I am Finally Back on here after a loooong absence. I am on holiday right now and I managed to get a new computer, so I am now able to upload the fifth part. You guys, thank you very much for all the reviews! I really appreciate them, you're all kind.

I am enjoying summer holidays so much, really. Anf even if i work and have to do my homework and study, I promise i'll be able to finish this story. Moreover, i have some ideas in my mind about some new fanfics, I will try to do my best. And i heard about Scream 4, I cannot wait to see Courteney Cox playing Gale Weathers again!

However I am really enjoying summer. I really have fun. How you guys doin'?

But i Noticed the big amount of Randler stories in here! Whoooah. Where are all the Mondler fans? I guess it's been a while since I logged in last time, everything seems to be changed ^^'

Hope you forgive me for the absence, guys! And hope you'll enjoy this chapter!

Chiara.

Desclaimer: Usual Stuff, don't own anything. Forgive me for the grammatical mistakes.

"I miss Chandler"

Monica looked up to Joey, raising her eyebrow. Joey snuggled in his chair. "Watching free porn without him is so boring"

Monica sighed. "Joey, Chandler's living across the hall"

"I know, but… I miss being with him. I mean… I miss all those things we did together… watching Baywatch on our chairs and stuff…"

"You decided this, Joe"

"Do you think there's any chance I can move back in with him? Or him moving here?"

Monica quickly shook her head. "Moving in with you? Nah. Rachel would never give up this place."

"you're right… Let's forget about that..".

Monica watched as Joey returned to the porn, sad. He really did miss Chandler. She felt guilty, because she wasn't missing Rachel. Right now, she loved living with Chandler.

And when he walked in, her eyes lighted up. "Hey Chandler"

"oh, hey Monica" he said. He noticed the porn and quickly jumped on the couch. "That's amazing, man!" he exclaimed.

"I know It is"

Chandler was so caught with porn that didn't even notice Monica walking out.

Porn! He's watching porn!

Chandler, you're an idiot.

"Monica, can't you understand? I made them meet and fall in love!"

Damn it, I understood it, it's the fifth time you say that!

"Sweetie.. they are not in love" Monica tried, still concentrated on making pasta. Rachel, from her spot in Chandler's chair, made a weird noise.

"They are! And I can't get Joshua. This sucks, life sucks"

"I agree with you" Monica finally concluded. The girls both sighed.

"oh, Monica. I talked to Joey yesterday and we were thinking about to go back to our apartments."

"Uh?"

"Joey misses Chandler and I miss you. But Joey wants to live with Chandler in our apartment. I don't want to give it up"

"Sweetie" Monica began, trying to sound as normal as possible. "No way they are going to live in our old apartment. We made a bet okay?"

"yeah, I am not going to leave my bedroom to Chandler! But… Monica, what if we take back our apartment? I mean, me and you?"

"What?"

"I miss you. I miss our moments together. Our nights spent talking about our life. I miss this, I want those times back. We can have back our apartment"

"but-"

"I'll talk to Joey, I'll see if I can do something"

When Chandler walked in, found an uncomfortable silence in the apartment. "uh.. hi girls".

"Porn is over?" Monica asked.

"Naaah. Porn will never be over. Just wanted to stay here for a while. And Joey is really getting into that porn thing. Be careful Rachel, he could want to make some porn with you"

Rachel sighed then walked out the apartment. "Life sucks" she said, one last time.

"What's up with her? Still upset about that Joshua?"

Monica nodded. She then returned to the cooking. Monica suddenly felt Chandler's arm around her.

"Hey come here" he said.

He planted a kiss on her forehead. She closed her eyes and re opened them when he pulled away. He then went to sit on his chair.

"Chandler, why do you do that every time?"

"Do what?"

"you know… kissing me. Every time you walk out the door and come in. And before going to bed. And in the morning"

Chandler stared at her. "I don't know why. Maybe I find it cute and friendly to do. Does it annoy you?"

Monica smiled then shook her head. "No, at all."

He smiled back, sweetly. "Okay." He then stood up. He kissed her hair, placing her hand on her back. "You're my special friend, that's why." He said, smiling.

Monica's heart dropped. Special friend. Friend. "uh, what do you mean with special friend?"

Chandler looked at her puzzled. "I mean you're more special than the others. In a way maybe… I like you more than the others. Except for Joey, obviously." He laughed.

Monica laughed back nervously. "Yeah"

"And I am your special friend, too? Except for Rachel?" He asked, laughing.

Monica tried a smiled and nodded. "You're too special to me, uh" she tried to concentrate on her cooking, but Chandler was too close to her and she refused to herself to be focused only on the pasta.

"Too special uh?" He laughed. "Mon, this could be taken in the wrong way. You were too special to me some time ago. Remember? At the beach house. Well, back then you were too special"

As he grinned a bit shyly, Monica looked up at him sharply, her cheek already become a deep scarlet colour. When Chandler, realized this, watched her confused and surprised.

"Uh, Mon? I am not too special to you, right?" he asked to her, who was now looking down. Even if those were his own words, they sounded so weird to him. No way Monica would…

He shook his head and laughed. "Sorry, my mistake I…" He trailed off when saw Monica's face totally red and her eyes shyly looking up at him.

His eyes widened. "No!" he shouted, "No way, Monica!"

Monica sighed. "Yes!" she shouted back.

"Oh God…" Chandler brought one hand to rub his forehead "I can't believe it! When? Why?"

Monica sighed and turned. She began pacing and walking in the kitchen nervously. "I am so sorry, I don't know! I just…. Began thinking about you in a not friendly way, I don't know! It's all your fault, you were the one who cured me and behaved kindly, and… and everything!"

Chandler was still shocked.

When no reply came from him, Monica stopped. "Uh… do you…. Feel… the same.. way?"

"What?" Chandler shook his head. "No! Not anymore, Monica…" he added, softly. Monica's eyes dropped and felt the pain rising from her heart.

She sighed. "I honestly thought you were joking.. y'know.. offering me to be your boyfriend… "

"No Mon" he shook his head. "I was not joking. I had feelings for you…"

A uncomfortable silence fell between them. She stared down at the floor, letting his words sinking in. And Chandler was doing the same, his hands deeply buried in his pocket.

Finally, he spoke, after few minutes. "I can't date you, right now, Monica…".

Her eyes shot up to him. "I… can't. Not now, I mean. I don't want to rush in a relationship with you, after all that happened with Kathy. Especially with you."

"I understand" she muttered.

He sighed then walked to her and took her hands in his own. "I don't want to date you right now because I don't feel ready to be in a relationship. And since it's you and not any random girl, I don't want to screw up"

Monica forced a smile when he smiled in her eyes. After all, he actually didn't reject her. She just had to wait a bit more and maybe things would be like she wanted.

"I hope this didn't hurt you, Mon, I just-"

"Chandler, I understand" Monica said, finally smiling. "It's okay"

He smiled back then pulled her in a hug. "Thanks."

She sunk in his arms and closed her eyes, smiling slightly. He didn't reject her. "Uhm, Chandler?" she asked, from his chest.

"Yeah?"

"Just… a kiss?"

"Mon…" he pulled away, sighing. When hen was about to explain why they shouldn't do that, she leaned up and quickly kissed his lips. He looked down at her shocked.

"I never lose" she explained with a smile. "Now, help me to make dinner!"