Disclaimer: I forgot how much I absolutely abhorred writing these. -_- I don't own Pokemon. It's not mine.
Note: I suppose I'm back from the fanfiction graveyard. I had intended on focusing on my love for Digimon and start fresh, but since I always intended for this to be the final chapter of To Tell the Truth, I decided to just sit down and write it. Even after the, what, 2 years? that I didn't post this, this had always been my intention on where this story would go. I know it's short, especially for being so late to post, but I hope it gives those of you who ever thought about it in the back of your mind every once in a while a nice closure for it. I know that I always like reading the ends of stories that had been jilted for so long because I really do think about them once in a blue moon. So, I guess what I'm trying to say is, enjoy!
May looked at herself in the mirror for the fiftieth time that day. She knew she looked beautiful, but she didn't feel like it inside. This was supposed to be her day, the best day of her life, but all she felt was anxiety. She had asked Dawn to be her bridesmaid because they were friends and she didn't want any of this awkward mess to get in the way of their being friends, but now she was so worked up over seeing her again. What would she say? Would she be upset? The thing that bothered her the most was the burning question in the back of her head: Would things be different if Dawn had contacted her sooner?
The obvious answer was yes, of course. They would have seen each other for however long it ended up lasting, whether that be for a few months or a few years or their lives. But in the end of it all, would she still be marrying Drew? The thought of confronting Dawn for the first time in person since that day at the dock made her wonder if she would regret her choices. She didn't have to opportunity to go back once she took the plunge.
May loved Drew, end of story. He cared for her, wanted the best for her. He was strong, smart, and devilishly handsome. They had fun together, but had the capacity to build a sturdy home and family together.
But Dawn was her lust. The thought of Dawn used to make her go wild with desire. She never had that with Drew. When they made love, it was caring and gentle, never wild and needy. May wished that she could have one day in a parallel universe where time stopped here and she could test out her wild fancies for Dawn.
Instead, she got to sulk on her wedding day.
As she adjusted her tiara, a knock came at the door, "May, can I come in?"
May turned around and saw Dawn sneaking through the door. She closed it lightly, but didn't look at her old friend. May's heart broke a little, but she tried to maintain her composure.
"Hello, Dawn."
"May… I—"
May smiled, "Dawn, I don't think we should say anything. I'm getting married today, and I don't intend to change that. I know this is hard, hell it's tearing me apart inside, but we shouldn't complicate it. I'll say that I loved you, in some form of the word's meaning. You were my first real love."
Dawn didn't respond, but she nodded and locked eyes with May, "You look beautiful."
May smiled a weak, pained smile, "Thank you. You look lovely, too. I wish we could have known what we could have been."
May turned around and fixed her tiara. Once she turned around again, she wore a smile that faked a comfortable friendship, "Let's just forget about all of this, okay? Today is a celebration, not a funeral."
Dawn gave a lopsided smile and nodded. She hugged May the way friends do when they are congratulating them on tying the knot and then suddenly, they were kissing.
It was a light kiss, nothing fiery, nothing passionate, but it would do the trick. Despite telling herself it was done, she had to know. She had to know if she was missing out on something that would be really special, more special than anything the world could offer her instead.
When she pulled away, she was smiling. She gave Dawn a look of apology, both for the kiss and what she was about to tell her.
"I'm sorry I did that, Dawn. I know I said we should put it behind us. I had to know. I felt so strongly about you for so long and I didn't want to live with any regret," May blushed a bit, pushing a stray lock of hair from her face. "And now I won't. I'm sorry to tug you around like this, but I'm still getting married. I didn't feel anything."
Dawn was so confused she was verging on tears, "I understand. I don't blame you. I'm sorry. I don't want to cry on your wedding day for my own selfish reasons. I'm going to go freshen up a bit, redo my make-up."
She paused at the door.
"You really do look beautiful."
May sighed as she watched Dawn leave. She felt like such a selfish jerk for playing with Dawn's feelings, but now at least the two of them could really put it behind them, no regrets. She recalled her stray hair and called in Misty to help perfect her look. She wanted Drew to see her today at her absolute radiant, because after the next few months, their lives would be far too busy to care about appearances. She thought about Drew and lightly rubbed her stomach. She resolved to tell him about the kiss, fairly certain he would understand in context. She would be open and honest about her feelings, and then lack thereof for her dark haired friend.
Norman poked his head in and beamed at his daughter.
"You ready, angel?"
May smiled at her father and stood to join her arm in his, "Yes. I'm ready."
~End~
I know it wasn't exactly the ending a lot of people were hoping for, and it's certainly not a happy ending for SapphirePearl shippers, but I enjoyed writing it. Kind of that bittersweet feeling. I hope you still enjoyed it, too, even if it wasn't the ending you were hoping for. ~arisachu