Previously
To my surprise everyone joined me in the living room with trays of food on their laps, Edward sat on the floor by my head while Charlie sat by my feet, I looked over to him he was busy tucking into his dinner, he looked like he was really enjoying it, Esme's a remarkable cook, the food was amazing you could tell how much she enjoys cooking, she made sure Charlie and Emmet got a large helping which is a good thing because those two eat like horses, I am always making sure they have enough food on their plates.

Dinner went by slowly everyone chatted about what they did during the day, there was a real family atmosphere in the air, I think even Charlie was starting to relax more as the night set in, the excitement of the upcoming game was lingering in the air Charlie and Emmet loved there sports, but it seems so does the rest of the Cullen boys, Jasper and Emmet put a bet on who was going to win Emmet bet on Phoenix, while Jasper bet on Seattle.

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Finding Myself Chapter 18

I must have fallen asleep sometime during the evening because when I opened my eyes I was alone and in an unfamiliar room, I remember we were all sitting eating dinner waiting for the football match to start, I can't remember coming up here so someone must have carried me.

The full moon was staring through the window lighting up the room. I wanted nothing more than to fall back to sleep but I had a more pressing issue, I needed to use the bathroom. I struggled to sit up reaching over trying to find a lamp. I carefully moved my hand until I found the side of a surface, running my hand along I felt something cold and smooth, I realize with a jolt it was a glass, I reached beyond the glass finding a long obstacle stretching higher ignoring the protest in my chest I found the switch, the dim orange light awoke the room, sending warmth and safety through me.

I blinked a few times wiping the haze of sleep that is obscuring my vision, I looked down and was slightly shocked at the size of the bed I was on, I didn't know they made beds this big. I looked around noticing the room I was in for the first time. The room itself was huge, the walls colored with light golden and cream, everything shouted expensive at you but it was warm and inviting, a large flat screen television at the end of the bed, with all the latest digits I have no idea what they are. A large fluffy rug reaching half way across the room giving the room that soft touch. Each side of me cream coated bedside tables stand and at the end of the bed a large cream chest sat. I looked down at the beautiful quilt sheets running my hands over them enjoying the soft material, the rich gold and cream colors made the bed very enticing, a deep red throw had been placed at the end, keeping my legs warm and toasty.

I noticed three doors in the room, I wondered where they lead, My crutches had been placed at the end of the bed, With a pang of fear I contemplated if I could do this, I haven't had the chance to use the crutches before as everyone had been happy to carry me everywhere, my ribs had been far too sore to apply any pleasure to my upper body to support my weight.

The clock on the wall showed it to be 1.35 so I knew everyone would be asleep and Dad and Emmet probably left ages ago, I wish Emmet had stayed I could have called his mobile he would have woken and helped me. I broke my leg before a few years ago, he refused to let me walk around anywhere for nearly two weeks I though it was silly and it got on my nerves but he wanted to do it, I know he was upset with me coming to stay here, but he also knew I would be still stuck in the hospital for another week and he knows how I hate hospitals especially after going through everything with mum.

Pulling the heavy quilt away from my body. I took a deep breath and climbed to the end of the bed careful to avoid dragging my leg along with me. Grabbing hold of the crutches. I kept chanting in my head. I can do this, I can do this. It's not like I have never used crutches before just not with broken ribs, and the fact that I was never any good on them, and that I always had Emmet beside me making me feel safe yeah I though this is going to go well. I glanced around the room deciding on which door to try first I settled on the one directly at the end of the bed. I could always sit on the chess if I got to tired.

Slowly I stood up bringing the crutches under my armpit, slipping my arms through the circular holders, my grip was so tight my hands were turning white, I contemplated shouting out for someone but I knew that would be rude, I couldn't wake a house full of people just because I needed to use the bathroom, and going back to bed and holding on until the morning was not an option there is no way I could relax and fall to sleep so there was only one choice and that was go it alone, besides that's what crutches are design for, so people with broken legs can maneuver around it wasn't a big deal. That settled I decided to take my fist hesitant step away from the safety of the bed.

I did it, feeling more confident, I once again brought the crutches in front of me supporting my weight on my upper body bringing my legs in front of me, it was a slow process but I felt kind of proud of myself. Yes I Bella Swan proud I can walk without falling over.

I finally made it to the first door hoping with everything I had it was either a bathroom or the hallway, of course luck wasn't on my side as I opened the door to find a large dressing room filled to the brim with clothes, I almost cried out my disappointment as the pain in my chest reached its peak I knew I wouldn't last long and I had to find the bathroom quickly before it got worse, I felt as if i could have given up and collapsed on the floor, squeezing my eyes shut I groaned out loud, deciding to rest leaning heavily on the crutches and the door handle.

