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Hey guys :) you know me... I feel guilty, once again so... I am posting again :O omg XD like one day after last time

well, this chapter is one of those extra chapters and even though it belongs to the original storyline, it doesn't fit time-wise :) last chapter ended when Tsuki was starting school and he was about eight years old and everything.. well this takes place during chapter 2, which was when Tsuki was bout three years old. Lats time I did this, during "lost in your smile" it didn't really work out for some of you guys. I did write in this little text that it took place before the actual storyline and everything but not everyone reads this so... heh

I'll say this again. When this extra chapter takes place, Tsuki is about three years old, and what happens hear happens at the same time as chapter 2, "my memories"

everything clear? :D

(and as you guys might have figured, all chapters about this emo guy will be named something with "lost" so that there will be no complications)

NOW :D if you still have questions, just ask :D

warning: OH THIS IS LEMON ALLRIGHT :D which means you will get juice... almost ;) and there is a boy... fondling with another boy's... private... aria :( man that was embarrassing to saaaay ;_;

Disclaimer: yeah... I don't own any of these characters ;_; because I am not Japanese and even if I can actually draw... (according to others) I couldn't have invented the fabulous story of Naruto... since I am only 19 XD

enjoy :D

He felt his pulse quickening, the sound of his own heartbeat making him tremble as he gripped the soft sheets underneath his back. His head was pushed down into the pillows while moans dripping with pleasure left his throbbing lips and aching mouth. He needed to taste those red lips again, feel the soft skin brushing against his own, smell of him so close he could hear him breath.

He shuddered and pulled at the strands of blond hair that gently tickled his chest as he moved. Even though he had not planned on letting out any moans, he did, and the blond man stopped for a slight second, looking up at him with his sky-blue eyes, grinning.

"I haven't even touched you yet..." he said, gently breathing against the aching limb between his fragile fingers. "...you're already coming?"

"Shut up.." he almost groaned back and let his knee hit the blond one's body so that he continued with what he was supposed to do. He didn't want to hear him speak, not hear him talk in that voice, that would ruin it all. "..just blow me..."

The blond nodded and let his tongue gently sink down to caress the pounding surface, licking hungrily at the warm skin, giving him chills of pleasure that quickly made their way down his arched back. He could feel the blond one breathing heavily before warmth covered the tip of his already weeping cock, bringing him to the very break of madness and he closed his eyes...

"Sasuke..?"

He sighed and opened his eyes as the door opened and a woman stepped inside. She was dressed in a kimono, made of a burning-red fabric and her dark hair strapped into a bun on her head. Sasuke looked at her and sighed while shaking his head.

"What now..?" he asked, even though the man 'downstairs" did not stop what he was doing.

The woman seemed a bit disturbed but didn't comment what she saw, instead she just met his eyes and spoke. "It's time... the car is here"

Sasuke nodded and the woman left as quickly as she ad gotten there. He looked down at the half moaning ma who was still working him and he felt disgusted. "You're not good enough..." he grunted and pushed the man away. Within a minute he was dressed in his black suit and was fixing his hair by the mirror, the man still watching him from the bed.

"So..." the blond said, still grinning. "What should I do to get better..?"

"You can't do anything..." Sasuke sighed and opened the door to leave the room. "...You're not him."

The cold air hit him straight in the face as he made his way out the doors and into the car that had pulled up right outside the entrance. He pulled his dark coat tighter around himself as he sat down inside and nodded in greeting toward the man now sitting next to him.

"You don't look like the man who just lost his wife..." the man said, without even looking at Sasuke, not taking any notice of the honoring nod.

"You don't look like the man who just lost his only daughter... sir" Sasuke replied, looking out the window.

"I guess we are alike after all..."

