A/N: So...I was a little bored and in a weird mood. I have no idea when i'll be updating but i thought i'd post it anyways... so enjoy and review please :)
Chapter 1: All I want is you
"Isabella" he nodded as she walked through the door that evening. "How was your day?"
"It was alright sir" she said softly, still looking down at the floor
"Are you hungry at all?" he asked
Bella shook her head "No sir, I had dinner with Alice"
Edward nodded "Wait for me in my room as usual. I'll be there in 10 minutes" he stated
Bella nodded and began descending up the stairs. She set her things down in the corner of the room and began undressing, folding everything neatly and placing it in her bag before getting into position. Kneeling on her knees in the center of his bed, her head cast down and her legs spread open as her hands were loosely draped together behind her.
Edward entered a few minutes later, she could hear bare feet padding across the room and she could see he had changed out of his jeans into something shorter or nothing at all...she couldn't tell yet. "Very nice Isabella." he praised as he got closer
Edward frowned slightly as he got closer. There was something off today. He couldn't quite put his finger on it. He saw her shaking slightly and wondered what was wrong? Or maybe she was just cold. "Are you cold my love?" he asked, running the end of a crop gently over her spine. "You may answer"
"No sir" she said, her voice strangely strong. A bit too strong in fact...almost forced.
He eyed her curiously before pulling out a blindfold from his back pocket. He moved behind her and tied the black silk over her eyes. "On your back Isabella" he said, waiting until she had done what he had said. He moved to her arms first and shackled them in to the bed frame before doing the same to her ankles so she was spread out in front of him.
He stepped back and gazed over her, now knowing there was definitely something wrong. She was trembling like crazy. Something she had never done in his presence. He walked over to the bed again and sat down beside her, shaking his head when he saw a single tear slip down her cheek. He gently wiped it away with his thumb causing her to gasp and choke on a sob. Immediately he undid the blindfold and gazed worriedly down at her "What's wrong sweetheart?" he asked, wiping her eyes as the tears kept coming.
She clenched her eyes tightly shut and shook her head "I'm sorry" she whispered "I'm fine." she said hoarsely afterwards, trying to stop the dam that had just let loose.
Edward shook his head, undoing the shackles on her arms and legs "You're not" he stated and gently unhooked her collar making her shake her head in protest, reaching for it again. He set it down on the nightstand and took her into his arms "Shhh" he whispered "Bella, what is it?"
"I didn't mean to" she choked "I was trying to be strong...I'm sorry. I'm so sorry"
Bella tried in vain to stop the tears. She had been so good for the past few days. But as soon as she stepped foot in his house. As soon as she saw him...she couldn't keep her emotions bottled up anymore.
"Why are you sorry?" he asked softly, rubbing her back
"I tried Edward...I tried" she pleaded, looking into his eyes longingly, like she felt he was going to leave her at any moment. "I did so good. I didn't cry. You made me cry...why" she cried incoherently
Edward pulled her tighter against him. He was concerned to say the least. Bella was never like this... "Bella baby" he whispered "Its me. Edward. You can tell me anything remember?" he pleaded, only making her cry harder and shake her head against him
"Not this" she sobbed "You'll hate me. I wont be yours anymore. I wont. You wont want me anymore"
"I'll always want you my love" he said gently "Look at me" he said seriously but with gentleness to his voice
She lifted her head to look up at him, sniffling as she did. He cupped her cheeks, holding her gaze "Tell me what's wrong Bella" he stated more than asked
"I-I-I went out on tuesday" she whispered, unable to break his intense gaze no matter how much she wanted to.
Edward nodded "Okay..." he said, motioning for her to go on. He was pretty sure she wasn't that worked up about merely going out...
"And...my friends got too drunk. 3 of them went home...and they left me to take care of Marcy" she continued, choking on her words as she went along
"What happened to you Bella" he asked, never breaking her gaze
At that she threw her arms around him almost violently. He caught her in surprise and slowly rubbed her back soothingly for a few minutes. "Look at me again sweetheart." he said almost pleadingly
She pulled back and stared into his eyes once again "Marcy was too drunk...she left with this guy and I was about to leave as well until..." she trailed off, her face scrunching up into a mixture of agony
Edward shook his head, cupping her cheeks "No no no Bella. Shhh. Tell me what happened. Just tell me. I'll fix it okay? But I cant if you dont tell me what to fix" he begged
"Me." she said the one word as softly as she could
"What?" he breathed out
"Fix me. I was raped" She whispered
"No" he choked grabbing her body and crushing her to him "No"
She broke down violently in his arms "I'm sorry" she cried, her back heaving with sobs
"What's wrong with you!" He cried, rocking him back and forth "Why wouldn't you tell me that before-....before I..." he choked, not being able to say the words "You should have told me as soon as you walked through that door. You should have called me! I should have noticed something was wrong...I would have never--" he growled mixed with a sob
"Edward" She choked "I need it. I need you. Please dont stop...I need us to be normal. I need to know you still want me...please?" she whimpered
"How could I not want you Bella?" he whispered "But how can I continue what is normal for us when you're terrified of me?" he asked her quietly, radiating sadness
"I'm not scared of you" she pleaded for him to believe her "Never"
Edward shook his head "You were trembling when I tied you up love. You're scared...and thats okay" he said softly
"No" She shook her head, trying to make herself believe it "No...I'm not. Do it again" She almost demanded "Put your collar back on...do it again" She said hysterically "I promise I wont....I'm not scared of you. Try again!" she exclaimed, tears pouring down her face as she shuffled in his lap, reaching for the collar he had set on the nightstand. He grabbed her searching hands in his and shook his head.
"Sweetheart" he whispered with a gentle shake of his head "Not like this"
"No please Master. Please...You wont hurt me...I know you wont. I love you!" she sobbed with a small scream "Please why don't you want me....Master"
Edward felt a few stray tears slip down his cheeks as he held her as close to him as he could, despite her struggles "Shhhhhhhhhhh" He whispered over and over into her ear. It must have been for hours before she had finally calmed down.
"I want to wear it" her hoarse voice said out loud. It was the first 5 words she had spoken in hours.
"Wear what?" he asked
"Your collar. I want it on me. Please?" she whispered
Edward gazed down at her, gauging whether it was a good idea or not. "Please Master?" she pleaded quietly
"Bella" he protested softly "We aren't-"
"I just want to feel like I'm still yours" she breathed out
Never breaking her gaze he reached over and gently slipped the collar around her neck, clasping it in the back before kissing the base of her throat where the collar rested "You will always be mine my lovely" he whispered with conviction