Chapter 5 Past, Present, Future

Sorry, I took so long to update. I was a little under the weather. I hope you all will be pleased with what I have wrote. I worked really head on this.

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The leaves rustled, crunching lightly under the footsteps of a young woman. She made her way to a tree, allowing herself some time to rest against the rough bark. Though it was in the dead of the night, the white Priestess Kikyou did not sleep.

The thoughts, her own frightening thoughts, kept her up at night, haunting her, torturing her....... And, there was nothing she could do to stop them. Past lives, past loves all came to the surface of her mind at night.

A small sigh escaped her lips as she looked down at the lightly glistening ground, wet with the previous afternoon's rain.

"Inuyasha," she whispered, her voice soft in the evening quiet remembering times when she had sat below a similar tree.......In another time, another place....... Another future, another life. And her heart screamed, longed, ached for his love, his embrace.

And now, she had a feeling Inuyasha had moved on. She had pinned the wrong person to the tree those years ago....... Naraku should have been the one to sleep for all eternity. And she still yearned to be with him, even after her untimely death. She was his, even after her death. She still wanted to be his, even though it was impossible. She slumped against the tree further, looking up at the stars in the night sky, the strange otherworldly sound of music flitting through her senses.

Of course, she could not blame nobody but herself, and her lack of trust. If she had only held firm trust in Inuyasha, she would be an old woman, with children....... Kaede would be a proud aunt....... and Inuyasha would be, her husband....... a grey-haired older man....... Had he wished upon the jewel. But here she was, once a 'lovely' human priestess, reduced to this; a cheap-feeling sculpture of bones and dirt and the souls of others.

Kikyou acknowledged Kargura's presence without taking her eyes off the night sky "What do I owe the pleasure of you being here?"

"Naraku has interesting news you might like to know about"

Kikyou raised her brow suspiciously "What news could Naraku have, I'd be interested in hearing?"

"Inuyasha" This one word caught Kikyou attention. There was no way she would ever admit that to any one of less cavil. Kargura of all people.

"I really don't care but what about Inuyasha?"

"He has taken a mate. Your reincarnation to be correct" Kargura looked bored. Emotions raged with torment, betrayal, hatred, sadness washed behind Kikyou's eyes. Her heart was breaking from the shear loneliness she felt inside. The love she had once felt for Inuyasha. Love was such a confusing emotion, truly. It ripped your heart out and caused it to beat faster at the same time, poisoning you like a drug, will delusions of happiness and grandeur while it broke down the rest of your mind. Causing you to want what you shouldn't, do what your better thinking advised strongly against. Causing you to trust the untrustworthy, adore the undesirable. Give chances to those who had used up all three strikes. To love was to be human. But she wasn't supposed to be like other humans. She had been meant to live for others, and not for herself. The one, single time she had ever done anything for herself besides brush her hair, and she was betrayed, stepped on, robbed, burned, and brokenhearted.

Kikyou remained silent for a moment, now looking at Kargura suspiciously "Lies. He wouldn't betray me again." Kikyou stood stalk still, black eyes flared with jealously.

Kargura looked like she could care less if any one ever believed her "I have no reason to lie to the likes of you." pulling out a feather from her hair "Until we meet again." Kikyou dared not move long after Kargura was long gone.

Gathering her soul collectors around her, she closed her eyes and raised her face to the sky. The leaves above her moved in the breeze, whispering to her. Her closed her eyes, her red lips parting slightly, as she listened to the near-silent music floating on the tender wind. Kikyou couldn't contradict the knowledge that she was dead, even with her taking of souls she could never be considered a part of the living. She was more like the walking dead to be exact. Not really dead but not really alive either .A soul can be brought back however it would most likely be tainted, warped, even changed.

She might not have Inuyasha anymore, but he always had her. She was gone, yet there. She wasn't supposed to be walking among the living, breathing the night air along with those who still slept.

Kikyou knew she shouldn't have ever been brought back into a clay body. All she really wanted was to rest in peace, for her soul to have true closer. Half-Living for the pure purpose of getting revenge wasn't what she would have ever wanted, not at the expense of others. Not being able to shack the hatred from her non-beating heart as bitter sweet memories swirled in her mind replaying the day she had thought Inuyasha had betrayed her. Even when the truth came out why she had really died that it had been Naraku all along that had tricked Inuyasha and herself. If the two had only trusted each other, things may have turned out differently.

