Chapter 15 ASR Revisited

by lightpathetic

ZERO awoke to find that a pair of hands and lips were gently, but insistently, exploring him. He couldn't believe Kaname was ready yet again. Zero had just fallen asleep after the long session Kaname put him through doing just what he said he wouldn't do if he told him. Zero was still hoarse from all the yelling he did, trying to withstand the sensations that tore through his body. Now he was exhausted and … Zero moaned as Kaname ran his finger nails up his inner thighs followed closely by his lips. What was he doing? Zero body arched uncontrollably as Kaname nuzzled him; shoving his fingers into Kaname's hair as Zero tried to pull him away as Kaname started to...

"Kaname wait. Kaname! UUUUHHHHH! Oh GOD!"

Zero's head shot back against the pillow, his body writhing impatiently, as Kaname tentatively began to stroke his length with one hand while the other held Zero firmly to the bed. Kaname watched this intently; fascinated with Zero's reactions to what he was doing, his eyes darkened from desire. He loved how Zero's silver-gray hair fanned over the cream, silk pillowcases that had been his mother's, his long neck revealed in the diffused light from the drapes. It felt so right somehow, that they should make love for the first time here in his mother's bedroom away from the world. She would approve, he thought. She would know how much he loved Zero to bring him here.

Kaname closed his eyes and dipped his head to Zero's stiff, velvety flesh. He had never done this before. Well, never on another man. Of course he knew it was the most sensitive part. He knew what to do but… No, thought Kaname, pushing away his reservations. If Zero was moaning now he was dying to know what he would do if he…

Zero tried again to pull away as he felt Kaname's lips on him. He was kissing him, running those stunning lips along his length.

"No! Kaname…" Zero protested, again trying to remove Kaname's firm hold on him. It was like trying to bend a steel girder with a toothpick.

"You don't like what I am doing? Your body says otherwise..."

"It's strange. I am not comfortable…"

Kaname met Zero's eyes. The last thing he wanted to do was hurt Zero. He wanted to obey his wishes, to not force him. But he knew that Zero wouldn't be physically averse to Kaname pleasuring him, the issue was his being touched for the first time by…him.

"You don't want me to continue?"

Kaname smiled a little. It was meant to be reassuring but with the hint of mischief and the glimmer of carnal intentions, it ended up being as sexy as hell. Zero swallowed audibly and looked away, more than a little shaken. He found Kaname sexy. Kaname Kuran. But then they both knew that, considering the rather large hint that Kaname was currently almost absently stroking. Still Zero tried to stop him.

"I… It's just… It's a little too fast… I'm not sure I'll respect myself in the morning..."

"Zero." Kaname interrupted firmly, but still with that devastatingly handsome curl to his lips, "I know you want this. You can't hide that from me…"

"I know what state I am in...!! Dammit, will you let me up?! I can't talk to you like this…" Zero demanded, referring to the ludicrous situation of their speaking with Zero's… um… "issue" between them.

"Is this better?"

Zero sucked his breath through his teeth as Kaname slid very deliberately up his body until they were at eye level. His length had been very carefully caressed by Kaname's torso and stomach and now was crushed into Kaname's equally prominent arousal leaving no doubt that Kaname too was... enjoying himself. Kaname looked into Zero's eyes holding his gaze easily, as the tip of his tongue came out to lick away some of Zero's pre-ejaculate that was still on his lips. Zero was transfixed by this action, shuddering involuntarily as he subconsciously registered that Kaname liked his intimate taste and what else Kaname could be licking. And then there were his eyes. They still held the sexy, mischievous gleam but now there was something else. A challenge.

You are mine…

Zero groaned and closed his eyes. Kaname wasn't in the least bit uncomfortable with this. Damn him. But the sad thing was it was turning him on like nothing else. Come on Zero Kiriyuu, he thought desperately, this is Kaname Kuran! Start thinking with your brain…!

"I love the way you taste, Zero." Kaname whispered in a deep, husky voice as if he just knew what Zero was thinking and wanted to sabotage Zero's last ditch attempt for sanity, "What if I just licked you slowly at first? If you don't like it, I will stop. What do you say?"

As if he seriously expected him to say "No". Especially as Kaname had begun to circle his hips in a way that made thought impossible. Zero cried out and collapse into the pillows again. Damn his hormones, damn this bond. Damn whatever was making him so weak!

Kaname took this as consent. He slid back to his original position and first teased Zero by rubbing his hands over him, then he lowered his mouth and…

Zero nearly leapt off the bed.

"Kaname!! I can't… Shit!!"

