Choices

By Team XTC

Only because Sensei no Petto is taking a lot longer then I expected. XD This story will be updated whenever I get a break from Petto... expect a seriously long chapter for the second installment of Sensei no Petto.

The Thing I Lost

"I'm going to break up with Fate-chan," I confessed to my best friends with a deep sigh. They all looked at me with a shocked expression, but did not say anything. "I just, y'know, don't swing that way. It was a big mistake on my part anyways. Never should have said yes in the first place."

"You're going to... break her heart." Hayate muttered quietly, her cerulean eyes hidden behind her hair. I looked at her with a melancholy stare, but I couldn't blame how she was feeling now.

With a heavy sigh, I looked away from the other brunette and stared at Arisa, who had a slight glare in my direction, she didn't speak to me. "I'll hurt her even more if I keep leading her on like this."

"Well, it's your choice, Nanoha, it really is." Suzuka replied, her voice semi distant. She kept quiet after that.

Sighing again, I turned to Hayate and frowned. I felt really bad for her, honestly I do. She really likes Fate in the like-like way, the way Fate likes me. The grip I had on the hem of my skirt tightened as I forced myself to look at the other blue eyed girl. Fate should have confessed to Hayate, not me... but I accepted anyways, even though I knew of my other best friend's feelings towards the blonde.

"H-Hayate-chan, are you okay about this?" I asked her quietly.

She didn't reply.

Sighing again, I pulled out my cellphone getting ready to hit Fate's speed dial. Though I really didn't need to seeing as how the girl in question walked into the classroom following a teacher diligently. Her long blonde hair tied up into two cute pigtails, her bright burgundy eyes shining with excitement as the teacher spoke with her. There was a tiny smile on her timid expression, her tiny voice escaping from her cute lips.

I heard Hayate's quick intake of air as she stared at the adorable blonde, who would definitely turn into a gorgeous young woman in a few years. She stared at Fate longingly, wishing she was her's and not mine.

'She can have her...' I thought morbidly.

"Ah, thank you for the help, Fate-chan," the teacher quipped with a contented sigh. She placed a large stack of papers on her desk and turned to Fate, who did the same as she not to long ago. "I wouldn't have been able to carry all of these photocopies all by myself, at least without making a second trip."

"It was no problem what so ever, Sensei." Fate said quietly.

"Anyways, I'm sorry for taking up your lunch hour like this." the teacher apologized.

"Like I said, it really was no problem," Fate replied quickly. "Um, I have to go now okay? Ishikawa-sensei, wished to have a word with me about something."

"Ah, the music teacher?" Fate nodded.

"Said it was rather important, so, I guess I better run huh?" Fate giggled cutely as she turned to leave the room. She caught sight of us and smiled, but that was all.

"Fate-chan..." Hayate mumbled quietly, her voice raspy, her breath clearly stolen away by the blonde with the pretty red eyes and silky blonde hair.

Even after all of the courage I pulled summed up, I couldn't follow Fate to break it off. I was glued to my chair, glued to my moral support, or what ever was left of it. 'I have to do it today, no more putting it off.' I thought to myself.

I didn't see Fate for the rest of the day, but she did send me a text message asking to meet me after school, she had something to tell me.

Fate and I met up behind after school. She had me in a tight embrace, just loving the feeling of us being close together. The smell of her hair was intoxicating , her cheek against my own so feather soft. I slowly wrapped my arms around her, quivering as I summed up the courage to break the heart of such a tender girl.

"Thanks for meeting me here, Nanoha." Fate said happily.

"Y-Yea, no problem," I stuttered as we broke the hug. I shifted my eyes away from her and gulped. "Ne, can I speak first?" I asked her.

"Sure thing." Fate chimed with a smile.

Frowning, I found the ground more stable then my own mind. "Ne, Fate-chan, l-let's... break up," Fate's eyes went wide, her mouth opened slightly, a quiver or two here and there, but she seemed to be taking the news calmly. "I-I've been thinking about this a lot, and well... I-I, this was a big mistake. I'm sorry."

"B-But why?" Fate asked me, her voice strained, obviously forcing back the tears. "You said you felt the same way, did I do something wrong? I'm sorry, but please don't do this to me!" she pleaded.

I looked away and closed my eyes before saying, "Like I said it was a big mistake. I shouldn't have led you on like that," I paused and looked at my soon to be ex-girlfriend, "you should have asked Hayate out, she really likes you."

"Sh-She-I like you though, Nanoha!" she screamed, her petite voice finally exploding with life. "I've always liked you... only you." she whispered as tears finally met the daylight.

"I'm sorry Fate-chan, but, I can't go out with you any more," I dared to say, "still friends?"

The sobs that racked Fate's body stopped, and then she just kind of stood there, lifeless. "Y-Yea, friends."

"Okay, so we're okay?"

"Yea. Okay," Fate turned around to leave. "I have to go talk to Ishikawa-sensei again... sayonara."

"Okay, bai-bai."

The moment Fate was finally out of sight, my body began shaking for some unknown reason, my heart aching, crying out for some odd reason. I fell to my knees, crying harder then the day Fate confessed to... me. I cried when Fate confessed to me, but why? Oh well, doesn't matter anymore, we weren't together anymore, and life can go back to the way it was.

The day after we broke up, Fate only stopped by the classroom to drop a note off to the teacher. The teacher seemed sad the moment she read the note, but Fate just smiled at her and left, not once looking back at me or anyone else for a matter of fact. After that she didn't show up for three days, and during those three days... I haven't stopped crying. I made my second mistake breaking up with her, the moment she looked at me with those sad burgundy eyes, I felt like I had just ripped her heart out and crushed it in front of her. At that very moment, not only did I crush Fate's heart, I crushed my own. My denial covered up the reason why I accepted Fate's confession, why I broke down into tears and ran into her arms repeating the words yes over and over... I felt the same way as her. I've always felt the same way.

My tears wouldn't stop the moment I found out why Fate didn't come back, and won't ever come back. The important thing she was so eager to tell me about, it wasn't that she wanted to break up with me as well, she wanted to tell me about the career offer she received from big shot music label. She had rejected the offer, but was still so excited about it, proud that she could have amounted to something, but opted to stay with me instead.

She just wanted to be with me, but I was so scared, so now she left me behind.

Those three agonizing days turned into more days, then those days turned into never ending weeks, and those weeks turned into a couple of sleepless weeks, then heart wrenching months, and then a lifeless years.

Nanoha, can you meet me at the end of school, behind the school? I have something really important to tell you. :)

I had crushed the hearts of 3 ten year old girls in a time span of three little words.

"Let's break up."

NO!

That's the end of "chapter 1" xD. Chapter 2 will be up soon. It will be just as short.