Disclaimer: The almighty Shonda owns Grey's, not me. I just own the DVD's :)

A/N: Okay well this idea popped into my head after reading several stories that revolved around the same subject, rape. It's a sensitive topic so please don't read this if it effects you in any way. The first couple of chapters are background information.

Some background for this story:

Meredith and Derek have been married for 13 years, Carly coming as offspring from their honeymoon. She is their one and only. They have their dream house on Derek's land. Meredith pursued Neuro and is the department head with Derek as chief.

Addison never left, she is now married to Mark and have two kids, Archer William Montgomery-Sloan (9) and Abigail Hope Montgomery- Sloan (5).

Alex and Izzie are married and Izzie never went crazy. They have three children, Madison Grace Karev (11), Chris Alexander Karev (8), and Kayla Marie Karev (3). Izzie went into peds while Alex went into OB/GYN, neonatal.

Cristina and Owen are together and they have two kids. Tess Emma Hunt (10) and Tyler William Hunt (8). Cristina obviously went into cardio.

George never left Callie for Izzie because they never slept together. They have twins Matthew Riley and Joshua Cameron O'Malley (9). Is a general surgeon.

Lexie is with a random intern from her year I made up, Caleb. They are expecting their first child. Specialized in general.

Bailey has Tuck who is now 14 but only sees him every so often because she got divorced with Tucker who now lives across the state.

Richard retired but still spends time with his "family" he made with the staff and he and Adele got back together.

Carly Elise Shepherd was their little girl, everyone's little girl. She had been the first of all the kids in the tight family, the people she called her Seattle family. She was her parents world. For the first two and a half years of her life everything was about her, and she loved it. But Carly couldn't even remember back that far, she never remembered what that felt like. She knew her parents loved her but as soon as her Uncle Richard retired, it was all about work.

Her best friend, Madison Karev was two years younger then her. They had been close ever since Maddie turned 2. It was inevitable because their parents were best friends, plus Izzie and Alex were Carly's godparents while Meredith and Derek were Maddie's. She had everything, at least it seemed like that.

In Carly's eyes everything was distant. Although her parents had only just started to allow her to stay home alone, she spent a lot of her childhood in the hospital day care. Carly played soccer, she was the best on her team, that would make her popular right? Wrong. Because she was the best she was the center of a lot of scorn, jealousy, and alienation from her team mates. She would quit but she loves soccer too much.

Carly was completely ordinary, or as the people in school liked to call her, a dork. She got average grades, not good grades, average. She had no friends except Maddie, unless you count the dorks she sits with at lunch. Carly was bullied constantly, and her school never did anything about it. It was mostly by the "in crowd" with their leader, Alexis Davis. She was the prettiest 7th grader in the school, definitely outshines Carly. Her perfect brunette hair fell neatly on her shoulder with her picturesque smile and thin frame.

Carly on the other hand was in the awkward stage. She inherited her mother's blond hair but her father's curls which she seemed never to get control of. She had gone through braces to finally get her smile somewhat okay. Her deep blue eyes were too close together while her nose stuck out awkwardly. Plus she was extremely skinny. It was like her skin just fell on her bone making them stick out and her long legs were disproportionate with her body. And she had a flat chest. She was pretty, just not pretty enough. Maybe that was why Alexis tortured her, like if Carly ever fixed any of her imperfections, she would be prettier. But no matter what, Carly was intimidated.

It was the last day of school. Carly's favorite time of the year. She had the entire summer to hang out with Maddie and her parents. Especially since her parents made sure they did. On the Friday after school was out it always started their first weekend of "bonding time." Carly would meet them at the hospital and that night they would pack for a long weekend of camping. Just the three of them. One of the only times she really spent time with her parents, except their vacation they took halfway through the summer. She loved her parents immensely but they seemed distant, like everything else in her life.

"CARLY WAKE UP!" she heard Meredith scream up the steps. "YOU'RE GONNA BE LATE FOR YOUR LAST DAY OF SCHOOL!" Carly groaned and pushed herself out of bed.

"I'M UP MOM!" she called down. Slowly she walked over to her mirror and picked up a brush and began ripping at the knotted mess. Within five minutes it was at least decent. She looked around her room, it was completely average, but huge. The walls were painted purple and blue while they were covered with posters of random celebrities and bands. A large full sized bed sat in the middle of the room with a night stand where a stack of books, her iHome, a lamp, and a picture of her family sat. She had a large closet which came in handy when having Addison and Izzie be her Aunt's. A pair of Ugg boots sat in the corner next to her dresser, which was next to her desk. Her desk had a laptop sitting on it while on top there were soccer trophies and medals sitting. Maybe it wasn't average, but average for the daughter of two of the best neurosurgeons on the east coast.