Zero's head whipped from side to side as Kaname treated him as if he was a delicious, frozen dessert. Zero was in heaven when Kaname ran his tongue from him his base to his tip slowly, but was plunged into a beautiful hell as Kaname thrilled against and into his tip. Zero began to sob and whimper. His hands fisted the sheets and Kaname's hair alternately until they were both twisted, tangled, sweaty messes but neither one cared. Zero was mindless and Kaname's entire body ached and throbbed each time Zero so much as winced. Kaname was barely in control. He was nearing a brink of his own…

Zero began to push at Kaname's head during one of the hellish episodes and Kaname obliged, realizing he wanted it more than anything. His long tongue curled sensuously around Zero's tip and pulled him into his mouth. Zero screamed as he registered the almost unbearable heat of Kaname's throat, the tight passage hugging him lovingly and firmly as it mercilessly began to wring the life from him. Zero was no match…

"Kaname!! I'm… Oh God!!"

Zero tried to pull away but Kaname held him and began to pump. He didn't know why he wanted this so badly. He didn't think he would particularly relish the taste. Or that it was a particular turn-on. He just knew he wanted all of Zero. He didn't want him to hide anything from him, didn't want him to save him from anything pertaining to him. He wanted no secrets, no lies, no illusions. He wanted Zero laid bare to him. As if they were one, as if they couldn't exist apart. Kaname sucked greedily, egging on Zero to share it all with him, his pleasure, his excitement, because it was all his as well.

"Fuck!! FUUCKKK!!" Zero screamed as he lost his battle entirely. He body shook uncontrollably as a long, exhausting climax racked his body. His toes curled painfully as he shuddered, his back arching as his chest heaved from his wonderful exertion. It seemed to last forever especially as Kaname was still drawing on his deeply…

"Kaname…"

Zero winced. He was beginning to feel sore…

"Kaname. Kaname!! That's enough!! It hurts!! Kaname!!"

Zero hit Kaname over the head and again when Kaname didn't stop. Zero began to struggle and finally Kaname "released" him.

"What the hell are you doing?!"

Kaname didn't answer. His face was buried in Zero's stomach. He didn't move for a long time. It would have been okay except for the fact that Kaname was very tense. His fingers dug into the sheets, his body knelt, seemingly coiled before a strike. And then, there was the aura…

"Kaname?"

"Jero… I need to…thoo this. Thrust me, please. I won't hurt you…"

Zero felt Kaname's mouth on his stomach. It felt like a rough but warm, wet kiss. Zero after the initial discomfort, relaxed and moaned. He loved when Kaname used his fangs that way… His lower stomach was insanely sensitive. The muscles began to spasm from the stimuli. But Zero was still exhausted.

"Kaname! Give me a moment...!" Zero protested weakly as Kaname began to make his way up Zero's body, still… kissing… Zero tensed as he smelled fresh blood… Where was that coming from?

"Kaname look at me. Kaname!!"

Zero tugged at Kaname's hair, pulling painfully. Why wasn't he responding…?

Suddenly Zero hands slammed into the mattress of their own volition. Then Kaname raised his head…

"No. NO!! Stop!!"

Zero began to struggle. His stomach… He couldn't believe it!!

"You bastard!! Let me go!!"

Kaname moaned, but the sound was inhuman, almost feral. His deep red, glazed eyes lidded in his face drenched in Zero's blood, his fangs dripping with the same. He took one hand and rubbed it, almost reveling in the feeling of blood covering his skin. The claws on this hand lengthened, just before he drew them deliberately, again and again, across Zero's chest. Zero screamed in pain as Kaname watched, his face registering deep fascination and pleasure. He dipped his head to Zero chest and lapped greedily at the blood, while his hands roved over Zero's warm body scoring him with his claws, drawing multiple slits of blood…

"Kaname!! Stop this!!" Zero screamed, desperately. He pulled uselessly at his hands but they didn't respond. They were miles from anyone. He was trapped with no hope. It was just like that night. Kaname was just like that thing. He was no better. Even his love made no difference to him…

"You goddamned monster!!" Zero sobbed, his tears filling his eyes, his hurt palpable as his words came haltingly, "I was right!! You are no better than an animal. I hate you. I hate you!!"

Suddenly Zero was alone. Zero sat up in surprise but the urgency soon crept into his limbs. Tugging clothes from the floor he made a dash for the door. Soon he was down the stairs and running for the front door. He didn't care how far they were from… anything. It was better than here. Zero was sure now. Kaname had brought him here to kill him. Maybe this relationship was too inconvenient for him after all.

Zero ran out onto the front lawn. He spun comically trying to gauge what to do. Should he try to take the car? Should he keep to the track? Should he take to the forest? Kaname had the keys to the car. He supposed he had better…

"It makes no difference which way you go. I'll still catch you. You might as well stay and listen…"

"Go to hell!!"

Zero ran in the opposite direction to the open doorway and the curiously clean, clothed and composed pure-blood standing in it. He looked almost normal but Zero knew better, didn't he?

Kaname watched Zero with more despair in his heart than he had ever felt since his parents' death. He and this stupid lack of control where Zero was concerned. He should have explained what he was doing before he did it but Zero was so enthralling, so irresistible, so delicious… Then Zero's orgasm had sliced right through him like nothing else... Kaname ran his hand through his hair as his body began to betray him at the memory. Focus! Control! Zero…

Zero was almost to the forest when he saw Kaname in front of him. He screamed in frustration and changed direction… only to see him again in the distance. Kaname was toying with him. The bastard was toying with him. Zero stopped. He bent and picked up a large stone. Kaname "appeared" in front of him.

