Songs for this chapter are: "Let This Go" & "My Heart" by Paramore

Chapter 1: My Past

It was my birthday. Well, my re-birthday. My 300th re-birthday.

I'm Isabella Swan, Bella for short. I'm eighteen, forever. My heart has been broken, stopped, pieces tried to be pulled together, so it can be whole again, even though it will never beat. I've gone through excruciating pain, physical and mental.

The only good thing that's happened to me in my life, and un-life, is my best friend, Jacob Black. Jake was the one who found my when my heart was broken and on its way to stopping. He collected the puzzle pieces of my heart and glued them back together in the best way possible. He's my other half, the one who understood me.

I'm getting ahead of myself; let's go back three hundred years ago…

September 2005

"Bella, we're leaving" Edward said.

"I'll come with you…" I replied. All the worrying in the past few days since my birthday was for nothing, his family just needed to leave, and I would be coming with them. Everything was fine.

"Bella, I don't want you to come with me…" he spoke softly, clearly not wanting to hurt me more than it already would.

"You… don't… want me?" I asked. I didn't expect this, what happened with Jasper was an accident and he knew that, I knew that, everybody did. I didn't want him to think it was his fault for the… incident.

"No." I felt my heart rip at the single word. He didn't mean it, he couldn't, and it wasn't possible.

"Well that changes things." I was shocked at how calm and reasonable my voice sounded. I turned my head from so he wouldn't see the tears that were starting to fall.

"I'll always love you… in a way…" he said, not trying to hurt my already broken heart.

"What way?" I asked him, my voice had a sharp edge to it. He flinched so slightly, I barely noticed. Good. I wanted him to hurt and see how much I was hurting. There was hate and anger building in me, I wasn't going to deal with his crap, sounding sincere or not.

He didn't answer me, he just stared at me, I glared back at him. After what seemed like hours, he spoke.

"You're not good for me, Bella…" he spoke.

Something in my brain just snapped. I snapped.

"I knew I was never good enough for you, Edward. So don't you dare pretend that I never wondered for nights, what made you want me. I'm not beautiful, like Rosalie or Tanya, or smart, like you. I'm plain and average. I'll always be plain and average, so just leave." I spat at him, turning my back to him.

"What?!" He asked, bewildered. His voice was barely above a whisper, but I heard him.

"If you are not going to leave, then, please, let me do the honors. Good-bye, Edward." I said walking away, I didn't look back. I didn't hear him move, he just stood there. When I was far enough away, as to where I couldn't see him, I started running. As I ran a felt free, like nothing was trying to keep me next to him because I knew he didn't want or love me. I think I ran in the wrong direction, because the woods were only getting darker. Suddenly, I saw a flash of brilliant red. Victoria stepped in front of me, stuck out her foot, and tripped me. I fell flat on the ground. I turned over and saw her face an inch away from mine.

"Hello, Bella. How have you been? I've missed you, and that delicious smell of yours. No wonder Edward always liked to have you near him." She smiled evilly, breathing in my scent. She closed her eyes. "Ahh, wonderful. Strawberries and freesias I think. I heard your little speech back there. Bravo, I never thought a human, especially you, would be able to tell off a vampire, and live."

"Hello, Victoria. I know you've missed me, can't say I feel the same. And I will gladly tell off another vampire if you don't get out of my way." I hissed at her, my anger at Edwa… him made my voice sound aggressive and confident.

"Oh, innocent little Bella thought she was going to get out of this alive. So sweet." She crooned.

She breathed me in again, and bit me. I whimpered a little, while she pulled at my blood a little. She laughed a hideously and stood up.

"Your blood was delicious, better than the smell. It takes a lot of my control not to drain you, but I want you to suffer. I hope you have a horrible un-life since dear Eddie doesn't want you. The pain will be killer. The thirst afterwards is possibly worse. At least I had the audacity to kill you so close to town. Good-bye, Bella, can't wait to see you in your vampire form." She said in a sing-song voice. Next thing I knew, she was gone.

