N94: The imeem playlist is temporarily off and I hope it'll come back or I'll have to wait to write new chapters. I'm not going to write during the holiday, so have a great one.

Disclaimer: I do not own any of the characters in this story. Stephenie Meyer the wonderful mormon woman who published the Twilight saga owns the whole gang.

Chapter Song

What hurts the most
Was being so close
And havin' so much to say
And watchin' you walk away

And never knowin'
What could've been
And not seein' that lovin' you
Is what I was tryin' to do

- Rascal Flatts "What Hurts The Most"

After a couple weeks, my birthday was going to be coming up and Alice didn't know. I sat with Nessie, who Renesmee liked to be called, at lunch the next day she called. She seemed good enough fro Jake and I was glad he was happy.

Edward was getting crabby and annoyed easily. He was tense and stressed. I already knew what he wanted it was clear to the whole school even some teachers.

Sex

He wasn't going to get anything from me. Maybe only a chaste kiss, but we hadn't kissed since the night he stayed over. He was still trying hard to get me back. Alice thought it was amusing how he would try to keep me safe, especially with Newton coming to get me.

Newton kept asking me out and Jessica was clearly annoyed and she started hanging out with Lauren who hung out with Tanya. I had only got to know Kate who was very nice with a great boyfriend.

I knew I was going to be hated by the whole girl population in school. Edward was giving me his undivided attention, not paying any to others. Jealousy is not a good feeling and I know.

So tonight is a party at Newton's house and it's my birthday. I plan on drinking enough to still drive home and not get anything put in my drink. The whole gang was going even Jake and Renesmee.

Alice said she was going to make me hot so I'm hiding under my bed so she won't find me. Edward was texting me, worried I fell in a ditch. I didn't reply worried he know where I was and tell Alice.

"Bella, come on, please" she pleaded.

"Bella, we're going to do this either way" Rosalie warned.

I sighed and looked at my phone, showing Edward was calling me. All of a sudden I was dragged out by my feet by the evil pixie I call a friend. I kicked and shoved when she strapped me into the chair and started my torture. She put eyeliner, mascara, eye shadow, blush, and lip gloss.

She dressed me into a midnight blue ruffle tank top and tight denim shorts with black leggings. She also put me in heels which I switched for my black high top converses. I put my black hoodie on and unzipped it. Rosalie left my hair curly in a headband and sprayed it so it wouldn't get frizzy.

"Damn, you look hot Bella" Alice squealed, jumping up and down.

"We work great" Rosalie put in, high fiving Alice.

"Ok, ok I look hot can we go" I whined.

"Yes, meany" Alice sighed.

We grabbed our keys and made it to Rosalie's BMW. We turned the radio up and sung to all the songs that came on. We parked down the street from Newton's so Rosalie's car wouldn't get ruined. Tons of cars were parked on the street in the drive way and the grass.

We made it inside til Emmett and Jasper bounded up to the girls giving them drinks. Then they started making out, tongue, groping, the whole ten yards. I moved past them and made it to the keg, grabbing a cup and pumping it to get the beer.

I saw Angela talking to Ben Cheney her crush also Renesmee, looking bored with Kate and Garret. I moved toward her and was intercepted by Mike who reeked of alcohol.

"Liking the party" he slurred.

"Yeah" I said, looking at Nessie who found me.

"Do you want to come with me" he asked, wobbling.

"No, but I'll look for you, ok" I retorted, moving towards Nessie.

"God, all I have been doing is dodging drunk guys" she exhaled.

"I've came to save the day" I squealed.

"Very funny" she retorted with a roll of her eyes.

We started talking and then brought up Jacob, saying he couldn't come because of Leah, Seth's sister, got dumped. Also traded for Emily who was like a sister to her, but cousin. I was flabbergasted as she laughed at my expression.

We moved to the patio where no one was until I saw Tanya sucking face with someone. I feel bad for anyone who catches her STD. I saw Alice run out of the house, bounding toward me with a wild look on her face.

"Bella, come quick" Alice screamed.

"Alice, I'm talking"

"Well let's talk inside" she yelled.

