iReminise

(Freddie's POV)

You know how they say before you die your life always flashes before your eyes? Well that's very true. Even though my eyes were closed and I was living on lifesupport I could hear them in the backround.

"Well it's your choice Mrs. Harrison do you want to pull the plug tonight or not?" my doctor asked. I could hear my daughters and my son weeping in the backround.

"Yes" she squeaked out crying. I heard them leave the room.

"You wanna do it now doc?" his assistant asked him.

"Nah! give him a few minutes. After all today is his 98th birthday" I heard them leave the room. Then...almost like a movie the moments of my life flashed before my eyes....

August 26th 2005

Today was the first day of 6th grade. I was going to an all new school with new kids. I just moved from Chicago to Seattle due to my mom's job. I sighed and walked up to the front of the school where all the other kids were standing reuniting with their friends.

"Hey Freddie!" I heard someone say. I turned around. It was my neighbor Carly. The only person I knew. She was accompanied by her brother Spencer and a blonde girl. This was probably the girl Sam she's been telling me all about.

"Hi Carly. Hi Spencer"

"Hey Freddo. Ok you guys have a great first day of school ok. Bye"

"Bye Spencer love you" Carly waved to him.

"Freddie this is Sam...Sam this is Freddie. He and his mom just moved in across the hall from me.

"Hiya!" I said enthusiasticly holding my hand out for her to shake. She thumped me in the head.

"Dork" she said as I held my head.

"Owww!" I said.

"Sam's not the most mannerful person" Carly said biting Sam hand.

"Clearly!" I exclaimed slinging my backpack around my shoulder. The school bell rang and we all ran inside. Ready for the first day or junior high....

That was the first day I met Sam....

Septemeber 8th 2007

"Freddie!" Called me over to her apartment.

"Yes!?" I asked excited.

"Will you help me shoot a video of the talent show contestants for Ms. Briggs after school today?"

"Sure Yes! I'd love to help!" I said very happily. She chuckled. I had the HUGEST crush in the world on Carly.

"Hey Carly, Dork" She greeted us.

"Demon" I retorted back. She stuck her tongue out at me. I did the same.

I left and set up in the auditrium. I made Carly a little snack tray.

"Hey Freddie" she greeted me.

"Hi!" I squeaked from behind the camera.

"Everythings set up. What do you think" I said standing proudly infront of all my tech equiptment.

"Awesome Freddie!" she said setting her stuff down.

"Hey peeps" Sam said walking in with a cup of coffee.

"Oh great I didn't know THAT was going to be here." I said putting emphasis on that.

"She. I'm a she Freddie as in girl."

"Whatever...Carly I made you a snack" I said holding up the tray.

"Awww little tech dork made his love a snack" Sam said.

"No thanks Freddie" she said. Then Sam walked over to me.

"Carly will never love you" she said. Then she walked backstage with Carly.

That was the day I posted the video on and soon after we made the very first iCarly.

January 3rd 2009

I was sitting on my fire escape. Alone and humiliated. Sam told everyone on iCarly the week before that I've never kissed anyone. I was getting teased at school so badly I had to stay home. I wouldn't even talk to my mom I just sat out here alone because I was too embarresed to talk to anyone. But I had all my necessities. My laptop, my pearphoen which was now playing on my iHome. I was currently watching iCarly on my laptop. No matter how mad I was at Sam I couldn't stay away from the show. It was basicly my life. Where I can just get away from my mom and school and hang out and have fun with my 2 favorite people in the world. As I continued watching I noticed Sam go up to the camera.

"On the last iCarly I told you guys that Freddie never kissed anyone. And that was really personal and I shouldn't have said it on the show." Wait hold the phone! Sam Puckett was APOLOGIZING to ME LIVE!? I slapped myself to see that I wasn't dreaming. I wasn't. She continued

"And for all you people who've been teasing Freddie LAY OFF. Cause I bet a whole lot of you haven't kissed anyone either...including me." What!? But I thought she said she kiss Buddy Hinton at a Cuttlefish concert in a port-a-potty. Maybe she was just saying it so I wouldn't look like a loser. But Sam couldn't be THAT sorry...Could she?