Victoria was right, the pain was excruciating, but I didn't scream. I didn't even cry or whimper.

Hours later it was getting dark and I heard voices. I registered that they were calling my name. I didn't answer, I didn't want to.

Then I saw Jake, moving through the trees. He spotted me and almost screamed. I saw him fight his pain, I wanted to tell him I was fine, but I wasn't. I knew my neck and hair were soaked in my blood, but I couldn't feel the wetness. The pain was unnerving.

Jake knew about the Cullen's, James, and last spring. He was a werewolf, it was his job to know those things. He also knew that I was changing. Jake changed into his wolf form, probably out of anger at Edward than out of control, and pulled me into a cave. It was painful, being dragged across the ground, but not as painful as being lifted and carried. He gentle pulled me into a cool, dim area of the cave. I felt like I was being pulled under water, instead of across the ground, and unlike last spring, I didn't fight it. I let it pull me under, and drown me into the venomous waters of my death. I saw everything fade to black, Jacob's face was dimming, and then I saw nothing. It was my last human memory.

I woke up three days later, my vision clearer and crisper. I saw what used to be invisible moats of dust, I saw the colors in the cave perfectly, all eight colors. I stretched my usually pale arms, now they were even paler, like moonlight. My clothes were slightly baggy from all the weight lost during my change. I looked down at myself and saw curves that were never there. I had cleavage, actual cleavage. I sat up and took in my surroundings. I saw Jake by the entrance of the cave. He looked shocked at first then his face melted at the curiosity of his eyes to my body. He quickly changed his expression and blushed when he noticed I saw him staring at me. I expected his blush to be tempting to me now, but I felt no ache for thirst. It was surprising.

"Who did this to you?" He asked. His voice sounded slightly different and clearer with my new hearing. It also sounded angry, he was probably expecting me to say Edward. Oh, God, it hurt just to think hisname.

" Victoria" I jumped at the sound of my voice, it was like tinkling of bells.

"That bitch." Jake cursed, interrupting my thoughts.

"You can say that again."I enjoyed the sound of my new voice. Jake just stared at me again. His eyes narrowed as he scrutinized me. "What?" I questioned him, he seemed to be day-dreaming, in his own little world.

"Did he really leave you? Did he leave you in the forest, to become this?" he asked, waving the air in front of me. I hadn't realized that he was only two feet away, but I still didn't feel pain at the back of my throat, like Edward described.

"Yes he left, but he didn't leave me, I left him." I told him, my voice stayed level when I mentioned him aloud. Jake's eyes were huge. "I walked away from him when he was breaking my heart. Then Victoria came up and bit me."

I was furious at Victoria and Edward, but mostly Edward. He left me there, all alone. I wasn't that far away when Victoria came, but she probably made sure he already ran off when she bit me. I had no family now, I couldn't go back to Charlie or Renee, thirst or not. I only had Jake, somehow, I thought, that might be enough.

"Bella, I don't want to say this, but I told you he was going to hurt in some way. Now look at you!" his voice was shaking from sadness and anger. I wanted to run to him and tell him everything would be ok, but I wasn't even sure of that, or my control.

"Jake, what am I going to do?" I was pleading him, I had no plan. I didn't expect this, well, in a different way where everything was planned. I would have started to cry if I could, I only started to shake.

Jake came up to me and hugged me. I buried my head into his chest, screw my control. "I don't know, Bella. Do you know of any other vampires?"

I knew of the Denali coven in Alaska, but they were friends of the Cullen's, so they probably wouldn't want me. I knew of the Volturi, but I didn't want to go to vampire royalty, I wasn't good enough. I could search for others and find companions in them. Then I would be able to travel over the world.

"The ones that I know of wouldn't want me, Jake. There are others that just roam around. I could befriend them…" I contemplated the idea again.

"Alright, let's go…" he said.

"Wait, what are you talking about? I thought you wouldn't want to be with me since I'm officially blood sucker."

