Want
I want to break these rules.
Your
hands are cold and warm at the same time. I think they have always
been like that. You could break me and save me in a single grasp.
And
how you do, Xena... How well you do that now.
I want to turn back time.
You stop me with more than your voice. It is the inevitability in your eyes that makes me pause. It is that hidden knowledge, that bit of wisdom you forgot to share with me... How clear it is now.
I want to not care. I want to run.
And I won't find your smile in these ashes, no matter the vows you make. You will slip away with the sun as if you were a dream. And I won't be able to find you... How will I ever find you now?
I want to scream. I want to fight. I want to fall apart.
You
stop me. All the times you kept me from dying... and now, in these
haunted mountains... you let me go.
You
let me go, Xena.
And
if I could pound your chest, if I could dive down into the fire, if I
could follow you to the other side...
I want to break these rules. I want to turn back time. I want to not care and to run and to scream and to fight and fall apart... I want you to hold on forever. Don't let me go. Not this time. Please, don't let me go...
And
you stop me. And I allow it.
And
you let me go.
Our
faces reflected in this pool of water and I see the mirage of all
that I love by my side, for the last time.
You
let me go.
And I want... and I want... and I want...
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