okay, folks.

I know this isn't what you wanted to see when you saw there was an update, but this is just to let you all know that I have every intention of finishing this. I re-read through all my reviews last night (for this story and all my others) and I literally laid on my bed and cried. I feel like I have let you all down in some way and I NEVER meant to do it.

So heres the NEW scoop:

I update in 2009 after a lot of bad stuff keeps me away for a while.

2010 I started working really hard on making chapter 10 a-freaking-mazing.

October 2010, my great grandma dies.

January 2011 (and heres the BIGGEST reason I havent updated) my laptop crashes and I lose EVERYTHING. Including chapter 10.

September 8, seven days after my birthday, my last grandmother, great or otherwise, has died.

My mother has had a stroke and can't half see now (still enough to work and all that, just a bit harder with the right side of her vision gone.)

All of this is to let you all know that I am NOT dead, and to NEVER ever ever ever give up on me. Never count me out. I WILL finish this story if its the LAST thing I do (and lets pray it isn't :D) I will re-start chapter 10 once I get my new computer set up (a desktop that my friend GAVE me :D) I will have to set up my computer desk in my new house (yep...I'm moving to top of everything else lol)

Also, if there's any of you who I had personal chats with me, could you see if maybe I sent something to you, like chapters to read through or edit for me? I need all my stuff back, and I'm having to check through everyone to see if they have ANYTHING of mine. So please, if I sent anything to you (and I mean ANYTHING) please send it back to me. I dont have my computer set up YET but I will, so when I do, it would be lovely to see everything waiting for me.

Thank you to all of those who kept their faith in me, or have decided to renew their faith with this AN. I love each and every one of you.

Amanda