"Bella, you may be a leech now, but I always want to be with you." He said, while taking my hand. I f I was still human, I knew I would have blushed.

"I want to be with you too, Jake. Let's go…"

Present Day

I smiled when remembering my first vampire memory, then I remembered the cause.

I thought about the day Jake and I me Isaac, my father in always possible.

We had just come to Israel fifty years after my change. We had met many covens and nomads of vampires, and befriended most, but they never felt like a family to me, and that was what I wanted most.

Jake was starving, so we went to the market and he smelled a vampire behind me. I tuned right into Isaac. There was a bond I can't describe, like between a father and daughter. He's been my father and mentor ever since. He's trained ,e with my power of being a shield. With him, I've discovered that I'm able to acquire other vampire's power by just being in the same area while my shield is up.

Isaac's story is rather sad and remarkably like Carlisle's. Isaac was the son of Abraham, like in the bible. He had children and a wife. When his oldest son was eighteen, he met a beautiful young woman, and he fell in love with her and her burgundy eyes. Each day, Isaac's son fell deeper in love with the mysterious woman and her beauty. And each day, the woman's eyes grew darker. Isaac recognized the woman for what she was. He tried to warn his son about the woman, but the son was blinded by her beauty. One day, when the woman's eyes were pitch black, she beckoned the son into an alley. Isaac saw them leave and followed them. Just when the vampire was about to bite into the son's throat, Isaac jumped in front of her. She bit him. The woman nearly drained Isaac, but left when the son came out of his trance. He knew his father was dead, or worse.

Half a week later, when Isaac awoke, he went to his home, to see the family he missed, only to be shunned by his father, wife, and the son that he died for to protect. Isaac was brokenhearted. He tried to commit suicide more times than he could remember. Upon when realizing he couldn't kill himself, he roamed the earth looking for a companion. He, too, stayed with the Volturi for 1,500 of his 4,000 years. He was there when the Volturi came into power, and would have been the fourth ruler, if he wasn't afraid to become power hungry. He was also part of the reason that the Volturi fell.

A hundred years after Isaac became my father, all hell broke loose in Volterra, and I don't mean that lightly. Isaac, Jacob, the Quileute pack, and I went to inspect what was wrong. The Volturi had apparently had a guard that was almost caught in the sunlight on St. Marcus' Day a hundred-fifty years ago, and it took that long for the vampires to find out and revolt. The vampires were furious, thinking one of the Volturi's own almost exposed vampires. The idea that the Volturi was unfit to rule any longer was in the air. Isaac and I agreed. I hated the Volturi after Aro tried to add me to his "power" collection when Jane couldn't inflict pain into my mind. Isaac regretted taking me there to introduce me as his daughter ever since.

Isaac and I began to plot against the Volturi. It would be an easy win since our side consisted of me, Isaac, Jake and the pack, and the hundreds of other vampires that went along. The vampires mostly came because the claimed I was the most powerful vampire, Isaac and Jake agreed.

The fight didn't even last a day, since I was able to put up a protection shield around our side and take away the powers off the other side.

When we won, the vampires declared Isaac and me as their ruler's. Jake was to be my personal bodyguard, that pleased him, and the pack would be our guard, insuring the ultimate protection of werewolves. Now, a hundred-fifty years later, we were still in power and not corrupted with it.

Isaac was holding a celebration, announcing how we were able to convince and change most of the vampire's diet to vegetarian. It would also announce my coming out as princess of "New Volterra", our little "Bellissima citta", which was Italian for "beautiful city". Unfortunately, this was also the time when I was supposed to find a mate. I don't want one; I just want to focus on the improvement of vampires and my family.

Every coven and nomad was to be invited, including the Cullen's. Isaac new about my past, one of the many things I told my father, but he was still was extremely excited about meeting them, especially Carlisle and Edward. He was excited about meeting the guy that broke my heart!

I knew I wouldn't let him hurt me again, but I'd still keep Jake close to me. Extremely close, since Jake was to be my escort by my choice. It would be an interesting event.