My writing is still kinda blocked but I was apparently hit with inspiration for this. For this chapter at least…

Roxas swore Axel's influence was rubbing off on him…

If it wasn't that, it was definitely Axel's perverted remarks on Sora when the red-head decided to visit their culture festival.

"Ooohoho Sora! I wonder how many people is gonna go home and jerk off to you tonight!"

Of course, said-perverted remark flew right over Sora's head while the rest of class jaw-dropped.

"What does jerk off mean?"

Well Roxas went straight over to kick his friend in the shin before Axel could even laugh or answer but it sure didn't really change the effect of things.

Well point being…ever since that moment, Roxas couldn't get it out of his head: how sexy and erotic it really was…

Maid outfit…on Sora…

"Let me serve you, Master…"

He's officially blaming Axel for him having wet dreams…even now a whole month after the culture festival…

It was clearly autumn now as the air became chilly and Roxas was forced to watch Riku and Sora huddle together more...jeez, everything is so irritating now! Well more irritating than before at least…

The blonde sighed at the thought that time really was passing…and he was still madly in love with Sora. Said-boy, of course, was just being more lovey-dovey with Riku. It was times like these that Roxas couldn't help but ask himself:

"HOW THE HELL DOES SORA NOT NOTICE THE OBVIOUS AFFECTIONS I HAVE FOR HIM?"

Of course, if Sora did notice, then it doesn't make Sora himself does it? Though that doesn't stop Roxas from wanting to pull his hair out at the frustration of this! Cloud is even picking on him for getting stressed at an early age and thus will lose his hair faster than Cloud would…

Speaking of the man, the chocobo-boy made up with his lion and they're back in the apartment together…once again leaving Roxas alone at home with the parents.

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"Roxas! Roxas!"

The blonde flushed upon hearing his name called with such glee that he couldn't even bring himself to turn around to Sora who was running up to him in the middle of all the desks during their lunch period.

"Roxas!" Sora repeated and then waited for Roxas to actually turn to face him.

"Erm…y-yes?" Roxas responded as casually as possible before he slowly turned and tried to put on the most normal expression you can.

"Are you okay? You look like you just upchucked something."

Of course when you TRY to make a certain expression it never turns out the way you want to…

"N-No, I'm fine…it's nothing!" Roxas tried to wave it off while fanning himself at the same time to cool himself down.

"Well if you say so…anyway!" Sora lifted up a magazine, showing a particular page of an amusement park, "Look! It's Magical World! Have you been there before, Roxy?"

"Holy shit he called me Roxy…I could die happy now."

"Y-Yeah…" Roxas somehow got out instead of his inner thoughts, "When I was really little though."

"Hey me too! So I was wondering…do you wanna go sometime? Maybe right before winter break?" Sora asked with a little bounce.

"Yes!" the blonde nearly blurted out a bit too fast that it made even Sora blink in slight confusion, "W-Well I'd love to!"

"That's great! I'll get back to you with more info! You can bring your friends too if you want! It's just you, me, Riku, Kairi, and Naminé so far."

And the poor blonde's heart sank. Although he scolded himself for even getting his hopes up at all…

"I'm an idiot! Why would he invite me unless it was a group trip?"

"Um, sure, thank you so much for the invite!"

"No problem, Roxy!" Sora flashed his famous smile before he turned heels and happily skipped away.

Roxas's right leg went numb and he practically fell over if his hands didn't catch himself with the help of the desks.

Roxas did ask his group of friends, as he couldn't bring himself to be 'alone' with Sora and the boy's friends that Roxas barely knows. Although only Olette and Pence had agreed to come along. Hayner said something about a commitment he had to do but Roxas still thought the guy just didn't want to be caught going to a place called "Magical World."

Of course, bringing two groups of friends together is always a bit awkward at first but thank goodness they all go to the same school at least so it wasn't totally bad the day they met up at the entrance to the amusement park. Not to Roxas at least as he thanked the lord when he arrived and after the initial greetings were done.