"So if you want to tease someone about it..tease me..which is a really bad idea unless you live near a hospital." Ha! Good ole' Sam.

"Our meatball war will continue but for now please enjoy thispicture of a man with shrimp up his nose" Carly said running up to the computer. I closed my laptop and turned on some music. It was on shuffle. The song switched to "Running away" by AM. I liked that song a lot. I just decided to sit and stare at the Seattle stars and made a wish.

I wish I would just have my first kiss and get it over with

I heard a knocking at the door and turned around. It was Sam. I signaled her in. She sat at the edge of the fire escape.

"What's up?" she asked casually.

"Nothin'" I replied getting up to rewind the song.

"Meatball?" Sam asked. Wtf? A meatball! Why would- oh yeah I forgot it's Sam. She probably has meatballs and ham in her pockets at all times.

"No thanks" I said slowly giving her a bewilderd look. She shrugged and chucked it out the window. I raised my eyebrows a little and leaned back against the stairs.

"That was really brave..what you said" I said.

"You heard?" she asked kinda suprised. I pulled out my laptop from the stairs.

"You didn't think I'd miss iCarly?" She smiled. I set the laptop down gingerly and sat down at the edge of the stairs. I figured now that she knew what I saw we'd talk about it for a while.

"I'm sorry" she said breaking the ice. "About telling people you never kissed anyone" she continued.

"And about putting bleu cheese dressing in you shampoo bottle" I formed a small smile.

"And for sending your cellphone to Cambodia" I was chuckling and grinning to myself by then.

"Everything..ok?"

"So this means you're not gonna mess with me anymore?" Hey! maybe I can get off easy. Possibly.

"No I'm still gonna mess with you" I knew I probably couldn't get off THAT easily. "I'm just gonna apologize every fewmonths so I can start fresh again."

"Good" I said almost relieved. In a way I kinda needed Sam to torture me. It's had some positive effects. She in a way is helping me become a man.

"Good?" she asked suprised.

"Yeah. It'd be too wierd if you didn't make my life miserable all the time" I saw her laugh slightly.

"But you know maybe you could pull back just a lit-"

"I don't think so" she said cutting me off.

"Yeah me either" I said. Hey! I figured I could give it a shot. She scoffed.

"It's so dumb"

"What do you mean?"

"You know..how people get all..freaked out over their first kiss" Wow!That wasn't random at all...

"It's stupid" she continued.

"So you weren't lying? You've really never kissed anyone?"

"Nope...Sometimes I just...wish I could...get it out of the way" She seemed like she was having trouble saying that.

"Yeah I know me too"

"Right? You know so I can just stop worrying about it."

"Yeah.." Then...I had a thought. Maybe she was implying....Nah. I started laughing to myself.

"What?" she asked.

"Nothing it's.." I drifted off.

"Tell me!"

"Nah it's dumb."

"Say it!" she said kinda pushy.

"Ok...I was just gonna say.."

"That WE should kiss?" she asked putting an emphasis on the word we. I thought she was going to kill me for even thinking that.

"You're gonna break my arm now right?"

"No"

"Well....should we? Just so both of us can get it over with.."

"hmmmm........" she sighed.

"JUST to get it over with" she said putting an emphasis on just.

"Just to get it over with" I reaasured.

"And you swear we both go right back to hating each other as soon as it's over?" she asked moving next to me. Wait....what does she mean by "as soon as it's over?" Is she implying that we might LOVE each other during the kiss.

"Oh totally and we'll never tell anyone!"

"Never" She said. We stared awkwardly into each others eyes for a moment.

"Well...lean!" she said. Even in a serious moment Sam has to make a sarcastic comment. I sighed and leaned in. Kissing her. I closed my eyes. It was a rush I couldn't explain...This feeling felt...so right. Maybe it's just because it's my first kiss...Yeah that's it I told myself. But the lyrics of "Running away" became louder in my head.

