I know, I'm super sorry you guys but I had Cheerleading tryouts and then I had Cheer every day and then I started high school then I had a boyfriend and then I had more Cheerleading then my boyfriend broke up with me and I never found time to update. I'm super sorry!

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Playlist:

The parting of friends / Kerry Fling – The chieftains

Erase me – Kid Cudi

Pursuit of happiness – Kid Cudi

Candles – Hey Monday

This immortal world

Sophie POV:

Jake looked up at me slowly and I sucked in a breath, wiping away my tears. He had hurt me. He hadn't stood up for me. Did he even like me? No. He probably didn't. I was probably just a distraction so that he could get over sweet, innocent, darling Bella. Everyone was silent, just watching me, watching Jake. His eyes were sad and he looked like he was hurt too but seeing as Dakota had just hit him with a crow bar I would expect that. I looked at Bella who was smiling at me and then I looked at Edward. Bella's a bitch. I thought, making sure Edward heard me and hoping that he would tell her I said that.

With that I walked down the stairs, pushing Natalie's hands off my sides and giving her a small smile to make her think I was going to be okay. I opened the door and walked out of the house, closing it quietly behind me and walking down the steps. I got about half way down the driveway before I heard the door open and close and feet hitting the pavement. In that moment I seriously considered running away. If it was Cal then I would start crying and he wouldn't leave me alone for the next week at least.

"Sophie!" It wasn't Cal; it was Jake who had come after me. I glanced behind me and sucked in a deep breath before turning around and continuing to walk. "Hey, Hey…" He said in a soft voice, spinning me around by my shoulder and cradling my face in his hands. It wasn't until then that I realized I had been crying softly.

"God, What?" I sobbed out, letting him wipe my tears away with his thumbs only for a moment before stepping back quickly. "What do you want?" I asked, rubbing my tears away myself so that he didn't have an excuse to touch my face again. If he did then I probably wouldn't have the strength to pull away again. Jake opened his mouth to say something but nothing came out and I nodded. "That's what I thought…" I said quietly, turning around and walking again.

I got farther than last time before I heard him following me. He didn't say anything, we didn't even look at each other, and he was just following me. I tried looking at different things to distract myself. There was a butterfly flying past a daisy a few feet away and it made me wonder how the daisy was doing so well. It had gotten colder in the past few days and that made flowers and butterflies more rare.

Fall was coming in quickly and I didn't feel like I was ready for it yet. I still wanted my summer, I still wanted to feel the warmth that everyone at home could give me but soon they boys would have to start working again. The Makah council was nice enough to give the flock the last half of the summer off from their day jobs and the whole winter. The vampires tended to show up more in the winter seeing as the days were shorter and it got dark out a hell of a lot faster than usual. It was going to change soon. The boys would all go back to work and I would be alone all the time again.

Part of me wondered what would happen when I left La Push. Would Jake visit me? Would I want him to? Maybe he would still be in love with Bella and he would decide he could ignore me and try to woo her? Could vampires and shape shifters even have romantic relationships? So many questions whizzed through my head that my vision got a little bit blurry and I had to try and calm myself down so that I could focus.

Jake was still following me I could hear his footsteps. It made me wonder why he was even following me if he still loved Bella. He didn't care about me. This thought hit me with full force making me gasp sharply and stop walking. I held my arms around myself where it felt like I was being ripped through.

"Sophie, are you alright?" Asked Jake from behind me, and not coming any closer than he already was. I took a deep breath and shook my head back and forth, trying to clear my head of any unwanted thoughts. With that I kept walking and from then on out I didn't give Jacob any reason to speak to me or wonder how I was doing. I wanted to disappear from the face of the earth just so I wouldn't have to hear his voice again.

Hearing it made me want to talk back and then I would probably end up crying even harder than I already was. I hated crying. I was supposed to be taking care of other people, not the other way around. I had to avoid being taken care of at all costs. It made me feel weak and so utterly human. I was a small human stuck in a completely immortal world.

It seemed like it took a year just to get to the house and when I did get there I walked straight to my bedroom, locking the door behind me and flopping face down on my bed. I let myself cry and for once I didn't care that I would have to wash the pillowcase because of it. I was so focused on crying that I hadn't even heard Jake come into the house until he knocked on my door.