"Go ahead. Hit me. I deserve it."

"Don't come any closer!!"

"I won't. I won't touch you. Please listen. I won't hurt you ever again. Zero, I am so sor..."

"Liar!! You tried to kill me!!"

"I was not!!" Kaname countered loudly, forgetting his grief in his hurt and anger, "What the hell are you on?"

"You are just like Him. You are all alike…"

"No!! It wasn't like that…!"

"He did that same thing to me!! You monster!! Stay away from me!! Let me go!!"

"Zero…"

Kaname's hands visibly shook at Zero's words. It was the only thing that scared him. The only thing…

"Zero, I am sorry I scared you, but look at yourself. If I was trying to kill you I doubt you would be running around like this. You wounds are shallow…"

"Keep away!!" Zero screamed as Kaname tried to approach, "You are toying with me like he did. You all are sadistic bastards!"

"No!! Dammit! Listen to me!!"

"No, you listen!!" Zero yelled hysterically, brandishing the stone, "Get out of my way!! Get out of my life. I never want you near me…!"

"I was making love to you!!" Kaname shouted, suddenly losing his cool. He had to stop him. Explain. "I was making love to you on my mother's bed the way vampires do, the way pure-bloods do!!" Kaname screamed, drowning Zero's tirade, his desperation bringing Zero to a halt more than his volume.

Zero looked at Kaname in surprise. Kaname didn't look like some crazed predator. He looked flustered, embarrassed and very desperate.

"What?!"

"Your blood... drives me crazy. I love it: the smell, the taste, the feel. When it is on my skin I lose my mind. Your wounds make me orgasmic…"

"You are not serious…"

"I am deadly serious. I had nicked you with my teeth while we were… making love and then I was so out of my mind with lust I couldn't stop myself…"

"So you begin to rip my skin to shreds?! That's your idea of showing your love?! You knew what Rido did to me, Kaname! What about when I began to struggle and begged for you to stop?! What about when I began to cry…?!"

"Dammit Zero! What do you want from me?! I made a mistake! A stupid mistake! But it was only because you make me insane with wanting you; only because you stripped away my control to the point that I resorted to being myself… You won't understand what I was feeling, the compulsion I felt because of my need for you. You will have to trust me on this one. But that's the problem, you don't!"

"Don't make this about me! How the hell was I supposed to know? You wouldn't say anything and then there was a huge gash on my stomach!"

"Yes…" Kaname muttered his eyes traveling to Zero's stomach as if in a daze. Zero began to feel as if he was naked.

"Kaname…" Zero growled warningly.

Kaname shook his head. The shower hadn't helped much.

"I'm sorry. I'm still a little… frustrated…"

Kaname smiled disarmingly, his embarrassment showing, and Zero felt his anger and fear leaving him. It was true. If Kaname had wanted to kill him he would have done it by now. Easily. Zero looked down at the stone in his hand and dropped it quickly, truly disgusted with himself. If you could kill a pure-blood with a rock they wouldn't be such feared creatures…

Kaname saw this and nearly shook from relief. He step forward tentatively, as if trying not to spook a nervous animal, but drawn to him nevertheless.

"I'm sorry, Zero. I do love you. I should have explained. It was just I was afraid you would say 'no', and I was so turned on. I thought, 'just a little' and then I couldn't stop, especially when you started struggling… But there never was a danger of my really hurting you. Never. Believe me."

Zero stood there and looked at Kaname. He was astonished to find he actually believed him. What that creature had done to him… he would never forget, would never live down. That thing he would curse to the end of his days. But Kaname. Kaname was… Kaname. His love…

"I'm sorry too, Kaname. I feel so stupid now." Zero thumped himself on his stomach. The wounds had mostly healed already although he still looked gory. His blood… Kaname found his blood exciting? It sounded so strange, but then, he was dealing with a whole different species. But, Zero began to realize the more he thought about it, the more he liked the idea.

"Can we go inside now? This light is killing me…"

"Oh!! Of course!!" Zero came up and took Kaname's arm and pulled him towards the house. It was late afternoon, but the sun was still high over the horizon. For Kaname who saw very well in the dark and threatened him with bodily harm when he turned on a light, it was probably murder on his eyes. Zero led him quickly quite forgetting that Kaname could have gotten them there much more quickly. But Kaname didn't forget. He adjusted Zero's hand so his fingers could thread into his and let Zero lead him home.

"My blood excites you?" Zero asked, still fascinated.

"Yes."

"You mean…"

"Yes." Kaname said quickly before Zero could say it. He was in enough trouble.

"How much?"

"You know that orgasm you had earlier?"

"Yes?"

"We would laugh at those."

"Oh."

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lightpathetic wrote this but these are not my characters. I am grateful to VK.