Kikyou knew it was time to pay Inuyasha at one last visit. One last time to see the man she once loved. She know knew deep inside, her incarnation was the one to make the hanyou happy. Who was she to decide who Inuyasha was to love. She was his past. Nothing more. Kagome was his present and future. Nothing she could say was going to change that. It was time she except that. She was tired and wiry of this world. She was meant to stay dead and death she would return, alone.

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The pack had only been traveling for a few hours. The sun was already beaming through the cloudy sky, the air was dry making one feel deep thirst. Every one was to hot and sweetie to complain. As soon as they arrived to the next village, they each would want to take a nice relaxing bath.

Suddenly a huge black bear-youkai broke through from large over grown trees. It was three times bigger than the north American black bears Kagome had read about in school. Razor sharp teeth, much like a shark. Eyes red as made a rabid animal look tame. Seeing one like this was a first for Kagome. Praying she would never have to. Kagome reached back taking an arrow from her quiver and grabbing onto her bow.

"It has a jewel shard" Kagome informed Inuyasha" In it's chest, near the heart" The bear started to come after Kagome.

My quarrel is not with you, hanyou, I want those jewels, the bear stood a few feet away "Give them up, maybe I'll spear your life" Rain began falling down to the earth, drenching every thing in it's path. The flowers were drooping under the rain with their heads bowed while their leaves were brutally ripped off.

"Screw you" Inuyasha used the windscar, only manging to graze it's left leg. dodged attack after attack

"Kagome, get away from here" The fearless hanyou immediately leaped, "Stay away from her" aiming his sword to strike head on. KAZE NO KUZI! As if the bear-youkai had expected Inuyasha would do this, it moved quickly to side, swinging a large furry paw around. Sending Inuyasha flying violently through the air, slamming him into a tree. Rearing Inuyasha unconscious.

Kagome freaked, screaming "INUYASHA" upon hearing the girl scream, it came running towards her. It roared "Give me all the jewel shards." Kagome squeaked, having a arrow already notched. Her heart was pounding like crazy; it was thrusting in her chest so hard she thought it would explode. She raised, fired, her arrow strait into the heart, in caging the bear with miko energy. Everything was winding inside of her- the fear, the adrenaline, the rush, the pain,the panic, the worry- everything. Kagome squeezed her eyes shut before she opened them again. Watched the screaming bear-youkal evaporated into a wisp of nothing, the tainted jewel shard fall onto the ground below.

Kagome ran gathering the shard, purifying before adding to her small jar around her neck. Rushing over to Inuyasha, who was still knocked out. Kagome knelled down, dripping wet, took a seat while gently lifted his head, laying it in her lap, brushing white bangs out of his face. 'I hope he's alright. Wake Inuyasha. I hate when your hurt. please wake up, yell at me. Anything, just wake up. I don't like it when you worry me. I need to see your Butter-Scotch eyes. Please, I love you'...She had never loved someone so much before. And she had never lost something she had loved so much before either, until....until that day. Ever since she had met Inuyasha, long ago, her life had become a mix of joy and pain. As a single tear rolled down her cheek, Kagome laughed, trying to dry the tear instantly. It was funny...this one man...had made her go through so many emotions that she had never felt in her life. She had laughed because of him and cried because of him...she had been filled with rage and filled with joy...she had found truth and she had fallen in love, because of him. All because of him. Kagome...loved Inuyasha. She loved him with all of her heart...

"I love you." Kagome whisperd softly into his silvery-white hair.

Sango knelled beside her, "Do you want to make camp, Miroku said there was a cave about ten minutes back or put him on Kirara until we get to the village"

Trembling, Kagome nodded slowly "Ah...I guess make camp....at least until he wakes up....Then we can leave again. Miroku, could help me lift Inuyasha up onto Kirara" It took a little longer to find the cave with all the heavy rain.

"Okay...I'll set a fire up and fix some thing to eat." Sango left to gather some dry fire wood.

Miroku spoke, bringing Kagome out of her thoughts once more. "Don't worry, lady Kagome, Inuyasha will be fine" Kagome gave a small sad smile.

