Pairing: Naomi/Emily

Rating: M

Spoilery...based just after the woods scene in episode 6.

Disclaimer: i dont and will never own skins or naomily no matter how hard i pray

"Your gunna do this to me twice!"

"Naomi! Fucking No! Stop right now."

"What?" I finally responded, forcing myself to look down the embankment at Emily who was looking back up at me with those sad brown eyes of hers.

"Don't you dare leave me in your bed again." She said, her voice clearly trying to be strong as I looked away from her and kept a firm grip on my bike.

I couldn't handle this. I really couldn't.

I didn't know what to say so I left a pause for a moment before pushing my bike forward.

"I've got to go." I said weakly before walking off, instinctively knowing she was following behind.

"I know you Naomi. I know you're lonely. I think you need someone to want you." Her voice was fading off slowly the further I walked away from her and I flinched slightly at her words. She was far too close to home.

I could imagine her standing there looking all abandoned as she called after me but I couldn't bring myself to stop and turn around. I just couldn't.

"Well...I do want you..."

Her voice was growing weak, as if she was near tears and I had to fight my own back as I carried on, desperately wishing I couldn't hear her heartfelt and saddened words.

"So...be brave...and want me back..."

It was those final words that were spoken in such a sorrowful, pleading tone that finally broke me and I had to close my eyes as I continued on.

She honestly thought I didn't want her back?

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When I finally got home the first thing I did was jump in the shower. The water was on boiling hot but I didn't feel it, I felt numb. I felt nothing. That's all I could think about were sad brown eyes and her pleading words.

"I do want you"

She hadn't really needed to say that.

I already knew she wanted me, if anything was obvious from the night before then that was.

Images of us began to fill my mind and I rested my head against the cold shower tile as I remembered how she kissed, how she felt, how she sounded...

Everything about last night had been amazing. She had been amazing.

When I had woken up to find her wrapped around me, her peaceful face leaning into my neck as a small smile played at her lips I had freaked.

As I always did when my emotions were involved I shut down. I had quickly grabbed my clothes and dressed before running for my bike, leaving the sweet looking girl to sleep on. Obviously I hadn't been quiet enough and she had woken up to see me running out on her. Again.

I hated hurting her.

She was far too sweet and far too in love with me to be treated so badly but I couldn't help it.

I had no idea how to react to the fear that had been building inside of me ever since we had kissed at Pandora's party and so I was doing what I always did. Avoiding.

"Naomi! Breakfast is ready!"

I almost didn't hear my mother's yell over the sounds of my sobs and the falling shower water but miraculously I did and I quickly dried and dressed before making it downstairs.

My mother had surprisingly cooked bacon and eggs and if it wasn't for the dozen or so others wandering around my house I could almost pretend it was a normal, nice family moment.

"Where did you stay last night? I didn't hear you come in." My mother said breezily.

"I stayed out." Was my simple response.

Again images of the previous night flashed back to me and I felt my cheeks flush as I scoffed the food down quickly before leaving a hasty goodbye with my mother and running out the door.

As much as I didn't want to face college and Emily I knew I had no choice and so with lead filled steps I slowly pedalled to college. When I approached the building I could see Cook making a spectacle of himself, running for president on top of the school building but I ignored him as I walked quickly towards the college building. I was halfway there when I saw her.

It was like in a movie when a crowd passes leaving someone in the middle, as if in a spotlight.

My ice blue eyes locked with her brown ones and I had to swallow deeply when I saw the pained expression in her eyes. She looked away from me quickly and I sighed, hanging my head guiltily.

I could see Katie by her side, looking between me and her twin with a very suspicious look and I didn't want to stick around for whatever she thought she knew and instead I quickly disappeared into the safety of the building.

Sadly, English was first which meant I had Emily sitting just behind me.

The entire hour was excruciatingly long. I could feel her sitting there as silly as it sounded. It was as if I had a six sense when it came to her now.

The bell rang and I stuffed my books into my bag quickly, hoping to get away from the room as quickly as possible but I was stopped by a soft hand on my arm. I froze and tensed beneath the touch and the hand instantly retracted.

Emily looked awkward and apologetic as she put her hand behind her back as if afraid I not only didn't want her to touch me but I didn't even want to see her hand within reaching distance.

"Sorry...just...you left this." She said quietly, holding out my mobile phone, her head ducked down and eyes trained on her shiny green dolly shoes.

I gulped the painful lump in my throat down and nodded, taking the phone back and dropping it into my bag, not able to speak for fear of bursting into tears right there and then.

She turned as if to leave but stopped, turning back to look at me again.

"For what it's worth...I don't regret it." She said softly.

Then she was gone.

The only evidence that she had been there at all was the phone resting in my bag and the subtle aroma of her vanilla scented body spray.

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The day had been complete hell.

I had 3 lessons with Emily in total and it didn't help that I had her sister Katie giving me death glares every now and again.

The day seemed to drag and I even got held back for ten minutes after art so by the time I was making it through the halls they were all empty, everyone already rushed home and away from this hellhole.

Apparently not everyone had rushed however because as I pushed the heavy front doors open an angry and loud voice reached me and I stopped in my tracks, peering at the wall next to me, curiously. Whoever it was was standing on the other side and I stopped dead when I recognised the voice.

"I'm not stupid Ems. I know something fucking bad has gone on and I know it has something to do with that freak!"

Katie's voice sounded beyond angry.

"She's not a freak!" Emily defended strongly.

"Oh for fucks sake Em! What the hell is wrong with you!? You're a fucking Dyke to aren't you!?"

"Nothing is wrong with me." Emily said far quieter but she still had a strength in her voice that wouldn't have been there a few weeks ago.

"Look...I saw you at Pandora's. On the bouncy castle. You and her were...God I don't even want to say it." Katie said in obvious disgust.

I could imagine the look on her face as she said it and I couldn't help but stare down at the floor wishing I could be there to defend Emily but knowing I would never bring myself to do it.

"Look Katie...I don't judge you for fucking your boyfriend every which way and I don't judge you for taking the morning after pill like a contraceptive so stop judging me! I'll date whoever the hell I want to date." Emily shouted again, surprising even me.

There was a long silence for a while and my nerves grew with every passing second.

"So you admit it...you are dating her."

There was silence again before I heard a loud and heavy sigh.

"No I'm not."

Even a deaf person would be able to detect the sorrow in her tone and I couldn't listen anymore. I simply turned and ran towards the bike sheds, climbing on my bike and riding away as fast as I could. Away from college, away from her and away from all my problems.