I tried to make Severus as human as possible. :-/ Hope you like it.

Pain or Pleasure

Chapter Four

Severus

Severus woke up feeling like shit. As per usual. And people wondered why he was so snarky. He grew up with an abusive father who beat the shit out of his mother on the daily and his son occasionally. And then he went to school and was constantly bullied because he was smart and good at Potions when no one else was good at that difficult subject. He created spells and was a gifted student. But that didn't go unnoticed by the Marauders. He was ridiculed and called ridiculous names. And then he met Lily and that was like the silver lining. But then she fell in love with his main tormentor, James. He told Lily he didn't want to see her again and she told him he was being dramatic and then he showed her the huge scar on his back from his father and told her very bluntly:

"I am abused at home. My father just murdered my mother. I am absolutely ridiculed at school and the one person I could talk to is marrying the one who made my life living hell. 'Hey Sirius, let's see what color underwear Snivellus is wearing today. Let's measure the size of his cock compared to well-hung chaps like ourselves!' Yeah, Lils, I'm making this shit up. I don't want to see you, I don't want to write you, I don't care if James is king of the Altnas and you're to be the queen. I know I am Altna but I will not stand to watch you fuck and love the one guy that hates me more than my father does. I love you Lily but I can't torture myself after you anymore. I need to get over you and I can't do that by seeing you all the time."

"Severus…" Lily sobbed, rubbing her tears away with her sleeve. James watched as he hugged Lily to him and kissed the top of her head.

"Lily, I'm the slave of Dumbledore and the spy of Voldemort. I'm not ready to let you go but James can take better care of you than I can. But when and if I get over you, I will not allow you to ask me to make nice to these assholes that made my life a living hell. You will not ask me to be nice to James and Sirius if by that point they grew up after Hogwarts. I will not stand for it. In fifth year, when they were sixteen, they were still degrading me. You'll never see me, Lily, again unless I am over you. It's hard because I don't have anyone to talk to besides Lucius and he's having his own problems right now." Lily gasped a sob and gripped his robes in her fists.

"You can't just leave!" She gasped. She looked up with tear filled eyes. He closed his eyes and took a deep breath and opened his obsidian eyes. "You're my best friend and I can't lose you!" She sobbed.

"You are being incredibly selfish, Lily. I tell you that I love you and it pains me to see you with him and you demand I stay with you for your own means. You need to get over yourself and realize that I am needed by other people besides you. You think toying with my emotions is fun? You think that those tears are making me feel wonderful? No, they aren't. But this needs to be done."

"No."

"Lily." He whispered and touched her cheek. "I'll be here when you really need me. But you won't for some time." He whispered in her ear. She gasped and eyes wide, her grip went slack and he stepped back before she could latch on again and disappeared.

She fell to the ground and slammed her fists on the ground. "Lily. Lily. Lily." James said as he gathered her in his arms, his eyes closed and his heart tore as each sob tore through him. Damn Snape for making her cry. But James held a new respect for Severus. He understood where he was coming from and he felt ashamed for his behavior and knew he deserved the fact that Severus wasn't going to forgive him and that he shouldn't expect it.

Severus remembered that day because it almost broke him. He didn't touch his wand for weeks because the temptation for apparating back to Lily and being her best friend to vent about the latest fight with James was too great. He couldn't handle anymore abuse to his heart. He needed to start over and fresh. He went to school and got his mastery in Potions and was recruited by Dumbledore to teach students, a supreme waste of his skills but he was hidden from Lily and that was what he wanted. He missed his realm of Altnas very much. He missed being able to take off his glamour. He was only able to disable it when he was in the presence of Tom Riddle. Tom very much liked to see what Severus looked like and loved to make Bellatrix jealous with Severus' eternal beauty. Tom also missed the realm but he was banished by Lily because of lies fed by Dumbledore.

Dumbledore concocted this whole plan that would eradicate Tom Riddle from the Wizarding World. It was completely ludicrous. Tom Riddle had followers as did Auror Shacklebolt, Arthur Weasely, the Minister of Magic and even Dumbledore himself. The Dark Lord's followers however seemed to be more inclined to commit crimes and were insane. Bellatrix being a fine example. But not all of his 'death eaters' were evil. The term, 'Death Eaters' were just a joke between Voldemort and Severus. But Dumbledore got a hold of the term and all hell broke loose.

