Don't Throw My love away

Chapter 1

A Crash Course in Polite Conversation

A/N This is my first fanfiction so I would love the feedback, I would love to hear what you think please enjoy. It is probably terrible lol.

Disclaimer: I do not own any of the OTH characters they belong to Mark Schwann.

Summary: Nathan and Haley are separated sharing custody of their son Jamie, things are difficult yet their trying to make it work for their son. But will that all change when Haley gets a boyfriend? This is a Naley fanfic, Rated M for later chapters and for this story lets just Carrie went away peacefully.

Nathan Scott lie awake in his bed gazing into the darkness hearing the echo's of what use to be, what should be. He thought it would get easier but it hasn't finding that he can't sleep his head replaying the events of the last view months.

Flash Back

Nathan steadily walked up to Haley hoping she'd hear him out. Look, I just wanted to say I'm sorry. Haley exhaled. Aren't you tired of that?

You shouldn't have to apologize for who you are. Not anymore right? I've been thinking a lot this week. And I knew who you were when I married you and what I've realized is that it's not fair. Nathan stood there in shock not knowing where this was going. Not knowing what to say to make it right. What are you saying? I'm saying that it was wrong of me to try and change you I'm the one who's sorry I shouldn't have tried to change you or us. And now… now… I'm done trying.

I'm done trying. After almost 5 years of marriage he never pictured he and Haley at this place. He loves his family to death. But there he lay with nothing but empty memories. Knowing that a rambunctious four year old will be in his presence tomorrow for the weekend he tried to block everything to finally get some sleep. Nathan awoke to the sound with his cell phone going off. Hello Nathan said in a groggy voice. "Hi Nate did I wake you?" "Hales, no I was just waking up." Nathan said happy to hear the sound of her voice. "Look do you mind if I bring Jamie over a little early today, I've a few errands to run… You know I hate to do this to it's just I have to meet Peyton at the studio and …" hales your rambling. I'm sorry. "Hales he's my son I love spending time with him, you know make up for the lost time." Haley could hear the sadness in his voice. "Nate I know that this has been hard on you. Hell on all of us." Nathan put his head down knowing exactly where she was coming from. "No, I didn't mean to guilt trip you it's just I miss having things the way… He thought before he spoke I was wondering if maybe I could keep him another night next week." He waited for the silence to clear which what seemed like forever. "Yeah I think that would be good for him he misses you". Like I miss you Nathan thought. "Great I'll be there in a half an hour." Bye. Nathan quickly got up to go take a shower, as the water slowly run down his body he couldn't help but think.

Flash Back

There it was what I've been trying to tell her for weeks what has being eating at my conciseness.

You look me right in the eye and you said that there was nothing else. You said,

"There was nothing more" Jamie looked through the window hearing his parents yell it

Scared him. He picks up his ball focusing making five free throws in a row. And I've been

through a lot with you Nathan. I've been through better or worse sickness and health but I will not do infidelity. It wasn't like that, okay. I wasn't into her. You call kissing Carrie and watching her swim naked not being into her? I didn't kiss her how many times do I have to tell you that? It wasn't me. It was Carrie don't you see that? No it's always you when are going to learn when are you going stop make bad choices that threaten everything we've built?

Nathan was brought out of his thoughts realizing that his son would be there any minute now. He quickly went to his bedroom and put on a blue button down Polo with some shorts knowing that was Haley's favorite shirt. Then just like clockwork the doorbell rang, "I'm coming" Nathan said as he went towards the door. "Daddy!" "Hey Jimmy-jam how's my boy? Nathan smiled at the animated young boy as leaped into his arms. "Hey Nathan" He could have sworn his heart jump out of his chest. "Hi Hales" Just looking at her in that strapless black dress was making him go crazy the blood starting to head south he quickly shook it off. "Uh I think where going to go to the river court today how does that sound. " Yah" Jamie exclaimed. "I packed him an extra set of clothes and some dvds so he should be fine. Going over to Jamie Haley hug him in a tight embrace "Bye baby I'll miss you and be a good boy for daddy." "I will Bye mama I L-O-V-E you" "I L-O-V-E you too smarty pants". Giving him a big kiss "Thanks Haley I bring him home Sunday afternoon at around four."

As Nathan closed the door, Haley stood there and press up against the door. Part of her still missing him, god why did he have to wear that shirt she thought to herself. "So buddy I was thinking you and me go to the river court and go grab some ice cream." "Let's go daddy, we can team up against uncle skills." Nathan laughed at his little boy's enthusiasm at the headed out the door into the car. After strapping, Jamie in he started to take and noticed Jamie staring at him. "What you goof." Jamie giggled and flashed that trademark Scott smirk. "I was just… wondering if you saw how pretty mama looked? Perfect ten huh daddy?" " You bet son perfect ten." Nathan said keeping his eye on the road, "Daddy are you ever come home?" Nathan turned knowing just home much this was killing his son. Looking him in the eye, he said "I hope so."

At The Studio

"So what do you think Haley?" Peyton asked Haley as she playfully bumped her, "Mia is awesome I can't believe how good her album is coming along" As they took a seat Peyton noticed a look on Haley's face but wasn't sure if she should ask. "Hales this is all you, you saw Mia's talent, and soon that is going to be you." Haley looked down at the floor, "Haley what's wrong, come on tell me." "It's just I don't Know if I could can do this record Peyton." Peyton Jump up, "What! Why this is your dream." " I know but Jamie has been going the enough with the separation… I just can't do something like this now." Peyton nodded, "Look I get it completely but Jamie is a tough kid and I think he'd be happy for you." Haley listened, "I Know but after the separation I'm already the bad guy and this it make it worse especially when I tell him about Michael." Nearly choking on her water "what!" she spat out "you haven't told him you've been dating Michael?" "I know I should have it's just…" "Hey I know you don't want to hurt or confuse him." Peyton looked at Haley,"He be upset sure but he love you he get over it." Haley turned and said "but I not sure Nathan will."

So there is the first chapter hoped you liked it. Pleases review I would love to take suggestions