Turning my head I spotted the door on the right, I decided that was my next destination, straightening out the best I can, ignoring the pain in my whole body, I wobbled uneasily but determined to reach the second door, I almost laughed at the stupidity of it, most rooms only have one door leading in and out, but no not the Cullen's they have to torture me with three.

I finally reached the door pulling on the handle, I signed happily when I realized I was on a landing, I just hoped there was a bathroom, on this floor there is no way I was going to attempt any stairs. I could have tried the third door in my room to see if it's a bathroom but it was all the way on the other side of the room, and for all I know it could have been just another cupboard so I settled on the hallway, there is always a bathroom in a hallway. Looking around I spotted a closed door to the right of me so presumed that would be another bedroom. I decided to head left more doors this way, taking a long calming breath I hobbled from the room into the hallway, a small glass table was situated on the edge of the room with small yellow lamp sitting on top giving off a low glowing light. I maneuvered past the table being extra careful not to knock it with my crutches, I smiled in relief as I saw a opened door at the end of the hallway, I could just about make out a white basin through the slightly open door.

I'm surprised I hadn't woken anybody up with all the noise and puffing I was doing, sweat was pouring of my fore head, I felt like I was going to pass out from the pain, the nurses always helped me to the bathroom when I was in the hospital so I never really had to worry, such a simple everyday task has taken me forever to perform. I'm beginning to wonder if I would have been better staying at the hospital a bit longer at this rate.

I finally reached the bathroom smiling as I saw the much needed toilet, I gently pushed the door two I decided against locking it, just in case. I wasn't quite sure how I was going to do this, I thought for a few minutes before I decided to stand against the sink for support, dropping one of my crutches I leant it on the wall, I shackle took my spare hand trying not to topple over I pulled down my per jammer bottoms, I hadn't realized before someone must have dressed me in them, looks like Alice's doing, they were pink checker, not my type but they were comfy.

I grabbed hold of the crutch again and finally making it to the toilet. I didn't expect so much pain in my ribs as I sat down, I cried out in surprise, they were burning I felt terrible. Sitting there longer than normal, I didn't want to move the pain was fading the longer I sat still but I knew if I did not move I would not be able to, so with that in mind I decided with a pang of fear I needed to get up, Pain shot thought my chest as I clumsily stood, holding the toilet as support I re pulled my per jammers bottoms up grabbing the crutches and made it towards the sink.

I don't know how long it took me to do such a simply task, making it out of the bathroom I looked down the hallway, it looked longer then before, I started feeling exhausted and light headed, I was scared I had to make it back down the corridor and to back bed.
I took a another deep breath letting it out slowly with new determination inside of me I put the pain to the back of my mind and concentrated on a spot ahead of me on the carpet, i looked at it knowing I could reach it in a few strides, and then i can concentrate on another spot, one spot at a time I decided this was my best option. I felt like a dying man trying to reach water that's never going to come, I didn't seem to be making any progress whatsoever.
My vision was blurring as I realized I was crying with frustration.

I forgot it was there I don't know how but I just did, the only think there and I had to go and forget it. I hit it with my bad leg, I heard and ear pircing scream coming form somewhere, my mind recognizing as few seconds later that it was coming from me, I clamped my mouth shut not wanting to wake everyone, after all the effort I put in at keeping quite. I lost my balance as I felt pain everywhere. I flung my arms out ahead of me in an attempt to break my fall. But it was no use I crashed with a sickening sound of glass breaking around me, a sharp pain filled my head, and warm thick liquid ran down into my eyes. Sharp pain shot through my hand and arms, it was too much I couldn't hold the cry any longer; from somewhere I heard doors opening and people shouting. The burning seemed be taking control of all my senses and the pain was once again brought to the forefront of my mind
"What's going on?
"who's there?
"Oh my god"
"BELLA"

"Bella, Bella can you hear me, Edward get my bag it's in my study." Carlisle voice rang out beside me.

"I'm sorry I was using the bathroom I fell" I said, crying through the pain gritting my teeth.

"Shh its alright" He soothed me.

"Tell me what hurts Bella, Jasper can you hold her head for me" Carlisle said, I felt my head being lifted and placed into someone's lap, I looked up through my tears to see Jasper worried expression.

"ESME" Carlisle called. I saw her come back with towels in her hand and a damp cloth.