Sheppo jumped into her shoulder "He'll be fine. Inuyasha has a hard head" Kirara agreed, "meow". Kagome began to quietly hum an unknown tune.

Miroku went to a near by jagged rock reaching high into towards the ceiling, sat at the base leaning against it with his eyes half closed, Deep in thought it seemed. Every now and then he cast wary glances every now and again towards Kagome and Inuyasha, who had taken a place towards the back. Giving them a small mount of privacy. It would be awhile until Inuyasha woke up. Most likely not until morning.

Sango sat near the fire Wiping sweat with the back of her hand across her forehead , waiting for the water to start boiling. It looked like they were having Ramon again.

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It was in the morning when rain died down before it finally disappeared, leaving behind tiny sparkles that lingered on the flowers for a brief moment. With the soft and gentle touch of the light, the flowers whose heads had been once drooping now looked up at the sky, as the rain slowed to a drizzle before ceasing all together. A cricket began to chirp quietly from somewhere nearby.
A tree rustled as a bird popped out and flew off. A few leaves scattered as a soft gust of wind swept past.

Inuyasha groaned as he began stirring, rolling his head from side to side. Everything was hazy . Kagome heard him sigh, alerting her that he had awaken.

"Kagome?" She heard him ask. Kagome put her lips right to his ear. Her breath sent chills down his spine.

"I'm right here." Kagome assured him. She felt his fingers intertwine with her own.

"Ah, my dear Sango!" Miroku gleamed with happiness. A surprised shriek came from Sango. Instead of going for the rice ball, Miroku's hand had instead diverted on its journey to reach behind the demon slayer s back. Her hand spun out, knocking the monk clean onto his back.

"Pervert! I'd thought you d learned!"

Shippo erupted into a fit of giggles as he and Sango proceeded finish with handing out breakfast. Miroku sat off to the side massaging his cheek, a contented smile on his lips.

Kagome walked up and sat below the tree he sat in. He glanced at her, she did nothing but stare ahead at what he was originally watching. As Inuyasha watched he got lost in thoughts no longer taken notice what he was looking at. He had so much to think about. 'How do I tell Kikyou I changed my mind about going to hell? Should I take Kagome with me the next time I meet Kikyou? I have to tell Kikyou I've taken Kagome as my mate. I don't want to hurt Kikyou but what choice do I have? How will Kagome feel about me talking to Kikyou? Man, we still have to tell her mother about us. What if her mother gets mad? Hates me for mating her daughter? Should she know I was in demon form? Oh! Hell what if Kagome gets pregnant or already is with pup? What about Naraku? What if Naraku found out? So many what ifs and I have not a clue how to answer them.'

"Missing something?" Kagome teased, stuffing her giggle that yerned to escape.

His blank expression was matched by an eloquent, "Huh?"

Chuckling, not being able to hold herself back, she pointed to up to his bare feet, "You were staring at them like something was wrong, I figured you must have lost a toe."

"Keh," smiling at her silly joke, he gave a shrug, "Just thinking."

"Hmm... that might be dangerous," Kagome frowned, "Wouldn't want you to hurt yourself."

"wha....what's that sopose to mean?"

"What ever you want to"

"Brat"

"Doggy"

"Weakling"

"stupid

"Bitch"

"What was that Inuyasha?" Kagome said in a deadly tone.

"You're hearing things, wench!" Inuyasha snapped down at her, forgetting his height.

"Come down here!" Kagome said in a less scary voice.

Inuyasha closed his eyes. "Why should I?"

"Sit and just so you know thinking for you is hazards to your health" Slamming into the mud, he held his breath until the spell subsided, wiping his face with the back of his haori.

With a mock growl," Wench You'll pay for that" He grabbed quickly around her wrist and pulling her down, sending her smack down into the mud. Kagome sat there for a second shocked, 'I can't beleive he just did that.'

"Pay backs a bitch, huuu Ka-go-me" laced with laughing sarcasm. Kagome scooped a fitful of wet mud, smearing it all over Inuyasha's face before he had a chance to blink. "Like you said Inu-yasha Pay back is a bitch. Now whose laughing" continuing to act like wild children with no care in the world. They were slipping and sliding, rolling and laughing when Shippo's voice cut into their fun.

"How come you never let me play in the mud Kagome?"

"Shippo!"