"So…where's Riku?" Olette nudged him for that, but Roxas HAD to know why the boy's boyfriend wasn't even here with them.

"Oh Riku caught a cold last night...I feel awful actually but he keeps insisting that we go and have fun today. But I'll definitely bring back a nice souvenir for him!"

Hallelujah! If Roxas could express the little party going on inside his head right now, he'd do it.

"Come on! Let's go on that rollercoaster!"

That suggestion knocked Roxas out of his trance but his heart leapt out of his chest and back in again when he felt the brunette's hand take his pale wrist to pull him along…

And that's just how it went. When the group paired themselves off, Roxas got to be with Sora. Ah, nothing like screaming your head off on a rollercoaster ride with that special someone next to you…even if you're both screaming for completely different reasons.

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"Ugh…"

"Aw Roxas, you feeling alright?" Sora cooed as the blonde sat on a bench, trying to keep his head from spinning, "You should've said you don't do rollercoasters well!"

"I…ngh…thought I did…"

"Do you need anything at all, Roxas?" Olette asked in worry but Roxas just shook his head as best he could without throwing up.

"I guess ice cream is out of the question," said Pence who approached with sea salt ice cream in hand. Roxas found himself gagging at his favorite treat.

"Guess so…hey, you guys go on ahead. I'll stay with Roxas until he feels better!" Sora suggested as he rubbing Roxas's back in comfort.

"But Sora, we're supposed to go on The Gimmick next, and you've been waiting to go on that forever," Kairi reminded,

"It's okay!" Sora flashed his smile in reassurance, "Maybe we can squeeze it in at the end if anyone wants to ride with me!"

"If you're sure, Sora. You know we wouldn't mind waiting with you though."

"P-Please…don't hold up on…oh god…ugh…my account…" Roxas got out as he took in deep breaths. A part of him couldn't believe his good luck! But another part of him felt bad for holding Sora up…he also really hoped he doesn't end up puking.

In the end, the group did part without Sora and Roxas but it really did look like Sora didn't mind. Roxas will admit that if he was him, he probably wouldn't stay behind for just anybody. But with Sora, well, Sora probably would for just anybody! It's because of that that Roxas will never be able to measure just how high he is on Sora's scale of people he likes…

"Feeling better, Roxy?" Sora asked after he saw how much better Roxas was looking.

"If you keep saying that I will…"

"Yeah…better…thank you."

"Thank Naminé for having some motion sickness medicine on her!" said Sora holding said-medicine up, "Can you stand?"

"Maybe…"

Hooking the blonde's arm around him, Sora helped his friend up into a stand. After a pause, they both saw Roxas was able to hold his own so Sora let go, much to Roxas's disappointment.

"Come on! Let's go catch up to the others!"

Once again adding to blonde's good luck, they didn't go directly to the rest of their friends. On the way, they took a ride on other less-nauseous rides and then played some games.

Without really trying to actually win anything, Roxas won himself a new Struggles Bat and a penguin plush.

"You're good at everything, Roxas!" Sora complimented when the man handed the blonde said-penguin.

"Nah, I'm not really," he replied with a shrug. After all, he was so good at everything he may not even be in this current situation of having his feelings go so unnoticed. With a glance between Sora and the item in his hand, he hesitantly handed the penguin to Sora, "Do you want it?"

"Oh…if that's okay! Thank you!" Sora took the doll and hugged it close as if it was a new puppy. The sight of it could melt the blonde in this spot and it internally did. They continued their journey through the park together and finding time to buy snacks like a big pink cloud of cotton candy that they shared. Much to Roxas's dismay, they finally found the others in a line.

"Aww how cute, will that penguin join your other dolls in your bed, Sora?" Kairi lightly teased and Sora pouted.

"They're not dolls! They're toys and plushes that I collect! I don't sleep with them anymore! And this one will be called Firecracker! Hmph!"

