3 WEEKS LATER

I wasn't surprised very much when at three weeks I was in excruciating pain, and I looked to be about six to seven months pregnant. The pup inside of me was literally ripping my insides apart, and I didn't know how much more of it I could take.

Edward wasn't home, and neither were any of the Cullens. They were all out hunting, and I had actually told them that it was okay for them to leave me here alone. What a big mistake that was.

I jumped at even the smallest of creeks, my paranoia was getting the best of me by each second that I was alone.

I couldn't even deal with this any more, so I got up and I wrote a not to the Cullens.

Dear Edward,

I decided to leave home for a while. I'm going to La Push to talk to Jacob. I really need someone to talk to, and being alone here is killing me. I will be home sooner than you know it, and you probably won't get here when I'm gone.

--Bella

I didn't even bother to grab my jacket. It was a fairly nice day outside, and I very much appreciated the ability to just walk around.

I had known that Edward had given me permission to call his cell phone whenever I wanted him to come home, but that was extremely weak of me. I knew as well as he did that hunting was essential for his family, and I was not about to allow myself to get in the way of that.

I whimpered as I felt a dull nudge against my stomach. Luckily my 'pup' hadn't scratched me that day.

I started slowly walking to La Push all the way from the Cullen house hold. By the time I was there, my feet were aching and I was crying. I don't even know why, but my whole body was aching. I didn't know why I was in so much pain, but it felt like every part of me was tearing apart.

Luckily, as soon as I got there, Jacob ran up to me. He saw my face, and looked happy at first.

But as soon as his eyes roamed to my once delicate frame, a look of pure shock and horror crossed his features.

He slowed his pace, and he carefully walked towards me. My arms instinctively wrapped around me bulging stomach as he wrapped his arms around me.

"Who… Who did this to you? It hasn't been that long since we've seen each other, has it?" He asked quietly, his head buried in my hair.

"No, It hasn't… It was a… ware wolf… Who…" I couldn't seem to finish before I started sobbing my heart out.

"Who what? You… Had sex with a ware wolf?" He asked, I could see the rejection in his eyes, and I looked away.

"It… It isn't like that….. At all…" I answered.

"Then what is it like?!"

"I was ra…raped…"

At that moment, it felt like time around us stopped. There was no emotion in Jacob's eyes, and I could see something in his face… Something clearly illegible.

"By. Who?!" He demanded of me. I knew that he was trying very desperately to keep calm, and I also knew that he wouldn't be able to.

"Paul…" I whimpered, and then I just collapsed. I fell to the floor and sobbed, my whole heart aching.

He kneeled down and brought me back into his arms.

"Oh Bella..." He whispered. He just kept saying my name over and over again. Like he was chanting some sort of a spell over me.

I just shook my head continuously. I had no idea what I could do… About any of this.

But suddenly I felt a sharp pain in my stomach. I screamed.

"Bella! Bella!!! What is it?!" He just kept asking me over and over. His words were pounding into my skull like a hammer, and my whole body was shaking. I knew that much.

I screamed much louder as another coarse pain slammed through my already aching body. And then, I was truly terrified.

I felt a sort of watery sensation in-between my legs.

My water had broken.

"Get me to the hospital…" I whimpered, my hand on my stomach.

"Bella, what is…" I cut him off with my shrill cry.

"Get me to the Fucking hospital!!!" I had absolutely no intention of being so rude to him, but it certainly came out that way.

I had no idea what he was doing, but he picked me up and placed me in his truck before picking up his phone and calling someone.

I heard it faintly ring a few times, and then someone picked up.

"Edward! It's me Jacob! No, No it's nothing… Would you let me fucking finish?!" It was always strange to me hearing only one side of a conversation.

I couldn't keep my thoughts together as another pain shook through me. This one was so much worse and I let out the longest scream I ever had.

All of a sudden, I heard Edward's frantic voice on the other line.

"Bella!!! What's wrong with Bella!?"

"That's the thing! Her water broke, Edward get to the damn hospital now!!!" He hung up the phone and finally started driving.

I knew he was going pretty far over the speed limit, and the pains were so much… So hard to bear. I didn't know what I could do. But then I saw Edward's Volvo, and we screeched to a stop.

I saw Edward run out of the car, and open my side of the door.

He opened the passenger's side, and he leaned gently across me.

"She can't go to the hospital! This… pup…" I knew he hated calling it that, because he'd much rather say this thing in it's place. "Inside of her is certainly not human. No doctor will know what to do. You need to come with me. Carlisle will help her." He said, half-shouting and half-speaking.

I screamed again and he picked me up, holding me close to his body.

"Shhh… Bella, please. It will... It'll be okay," He whispered, his eyes becoming filled with tears that I knew would never fall.

I couldn't even answer that at the moment. The pain was getting worse and worse, and he somehow managed to get me into his car. Jacob tagged along for the ride.

I had no idea how fast we were going, but thank god there wasn't a cop on the road or we'd be beyond screwed.

It felt like only a few seconds before we were at the Cullen household.

The whole world was shaking, and I was gripping the door the whole ride there.

Edward quickly got me out of the car and brought me inside of the house, and he brought me up to Carlisle's office at vampire speed. Jacob followed as fast as he could, and he was up there only about a minute after Edward.

Carlisle somehow got my pants and underwear off, and he placed a blanket over my shaking body.

"Edward, she's dilating very fast… I'm going to need a lot of help with this," He said quietly, and Edward just looked back at him and nodded. He held my hand and squeezed it lightly in reassurance.

I was so scared. What was going to happen to me? Or the pup… The pup or I?

I didn't even know what to think about at the moment except for the searing pain between my thighs and in my stomach.

"She's dilated already!" Edward. He must have been reading someone's thoughts. Carlisle's perhaps? I had no idea, but most likely.

I saw Carlisle nod to him, and then he looked at me.

"Bella, this is going to hurt… A lot. But you need to push for me, Dear."

Did he just call me dear?! How that hell was he keeping so calm!? I don't even know why it pissed me off so much, but it must have shown in my face. Edward sighed, and a tiny hint of a smile showed on his otherwise fearful face.

Pregnancy Wrath. What a beautiful thing.

I just nodded, and Carlisle slowly counted down from ten, and he propped me legs up and apart. I could feel myself trembling as he told me to push.

I had never felt such a horrid pain in my life. It felt like a hot knife was ripping through my aching body, and getting deeper and deeper. I had no voice left to scream, and I hadn't realized that I had been holding my breath. My whole body shook and my eyes were clenched shut. I hadn't realized how hard I was squeezing Edward's hand either. I knew he couldn't feel it, but my knuckles were definitely white.

I finally let the breath I was holding out and Carlisle nodded something to Edward. He placed a cold cloth on my forehead and places his cool hand on my cheek.

"Bella, you're almost done. Just a few more." Carlisle told me. I nodded and pushed again.

After a few more times like this, I felt like something was tearing through my most intimate of places.

"Bella! Bella, the head's out!" I heard Carlisle cry happily. But I didn't even care. I felt it clawing itself out of me. I felt its claws tearing through my flesh and ripping me apart. As if it hadn't already done enough of that I though bitterly to myself. I can only remember me screaming. I heard a cry… A howl almost… And then my whole world turned against me, and faded to black.