Kagome sat up, straddling Inuyasha's chest, the handful of mud she was going to rub into his face, again, still held high above her head. Looking up in horror at her friends, she saw the smirk on both Sango and Miroku's features and blushed beneath the mud covering her face.

The rest of the group gathered their belongings while the two went to the a hot spring washed up, hoping to make it to their destination no later mid-day. Miroku and Sango had a feeling not to expect to leave for a lest a hour.

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Seeming to remember where they were and their circumstances, Kagome would have protested had his mouth not covered hers fully again. At first his kiss was as soft as his touch on her hair, but then his lips took possession of hers with such slow, delicious skill, a flutter of delight ran through her and she slipped her arms around his neck. She slowly moved her curious hands to his hair and toward his sensitive ears. Her hand touched the silky white fur and she began rubbing the tips of his soft triangles carefully

Ending the kiss at last, he suckled on her lower lip a moment before nudging her nose with his and pulling back. Smiling, he quietly ordered her to hold her breath while he pulled her under and quickly rinsed the shampoo from her hair. Coming back up when he was done, he surprised her by grabbing the conditioner and slipping it on, leaving it while he scrubbed away the dirt and grime with her lavender soap.

"Should you be doing this?" Kagome asked, while he rubbed it over her ribs, blushing as his hand brushed her chest. InuYasha smiled, letting out a soft groan at the feel of her body pressed up against his. She pushed him against the rocks, straddling his lap. Inuyasha was nearly consumed by the burning in his only thing he could do was to obey the girl like a damned puppy. She had him under the spell of the cursed necklace he wore and now he was spelled by her womanly charms and yet

He'd do anything to feel the way she made him feel right now.

Kagome squirmed against him and moaned against his mouth, her squirming bringing her moist center up against his straining, concealed, arousal. "Kagome!" Inuyasha moaned. The human girl was pleased to feel how hard her lover was growing under her thoughts were non-exist except showing how much they loved each other.

Inuyasha's mouth left hers to begin a slow leisurely exploration of her body. His mouth travelled down to the juncture of her shoulder and neck, gently scraping his fangs across the skin. As he suckled the skin there, Kagome craned her neck to the side to give him better access.

While his mouth was busy at her neck, one hand snaked down from her hips to trace a path around her thigh and along the inside of her thigh. His mouth travelled down her body and bent her back, draping her over his free arm before feasting upon her breasts, taking a pale rose nipple into his mouth, beginning to suck greedily. Kagome cried out in pleasure, diving her hands into his silver locks, her fingers automatically finding his sensitive ears. Water glistened on their bodies, like embedded diamonds.

Inuyasha groaned, switched to her other breast. Inuyasha growled, "You're mine, and only mine" Claiming her mouth again, capturing her gasp and slipped his tongue inside her mouth, exploring. Kagome pushed hers inside Inuyasha's mouth and tentatively touched his fangs.

He slowly began to enter her, feeling her sweet nectar coat him from head to hilt. Once inside, he slowly began to move inside her, one hand holding his hips as he drew out the sensations. She cried as her orgasm hit her with full force. Inuyasha felt how her slick walls clamped on his shaft and started to squeeze him rhythmically.

Kagome would have let out a loud scream but for Inuyasha capturing it before, giving one last thrust. He stiffened and howled in a animistic way as he released his seed in her awaiting womb. Panting heavily, slowly the two lovers came down their highs. Inuyasha closed his eyes and began to relax as he suddenly felt how her inner muscles started to squeeze his member again. Huh? He mused and made Kagome giggle once again. Are you up to round two? she asked while moving her hips against his. Inuyasha said nothing - only smirked.

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Have you ever had that feeling? You know the feeling that comes before an extremely important event in your life occurs? That event may be good or bad; it doesn't really matter in the end- but the nagging pay attention to me! feeling still comes. Nothing ever makes that feeling go away. Nothing can ever make that feeling go away. And so that feeling remains, urging you to pay attention to it because well, because your life is about to change forever.

And yet for the most part, people ignore that feeling. It s not always a very smart thing to do but people still continue to ignore the feeling. But what happens when the feeling comes and your life changes forever?

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So, what did you think? I would please to hear what you think. I didn't get a chance to proof-read this , sorry if there was mistakes. For all the reviews I've received, here is a big THANK YOU!