Band Practice

Chapter 1

Bella's POV

I was facing my bedroom window, looking out at the gloomy weather of my hometown, Forks. The fact is that I knew it was there, but I couldn't see it because of the tears streaking down my face, which meant I didn't know which the rain droplets were or my tears. I was sitting on my purple bed, with my purple guitar placed on my knee. Lyrics were in my head, but I couldn't bear to write them down or sing them aloud because it would only make the truth more unbearable. But it was time to face the music A/N: No pun intended there!. I begun to sing the lyrics aloud, keeping in tune, something I couldn't do seven years ago, when I was ten. I was thankful for those singing lessons.

Edward looks at me, I fake a smile so he won't see
That I want and I need everything that we should be
I'll bet she's beautiful, that girl he talks about
And she's got everything that I have to live without

Edward talks to me, I laugh cause it's just so funny
That I can't even see anyone when he's with me
He says he's so in love, he's finally got it right,
I wonder if he knows he's all I think about at night

He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only thing that keeps me wishing on a wishing star
He's the song in the car I keep singing, don't know why I do

Edward walks by me, can he tell that I can't breathe?
And there he goes, so perfectly,
The kind of flawless I wish I could be
She'd better hold him tight, give him all her love
Look in those beautiful eyes and know she's lucky cause

He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only thing that keeps me wishing on a wishing star
He's the song in the car I keep singing, don't know why I do

So I drive home alone, as I turn out the light
I'll put his picture down and maybe
Get some sleep tonight

He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only one who's got enough of me to break my heart
He's the song in the car I keep singing, don't know why I do
He's the time taken up, but there's never enough
And he's all that I need to fall into...

Edward looks at me, and I fake a smile so he won't see.

"Bells, that's beautiful." Rose exclaimed. She was standing beside Alice, whose tears were wrecking her make-up. I hadn't notice them come in. They walked over from where they stood to hug me. Just like he used to.

"Thanks." I whispered. We hugged until we remembered about band practice. We all jumped up at the same time. I looked at them and asked if they would pick an outfit and do my make-up. Though I didn't put effort into it, like I used to, I still wanted to look nice. Alice and Rose picked out my favourite black skinny jeans, purple silk wedges and a matching ¾ length top. Underneath I wore a black vest top. My make-up was done within minutes. I now have purple smoky eyes with a clear lipgloss. Rose curled my hair while Alice slipped on purple and black bangles. Perfect. I picked up my purple electric guitar and left my room. Charlie wasn't in so I left, locking my misery in my house.

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I walked into the Cullen's garage and sat on the white futon. Alice and Rose followed behind. Jasper and Emmett were head banging to the tune they were playing on the bass and drums. Edward was strumming his electric guitar. He looked as if everything was perfect, but it wasn't.

Jas and Emmett left their head banging and walked over. We hadn't seen each other in just under a week. "Bells, you all right?" Jas asked. Emmett looked over to his brother with disgust. Alice hit his head.

"What a stupid question to ask Jasper!" We all laughed.

"No, Ali, it's alright. I'm fine Jas, thanks for asking." I replied. I looked at Emmett and Jasper and I knew Jasper and Emmett would never cheat on their girlfriends. Unlike their brother, Edward did to me. We were best friends, all of us. Emmett, Jasper, Edward, Alice, Rose and I. We had been since I moved here four years ago, when I was 13. We met at school when Alice was my "buddy". Basically showing me where to go. We became great friends and it grew from there. Edward and I both felt like spare parts so we tried dating. Everything was perfect, at least for me. Then my heart broke when Edward cheated on me. If he'd dumped me, we'd still be friends. But he didn't, he cheated. I walked on him and the hottest girl in school (after Rosalie and Alice of course) Mira, making out on the futon in the garage. The one I'm sitting on right now.

I jumped up as I remembered what happened here a week ago. Everyone looked at me, including Edward. I looked right into his shining, emerald eyes. The stopped shining when guilt overcomes them instead.

"I'll be back in a minute." I mumbled.

Then I ran. Out of the French patio doors and into what the Cullens call a garden. Everyone else calls it a forest. I slowed down when I came to the space between the trees. I continued walking as far as I could until they came looking for me. At that precise moment they decided to look for me. I ran as fast as I could with wedges on. As it was in my nature to fall and possibly bleed, I fell. By accident not purposely. I did that daily and had already done it once today. I crawled around the other side of the oak tree and pulled my knees up to my chest. My hands were catching my tears which were now streaming down my face. I looked up and saw a branch. Being me, I knew I shouldn't do it, but I did. I undone my ribbons which were holding my shoe to my foot and threw them as far as I could which wasn't far. I climbed to the third lowest branch and sat with my back to the trunk. I looked to the north and saw Alice and Rose picking up my shoes.

"They are Gucci!!" Alice cried. I laughed as Rose hit her around her head.

I looked to the west and saw Emmett and Jasper waddling in waist-high water in the river. They were trying to get to the other side. Jasper pushed Emmett and he landed in the water on his butt. Emmett stood up and chased Jasper. Jasper then fell. They began to wrestle in the water. This was the funniest thing I've seen in weeks. I clutch my sides and begin to cry with laughter. I lose my balance then fall from the 18 foot branch I'd been sitting on. I began to scream which caught my best friends' attention. They ran over to try and catch me. I waited for the thud which would mean I land on the floor. But it never came.

I looked up into those sparkling, emerald eyes. I wish the floor had caught me, not the monster holding me.