Sasuke had never been in prison, nor had he been behind other bars, but as the funeral was over, people had taken their farewells and Sauske had gotten a package handed to him from his father in law, he imagined the feelings he felt was somewhat the feelings of getting let out of prison. As soon as he got into the car to ride back to his house, he opened the brown box and started pulling things out of it... his things, his passed... one thing after another, just as they had been back then. His notebook with numbers to old contacts he had not spoken to in years, his old glasses, his sweaters with the red and white print on it, his cellphone...

He sighed with a slight smile on his lips, stroking the deep blue colour and the slightly scratched surface of the screen. The battery was dead though, no shit, and he bit his lip hard before letting it fall into his pocket, where it used to have always been resting.

As the car pulled up to the house, Sasuke was out in an instant and before even taking his shoes of, he went to load the battery for his phone with the charger that had also been in the box. After that he took a shower, knowing that the phone would not be usable until in about half an hour, maybe more...

He took something to eat, but the food didn't satisfy, he couldn't even swallow it without drinking something to it and he didn't have the energy to fix that, so he just let the food rest all lonely on the table. Before the half hour had passed he had; packed his things, put markings on boxes, cleaned of in the kitchen and then tried to get the cell working for the remaining time... And as soon as it got going... well, let's just say, there were so many messages that he didn't even have time to delete all of them before there were a hundred more in his inbox...

He tried to read some of them though, but as he did, his vision got blurry, to blurry for him to even see the words on the small screen and when he finally let the phone fall to the floor, it kept buzzing with new messages for so long he thought he would go crazy...

"I'm so sorry..." he half whispered and closed his eyes hard against his knees. The phone had stopped and it was now silent in the large house. He looked up again, glancing towards the small piece of plastic and metal, picking it up after hesitating for a while. There were so manny text messages, so manny memories all forgotten with time... He checked them still, one by one, no matter if it hurt or not. Apparently he didn't have any money to call anyone, which was typical but not strange. Almost all of them were from over a year ago but... not to last one. It had been sent just hours ago.. if the clock on his cell wasn't too messed up that was.

"Sasuke, you told me to call you, even in the middle of the night if I ever felt like I was dying... but I guess I can't do that any more... right..?"

Before he even had the time to react to it, the door was opened and even though Sasuke never showed his emotions to anyone, he could not hide the fact that there were tears in his eyes as Jugo stepped into the room.

"Sasuke, you ready to go?" he asked and looked around for his friend but was dumbstruck as he saw Sauske getting up slowly from the floor. "Oh shit..." he half cursed and rushed over to him, almost as if wanting to hug him or was afraid that Sasuke would fall over. "No good messages, right?"

Sasuke could do nothing but nod and look down at his phone before giving it to the strong man in front of him, he gave the message a look and then looked back at Sauske with his usual calmness.

"You want me to take you there?" he asked and Sasuke felt his stomach hurt by the thought, but he nodded and met Jugo's eyes, as if asking without words if he really could do that. "It'll take hours and we'll be there awfully late.." the redhead added but smiled. "...but since you'll die if I don't, I might as well take you, right?"

"I guess..."

"You know where he lives..?"

Sasuke half laughed and went to pull his shoes on before answering. "It's not like I can't look that up, right?"

"What about the kid..?" his friend asked and Sasuke had to think for a moment, because the image of those small fingers and that tiny laugh made his eyes fog up again. But he had not even told Jugo about his son, that was not the child his friend had meant.

"It's okay..." he answered and pulled his coat on before looking back over his shoulder. "I will probably not get custody any way so... we can go"

"Okay... let's go then, before it gets completely dark"

"Yeah..."

oh...

So how are you guys feeling after this small extra chapter? Hating Sasuke? Loving Sasuke? Wondering what the hell Sasuke has been doing? :

Well, I know most of you are smart, but I just want to clear this mess up a bit!

Do you remember in chapter two when Naruto texted Sasuke? And then Sasuke showed up all of a sudden during the night? Well... this was the little story about what happened on Sasuke's side, why he just showed after three years, why he hadn't gotten in touch and such... you get it? :D

Please review and tell me what you think :) I'll try to post a more... understandable chapter next time ;)

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