Rating: T

YC: This is my first fan fiction I have ever written. Don't be too hard on me, Q.Q. After spending the last month reading almost every Gakuen Alice Fanfic, I only found a couple that I really liked. But none of them were my taste. So, after three long nights of thinking, I decided to write my own. I hope it isn't bad, since I'm trying my best with it.

Disclaimer: I can not stress enough the fact that I don't own Gakuen Alice. Wish I did, but I don't. All rights belong to Higuchi Tachibana. Also, I don't own any of the songs that will appear in later chapters. I will be posting the songs lyrics, who ACTUALLY wrote the song, and the songs name. However, according to the fan-fic, Mikan wrote most of the songs herself.

Chapter One - Return of Mikan?

Mikan sat in the dark limo, wearing her Gakuen Alice Uniform. Beside her sat Persona, clad in his black robe and white mask. She sighed, obviously quite nervous. After spending five years away from the Academy, she was anxious to see her friends again. 'Friends...Will they still be my friends with how I am now?' she asked herself sadly. Mikan had been taken away by Persona at age 11, without the chance to say goodbye to anyone. Her friends didn't even know about her SEC Alice, because as soon as she healed Narumi, they took her away.

Mikan paled out suddenly, beginning to cough into her hand. Persona was instantly alarmed, but as always didn't show it. He set a hand in her back and gruffly asked, "Do we need to stop at the hospital?". Mikan quickly shook her head, too busy coughing to respond. He scoffed lightly and sat back in the leather seats, crossing his arms. Mikan sat up, wiping her lips with her hand, leaning back as well. Her calm demeanor stayed strong as ever, no emotion in her cold eyes. Suddenly the limo pulled to a stop, and the driver informed them of their arrival.

Mikan grabbed her black suitcase and stepped out of the limo, finding herself just inside of the Academy's walls. She sighed loudly, following Persona into the school.

"You've already been assigned your room, Kaze Neko." Persona said coldly, leading her to the top floor of the High School Division quarters. "You are hereby a Special Star, and as such, you have a Special Star room... Right next to Kuro Neko's. I will be here at 7AM to lead you to your classroom. Be standing outside your door ready for class when I arrive." he said as they stopped in front of a well decorated door.

"Yes, Persona." Mikan said softly, pulling out her key and jabbing it into the lock, opening it. She quickly walked into her room, bid farewell to Persona, and began unpacking. After an hour, she sat down on the extremely over-sized bed, staring at the wall. She eventually let her eyes wander to the clock on the table, and sighed. '7:30... I should get some rest...' She thought. She laid down in the puffy sheets, quickly falling asleep.

Mikan jolted awake, cold with sweat. Immediately she leaped up and ran into the bathroom. After a few moments of expelling food, she brushed her teeth and prepared a hot bath. She gently eased her sore body into the tub, sighing in relief at the heat. Mikan laid back to relax, her hazel strands of hair sticking to her neck from the water. As she began to relax, she eyed herself over and sadness overcame her. For a 16 year old, she had a very nice body, but there was one very unappealing feature... Scars covered most of her.

...But the biggest scar was invisible to all. The scar her 5 years of training left on her soul. She would likely never be the same happy and joyful girl again. After being taken away from her friends, she made new ones during her training. However, during a mission, her two closest friends, Mivi and Nivi, the two Fire and Ice twins, were killed... right in front of her eyes.

Ever since then, the happy and bubbly Mikan everyone knew and loved disappeared, replaced with a cold and black-hearted Mikan who's killed hundreds of people on missions without a second thought. She hated herself for what happened to Mivi and Nivi, and vowed to not let herself get close to anyone like that again. Mikan stood up in the tub and punched the wall as hard as she could, causing the tiles to break and crumble from it.

Tears filling her eyes, she climbed from the tub, wrapping herself in a towel. Mikan stood in front of the mirror, her eyes shining with tears. 'You said you'd never cry again, Mikan.' she gently reminded herself... "Just another promise I've broken..." Mikan said dryly, walking out of the bathroom. She looked at the time, 6:30. With a sigh, she grabbed her uniform, pulling it on.

She quickly fixed her hair up, drying it just enough to stop it from dripping. She quickly checked the time again. 6:50. Mikan winced, and slid out of the room, turning off all her lights. She locked the door behind her, and waited for a few moments.

"So, for once you are early." Persona said coldly, walking up to her. Mikan merely nodded curtly and followed him. "You are in Class B, most of your... 'friends'...are in it as well..." He said, leading her to down the long hallways. Finally they came to a stop in front of the door, and Persona peered through the window. Mikan then heard the annoying and perky voice of Narumi.

