Passion

By Chungdoo

Chapter 6

Ashoka's pov

Contrary to what I believed I did smile again, many times. I was still broken hearted but the thought that my kids would be in a better place with a family that would be able to love them and take care of them was something that kept the sadness at bay. I loved my babies more than anything else In this world and the thought that they were happy, even if it wasn't with me, gave me a comfort that words couldn't describe.

"Snips" Anakin whispered from his position next to me. We had been silent all night.

We were more carful now that I had come back to the Jedi. It had been 6 months since the incident on Korriban and we had only seen each other about 3 or 4 times. It tore me up inside, that I wasn't with him as much as we used to be but a shortened time frame is better than none at all. Each encounter was the same; we would always see each other after a mission, in a hotel, never inside the temple. We would talk but the subject of the children was still touchy for me and I knew that Anakin avoided it so that I wouldn't have to open the wound back up again, however he didn't know that the wound hadn't began to heal, it just became less painful.

"hmm?" I answered from my position cuddled up against his chest.

"Do you….still think about them?" he whispered.

Some people would have thought that he was implying that I simply gave up my children and that I forgot about them completely. But I knew better, he was simply trying to bring up the conversation. I knew that one day we would talk about this….

"Yeah" I answered, nodding my head in his protective embrace.

"…..a lot?" he asked.

Again I nodded and he seemed to relax a little. The fact that I thought about them a lot was an understatement, but I was curious to see if he did. He didn't spend much time with the children, I knew that he wanted to but I think it was hard for him, to become attached to something that he knew he was going to loose soon.

"Do you?" I whispered.

"..Yeah" he answered back his voice still a whisper.

"a lot?" I asked curiously.

After a few seconds more he finally answered "Yeah".

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"Do you remember when we were together back at the temple?" Anakin finally asked after a few more minutes of silence. Anakin hated the silence, it was always full of sadness and he wanted to change that.

After a few seconds there was no reply and Anakin began to think that she had fallen asleep but then her nod was felt against his bare chest, a sign that she had indeed heard him.

"I can't believe that we didn't get caught" he said, raising his voice a little for effect.

Anakin felt Ashoka's small smile crawl to her lips as she burred herself deeper into his embrace.

"That's because you were so loud" she whispered, suppressing a giggle.

"Me!" Anakin asked, surprised.

"Yes you" Ashoka answered a little louder, poking him in the chest.

"If I remember correctly" he said, flipping them so that he was on top of her. "You would start practically screaming when I did this" he said, bringing his lips down to her lekku and running his tongue lightly around it.

Ashoka's breathing increased rapidly because of his treatment, but she was determined not to let him notice.

"I..I did not" she said, trying to keep her breathing under control.

"You sure?" Anakin asked, not at all convinced by his Padawan's attempt to hide her increased breathing.

Ashoka nodded in responses and moved her heads to keep him from seeing her face.

"What about this?" he asked, moving his mouth down to the tip of her head tail and slowly, he opened his mouth and took the tip in, where he quickly began to suck on it, running his tongue around the tip.

He heard Ashoka choke back a moan; he thought she was cute, trying to beat him by not showing how much she enjoyed the treatment he was giving her.

"still sure?" he asked, taking her tip out of his mouth to try and get a better look at her face.

"mmm hmm" Ashoka said, moving her face whatever way she could to keep it blocked from her master.

"I'm sorry?" he asked teasingly, moving his mouth down to her chest. Slowly he ran the tip of his tongue over her nipple.

He laughed as she attempted to twist her body to try and get away from him but he held her in place despite her half attempts at escape. She continued to struggle for a little while but all of the sudden she stopped squirming and took a deep sigh.

"What are we doing?" she asked, her voice laced with depression.

Anakin stopped what he was doing and moved his head up to hers so he could look at her eye to eye, he leaned a little farther and planted a kiss on her forehead.

"I love you snips" he responded.

She smilied and snuggled her head into his chest in response.

"I love you too anakin." She answered.

Anakin knew that they shouldn't have sex unprotected again, he didn't want to put her through what she had been through with her previous pregnancy. But he did want to express his love to her and it had been so long since they had last consummated their love.

"Don't you want to have sex?" he asked.

He felt her nod through his chest.

"I want to, I want you master. I miss our embrace but…"

"Your scared" he answered her sentence, seeing her pause with sadness in her eyes.

She nodded.

Anakin had prepared for this; he reached over to the desk by the bed and pulled out a box of condoms, a protective measure that he had picked up a long time ago. He had never used one before but figured he could try for her.

"We could always use protection" he stated, showing her the box.

He smiled as Ashoka's face lit up in surprise as she gazed upon the box.

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The sounds of love making could be heard throughout the room as the two who had seemed to stay at arms distance from each other since giving up the fruits of their labor, now came together in the most beautiful way possible, each exploring the others bodies in an indescribably way. Their touches and kisses could not be put into words and their lovemaking was as different now as their first time and would have purely insulted the act if it were documented. Only Anakin and Ashoka could have this moment and be in each other's arms.

However Anakin and Ashoka failed, in their night of passion and love making, to consider one of the ultimate truths of using protection.

Condoms brake

Authors note:

First off let me say this, in no way does this story make any political statements in the issue of giving up children or using condoms. Second of all I purposely did not write a lemon as a feature of literature…not that I was lazy.

So now Passion is done! The last book of the feelings trilogy will begin as soon as I can start. I would like to thank all those who stayed with this story even through my extended time between updates. I hope you all enjoyed reading this book as much I as did writing it.

Thanks again,

Chungdoo