Chapter 34

He gently placed his finger under my chin and lifted it up so I could look him in the eyes, "I'm going with you Bella. No matter what I'll always be by your side," he told me truthfully.

(Forks – The Funeral)

Everything was passing by in a blur. People were crying all around me. My dad was lying…dead…in a coffin right in front of me. I had no more tears to shed. My body was completely numb. I could barely feel Edward's arm around my shoulder.

"You okay?" he whispered to me as I stared at the coffin in disbelief.

I didn't reply back. I just kept staring at it. Every once and a while I would watch the people place a flower on his coffin or some dirt. But my eyes were always able to see the coffin somehow.

Edward moved his arm down to my waist and pulled me closer to him. "Everything will be fine," he whispered in my ear.

My lip trembled lightly as I leaned my head against his shoulder.

"Bella," I froze over completely. Why now? Why today?

I moved my head away from Edward's shoulder slowly and looked to my left to find Will with a sad expression and a black suit. "What do you want?" I asked him with a sharp yet quivery voice.

"I just came to…give my condolences," he told me as he glanced at Edward for a short second.

I pulled away from Edward and faced Will completely, "Well you can keep it. I don't want anything from you," I said as I crossed my arms over my chest.

"Maybe we should talk somewhere else," he suggested as he looked around the crowd.

"We have nothing to talk about anymore," I told him as my heart pounded painfully in my chest.

He gently placed his hand on top of my folded arms, "Please Bella."

I jerked away and took a step back, "Just stay away from me."

I looked up at Edward and back at Will before I quickly jogged away from the funeral. My dad's death…and Will showing up after I told him I never wanted to see him again was just too much. My emotions were at a very high peek that I had been containing well until Will showed up.

I ran back to my car and remembered that Edward had the keys. I placed my hands against the passenger door and tried to catch my breath before I leaned my forehead against my hands and started crying. A pair of arms wrapped around my waist before they leaned their head against my hair. I trembled lightly as the sobs started escaping my chest.

They gently turned me around to face them. I looked up to meet Edward's aggrieved eyes. I quickly wrapped my arms around him tight and buried my face into his chest. He tightened his arms around me and murmured soft nothings into my hair.

"Bella!" I pulled away from Edward and wiped my face as I watched Will running our way.

"I said leave me alone!" my voice broke.

"I wanted to apologize," he told me as he stopped a couple feet away from me and Edward.

"Apologize? For what?" I asked confused.

"For telling you," He paused and looked up at Edward, "What I told you," he finished.

I chuckled humorlessly, "You can't apologize for something like that. It won't make things better. It just makes things worse," I ran my fingers through my hair, "Why did you have to come? Why couldn't you just stay away? I distinctly remember that the reason you came over that night was to tell me you didn't want to see me anymore and that you didn't want to be involved in my life."

"I know," he said softly, "I'm sorry about that."

"Sorry? Its too late for that," I told him, "Maybe life would have been better if we had never met," I told him.

"Don't say that. Never say that," he told me as he took a step towards me.

"It's true," a few tears were escaping my eyes, "Just…ahh," I shook my head and ran my fingers through my hair again, "I can't do this anymore Will. Its either you're in or out. And if you're in you have to forget about that conversation. It's over. It's done with," I told him.

"I can't just forget about it Bella," he told me desperately.

I bit my lip lightly and nodded, "Then I guess this is really goodbye."

"No, this can't be goodbye. We've been friends for almost 25 years Bella. You can't just throw that all away," I could see the tears in his eyes. And the pain this was causing him.

"I didn't throw it away Will. You did," I told him truthfully.

"Come on Bella don't do this," he pleaded with his heart.

"I don't want to Will. Trust me I've already had enough shit to go through. I don't want to lose you too but…I'm sorry. It's just going to have to be that way," I quickly turned around and opened the passenger door. Edward got in the drivers seat and turned the car on.

We were staying at my fathers place until it was sold so Edward got us there in less than five minutes. He turned the car off and turned to look at me, "Bella what's going on?" he asked.

I sniffled as I stared at the house that once held my breathing father in it, "Can we go inside first?" I asked as I looked back at him.

He gently wiped my tears with his thumbs before he nodded. I got out of the car and slowly made my way into my house. I took Edward's hand after he had locked the door and started leading him to my old room. I let go of his hand and slowly turned the knob before I walked in.