"...And, we have a new student today." Narumi said brightly. The door swung open and in stepped Persona, causing Natsume to narrow his eyes...then widen when Mikan followed right behind him. The entire class gasped loudly, and Narumi blinked nervously. "T-that's right. Ms. Sakura has returned to us!" His voiced turned cheerful.

"Take a seat next to Natsume." Mikan heard him say. She scanned the room, her brown eyes stopping when they met crimson ones. She nodded curtly to Narumi, but before she went to sit, she set something into Persona's hand, using her hand to make his curl around it. Natsume glared somewhat at her actions, and the rest of the class watched her nervously. She stood on her toes and whispered something to Persona, earning a curt nod from him in response.

Mikan turned on her heel and walked down the row towards Natsume, and at the same time, Persona left. "...Right, well, you know my rules. FREE DAY!" Narumi shouted, quickly charging out of the room. Mikan sat down next to Natsume refusing to meet his eyes again. She could feel him tense up at her actions, but she ignored it. She was too busy staring at another person. Said person turned her hear and stared right back, purple meeting brown. Mikan stood up softly and walked up to said purple-eyed beauty.

"Hotaru..." Mikan said, her voice so soft Natsume had to strain his ears to hear her. She sounded like she hadn't used her voice in a very long time, and she held no joy at seeing her friend, and no smile was on her face. Hotaru stood up and...

BAKA!

The fist hit Mikan right in the chest, sending her stumbling backwards until she regained her balance. "Why didn't you say anything to us? Where did you go!? WHY DID YOU LEAVE!?" Hotaru screamed, looking pissed and sad at the same time. Ruka, who was sitting next to her, gently wrapped his arms around Hotaru, and the entire class looked at Mikan expectantly.

However, Mikan simply shrugged and left, leaving the entire class stunned, even Natsume, though he didn't show it. Despite her calm looks, Mikan was pissed, sad, and hurt at all the same time as she walked out of the building. She continued walking until she reached the Northern Forest, where she stood, leaned up against a tree.

All of a sudden she whipped around and punched a huge hole in the tree. Tears were starting to fill her eyes and she released a huge blast of wind, the wind shaking, cutting, and even knocking over many trees. She continued and continued expelling wind until she had made a very large and VERY noticeable hole in the woods.

"You need to control yourself, Kaze Neko." a cold voice said from behind her.

Mikan whipped around, glaring at the man. Persona stood there, in his usual garb. Instead of heeding his warning, she released a large gust of wind towards him. Persona simply leaped out of the way, glaring at Mikan. She thrust her hand forward, a huge blade of wind flying at Persona. Persona leaped from the tree branch, landing on the next tree, the original one now destroyed into a pile of twigs. "Control your anger, Kaze Neko. You will end up hospitalizing yourself again.."

Just as he spoke, Mikan collapsed to the ground, coughing horribly. Persona stood there and watched, sorrow hidden in his eyes, as she continued coughing until she passed out. Persona glared and merely walked away, taking note of the fact that hidden in the bushes where a couple of High Schoolers who had followed the commotion to them. "Return to your classes..." Persona said angrily, leaving the forest without another word.

Mikan was glaring furiously at the innocent wall in front of her. She was laying in a hospital room, not allowed to leave until she was cleared. She hissed in annoyance and began brutally cutting the wall with her wind, but stopped as soon as she felt an agonizing pain in her chest. She horribly overused her Alice two days ago in the forest.

Finally, the Dr. Imai walked in and glared sternly at her. "You can go, but if you get put back here in the next three days, you'll be stuck here for a week." He threatened, walking out. Mikan leaped out of the bed happily, throwing on her uniform. She charged out of the hospital, taking off towards her class. It was only 8:00, class has only been going on for an hour. She swung the classroom door open, her good mood instantly ruined as she was met with suspicious stares.

She merely shrugged them off and walked to the back of the room, sitting next to an annoyed looking Natsume. "Where have you been, polka-dots?" he asked in a cold voice.

"Hell, what about you?" She said in an awfully serious voice.

"He... has been be sulking." Ruka said softly.

"Beyond sulking. He's been bitchy." Hotaru said coldly, earning a death glare from Natsume, and a soft giggle from Mikan. However, as soon as she giggles, she froze, tensing up. Ruka, Hotaru, and Natsume eyed her carefully, but were all startled when she straightened up and glared furiously.

"That's it! Who in the hell was spying on me yesterday!?" She shouted, eying everyone in the class suspiciously.

"We all did." Koko said loudly. "Sorry Mikan, but we heard a huge explosion and followed it to the Northern Woods." he continued. "What happened to you? Are you sick or something?" he asked, causing Mikan to freeze up again. However, when she slowly looked up, she looked beyond pissed.

"You... have no idea... what's happened to me." She hissed furiously. With light speed she leapt out the widows, breaking through them, as they were shut. The class ran up to the windows, expecting to see her laying on the ground or something, but instead saw her running off towards the Northern Forest again. The class was stunned, and worried.