I don't know if I'm gonna change

Wastin' time in another day

I felt her try to get into the kiss a bit more but I pulled away so she wouldn't slap me later for taking advantage of her. We both pulled back slowly. My eyebrows were raised a bit. She looked confused slightly.

"Well that was umm..." I said awkwardly.

"Nice" she said.

"Yeah nice uhh...."

"Good work" she said.

"Thank you you too." I was still getting a VERY awkward vibe. She started to walk away. Again I heard the words of "Running away" going thorugh my head.

And I keep running away

Even from a good thing

"Hey" I called back. She turned around.

"I hate you" I said with a huge smile on my face.

"hate you too." she said walking away. I watched her walk down the hallway and disappear.

That was the day Sam and I first kissed

May 16th 2009

It's been like a week since Carly's best friend from when she was little came into town. Since then Sam....hasn't exactly been the same this past week. Then she had texted me into meeting her in the hallway where me and Carly's apartments were to talk. After a minute or so after she started telling me what happened I started talking.

"I don't believe you" I said.

"Ok one more time. Carly was my best friend first and I'm taking her back" she said mocking Missy.

"There's no way Missy said that"

"She did!"

"You know maybe Carly's right. Maybe you're just jealous of Missy" I said bobbing my head from side to side. Maybe that was a little too harsh.

"Ok just forget it...don't believe me." she said starting to walk away. She looked really hurt. Maybe she was telling the truth.

"Tell me one reason why I SHOULD believe you" she came back into my sight.

"Cause I came here" I shrugged, I wasn't quite convinced yet.

"Have I ever come to you for help before..ever?" I just stood there and she walked away. I felt really bad. I went to go into my apartment but the door was locked. I felt my pockets for my keys. Crap! I locked myself out.

"Ohh! Butter" I kicked the door and slumped down on the ground thinking....

What can I do for Sam?

2 days later I was helping Carly study for her geography test next hour.

"Austria." she said pointing.

"Australlia"

"Oh same thing..." Then Wendy came up to us.

"Ok Benson you're too nice." Wendy said.

"Why what'd he do?" Carly asked. Even I had no idea what Wendy was talking about.

"You know that school at sea cruise?" Oh no! she was going to spill it!

"Yeah what about it?" Carly asked.

"Uhh...bye bye Wendy"

"Freddie won it" she said ignoring me.

"No...no I didn't" I said defensivly.

"Yeah you did"

"No Missy Robinson won it."

"No Freddie won it then told him he wanted Missy to have it. Sweet boy" she said pinching my cheek and leaving. Carly stood infront of me. I avoided eye contact.

"You gave up that cool trip just to get rid of Missy."

"I was protecting iCarly" I said.

"No! You care about Sam" she caught me.

"Well...she was really upset." I said still staring at the floor.

"And you said Sam wasn't your friend"

"Yeah whatever"

That was the moment I knew I cared about Sam....maybe more than a friend.

September 12th 2009

It's a long and complicated story of how I got duct taped inbetween my 2 best friends. It started off when Sam lost a ttoth during iCarly and had to get it fixed. But while at the dentist she had to get put on laughing gas. She told Carly on laughing gas how she and I kissed. Then Carly confronted me about it. I told her the whole story. Then she confronted me and Sam about it. That's when 2 prisoners escaped from Spencers pants sculpture and duct taped us to chairs.

"Why did you tell them where the duct tape was?" I asked in a not so joyful tone

"I don't know! I was trying to be helpful" Carly said.

"Yeah you helped them alright" Sam said sarcasticly.

"Well it's Freddie's fault" What!? oh sure I'm the one who DIDN'T tell them where the duct tape was and I'm in trouble. "When you see prisoners escaping you don't annouce you're gonna call the cops. Well you do realize we have to call the police" she said mocking me.

"Man this duct tape is really stong" Sam said stuggling to be free.

"I hate being resricted" I said.

