Songs For the Broken
Ch. 1: Lies
SilverMoon: Hello again! I am here and on your computer screen with a new fanfiction!!
Lloyd: -bored- Yay....
Me: What's up with you? Go...read a book or something!
Lloyd: -yawns and nods- Okay...-walks out-
Me: Erm...okay? Uh..Kratos...say the disclaimer.
Kratos: SilverMoon doesn't own ToS or Namco.
Me: Onto le story!!
Warning: Extremely bad writing and spelling (I didn't bother spell checking this) and emoness (sorta..)!!!
Bound at every limb by my shackles of fear
Sealed with lies through so many tears
Lost from within, pursuing the end
I fight for the chance to be lied to again
Scream.
That's what he wanted to do. Scream.
He hated everything. He hated everyone. Things were going so good! Everyone was happy because they could finally save Colette and get what they needed. But the stupid idiot Chosen, Zelos, had to go and betray them.
He went to his bed in the inn and threw his face into a pillow and screamed. As loud as he wanted to, he screamed. Tears were welling up in his eyes and spilling over, soaking the pillow. He didn't care though. He wanted to do something. Stab something. Kill something. But he knew he couldn't.
You will never be strong enough
You will never be good enough
You were never concieved in love
You will not rise above
He remembered the smirk on his face as his eyes closed, falling into unconciousness.
He remembered the smirk he used to give whenever he was happy or cheerful. He was the only one who had ever listened to him. And Lloyd was the only one who Zelos had ever shown his true smile to.
But it was a lie. Zelos never loved him. He knew that for a fact.
They'll never see
I'll never be
I struggle on and on to feed this hunger
Burning deep inside of me
He stood up and through the pillow against the wall. He had to stop sulking. He had to be happy and smile for everyones sake. But even though he knew that, he couldn't shake the image of Zelos' smirk from his mind.
He felt his eyes burn as he wiped his dirty glove across his face to rid it of tears. He hadn't cleaned his clothes since the battle. He didn't want to destroy any scent of Zelos that still lingered.
But through my tears breaks a blinding light
Birthing a dawn to this endless night
Arms outstretched awaiting me
An open embrace upon a bleeding tree
He hadn't noticed he had started crying again until he felt the tears trickle down his cheeks. He quickly wiped them away and wandered back to his bed.
He sat down and pulled his knees into his chest, wrapping his arms around them.
--
When his eyes opened again, moonlight was filtering in through the windows. He stretched his arms, realizing that he had fallen asleep in the same postition he was in before.
He hadn't heard him enter, but nonetheless, he had.
When Lloyd was looking around his room for his swords, he saw a shadow behind him, and immediantely tensed. For a few seconds, silence filled the air.
Then, "Lloyd..."
He knew that voice. It was his voice. He glared at the wall. "What do you want?"
He felt two strong arms wrap themselves around him from behind. He struggled, trying to get away from the familiar embrace. He jabbed his elbow backwards in an attempt to knock the angel backwards. But became frustrated when his arm was caught by a gloved hand.
Rest in me and I'll comfort you
I have lived and died for you
Abide in me and I vow to you
I will never forsake you
Finally, Lloyd gave in. Tears streaming down his cheeks, only to be stopped by a finger wiping them away. "Why..." A question that had been flowing through his mind since the incident. "Why did you betray me..?" He chocked out.
"I-"
"Were they all lies? Everything you said to me, was it a lie?" Lloyd said, pushing himself out of the warm embrace. He turned to face Zelos, tears running freely and falling to the carpet.
"Lloyd..."
"You know how much I've been through! I've told you!" Lloyd was almost to hysterics now. His mask was broken. Like it always was around Zelos. "You should know more than anyone else!"
"Lloyd." Zelos said, more firmly this time.
But Lloyd couldn't stop. Once it was shattered, his mask wouldn't go back until everything was let out. "I was lied to before! I was left before! You knew!" He shouted, voice horse from crying and screaming. He stepped back to the wall and slid down to the floor. "You knew...."
Once again, he felt the same arms around him.
They'll never see
I'll never be
I struggle on and on to feed this hunger
Burning deep inside of me
He opened his eyes to see Zelos' red hair. It smelt the same as it always did. Unconsciously, he grinned slightly.
"Lloyd..everything I've told you. Everything I've said. It was all true. I promise you that." Zelos said, hugging Lloyd tighter.
Lloyd felt wetness on his shoulder and realized Zelos was crying. He rubbed the chosens back and buried his face in his hair, enjoying the familiar scent of apples and strawberries.
"Then why?" Lloyd asked, "Why did you betray me?"
"I...I had to. To do something for you." Zelos said, drying his face and pulling back from Lloyd. "But before you ask, I can't tell you what it is yet. I'll tell you when we meet again."
Their eyes met, cerulean blue clashing with chocolate brown.
And then, he was gone. Like he wasn't even there in the first place.
They'll never see
I'll never be
I struggle on and on to feed this hunger
Burning deep inside of me
Lloyd felt his eyes wetten again and stopped the tears before they could spill over onto his face. He heard his door creak open slightly to see Genis poking his head in.
"Lloyd...are you okay?"
"Yeah Genis. I'm fine."
Me: I know, I know, it was short! I'm sorry!! But that's were the song ended so I had to end it there...sorry.
Kratos: ...May I leave?
Me: ...-shrugs-
Kratos: -walks out-
Me: Um...somebody?
-silence-
Me: Anybody?
Yuan: You rang?
Me: Erm...hi...I don't think you've ever been on here before!
Yuan: Nope...
Lloyd: You like my dad don't you?
Yuan: NO!! -runs away while pictures of YuanxKratos fanart fly out behind him-
Lloyd: -sighs-
Me: Review and you'll get a cookie!!
Lloyd: Word count was...-drumroll- 1,354...yay...