"Thank you darling" Carlisle said passing a towel to Jasper.

"Here hold this to her head try to slow the bleeding" Carlisle said in a calm voice.

"Oh my god what happened" Alice said as her and Rosalie came sleepily out there rooms, they both leaned down one each side of Jasper. Edward came running back up the stairs looking frantic handing Carlisle his medical bag, I knew this was hard for him, I would be beside myself if it was the other way round and Edward was hurt, he knelt down beside me taking my hand in his soothing me with his presents. Carlisle was applying pressure to my arms trying to stem the bleeding, I knew there was a lot of blood I could smell and it was making me feel sick, I felt bad for breaking the table, let alone all the blood that must be staining the carpet.

"Bella I'm going to lift you up and take you back to your room so I can check you over better, and you'll be more comfortable there okay" he said looking at me I nodded, I knew it was going to hurt I think my ribs might have re broken, I was just about ready to pass out and he knew it.

"I need you to stay awake, you might have a concussion, let me check then I can give you something for the pain, hold on okay sweetheart" I groaned at him. I didn't feel him lift me all I felt was a burning pain shoot through my chest, my breath catching at the sudden pressure, I started coughing and gagging as the the new position was making it hard to breath, suddenly I was being placed down on something soft.

"It's okay Bella stay with us okay I know it hurts, Jasper keep pressure on that wound," I felt pressure on both my arms,

"Someone help hold her up I need to get a look at her head wound" Carlisle spoke still calmly. I felt someone crawl on the bed behind me lifting me up, I learnt back relaxing as Edwards familiar scent engulfed me, I felt him rubbing my shoulders relaxing me further whispering comforting words into my ear as he gently lifted me into a siting position. Carlisle came in front of me blocking my view of the room so I was looking straight at his chest, I felt him gently pull my hair away, prodding against the wound, I hissed as he touched the sensitive skin around it, he stopped immediately. Pulling back as he gently held my shoulders, he reached over to his open bag that Edward had placed beside him on the bed he took out a pen light shining it in my eyes checking my pupils, he was in complete doctors mode.

"Bella can you tell me today's date" he asked looking into my eyes.
" It the Saturday 11th January" I said confused. He smiled
"What did you have for dinner" I furrowed my brows I didn't understand why he was asking me these questions, it's not like it is important at the moment maybe he forgot himself, he looked generally curious so I answered him.
"Sweat and sour chicken" I said sounding more like a question, he smiled and nodded looking relived as he checked my pulse.

""You don't seem to have a concussion, that's good, Edward can you lay her back down please" he said smiling reassuringly at me. "I'm going to check your ribs okay" I nodded and grimaced as Edward laid me back down moving to the other side of the bed keeping hold of my hand. I looked around and noticed the others were still standing around the bed. Esme was standing at the side of Carlisle looking very worried I smiled at her. She smiled back warmly taking my hand and sitting on the bed by my side she gently rubbed circles in my palm, if felt nice, like a mother caring for her child.

I heard Carlisle signed sadly. "Bella I'm going to give you some pain medication and stitch up your head and the gashes in your arms, two of your ribs have moved so I'm going to have to reset them and bandage them back up, the medication will most likely make you sleepy." He said softly, I nodded.

I watched as Carlisle took the needle out of the bag, i grimaced feeling sick just looking at it, he filled the syringe with some clear liquid. Edward must have taken in my scared expression to the needle because he gently moved my head so I was looking at him.

"Bella love look at me," He said gently.
"How come you seem to be always getting yourself in these bad situations." He asked lightly, no acquisition or anger in his voice just mild amusement. The other chuckled.
I groaned at his question, "I don't know I only wanted to use the bathroom it seem like I can't even do that without having an accident, I'm a klutz deal with it" I said he chuckled and kissed my forehead. I felt a sharp prick in my right arm I whimpered slightly. I really wished Emmet and dad where here, Emmet can always calm me down.

"Esme I'm really sorry about the table and the carpet" I said my words slightly sloppy as I struggled to stay conscious
"Don't be sweetheart its only a table it can always be replaced your far more important" she said running her hands along my forehead, the last think I felt was pressure on my head before everything went black.

This was a really enjoyable chapter to Wright I really liked it, I promise the next chapter will be up soon I know I haven't wrote in a while but I though a break would be good, give me a chance to come up with some ideas on where I'm going with this of course any ideas out there are very welcome I love more input. Anyway I hope you enjoyed it as much as I love wrighting it so please review and let me know how much.