This came to my mind the other day. Really dramatic. Hope you like it though :) Let me know what you think.

He was married. For heavens sake, his wife was her patient and she was supposed to deliver his baby.

Addison was sitting behind her desk, these thoughts literally gave her stomach pains. She couldn't do it. She just couldn't.

Addison stood up and walked out of her office to talk to Dell. He wanted to get more involved with patients, this was his chance.

On her way to his office she passed by the kitchen where Naomi and Cooper just had lunch. Both not really in the mood to go out for lunch.

Addison got some tab water and sat down across from them.

"Hey Addie, you want some?"

Naomi passed her her plate with pasta.

Addison held up her hand.

"No thanks. I'm not hungry."

Naomi gave Cooper a look. They both had noticed that Addison had lost a lot of weight in the last weeks. The whole practice had noticed. Violet had even tried to talk to her about it but was just snapped at. Naomi personally blamed Noah for it. He broke her best friend. Piece by piece.

Addison stood up and walked towards Dell's office.

Dell was sitting behind his desk talking to someone on the phone.

"You know what? Fine! Then you will hear from my layer."

He slammed the phone down and looked up.

"Hey Dell, are you okay?"

"Yeah, it's just ... yes, I'm fine."

Addison walked in and sat down.

Dell looked at her.

"Are you okay?"

"Yes, why?"

"I don't know. You have the same white color as the wall behind you."

"No. I'm good. Why I'm here. Can you take over Morgan as a patient?"

"Why?"

"Can you do it or not?"

Dell was taken aback by the anger in Addison's voice.

"Yeah, sure."

He nodded.

"Thanks."

With this Addison stood up and left his office.

Dell just shook his head.

"Oh man."

XxX

He kissed her neck and pushed her top from her shoulders. Addison felt her pulse quicken. The next moment she felt his hand beneath her top, trying to open her bra. He pushed her down on the bed and placed his left leg between hers. Addison wriggled under his touch. Noah's mouth found hers and his tongue parted her lips

Addison awoke abruptly. Her heart was racing and she was gasping for air.

"Oh God."

She let herself fall back into her pillow.

"I really need to learn to keep my dreams under control."

Addison sat up when all of a sudden a pain shot through her lower stomach. She had had stomach pains for a while now but blamed it on the stress. Emotional and physical. It only lasted for some seconds and Addison didn't worry about it.

She went into the bathroom and took a hot shower. Not feeling like having breakfast Addison left straight for the practice.

After half an hour of sorting papers out and keeping her mind occupied so she didn't have to thing of Noah, Dell rushed into her office.

"Addison? Laura Martens is here. She's in labor."

Addison looked up.

"Okay Dell. Bring her into the birthing suite and get everything ready. I will be there in a few minutes."

Addison usually trusted Dell to deliver a baby by himself but Laura Martens had had some complications during her pregnancy and Addison wanted to make sure everything went smoothly.

Two hours later baby girl Martens was born. Without complications and health.

Addison was exhausted and went back into her office, her next patient would be there soon.

As soon as she sat down the door opened and Noah walked in.

"What are you doing here?"

"Addison I need to tell you something."

"No. Please leave. I can't do this. I know the feeling when your own husband is loosing all interest in you. It's horrible. It hurts. I don't want to be the reason this happens to another woman. I can't. Please leave."

Addison could see the pain and guilt in Noah's eyes when he turned around and left her office.

Addison let her head drop into her hands and cried. Why was it so hard to do the right thing?

She leaned down to her drawers to get a paper tissue when the stabbing pain in her stomach was back. This time it didn't pass after a few seconds. Instead it got worse. Addison stood up and held herself up on the desk. She walked over to the door when the pain got worse again and made her double over. Her knees hit the ground and she was glad her hands supported her so that she wouldn't hit the ground completely.

XxX

Pete overheard a talk between Dell and one of Addison's patients.

"My appointment was 20 minutes ago. I have to get back to work."

"Okay, I will just see if Doctor Montgomery is ready for you."

Dell tried to calm her down.

Pete stepped in.

"I will check on her."

Dell nodded and mouthed a "Thanks".

Pete wandered off to Addison's office. He looked inside from a distance and couldn't see her. He was about to check the kitchen when he heard a noise coming from the office that sounded like someone was calling for help. He went closer and looked through the blinds. What he saw made him gasped. Addison was kneeling on the floor in a pool of blood. He rushed into her office and yelled for Dell at the same time.

"Addison? Oh my God. What's wrong?"

"It hurts." Addison could barely talk.

She was supporting herself with one hand, the other hand was clutching her lower stomach.

Pete scooped her up into his arms and carried her into one of the exam rooms. On his way there he ran into Dell.

"Get Naomi."

A shocked Dell did as he was told.

A short time later Naomi rushed into the exam room followed by Dell. She looked at Addison who looked like she was loosing consciousness every minute, due to the pain or the blood loss Naomi couldn't tell.

"She's having stabbing pains in her lower stomach for a while already." Pete explained.

Naomi just nodded.

"Get me the ultrasound."

Dell rolled the machine over to her.

"And Dell? Call 911."

Dell nodded and left the room.

Naomi placed the wand onto Addison's stomach.

Pete was standing by Addison's side unsure what to do.

"Oh my God." Naomi gasped after a while.

"What is it?" Addison's voice was low.

Naomi looked at Pete who was now also starring at the monitor.

Naomi took a deep breath.

"It's a tumor. On your right ovary."

"No." Addison whispered.

In the meantime the ambulance had arrived.

Addison saw her friends standing in the foyer, reassuring her that everything would be alright when she was wheeled into the elevator and brought to St. Ambrose.

XxX

Naomi arrived at St. Ambrose a few minutes later and went straight to the nurses station to ask for Addison Forbes Montgomery who was admitted earlier. She didn't notice a certain heart surgeon standing behind her.

"Addison was admitted? What happened?"

Naomi turned around.

"I personally think that's none of your business."

She took a deep breath.

"But ... Addie needs you right now. ... We found a tumor on her right ovary."

Naomi could see how Noah's expression changed from worry to panic.

"Is is cancer?"

Naomi shrugged.

"We don't know yet. ... She was in a lot of pain."

"Where's she now?"

"Room 216."

Noah turned.

"Noah?"

"Mmh?"

"She needs you."

"I know."

"Don't break her."

"I won't. I love her."

Naomi could see that he truly felt this way.

XxX

Addison lay in her hospital bed. Her eyes were closed when she heard someone enter her room and approach the bed. Her hand was taken into their's.

"Hey."

She didn't feel like fighting her feelings anymore. Not now. Not if she might be dying.

"This is the punishment for what we are doing." She opened her eyes.

"Don't say something like that." Noah squeezed her hand tighter.

Addison closed her eyes again, tears rolling down her cheeks.

"What if it's ...?"

"We don't know that yet."

"But what if?"

"Then you will fight it, Addison."
"It's just not so easy when you're ... alone."

Noah lay down in the bed beside her and took her into his arms.

"You're not alone."

And here the real Addie/ Noah story begins ;)