"Sophie, please let me in." He said through the door. I shook my head, forgetting that he couldn't see me and just kept crying. "Baby, please? Can I just talk to you?" Jake asked softly, sounding concerned. I curled into a ball on my side and stared at my door, not bothering to wipe my tears this time. He loved Bella. He had kissed me and let me think I actually had a chance but I would never have a chance against her. I had only known him a few days and she had known him much longer. She was beautiful, flawless even. And then there was me, my body torn through with scars and the rest of me only average. I pulled the pillow over my head so that I only saw darkness and kept crying.

The window opened up and Jake climbed inside, being careful not to be too loud. I mentally cursed myself and sobbed a little quieter. Maybe he would just leave me alone? I knew this wouldn't happen but I still wished for it. The pillow was taken off my face. As a reaction I turned my face back into the bed so he couldn't see my face. The bed shifted as his weight came onto it and he started rubbing my back slowly, trying to calm me down.

"Why are you here?" I said, letting it come out muffled through the mattress of my bed. He sighed and pushed some hair behind my ear.

"Because I'm sorry. I didn't tell you that I was in love with Bella because I thought it wouldn't matter. All the feelings that I had for her went out the window the moment I saw you and that's never going to change." He said, kissing the side of my neck and rubbing my back more. I turned my face slowly and just stared at him. He gasped when he saw my face, looking like he wanted to kill himself. "I made you cry…" He said as if saying it to himself to try and convince his mind that it was in fact possible. He pushed my hair away from my face again and bit his lip.

"Why didn't you say anything to Bella?" I asked, my voice was scratchy and I felt like I had a hole in my chest. My whole body was shaking and I guess he thought I was cold because he rubbed my arms like he was trying to warm me up.

"Because I didn't know what to say. I would have told her to shut up but then a fight would have broken out and that would have ended badly probably." He said sadly. "I should have told her to shut up though." He admitted. I saw his point in not saying anything. Jack tended to have a bad temper and even if one of the leeches told Jake to be quiet Jack could phase. Then anyone standing by him would get hurt and everything would be ruined.

"I can see why." I said, letting him wipe my cheeks with his hands. His hands were rough but they were soft at the same time as he leaned down to kiss my forehead.

"Why what?" He asked quietly.

"Why you loved her." I said, squeezing my eyes closed. It literally hurt to think about him with her. It felt like a million tiny needles were poking through my skin all at the same time and I just felt like crying all over again. "She's beautiful, and I bet she's a lot nicer than she was to me." I choked out.

Jake's POV:

Sophie slowly turned her head, tears running down her face. "I made you cry…" I felt like crawling into a hole and never coming out just for making her cry. I had caused this whole thing it was my entire fault. Did wolves that imprinted feel like dying when their imprint cried? Was it supposed to feel this way? If it was then I would never make her cry ever again.

"Why didn't you say anything to Bella?" She asked. I noticed her whole body was shaking and the way that the tears clung to her long eyelashes. She was cold. I started rubbing her arms, thinking that I could fix that at least if she was hurting on the inside it didn't mean she would have to freeze.

"Because I didn't know what to say. I would have told her to shut up but then a fight would have broken out and that would have ended badly probably. I should have told her to shut up though." I said slowly. Have you ever wished you could go back in time and change something you had done? Well that is exactly what I was feeling just then.

"I can see why." She said as I rubbed the tears off her cheeks and traced one of the lines that went down her face that was included in her scar.

"Why what?" I asked, confused.

"Why you loved her." She explained, closing her eyes tightly as I literally stopped breathing. I would never love Bella as much as I loved Sophie, but some part of me still had a reaction to those words. "She's beautiful, and I bet she's a lot nicer than she was to me." She sounded like she was choking on her words.

"You're more beautiful than the Bella I fell in love with." I said. She opened her eyes and looked confused. "I fell in love with her when she was human. She was the clumsiest girl I had ever met and she was extremely prone to danger. It just seemed like she walked into danger all the time." I said. "The Bella you met at Emily's house is just my friend." I said. "She has been ever since I laid eyes on you and that's never going to change." I said. Sophie sat up and kissed me softly. It wasn't making out, but it was the sweetest kiss I had ever gotten.

"I forgive you." She said quietly, pulling back and giving me a small smile. I smiled at her and pulled her onto my lap, hugging her close. I sighed happily when she snuggled into me.

"I'll never hurt you again." I said, kissing the top of her head.