Disclamer: I don't own Twilight or it's characters.

A/N: This is my first FF. So be easy on me. I'm gonna try to update as soon as I can. If it's any mistakes please tell me. I'm form Norway so my english is not perfect.

Playlist:

Miley Cyrus – Driveway (it just fit, I don't really listen to her, but it fit)

Pink – Runaway

Secondhand Serenade - Vulnerable

Preface.

BPOV 12 years old.

''Bella, I have som terrible news'' my father Charlie said.

I have lived with Charlie since my mother Renee moved when I was nine. We lived in Forks, WA. It's a little boring town. The house we live in is small, but it was home. The only reason I didn't move to Pheonix with my mother, was my friends, The Cullens and Hales.

''What is it, Ch-dad?''

''Honey, your grandmother just died..''

No.. No.. This could not be happening. My grandmother was the one mother-figure I had, when my mom wasn't around. Esme was very mortherly towards me, but I didn't look at her like a mother-figure. Granny Marie had always be the one I could talk to about my life. I never had to down play any details or just tell half truths.

''What happend?'' I asked, my voice broke.

''She was old Bells, it was going to happend sooner or later, it just was sooner than expected.''

That night I just cried, all night. Cried because of my grandmother. Cried because I didn't have anybody to tell my most personall secrets. I just cried because I felt lonley.

Charlie woke me up in the morning. I barly slept all night. I didn't want to face the real world yet. But my dad had other thougts.

''Bells, honey, would you like to go over to the Cullens while I talk to the funural-people?''

''Yeah.. sure. I'm just gonna take a shower first.'' My voice was think from crying all night.

''Okey hon. I'll drive you when you are ready.''

''Thanks dad.''

When I was in the shower I tought about my friends.

My best friend Edward Cullen. He had piercing-green eyes, his hair was all over the place. And his jaw-line was beautiful, I don't know why I like his jaw so much but it is so pretty. All Edward was beautiful. Yes, I was in love with my best friend. I had been since we first met.

Alice Cullen, she's shopping pro, and she is just 11. Her hair is short and black, she's really small. She actually look like a pixie. She can be annoying, but she is my best girl friend.

Emmett Cullen, huge guy, I was terrified of him the first time I met him. He isn't fat or anything, just muscular. When you see him you think; jock. But when you get to know him, he's kinda deep. And he always got your back.

Rosalie Hale, she is the most beautiful girl I have ever seen. You would think when she is so beautiful, she wouldn't have a brain. But she has both. Lucky girl.. And she is into cars, if you belive it or not.

Jasper Hale, Rosalie's twin, really nice guy. Down to earth. He plays the guitar, and he's good.

We have all been friends since our birth. Our mothers where close, so we just ended up being kinda a gang.

But now Tanya is with us. She moved to Forks about a year ago. I don't really like her. She is fake-blond, and has her boobs in her face, and she is 12, she dosn't have any boobs! But they are still up in her face. Everybody else love her. I don't. She always flirt with Edward, and he is responding.

By the time I was finished thinking about them, the wather was cold. I got out of the shower and strated getting dressed. I just grabbed a couple of jeans and a big black Secondhand Serenade t-shirt. I didn't like showing of my body. I'm fat, or I thougt so. But I didn't mind. My friends said I wasn't, as long as they said I'm ok, it's cool with me.

''Are you ready to go Bella?''

''Soon, just gotta have some breakfast.''

When I was done, we got in the car and drove to the Cullens. They lived in a huge white mansion. They are really wealthy. Carlisle is a doctor and Esme used to be a famous cook. She gave up her career when she got kids. They first had Emmett, a year later Edward was born and another year later Alice was there. They are like a big happy family, that kind you see on a TV-commercial.

Carlisle and Esme love each other. It's the most intence love I have ever seen and felt.

''So if you need anything just call me ok?'' Charlie sounded concerned.