"Oh don't worry. Soon we'll all be free and I'll turn my back and you can resume kissing behind it!" Carly said.

"We promise no more secrets" Sam said.

"Never again"

"From now on we all tell each other everything."

"Alright?"

"You'll tell me everything?" she asked.

"Yeah..swear" Sam said.

"How long was it?" she asked trying to sound casual.

"What?" Sam asked confused.

"How long did you guys kiss?" Carly asked again. Sam and I looked at each other not knowing what to say.

"I don't know..." I started.

"Like....7 seconds" Sam said unsurely.

"7...8" I said backing up her statement.

"Hm...And was it fun?" she asked.

"Fun?" Sam questioned sounding scared.

"Yeah did you guys you know...like it?" she asked again. Sam and I looked at each other not knowing what to say. In a way she looked confused and scared; Like she wanted to say something. I know I did. That look just made me...I don't know...Maybe I was starting to like her more.

That was the moment I realized I had feelings for Sam, as more than a friend.

September 26th 2009

"Get out of here!" Carly yelled at her obnoxious date. He ran out of the groovy smoothie.

"And then there were 2" I said.

"Not a very fun dance huh?" she asked fiddling with her straw.

"Nope" I said taking the top off my smoothie. Then something came over me...

Since we're friends and both had HORRIBLE dates I figure maybe we can have at least one good dance.

I got up and put my thumbs in the front of my pants pockets and looked at her.

"What?" she asked.

"Don't you think we deserve one nice dance, with a person we don't wanna kill?" I said.

"Absolutely" she said getting up. I turned over to T-Bo who was listening to the song "Meant for me" on the radio.

"Hey T-Bo...turn up the music?" He turned it up with a remote and smiled. I turned back to Carly. She wrapped her arms around my neck and I put my hands on her hips as we swayed back and forth percisley to the tempo of the music. She leaned in and put her head on my shoulder. I held her a bit closer. My eyes barely open. But I heard the bell of the groovy smoothie door open. I didn't want to look up. Quickly I heard the bells rings again as the person quickly walked out. Not too long after I looked up at the window. I saw a blonde strand of hair breeze by. It was Sams. I looked down at Carly peacefully on my shoulder and back at the door where Sam walked away. I was confused. Who was I in love with? But something just...didn't feel right between me and Carly.

That was the moment I realized I was loosing my love interest in Carly.

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May 13th 2010

Carly had pinned me in a corner. I just admited to her that I was in love with someone, but I wouldn't tell her who. Even though the 3 of us promised no more secrets between us I would still like to keep this one to myself...

"Can we just not talk about it?" I asked hoping she'd give me a break this once.

"No! We can't just not talk about it."

"But my mom's waiting for me to-"

"I don't care. Are you in love?" She said cutting me off. I looked around for an excuse to stall her. Then I saw the chicken pot pie pans that Spencer used to make chicken pot pie for dinner with.

"So...what was in that chicken pot pie? I mean, I know chicken obviously but what other-"

"Are you in love or not!?" She demanded cutting me off again.

"Yes" I sighed. Darn! Why does she have to do this to me? She sighed.

"But you promised. You said you wouldn't fall in love with me as long as-"

"I didn't say I was in love with you." She looked very confused.

"Ok....let's just recap..You've been in love with me since 6ht grade and...When I...when you saved...my life a couple of months ago...to thank you I kissed you....I thought you were still in love with me....when did it stop?"

"About....a 8 months ago....look Carly I was tired of waiting for you to finally say yes...I only think of you as a friend ever since that dance...It made me realized...having you in my arms...didn't exactly give me the feeling...I've wanted this whole time. No offense to you or anything" She breathed out.

"Oh what a relief...I didn't feel like letting you down anymore...And I knew you were going to get over me eventually" Ok this is going good. I just hope she doesn't ask-

"Then who are you in love with?" Crap! She read my mind apparently

"Uhh..."

"Come on Freddie...just tell me...Is it Sam?"

"No!" I said defensivly as I had my hand run through my hair ruffly.

