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Roxas (Battlefield) January 3002

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Day 10

I can't even come to describe how stressed I was by now. Everyone was constantly hungry and tired, yet their spirits drove them to go on. I felt stupid. All of this was my fault. I was the one who'd come up with this 'brilliant' idea, and now the others were willing to die because of it. I'd deluded myself; told myself that we could escape and live normally. I had also deluded everyone else. I was leading them towards their deaths.

Even though that's how I felt, I didn't say so. It was too late to turn back, so the best thing to do was to keep going. So I had to hide my doubts and be strong for these guys. I also had to be strong for my baby. I just couldn't give up on her. Not now. Besides… everyone else was staying strong. I could not be the one who gave up. No matter what I told myself, I couldn't stop the heavy and depressing force that tore at me from the inside.

Axel remained optimistic, though it was obvious that something bugged him as well. Maybe my vibes were making him gloomier? I hoped not… I already disliked myself enough without effecting Axel. I hated myself enough without affecting anyone.

As you can imagine, we were walking. Man, everyone was getting sick and tired of walking. Well, all except for one: a guy who didn't mind as long as he was surrounded by bearers.

"Yo, Rocks-ass," Marluxia chirped, coming up beside me.

I huffed at his stupid nickname, "What?"

Yeah… and Axel was probably giving him a death glare just like all the other times Marluxia had spoken with me.

Marluxia grinned, his eyes sliding up and down my body. I merely cocked an eyebrow, wondering why he couldn't irritate someone who didn't mind his antics. Not that anyone like that came to mind.

"I may not own a library card, but that won't stop me from checking you out," he said with a wink. I remained mute, rolling my eyes at his unnecessary quote. Seriously, this guy had a new line he'd use against me everyday.

Axel's fist clenched and he growled under his breath dangerously. I sighed. Why did Axel get jealous when he knew I liked him? It wasn't like I'd leave him for Marluxia… Ugh, I didn't understand breeders… Not at all.

Axel took a step towards Marluxia, tapping his shoulder provokingly. "Hey, get away from my mate, puss-cake," he snapped. Before things between them could get worse, I grabbed my mate's arm and tried to pull him away from Marluxia.

"Come on, Axel. Cut it out," I told him, trying to sound firm.

Axel snorted, clearly annoyed, "Oh, you mean you don't mind it when people like him flirt with you?"

"Axel, I never said anything like that," I protested, raising my voice at him.

I noticed Marluxia slowly fall behind us, re-joining Aqua and Ven, who he'd been walking with before.

Axel jerked his arm out of my grip roughly, a sour look overcoming his facial expression. "You don't have to say it…" he muttered, making me glower at him. I couldn't believe he was being like this! It was so stupid!

I rubbed at my temples, sighing again. Was this how it was going to be? He was going to be all pissy with me over Marluxia? He obviously was irritated. I mean before this. Yeah, Axel didn't appreciate others trying to hook up with me, but he'd never once taken it out on me. Maybe whatever was irking him from before was just making his reaction towards this more dramatic then it should have been. Maybe…

Either way though, he didn't have the right to throw around his accusations.

I crossed my arms, ignoring him from there on out by quickening my pace and going on ahead of him. He didn't bother to catch up and talk to me, even though he could have with ease with those long legs of his. I was kinda relieved while at the same time I was disappointed. Oh well. Maybe it would be better if we had some time to cool down anyway… not that it was difficult to cool down in the middle of the winter.

We all continued to walk until we decided to stop for our lunch break. We had a bit of food left, but it wouldn't last us much longer. If we wanted to save enough food that would last all of us for another few days, then we'd have to cut back on our already poor portions. No one was receiving enough calories.

Everyone found a place to sit or stand and quickly scarfed down the small amounts of food that were given to them. Even though many of us finished before we knew it, every stomach was left unsatisfied. The only one who ate differently from the rest of us was Hayner. Sora made sure that he got to eat more considering he carried a baby.

As I gobbled down my own food and felt the refreshing water that I drank shower down my incredibly dry throat, I noticed Axel staring over at me from where he stood against a tree. He was several paces away from me, his arms crossed. What did he want? His expressionless leering was making me feel uncomfortable. I wanted to eat the rest of my food in peace. I let my eyes flicker up to glimpse at him every now and then, wondering if he was still looking at me or whether I was merely being paranoid.

I became aware that I wasn't being paranoid when I caught him watching me every time I peered up at him.

I finally inhaled deeply, picking myself up off the fallen log that I sat on. I decided to finally confront my ogling mate. I came up beside him, resting my own back against the tree trunk that stood behind us. It took me a few moments to speak, but once I did, my voice was calm. "Let's not fight," I stated serenely, fixing my stare directly ahead of me. However, I could still feel his eyes on me. I soon added another statement considering he never responded to my first one, "Besides, what's fighting gonna solve? We need to find Kohana."

My head finally whipped around to look at him when he laughed bitterly, shaking his head. "The baby, the baby, the baby!" Axel yelled, "All you care about is the baby! What about us! What about the others! We've got bigger things to worry about, Roxas!"

So that's what was seriously bugging him? I should have known considering he seemed to grow sourer whenever I mentioned her. What was his problem! What else was I supposed to do? Not care or worry about our baby? Our baby! I mean, Axel should have been concerned too!

My frustration returned to me, especially when he continued angrily, "All you ever do is obsess over the baby!"

What a stuck up prick! How the hell could he even say that? Oh, he was gonna get it from me. I'd knock him to the end of next week!

"Are you fucked up or something! You're Kohana's father!" I retorted, and trust me; I had so much more to say to him.

But I was suddenly cut off by a voice that made me freeze up, absolute fear overcoming my entire body. The blood in my veins began to suddenly run cold as if someone had injected ice water into them. Let's just say that the fight between Axel and me was definitely over.

"Yo, Nobodies. You know, you were a pain in the ass to catch up to," an unfamiliar, amused female's voice reached my ears. I swung my head around towards the source of the intimidating voice. Three people who were not a part of our runaway group revealed themselves, walking towards us slowly. Two of them were blondes and the other was a redhead. All females. And get this- one of the blonde's was that white-dressed girl who I saw back in the laboratory.