Mikan was still running. She'd been running for who knows how long, but was still at it. Anyone else would have probably have collapsed by now, but Mikan wasn't anyone else. She was Mikan, the person who spent 5 years non-stop training. The person who watched her best friends die. The person who couldn't save them...

Mikan sighed loudly, coming to a stop. "Persona." she thought, using her telepathy to speak with him.

"What is it, Kaze Neko?" Persona hissed back.

"Any missions I can do?" She asked, feeling rather edgy.

"Of course, Kaze Neko... There are always missions... How does spying sound?" He asked sharply.

"Anything will do. I'll take it. When and where?"

"Same place, same time."

"Aye aye, captain!" She thought back with a light laugh.

Mikan stood outside of the warehouse, clad in a black leather suit. She wore a black full-face mask with a gold tornado design on the side. She was cold, hungry, and very bored as she spied on two guards.

"So, how long do you think she'll last?" The first guard asked.

"Who?"

"...You bloody idiot, the new chick they brought it. You know, black hair, red eyes?" the first guy said, glaring at the second guy.

"Ooooooh. Probably a couple of days. You never know though, I hear her brother is stubborn as hell. Maybe it runs in the blood." #2 joked.

"...I wonder why you were even ever hired. Did they realize you lacked a brain when they did?" #1 asked sourly.

"You are such an asshole. Did they realized you lacked a good attitude?" #2 spat angrily.

Mikan sighed and shook her head, teleporting into her Academy room. She quickly collapsed onto her bed, sliding her mask off. Within moments she was fast asleep.

Mikan walked to her class in the morning, only to be surprised by the sight of Persona. She walked up to him and nodded curtly. Persona and her only communicated through Telepathy, unless they were in private. "Well, this is a surprise."

"What did you learn from the mission?" Persona asked coldly. Mikan sighed out loud, muttering something about him never being one for small talk.

"They do have her. For how long, I don't know. All I know is that they are trying to break her will..."

"I see."

"Is it helping?" Mikan asked out of the blue. She earned a confused look from Persona. "The stone?"

"Oh. Yes it is, but I am also still using the earring, just in case."

"You don't have to." Mikan said with a sigh. She stepped forward and gently set something in Persona's hand. "A spare." She reached up and gently deactivated the earring using her Nullification. The was she was gently smiling at him and touching him would almost make one think it was a love scene... and that's exactly the reaction Natsume had. Natsume stood a couple of feet away, looking pissed.

"You are correct. It seems I don't need the earring." Persona said with a curt nod. "Farewell, Kaze Neko." He said out loud, walking away into the shadows. Mikan sighed lightly. Making Alice Stones was really quite tiring. She sat down next to Natsume, her head instantly on the desk. Jinno walked into the room, looking annoyed and annoying.

"SAKURA!" He shouted loudly, and she slowly lifted her head to blink dully at him.

"What now?" She said softly, causing the class to gasp. They still weren't used to the new Mikan. Jinno walked up to her, his wand sparking madly. Everyone knew what was coming. He quickly zapped her with it, causing her to jerk slightly, but no other reaction. She glared at him. "Sorry, don't feel anything." She muttered. He did it again, only this time with a higher voltage. When he pointed it at her, in a flash she was standing on her desk, with her hand wrapped around the wand. The class, and Jinno, were stunned.

"Stupid ass." Mikan hissed murderously. She lifted her left hand and held it up, a burst of lightning exploding from it and hitting Jinno, sending him to the floor. Everyone in class, with the exception of Hotaru and Natsume, were stunned and frightened. Mikan stood up, brushing her skirt off. "Well shit... He's going to be sooo pissed." She said.

She quickly leapt out the still-broken window, only this time Natsume followed her. Mikan continued running until she reached the hole in the Northern Woods she created the week before, and Natsume stopped as well. He spun in front of her and grabs her by the shoulders. She stared into his crimson eyes, and he stared back.

"...Where were you..?" He asked softly. She blinked at him, her eyes filling with sorrow.

"Don't you remember? I was in hell." She said sadly, staring him in the eyes. "I was there since the day I lost anyone who ever cared for me." She said coldly. Natsume's eyes flashed with hidden emotion, and he suddenly pulled her closer, kissing her.

Neee~ I know it isn't that good, but I promise it gets better. The story does focus mainly on Mikan and Natsume, so you'll rarely see any of the other characters. There are also scenes with Ruka and Hotaru near the last chapters. How do I know this? I'm only two chapters from the very end of the story. I lose intrest in tihngs all the time, so I wrote the entire story before posting it so I don't dissapoint any readers. ^^

Please review and give me tips, ideas, or any advice. Thanks!