Everything looked the same. I slowly made my way over and sat in my bed. I looked around the room as the memories filled my head. "Bella?" Edward asked calling my attention.

I looked down at my hands, I was sitting Indian style and Edward was sitting at the edge of the bed, that were in my lap, "Will…fell in love with me," I whispered.

"Wait what? How did that happen?" he asked.

I lightly bit the inside of my cheek, "He came over the day you got sick and told me. We got into a fight and I told him I didn't want to see him anymore."

I looked up when he sighed to find him crawling towards me. He gently placed me in his lap and kissed my forehead, "I'm sorry love. I know you loved him like a brother."

I nodded as I swallowed the lump in my throat, "Yeah and he just…he left. Said that it was for the best. I knew he was right but…he's practically my brother. I need him too. Just like I needed my dad," my eyes were filling with tears again.

"Shh its okay your dad's in a better place now," he murmured as he rocked me gently back and forth.

"I know and I know why I can't see him but…Will's alive I should be able to see him. He should be part of my life even if it was a small part," I cried to him.

"Is this what you've been keeping from me?" he asked.

I looked up at him and nodded slowly, "You were sick. I didn't want to be selfish and make everything about me."

"You should have told me how you felt. It's not good to keep things bottled up inside," he told me as he stroked my hair softly.

"It hurts," I whimpered out, "I've lost a lot Edward. I don't know how much more my heart can take," I wept as I placed my hand over my heart.

He quickly tightened his arms around me and rocked me a bit faster. I choked out sobs as my heart constricted painfully from the hurt I was feeling. I thought I had no tears to shed. Guess I was wrong. I pulled away from Edward and jumped off the bed.

"Bella?!" he called after me as I ran out of the room and down to the end of the hallway. I quickly ran into the bathroom and emptied my stomach out. Once I started dry heaving I flushed the toilet and plopped down on my bottom.

I still hadn't stopped crying. I grabbed my stomach lightly as I let my head drop and cried. Edward sat down beside me and wrapped his arms around my shoulders. I buried my head in his shoulder but never let go of my stomach. It hurt more than usual. I know your stomach hurts when you cry but now that I threw up it hurts more.

(2 months later)

I hadn't cried since that day. But here I am again…crying. And now I knew why. I was on the far left of the couch; my knees up to my chest with my arms wrapped around them. I had my left cheek resting against my knees as I stared at the front door.

I was waiting for Edward to come home. I've been waiting for maybe two hours already. And I was crying ever since. I had plenty of tears to shed now.

"Bella I'm home!" Edward called up the staircase as he walked in the front door and put his coat up on the rack. I didn't respond back. "Bella?" he asked as he took a couple more steps forward looking up at the staircase.

I sniffled causing him to look right at me. His face was covered in panic quickly as he made his way towards the couch. "What's wrong?" he asked as he sat right next to me on the couch.

My eyes started watering more now that he was closer to me. I turned my head away and buried my face in my knees. He lightly touched my knee, "Bella you're scaring me," he informed me.

I picked my head up and wiped my face but that didn't stop the new tears from coming, "I'm sorry," my voice broke.

"What's wrong?" he asked softly as he squeezed my knee in reassurance.

My lips trembled as I looked into his eyes intently, "I…I went to," I sniffled, "the doctor…like you asked me to."

"And?" he asked in anxiety.

"I…she said…I'm…pregnant," my voice broke again and I started crying again.

He lightly placed his hand on my cheek and smiled at me, "You're pregnant?" he asked happily.

I nodded as my tears sprang to my eyes.

His face fell slowly, "Why are you crying then?" he asked confused.

"I'm sorry," I apologized to him.

"Why?" he asked confused, "For what?"

"I…she…the doctors," I told him slowly, "don't know how…far along I am."

He was still confused, "Why does that matter?" he asked.

I sniffled and looked down at my hands, "Because of all the stress and tragedy that's happened to me…they don't know how far along the baby is…it can just be developing slowly because of everything I've been through…or…it can belong to…M-miles," I whispered out.

I felt him stiffen beside me. I looked up at him, "So what your trying to say is…you don't know who the baby belongs to," he said in a monotone.

I took in a shaky breath and let it out slowly, "No I don't."

A/N: End of the sequel! Please review! I'm going to be taking a bit of a break to think of what the plot for the third installment should be as soon as I get something I'll probably put up the preview