Dark POV

----"I know i am selfish, arrogant, inconsiderate and a coward."---- 私 は 大 変 あ な た を 愛 し ま す

Graduation day

I don't know you since I don't usually see you. Maybe I never paid attention to someone looking so plain,simple and boring. The long bangs, eyes hidden behind huge thick glasses and a small sickly delicate body. Nothing about you amuse me except for that hair color.

-mumbles. shuffles. coughs. mumbles-

It kinda pissed me off not putting it straight to the point. It's time consuming. My friends are waiting for me beneath the staircase and we have a group date with the college girls in a university. I watched my wrist watch.

After few coughs and your whisper of confession. I've decided with a grin. I'll reject and leave him behind.

"sorry kid, ya know, I have a standard. you aint my type. You're not even close to being pretty."

I could hear the snickers from my friends below. That is harsh but i also laughed inside. I stoictly looked at you, waiting for you to ran as fast as you can to hide your shame of rejection. But, you just stood there. Your hands clenched the hem of your voice trembled as you apologize for no reason. You choked in a couple of sobs. Your eyes are beginning to get wet. You took of your glasses and wiped off your tears.

Times up.

I turn around not bothering to comfort you. i really don't care.
In a moment, you glanced up with puffed red eyes and thanked me among mild coughs for giving you my time.

"b--ut, i'm still glad...because i'm able to say it before its too late...and I'm also sorry to consume y--our time... i won't be bothering you again"

It was slow motion... the last thing I see were your tears, painful smile and the wind blowing your soft hair as you ran.

thump. thump. thump.

Inside me was stirred up and frozen.

I felt I regretted my actions.

----"I know i can get back anything i want anytime,so i take most of the important things for granted..."---- 私 は 大 変 あ な た を 愛 し ま す

After a month, I met you at the bookstore. You were paler and coughing harshly than usual in the corner.

When we met in contact, the same feeling arises. There was an impact when you pretended you didn't see.

thump. thump. thump.

Controlling myself not to make a move and biting back what's there is to be said.

I laughed it off and continued my search among the books.

But it's hard to let it off easily...

You just couldn't get out off my mind.

I looked once again, you were gone.

Looking past through the bookshelves, there was no sign.

Few more turns and searches, there's you walking out the door.

With fast paced movement, my heart goes on thumping faster.

thump. thump. thump.

"Dai..."

Somebody held my arm. A girl with with a long brown hair tied by a pink ribbon. There's a sweet smile on her face upon showing me the book she wanted.

"Dakkun? Where are you going? You haven't bought me this book yet." This sweet faced demanding girl is my current girlfriend but i do not love her. She dragged me to the counter and i lost him.

Maybe, I could see him next time.

----"...Not thinking they could get lost in no time and never be found again."---- 私 は 大 変 あ な た を 愛 し ま す . . .

A/N: the reason why i made this because i feel very down and frustrated! the shounen ai manga that i'm working on is lost. .. OMG. (-o-)/ i tried so hard to make it very pretty... i loved how my uke looks like ahuuuu. (T____T)

expect me to write something depressing if i feel depressed. it depends on the mood. Review.