"You're lying!"

"No I'm not!" I said as I ran my hand through my hair again.

"Freddie I know you're lying...you have a tell."

"A what?"

"A tell...everytime you lie you run your hand though your hair"

"No I don't" I said running my hand through my hair again. Crap! I caught myself that time.

"Yes you do...You're in love with Sam." I hung my head down.

"Why didn't you tell me earlier?"

"Heck I didn't even know I was in love with her til recently...Love is complicated."

"Then why don't you tell her?"

"Are you crazy? Do you want that chick to break my face!?"

"Freddie I'm sure if you tell her she won't break your face...you'll feel a lot better if you get you feeling out in the open. Come on" she went behind me and started pushing me.

"No...no I don't wanna...nooooo!" I yelled as she opened the door and quickly pushed me into the hallway closing the door behind me. I ran into Sam on my way out. My heart felt like it was going a million miles.

"Sam! uhh...what..what are you doing here?" I asked stuttering.

"I came her because I forgot my phone again...why are you so jumpy?"

"Umm....I kinda have something to tell you."

"Spill it.."

"Iloveyou!" I said really fast holding my arms in front of me.

"What?"

"I love you" I said slower lowering my arms. She looked at me then slapped me.

"Oww! What was that for!?"

"It's about time you asked. I thought you'd never get over Carly....I love you to." I leaned in a kissed her. She slapped me again.

"Oww! what was that one for? I said I love you."

"Yeah but YOU don't get to kiss me. Mama always makes the first move...which I should be doing about now." she leaned in and kissed me. It felt incredible. We let go after about 15 seconds or so. I don't even know. It felt like time stopped.

"So I guess this means....we're going out now?" I said more like a statement.

"Shoosh yeah!" she said holding my hand and dragging me into the apartment.

That was the moment I realized I was truely in love with Sam.

January 3rd 2017

I paced nervously outside my fire escape waiting for Sam. We've been going out since we were 15. Now we're only 21 but I know she's the woman I want to marry. The woman I want to spend the rest of my life with. The woman I want to lye with for all eternity after we die. I told her to meet me here at 5 to have a nice romantic picnic at the place we first kissed. It was sorta "our place" I guess you could call it. I dug in my pocket and took out a box. I opened it and there it held a 2 carrot silver ring. Fit for a princess like Sam. I put it back in my pants pocket. I even wore the i same thing I did when we first kissed (yes I do remember that)

I went over to my iHome and put it on the song "Woman" by John Lennon. The perfect song for Sam. I heard her walk in looking as beautiful as that night.

"What's up dork?" We've been dating more then 6 years and yet she still manages to insult me everytime she can.

"Nothing much. Just set up our little picnic. I figure we can have a nice romantic dinner. You recognize this outfit?"

"Yeah...didn't you wear that when we first kissed?"

"Yup..and look at todays date."

"Is it the 3rd?"

"Yes ma'am"

"Wow! Freddie you really must've liked that night."

"Not just liked it I LOVED it" I said leaning over and kissing her. She started laughing.

"So...Freddio...what's on the menu for tonight?" she asked rubbing her hands together.

"Well we have...Ham...salami....cheese....fatcakes...and of course..gravy" I said in all sorts of funny voices.

"You know me too well."

"I should...we've only been dating for like what....6 1/2 years...7 in May"

"Yeah..now let's eat Mama's hungry"

"Wait..before we eat I've gotta tell you something"

"Ok but make it fast mama's hungry."

"Sam...I really love you and" I turned on the song "Woman" by John Lennon.

"Will you marry me?" her eyes bugged open and she gasped when I opened the box and held up the ring.

"Yes....yes I will." she was awestruck as I slipped the ring on her finger. She attacked me in a hug then we started making out for a minute. When we stopped we sat back down and started eating.

"Freddie...I mean Mr. Benson...could you pass me the salami?"

"Sure thing Sam...I mean Mrs. Benson." she smiled as I gave her the salami.

That was the moment I asked Sam to marry me.