"It's too loud inside"

"No, come on" she tried to pull me, but it was too late I saw him.

Edward

He was kissing Tanya. She knew he wouldn't resist and she just knew I was coming to the party. I couldn't hear anything around me; I walked up to them and pulled her off him.

"I hate you" I screamed and slapped him, walking through the crowd to the front door.

Once out the door I started walking home, ignoring my phone. I saw a car pull and I just knew it was Edward. I just kept walking, ignoring him driving beside me.

Finally, I heard him get out of the car and come towards me. I just knew what he was going to do grab me then say sorry and I would forgive him, but no not this time. He grabbed my hand and I pulled back, looking at his sullen face.

"Don't touch me" I hissed.

"Bella I'm sorry" he pleaded.

"I guess I was wrong about you"

"Please Bella…I love you"

"Well, did you love me when you were kissing Tanya huh" he opened and closed his mouth a couple of times, before he sighed.

"Didn't think so"

"Bella, it was a mistake"

"Yes, all of this was a mistake. I trusted you and you betrayed me. I thought you might of changed; yes I knew it was going to be hard, but you gave into temptation. At least I thought you would have changed for…me since you were all into loving me. You were just manipulating me like all the other girls to fall in love with you"

"Manipulating you, Bella? I've loved you since forever you cared about me when my parents died. No one was there physically and emotionally til the next day. You stayed with me through thick and thin. What about now? Huh? Can't we get through this" he ran his fingers through his hair, nervously.

"No, apparently we can't because you were just about to sleep with that slut"

He just sighed and looked at me with hurt, love, sorrow, and remorse. I felt the wind blow and I could feel the wetness on my face. I couldn't do this, I every time I knew this would happen. I was sick of this. Just can't help who you fall in love with.

"I wasn't going to sleep with Tanya" he replied.

"Oh, really, so you making out with her against the house like an animal doesn't mean you were going to sleep with her" I accused.

He didn't say anything. I just started walking again; it didn't take long to get to my house maybe only 5 miles. I heard his car door close and the car start up again. Good he's going to leave me alone. But he didn't he drove up to me and opened the passenger door.

"Get in" he ordered.

"No"

"Bella, get in the car"

"No"

"Get in the damn car" he yelled.

I was shocked and frozen, Edward never yelled even if he was mad. I was slightly scared, but kept walking.

"Stop being stubborn, Bella" he retorted.

I pulled out my phone and called Jacob. "Hello" I could hear slight crying and sniffling in the background also shushing.

"Jake can you pick me up, please" I begged him.

"What's wrong"

"Can I tell you later, please"

"Ok, I'll be there in 10" he hung up as I walked near Edward's car.

"You can go back, Jake is picking me up"

"Jake, who"

"Jacob Black"

He didn't reply back, but he still followed me in his car. Finally, I saw Jacob's rabbit Volkswagen with Seth and Leah in the back. From the corner of my eye I saw Edward get out the car and walk up behind me. The electrical pull sparked as he got closer to me. Jacob followed Edward's example and was in front of me in a matter of seconds.

"Cullen"

"Black" they spat at each other.

They glared at each other as I moved to Jacob, hugging him tightly. He hugged me back as Edward growled. I looked up at Jake to see him grinning wildly and Edward glaring at him with a scowl on his face.

"Come on; let's get you to my house" he said, brining me to the car.

"Bella, don't go with him" Edward inputted.

"I can do whatever I want. It is my birthday" I retorted.

I got in the passenger seat, leaning back as I waited for Jacob. I felt Seth wrap his arms around my chest, hugging me while holding Leah's hand.

I saw Edward and Jacob slightly yelling, but not enough for us to hear. I tapped Seth's arm and pulled one of my hands back to hold Leah's. Edward looked defeated and tired, mostly hurt and regretful.

I just wanted to go up to him and say I'm sorry and that I still loved him, but it wasn't my fault. Only his. Leah moved closer top me and whispered in my ear, groggily "Men are dogs and we always get our heart broken"

N94: Have a great holiday!

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