When he was teaching, he was thoroughly disappointed in the fact that most of the students didn't even apply themselves. It was a disappointment.

He often complained that fact to his close friend, Lucius Malfoy. He often visited Severus at Hogwarts and he always brought Draco as a baby and then toddler and then a small child. He always had a soft spot for Draco because he was the most adorable child he had ever seen. And Draco always liked to be held by Un'le Sev'rus.

Lucius always smirked when he spoke of that horrid Granger. He knew that his friend has a deep respect and liking for the muggleborn.

And although Severus would never admit it, he did have a soft spot for Hermione Granger. She had such a genuine love for books and learning that was so akin to his own and she was really pretty underneath all of those curls. Most boys thought she was very plain looking and that was the reason that they were still considered boys in Severus' books. Boys never understand the true value of a woman as Miss Granger. She had a poise that was so natural it made him watch her move. And then at that dance that the student's attended, he thought he was going to have a heart attack. She wore a short red dress with red pumps and had her hair up and he stopped breathing when he saw her. Lucius had to elbow him and told him to stop being so obvious that he was so in love with Granger.

Severus promptly denied it.

Lucius snickered. He then saw that Weasel try and muscle Hermione into dancing with him. Ha, he wouldn't call what that hormonal boy doing on the dance floor could even begin to be considered dancing. More like clothed sex. And Lavender Brown was too happy to comply. That girl has the mental capacity of a pebble. It's a disgrace. Anyway, Draco stood up for Hermione and smiled charmingly and said something that made her look over in Severus' area and his heartbeat increased but nothing showed on his face of course other than a sneer.

She blushed and then looked down and Draco danced with her while chatting with her and made her blush the color to match her dress. He smirked at her and bounded over to Severus.

"Why hello, Uncle Severus."

"Impertinent brat. I told you not to call me that in public." He hissed.

"I ignored you. Father said…" Lucius' hand covered Draco's mouth stopping the verbal vomit. Lucius looked sternly at his son and then smiled slightly at his closest friend.

"You spoil that boy, Lucius." Severus sniffed. Lucius pushed Draco into the crowd.

"Mingle, Draconis. You have caused me more trouble than you're worth." Draco smirked at his father.

"Then my day is now complete." Lucius sighed. Then he smiled.

"Yes, I know he's a pain in the royal arse sometimes. But he's the only one I have and I wouldn't trade him for anything."

"Neither would I, Lucius. I was only joking. I love Draco as if he was family. You did a fabulous job raising him." Lucius smiled at his friend and then looked away.

"It's hard sometimes."

"Yes, but you're strong. I believe that you and Draco will be just fine." Lucius nodded reluctantly.

"OH, UNCLE SEVERUS!" someone screamed at the top of his lungs. Severus dropped his teacup as he flew around and pointed his wand at his godson.

"Draconis Abraxas Malfoy. I swear to Merlin himself, that one of these times I will kill you when you scream at me one of these times." He purred slowly, causing a smirk to appear on Draco's face.

"But you love me. You wouldn't do that." He said cheekily.

"You try the patience of a saint. Don't test the strength of my patience."

"Yes, Uncle Severus. Hey, wanna meet someone? She's special!" He buttered her up. He waved her in. And then his jaw dropped. And he closed it before she saw him.

In front of him was a breathtaking Hermione. Her hair was straightened and she wore a beautiful summer dress that looked amazing on her. The bright pink really brought out her lips and her pale complexion.

"Meet Hermione Malfoy, my adopted sister." He dropped the bombshell on Severus, leaving him shell shocked. He slid his gaze over her body which was outlined in the breathtaking dress. His gaze fell over her like a mental caress which made her blush. He smirked and she blushed some more.

Draco watched the interaction. Hmm, he could make life a whole lot more interesting. Oh goodie, he mentally cheered, rubbing his hands together.

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