sorry really stupid summery but i like this attempt...please read this and review this and enjoy this...i do not own star wars, or any of the characters mentioned in this story...only george lucus does

Intro: Confessions of a Jedi

Yes, yes, you're right, he was my apprentice. I'll admit it; Anakin Skywalker was mine to teach, to meld, and to shape, into a Jedi. Some believed he would become the "chosen one."

You know, the one who would bring balance to the Force. What was that? Oh yes, of course, I know he did eventually bring down the Emperor, but that is not who he was for twenty some years.

You ask how could I let such a great potential Jedi fall into the dark side? I, Obi-wan, great Jedi Knight, how could I let my best friend turn into an evil villain?

Yes, I knew, of course I knew. He fell in love. It was as simple as that. Do any of you know what it is like to be in love? Or do you know what it is like to love someone you could and would never be with?

No, do not give me that look. I am a Jedi. I know the Jedi do not love, do not like, do not feel. We flow with the Force, that's what Master Yoda used to tell me. We go with the wind until we can control and master the wind. Well, that's how I look at it.

Anyway, we were discussing the subject of love. It is a feeling, an emotion, which twists and turns men's souls. The Jedi are scared of that. Well, wouldn't you be? You're trying to control the Force while going through these, "emotions."

How do I know? Do you really want to know how I know these things? I fell in love. I fell in deep, head over heels, love. So I know when my apprentice fell in love too. Oh of course I knew, he was my best friend. He could never keep anything from me; at least he couldn't keep something like this from me.

His feelings were exactly like mine. I…I couldn't reprimand him. His secret would have been shown to the entire world. Everyone would know. They'd make him leave the Jedi Order. She would have to leave her position in the Senate with shame. I could not let that happen, not to anyone, especially not to my best friend.

So I lied for him.

I kept my mouth shut and watched as he fell deeper and deeper into his love. And I had to watch her love him…and not me. For I loved her too, long before he had ever even heard of her. I met her the day she became queen of Naboo. Then I was simply a Padawan learner. I had fresh white robes, brown cloak, and one foolish sixteen-year-old boy who knew of nothing except what the Jedi had taught him.

I loved her from a distance while my master and I saved her planet. I worshiped her and adored her secretly. And the girl had no idea. Yes, I know, I hide my feelings away in my soul until they rot away and leave me feeling empty.

At last when the mission was over, and I took on my own Padawan I was resolved never to think of her again. She would no longer appear in my dreams to haunt me and taunt me. I would never think of her again with any sort of love. She was a being like every other being.

And after a time, I convinced myself that I felt nothing for her anymore. The years went on, and with a new apprentice to teach I was kept very busy. I did not think of her at all, that is until ten years later, when she walked back into my life again.

Sooo...what do you think...should i keep it up or forget about it and delete it?? love to hear what you think