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some of this is actually from the book and it took forever to re-type.

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Edward leaned against a tree and stared at me, his ex-pression unreadable.

"Okay, let's talk," I said. It sounded braver than it felt.

He took a deep breath.

"Bella, we're leaving."

I took a deep breath, too. This was an acceptable option. I thought I was prepared. But I still had to ask

"Why now? Another year--"

"Bella, it's time. Hom much longer can we stay in Forks, after all? Carlisle can barly pass for thirty, and he's claiming thirty-three now. We'd have to start over soon

regardless."

His answer confused me. I thought the point of leaving was to let his family live in peace. Why did we have to leave if they were going? I stared at him, trying to under-

stand what he meant.

He stared back codly.

With a roll of nausea, I realized I'd misunderstood.

"When you say we--," I whispered.

"I mean my family and myself." Each word seperarate and distinct.

I shook my head back and forth mechanically, trying toclear it. He waited without any sign of impatience. It took a few minutes before I could speak.

"Okay,' I said. "I'll come with you."

"You can't, Bella. Where we're going...It's not the right place for you."

"Where you are is the right place for me."

"I'm no good for you, Bella."

"Don't be rediculious." I wanted to sound angry, but it just sounded like I was begging. "You're the very best part of my life."

"My world is not for you," he said grimly.

"What happened with Jasper-- that was nothing, Edward! Nothing!"

"You're right," he agreed. "It was exactly what was to be expected."

"You promised! In Phoenix, you promised that you would stay--"

"As long as it was best for you," he interrupted to correct me.

"No! This is about my soul, isn't it?" I shouted, furious, the words exploding out of me-- somehow it still sounded like a plea. "Carlisle told me about that, and I don't care, Edward. I don't care! You have my soul. I don't want it without you--it's yours already!"

He took a deep breath and stared, unseeingly, at the ground for a long moment. His mouth twisted the tiniest bit. When he finally looked up, his eyes were different, harder--like the liquid gold had frozen solid.

"Bella, I don't want you to come with me." He spoke the words slowly and precisely, his cold eyes on my face, watching as I absorbed what he was saying

"You're lying." I accused. I watched shock flash across his face then disapperm, replaced by the hard mask.

"I never planned for you to stay with me. You and I arn't meant to be together." he said emotionlessly

"What about all the times you said you loved me? Were you lying all the times you said you couldn't stay away. I don't believe you, Edward. I don't!" I yelled hearing the truth in my own words.

"Bella--"

"Please," I whispered lowering my voice , "I love you too much to just let you walk away."

"Bella," he whispered again his face torn "don't do this. I have to go. We can't be together. I'm sorry."

He turned to leave. I reached out and grabed his arm. He spun around at my touch. I threw my arms around him and kissed him as passtionatly as I could. I breathed in his scent, pulling myself into his stone chest. He stood frozen in shock before he responded. He swiftly removed my choke hold on him and stepped away.

As I watched, his frozen eyes melted. The gold became liquid again, molten, burning down into mine with an intensity that was overwhelming.

"Don't do anything reckless or stupid," he ordered, no longer detached. "Do you understand what I'm saying?"

I nodded helplessly.

"Yes," I whispered in defeat.

He seemed to relax just a little

"And I'll make you a promise in return," he said. "I promise that this will be the last time you'll see me. I won't come back. I won't put you through anything like this again. You can go on with your life without any more interference from me. It'll be as if I never exsisted."

And with that he left. I saw a streak of white and an unnatural breeze.

"NO!" I shouted helplessly.

"Please, god. No, no, no, no,....."

My knees bucked and I fell to the ground. I crossed my arms and held them to my chest.

How could he go? How could he just pack up and leave? He didn't even let Alice say good-bye! What about Emmett, Esme, Carlisle, Jasper, even Rosalie? Why did they agree? I thought they cared for me too!

My body started shaking, as the sobs ripped through me. I gasped for air, my breath caught in my throat. I fell on my side and let the pain have me. It corsed through my body like fire. Doing away with me. I felt sick and tired as I closed my eyes.

I layed like that for hours. The slight breezed turned into a rushing chill.

The last thing I heard was my name being called. It wasn't my angels voice. I wasn't going to answer.

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