That poor blonde now knows he will never find another man like Sora…no one else could ever admit such a thing out loud.

"Anyway, so what are we waiting on?" Roxas asked the moment they had to move up.

"The Ferris wheel, duh!" Olette pointed in the direction their line was moving towards.

"Awesome!" was Sora's quick comment on that although Roxas's stomach suddenly didn't feel well. The line didn't even take that long and before he knew it, Kairi and Naminé entered a cart together…then Pence and Olette…and finally…

"Come on, what are you standing there for?" the brunette asked as he gently tugged Roxas so they could get in. The poor blonde was practically stiff upon sitting down. Here he was…in an enclosed space no bigger than a closet with Sora…on a Ferris wheel of all things. That was probably the real cause of his motion sickness on the first ride. He was less than a foot away from Sora when they sat together…not that this cart was that much better…

"Hey…Roxas, you okay?" Sora asked when he looked away from the view to see Roxas staring down at the ground with a bit of heavy breathing.

"Uh y-yeah! I'm…okay…" Roxas nodded and swallowed,

"Are you afraid of heights?"

"Erm…y-yeah! That's it…"

"Yeah we'll go with that…"

"Aww Roxas it's alright!" Sora slowly moved himself from the other side to being beside the blonde in comfort, "Just don't think about it and don't look outside!"

"Oh god! This is worse!"

Silence followed between them as Sora looked out to enjoy the view while Roxas stared at his feet.

"We're almost at the top!"

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"Hayner's such a jerk for not coming," Olette complained with a sigh as she and Roxas took the train home that day.

"Why's that?" Roxas asked as he doodled in his notebook that involved his and Sora's name as well as hearts.

"I just…I wanted to go on the Ferris wheel with him…"

"Why, not the love tunnel?" Roxas teased only to get a small smack from the tomboy.

"You know that's the last place Hayner would go into!"

"Why the giant wheel then?"

"Well you know…it's the closest thing to a romantic ride that isn't totally obvious. I know it'll never happen, but you know people kiss at the very top."

The tip of the pencil almost broke upon that news,

"Really?"

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Roxas wanted to bang his head on something. He hated that he knew if Riku was here…that's exactly what Sora and his boyfriend would do…kiss at the top.

"I wish Riku was here…"

"…"

"Ah, I still need to get something for him!"

A little announcement was made from the little speaker attached to the ceiling of the cart that they have reached the tippy top.

"Sora."

"Hmm?"

He could feel those bright blue eyes on him without even glancing up.

"How much…do you like Riku?"

"A lot! He's been my best friend since forever! And we…we've been through a lot together…"

Well Roxas couldn't deny that. Despite he knew Sora almost just as long as Riku did, they were never really close as they only saw each other if Leon and Cloud had to babysit them and they had plans together.

"Would it have been different if…?" Roxas stopped himself. He finally had the courage to look up into those pure eyes but he couldn't bring himself to continue.

"If what?"

"If we were best friends instead…"

"N-Nothing…I just…I was thinking out loud, I'm sorry."

"Roxas…"

Right there, he felt their close proximity. This was his chance! Possibly his only chance! The one chance to ever be this close to him again, the one chance to feel those soft and warm lips that's practically begging to be kissed…

"Sora…"

He will never understand it; how Sora and Riku could look at each other in the eyes with more passion and intensity than what he and Sora share right now.

"I…" the words became stuck in his throat and his actions froze over.

"What's wrong?" Sora asked with concern.

"…I can't do it."

"I'm…feeling kind of ill…I think I'll sit out of rides for the rest of the day."

"Oh…what's the matter?"

"My inside feel like it's being churned up that's what…"

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"Are you getting a cold too, Roxas?" Naminé asked as she felt the blonde's forehead after everybody was off.

"Maybe…I can walk though," he said as he gently pulled the hand away. This whole trip was a bad idea…maybe being stuck with Sora the whole day was just the universe's way of telling him that he and Sora will just never happen…

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