''Yeah, sure dad''

''I Love you, Bells''

''Love you too, dad''

I got our of the police car (my dad is the police chief), and ran up the driveway. It was raining as usual. But clumsy as I am I tripped on air.

''God damnit..'' I mumbled to myself.

''Are you okey hon?'' Esme shouted from the door.

''Yeah, just the usual, tripping on air.''

Everybody in Forks know I'm the most clumsy person on earth. I actually know the first name on almost every doctor in Forks. One month I was in the emergency room 25 times.

''I'm so sorry for your loss, honey.'' Esme said as I walked inside.

''It's okey..''

''I forgot to tell the others that you were coming, but everybody is here. They are in Alice's room.''

''Okey.. I'll just go and tell them what happend. And hang out I guess.''

When I got to Edward's room I heard voices. I stopped and began to listen.

''She is just so annoying and insecure'' I heard Tanya say.

Who was she talking about?

''Yeah, I know, she always let me copy her homework, and she share her lunch with me when I forget mine, it's so pathetic.'' Edward's beautiful voice said.

They are talking about me.. I'm sure.

Yeah, I let him do that. Just because I can't say no when he look at me from under his long eyelashes. Or when he pouts. So adoreble. He should be thanking me, not talking like this about me, when I do that for him.

''And she is so like fat'' Tanya again.

''Bella is not that fat. Okey.. she is a bit fat.'' Edward said.

''And her style, it's like emo''

That was really low blow. I didn't care about what Tanya said about me, but what he said was hurtfull. He always said I was perfect. Obviously not. It broke my heart to listen to them, I could't take it anymore. I ran to the front door and tried to get my shoes on in a hurry.

''Bella, where are you going sweetheart?'' Esme as usual.

''Ehm.. I just can't deal with everything now, so I'm just gonna go home''

Don't cry, wait til you get home, don't cry, it was like mantra in my head.

''Are you sure you ar okey?''

''Yeah.. of course.''

With that I ran out the front door. I think I heard Edward shourt after me but i didn't care. My clumsiness seemed to have disappeard, for the moment. I ran/walked home, in the rain. By the time I was home I was soaked from head to toe.

I got the emergency-key from it's hiding place. Once I got in my room, I had a major breakdown. I cried and yelled at myself and nobody in an hour straight. When I started to get myself together, I decided that Pheonix was the right place to start over. I went downstairs and called my mother about my plans.

''Bella, are you here?'' Charlie shouted from downstairs.

''Yeah dad, in the living room.'' my voice sounded monotone.

I was going to tell him now. When I talked to Renee, she was trilled that I was coming to live with her. She started making planes of what we could do. Apperently she was dying to try yoga. She also wanted me to meet this guy she was seeing, Phil.

''Dad, I've been thinking. I wanna move to mom in Pheonix.''

''Why?''

''Because I need a fresh start. And i think that I could have that in Pheonix.''

I did really need that. In Forks I was a fat, emo, nerd who was blessed to be friends with the Cullens and Hales. I wasn't really emo. I just had a lot of dark clothes. I just prefered dark clothes. I usually don't give a fuck what others think of me.. wait when did I start to swear? Today, I guess. I didn't really care anymore.

I just needed to get the hell out of this town. I needed to runaway from the memories about Granny Marie, Edward, and all Forks I guess.

The next day I was packing my stuff. I wrote a letter to my friends, and Edward who I didn't count as a friend anylonger.

I couldn't say goodbye face to face, I would get second thougts. In my letter to Edward I said the real reason that I left, he talking about me behind my back, and he would have to tell his family what he had done.

I also said if I ever came back, and he didn't tell them, I wouldn't know how to trust him again. I hoped that he would tell them. They were gonna be disappointed when I just left. I hated when they was angry or disappointed in me.

When we was driving to the airport, I asked Charlie to stop by the Cullens. I took the letters I had written to everybody and put them in the mailbox. I took a minute just looking at the house, just saving every detail in my mind. Then I turned my back to the house and left, without looking back.