She opened up her closet and grabbed her school uniform on. Carly slowly put in on and walked to the window. Even though it was summer Carly was surprised that it wasn't raining. Maybe today wouldn't be horrible after all. Their land was breathtaking, Carly loved every bit of it. They had recently opened their pool. The deck around it was beautiful with a rocky landscape behind it. You could barely see the changing room which was behind them. Far off in the distance the lake sparkled. Carly couldn't wait to just lay on the dock and watch her dad fish or swim in it. Even though they had a pool the lake was Carly's favorite thing to swim in. Next to the house a small guest house stood which was where most of the Shepherd family slept in whenever they came over. Either that or one of their extra rooms.

"CARLY BREAKFAST!" Meredith called.

"BE DOWN IN A MINUTE!" she answered and walked back to the mirror. Cautiously she put on a little make-up in attempt to distract from her hair. She was careful not to put on too much because then Alexis and her "crew" would make her life even more miserable.

"CARLY!" Meredith yelled again. She rolled her eyes and grabbed her bag.

"COMING!" Carly screamed and ran down the steps.

"Good morning sleepy head," Meredith said as her daughter came into view. Carly smiled.

"Good morning Mom, where is Dad?" she asked although she knew where he was. Outside Carly heard their black and chocolate labs Maggie and Shadow barking while Bella their black and white Lhasa-Poo begged at her feet.

"He was called into the hospital," Meredith answered.

"Oh okay," Carly said trying not to sound disappointed. Meredith placed a plate of burnt pancakes in front of her. Carly made a face but choked them down.

"He will be home tonight," Meredith reassured her.

"I know," Carly said looking down.

"So do you want me to drive you to school?" Meredith asked.

"NO!" she said quickly. Her mother's eyes widened. "I want to see..... uh some of my friends who aren't in my classes but are on my bus." The truth was that Alexis hung out in front of the school everyday and would torture her if she saw her Mom dropping her off. Carly always considered telling her parents about her problems but she never had the guts.

"Oh okay," Meredith said eying her daughter suspiciously. Carly hopped up from the table and headed towards the door.

"Well bye Mom, see you later," Carly said opening the door.

"Will you be okay home alone for a few hours?" Meredith asked.

"Yeah, I'll be fine. Bye," Carly said and shut the door. Meredith sighed and put away the dishes while Carly ran to the end of their long driveway and wait for the bus. When it arrived she got on and ignored some of the snickering from behind her. Quietly she sat down towards the front of the bus and slumped in her seat. Taking out her iPod she stuck it in her ears and tried to get lost in the music before the soon to be torturous day. You would think that since she goes to a private school that her life would be better, but it's just the same.

Before she knew it, she was at school. For the first 10 minutes Carly was able to make it to her locker, stuff all the leftover junk from it into her bag, and make it to homeroom before seeing Alexis. And luckily S is far from D in the alphabet so she isn't even in her homeroom, but some of her friends are. When she walked in she looked down and found her seat. Almost immediately she heard snickering behind her where Emily, Brynn, and Ava sat.

"Look at her hair," Emily whispered.

"It looks like she didn't even brush it this morning," Ava agreed.

"And she's wearing make-up," Brynn hissed. The girls giggled and decided to attack.

"So Carly, do your make-up in the dark this morning?" Ava snickered. Trying to avoid them Carly self-consciously fixed her plaid skirt.

"And what, used a truck to brush your hair too?" Brynn hissed.

"What, are you afraid to answer us baby?" Emily teased.

"No," Carly muttered.

"So which is it, dark, or car," Emily continued.

"Or what, did your Mommy do it for you?" Brynn said.

"Or Daddy," Ava added.

"My Dad wasn't even home this morning," Carly said trying to prevent any tears from falling.

"Oh poor baby," Ava said.

"He was at the hospital," Carly said sinking in her seat. The girls smiled.

"You think your such a big shot because your parents are surgeons," Emily hissed.

"World class surgeons," Carly muttered. But the girls kept commenting how bad she looked all through announcements. By the time they left homeroom and to the auditorium for an assembly it took all of Carly's power not to cry.

"Lex!" she heard Brynn exclaim. Carly turned around and saw Alexis walking down the hallway, even the horrible school uniforms looked better on her. She walked up to Brynn, Emily, and Ava. And then of course Sarah, Gabi, Jacqueline, Cassidy, Julie, and Mia trailed behind. Sarah had been Carly's friend since kindergarten but in fourth grade, when Alexis transferred to Seattle Prep, she betrayed her. Alexis decided that she liked Sarah but not Carly, so she decided to include her. In the beginning Sarah and hung out with both Carly and the girls but when Alexis gave her an ultimatum she chose to be their friends.

"What are you looking at?" Mia hissed at Carly. Quickly Carly turned around, drew her bag closer to her body, and tried to maneuver through the crowded halls. Unfortunately, she was stuck. In one quick glide the 10 girls had surrounded Carly.

"So.... Carls, you hear about the big party Friday night?" Alexis asked using her dreaded nickname she had come up with in 5th grade.

"No, I haven't," Carly said.

"Oh well, everyone's invited..... oh well I guess not everyone," Alexis said. As if on cue everyone behind her started giggling.

"I don't care," Carly said.

"Well I bet you do. There will be a big screen TV, and my pool will be open, and there will be food, and......"

"Like I said, I don't really care," Carly muttered standing on her tip toes to see if there was anyway out of the mess.

"It's at her big house," Jacqueline added as if she didn't here her.

"Probably not as big as mine," Carly said although she regretted the words as soon as they came out of her mouth. She gulped.

"Oh really, how may floors does yours have?" Cassidy asked.

"Four," Carly said quietly.

"How many rooms?" Julie asked. In her head Carly did the math.

"15," she answered.

"Pool?" Gabi asked.

"Yes, 24 x 48," Carly said getting quieter. "And a lake."

"Land?" Alexis asked.

"Tons," Carly said shifting uncomfortably.

"Then...." Alexis started. "We have to see for ourselves, we'll come over today."

"But my parents aren't.... home," she said her voice getting even lower.

"They'll never know," Alexis said taking out her Blackberry. "We'll be over at 1 o'clock." Space now opened up in front of her and Carly hurried out of the way. But not before Alexis stuck out her foot and Carly went flying forward with a yelp. An eruption of laughter sounded from all sides as she turned red with embarrassment and quickly got up. The rest of the day was a blur for Carly. She was worried about her parents finding out they were over, most importantly, the fact that they were coming over. When she got home Carly made sure nothing embarrassing was out in her room and soon the door bell rang. She silently thanked her Aunt Addie for the expensive clothes she had on now and walked to the door.

Maggie, Shadow, and Bella beat her to the door and began barking.

"Hush," Carly said nervously and opened it. Almost immediately Shadow jumped into the crowd of girls right on Alexis.

"EW!" she shrieked. "Get this mangy mutt off of me."

"Sorry," Carly said quickly and grabbed his collar. "Shadow, down." She wrenched him off and pushed him away.

"You're forgiven," Alexis said and pushed her way through the door. "Interesting."

"This place is......" Sarah started but Alexis glared at her. "Not that cool." She gave them a quick tour of the house, and lastly her bedroom. Cautiously she opened it. Alexis looked at it with disgust.

"All this room goes to waste," she said.

"Yeah," Cassidy said.

"I never heard of half these people on the walls," Julie snickered. Carly sat on her bed as Alexis picked up the picture of Carly, Meredith, and Derek. In disgust she threw it on the bed. She looked over at the picture of both her families and one of her and Maddie.

"Who's this?" she said pointing to Maddie.

"My friend Maddison," Carly said quietly. Luckily only Sarah knew Maddison was 2 years younger.

"And who are they?" she asked pointing to each of the families.

"My family, my Mom's side, and my Dad's side."

"Whatever." She threw those on the bed too.

"We.... we still have the back yard," Carly stuttered.

"Looking forward to it," Alexis said with a smile and followed Carly out.

"Wow this is huge," Julie said.

"You don't own all of this land," Jacqueline snickered.

"All of it, we have the deed somewhere," Carly said.

"You said something about a lake?" Alexis said.

"Uh.... yeah, follow me." Carly walked into the direction of the lake while then 10 girls behind her began whispering.

"This is ugly," Ava exclaimed.

"Figures, she probably swims in it," Brynn laughed.

"No wonder her hair is so....." Emily began.

"My Dad fishes here, that's all," Carly interrupted.

"Hey what's that?" Alexis said and pointed across the lake.

"What?" Carly asked looking over there. In one swift motion Alexis pushed her and with a scream, clothes and all Carly went flying into the lake. The girls erupted with laughter. Carly came to the surface as tears ran down her face.

"Oh look," Gabi said. "She's crying." They laughed again.

"Come on girls, let's get out of this dump," Alexis said and turned around. Sarah caught Carly's eye. She mouthed sorry and hurried after Alexis. Still crying Carly hopped out of the lake and ran towards the house. She ripped the soaked clothes off and put on her robe. She collapsed on her bed sobbing. About an hour later the phone rang, pulling herself together Carly grabbed it.

"Hello?" she said into the phone.

"Hey Carly," Derek said.

"Hi Dad," Carly said trying to sound happy.

"Listen sweetheart, me and you Mom won't be getting home till late so grab some money out of our room and take the ferry okay," he said. Of course, Carly kind of figured that would happen but she hoped it wouldn't have.

"Fine, whatever."

"When you get to the hospital just go into either mine, or your mother's office, you have the keys?"

"Yeah."

"Okay, see you later."

"Bye Dad," she said and hung up. Slowly she walked to the mirror. Her make-up was running down her face while her hair was finally beginning to dry out. Walking towards her bathroom she took a washcloth and scrubbed her face. Walking back to her room she took her hair brush and combed through her hair. It actually looked better then it did that morning so Carly considered it a success. She put on new clothes that at least looked presentable to go outside. Exiting her room she grabbed her purse and slipped on a pair of flip-flops. She grabbed some money out of her parent's drawer and went downstairs.

"Shadow, Maggie, Bella," she called to her dogs and whistled. The two labs came barreling into her while Bella batted her feet with her paws. "Come on." She opened the basement door, made sure they had food and water, and locked the door so they couldn't get out. Slowly she made her way to the garage, got on her bike, and rode down the towards the ferry. By the time she made it to the hospital it was 5:30. She walked over to the OR board and stood there, analyzing it. And of course, both her parents were in surgery.

Carly sighed.

"Carly?" she heard someone say. She turned around and smiled.

"Hi Aunt Addie," she said happily.

"What are you doing here?" she asked.

"Oh my parents are in surgery and my Dad told that it would take a while and didn't want me home alone for that long," she explained.

"So how was your last day of school?" Addie asked. Carly reacted quickly.

"It was fine, just glad I got through 7th grade," Carly lied.

"MOMMY!" she heard someone call, both her and Addison turned around to see Mark and Archer walking towards Addison while Abby was running. Addison scooped her up and tickled her stomach.

"Hi baby girl," she said kissing her on the nose. Abby giggled her perfect curly red hair bouncing. Abby realized someone else was there.

"CARLY!" she rejoiced and hugged her legs as Addie put her down.

"Hi Abby," she said smiling down at the younger girl.

"Abigail Hope," Mark scolded. "What did I say about running away from me in the hospital?"

"Sorry Daddy," she said looking down, but as he scooped her up started giggling.

"Hey Carly," Mark said.

"Hi Uncle Mark," Carly said. "Well I am kind of hungry, I guess I will go eat some crappy cafeteria food."

"Have fun," Addie called jokingly. Carly laughed slightly and turned around. She ate alone in the cafeteria hoping her cell would ring eventually and she could go home with her parents, it had been a long day. Unfortunately, that time never really came. Afterwards she had gone into her mother's office and waited, she had a more comfortable couch. By the time they had both come out of surgery it was 9 o'clock. They had opened the door to find Carly sleeping soundly on the couch. Meredith and Derek smiled at each other and gently woke her up.

"Hey Carly," Meredith said.

"Hi Mom, what time is it?" she asked. There was a bit of anger in her voice.

"9 o'clock, sorry it took so long sweetie," Derek said kissing her forehead. She got up and grabbed her purse. They put her bike in the back of Derek's car and drove home in two separate cars. When they got home Carly went right up to her room. She picked up the top book on her pile and began reading. She was currently reading the Twilight series for probably the tenth time, she was on New Moon already although she started the day before. Around 10:45 Derek and Meredith went to say goodnight to her.

"Carly, still reading?" Derek asked jokingly. She looked up tears in her eyes.

"Honey what's wrong?" Meredith asked concerned. Carly giggled.

"Nothing Mom," she said.

"Then why are you crying?" Derek asked.

"Because...... Edward left Bella," she said giggling again. Meredith rolled her eyes and kissed her on the head.

"Okay then, don't stay up too late," she said.

"I won't," Carly said her eyes back on the book. Derek kissed her on the cheek.

"You and your what are they called again?" Derek joked.

"Twilight series," Carly told him smiling. Derek laughed.

"Goodnight," he and Meredith said simultaneously.

"Goodnight," Carly said her eyes on the book again.

"Love you."

"Love you too."

This chapter was a background on what Carly's life was like and what made her so distant. She was tormented immensely in school but didn't tell her parents so she was constantly keeping secrets from them, plus they were always working like you saw at the end. Next chapter is kind of about her relationship with Madison and more with her parents.

Do you think I should continue?

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